InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bittersweet Confessions ❯ Prologue ( Chapter 1 )

Bittersweet Confessions

 

by: RisuBento

 

Summary:

Life really isn't what it seems to be. Inuyasha's reality was beginning to close in on him when he meets a mysterious older woman. Who is she? And why is she carrying a potato peeler in her purse?

It hurt.

The pain throbbing throughout his head was so painful. He clutched his head in agony as a dull throb racked his brain again. His eyelids were fluttering in pain. Even a little flicker caused a raucous of stabbing behind his eyes.

Hissing between his teeth he, with difficulty, swallowed down with an agonizing groan.

He used too much this time. He knew it. He shouldn't have used that much at once. He should've taken it in small doses…but he was too angry to care. He was too stupid to know how much damage he was doing to himself… Actually…he hadn't cared.

He wanted to forget everything. He wanted to pretend that nothing existed but him and the liquid fire he injected into his veins. She wouldn't have cared…she'd never cared…even from the beginning. She only wanted his body…his money…she didn't want 'him'. She never accepted him. Not once. Not for who he was.

She was the one who drove him to do this. To kill himself slowly. She was the one who drove him to the edge. Drove him to think she loved him. Drove him to love her.

A fool.

What a fool he was.

And now he was dying. He could feel it. Creeping closer and closer…the blackness was eating away at his very life. The coldness was reaching his arms now…unable to move. Now his throat. It was hard to breathe. He couldn't hear anything. He couldn't see.

He fully greeted the impending darkness that engulfed him completely.

 

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Beep…

Beep…

Beep…

Beep…

'The hell's with the fuckin' beeping? It's fucking killing my head!'

"…lucky, Mrs. Kagiyama."

'Lucky? Who's lucky?'

"…if you hadn't found him when you did…he would've been incurable…"

'In other words…"Dead." Where the hell am I?'

His eyes shot open, only to be greeted with the familiarity of the constant stabbing behind his eyes.

"Inuyasha!" Came a worried gasp. The said boy cracked an eye open and grimaced.

"Ma? Where the fuck am I?" He growled, trying to sit up.

"Language, Inu-chan…oh I'm so happy you're all right." Izayoi smiled sadly, taking her son's hand in hers.

"What? Why're you acting so weird? You drunk or something?" Inuyasha grumbled, allowing his mother to push him back down onto the bed.

"No…Inuyasha? Do you…remember anything?" Izayoi asked her son.

Inuyasha fully opened his eyes and looked around the room.

'Everything's so white…am I…'

"Am I dead?" He asked, looking up at his tired looking mother.

Izayoi sighed and gripped his hand with both of hers. "Inuyasha…you had a dangerous drug overdose."

'Oh…that's right. Fuck. What am I still alive for? Dammit…I must be in the hospital…'

He slumped against the hospital bed and draped an arm across his eyes. Inhaling deeply, he nearly gagged at the smell of medicines, body fluids and death smacking him directly in the face.

He felt his mother remove her hands from his, followed by the sound of a chair scraping across the floor. He could smell the worry, the dried tears, and anger on his mother.

'God…I must've given her hell…'

"Inuyasha?" Came her quiet voice.

Lifting the arm from his tired eyes, he shifted so he lay on his side facing his mother. She looked so tired. Her eyes had dark circles beneath them-proving she hadn't slept for a long while. Her usually full of life brown eyes were dull and glossy; full of unshed tears.

She pursed her lips, opening and closing her mouth; wanting to say something, but wasn't to form it into words.

"…Why?" Was all she could get out, her voice cracking.

'Shit…why? I'll tell you why…'

"…Because I…" 'Why DID I do it? Oh wait…Kikyou…'

He was about to answer her but was cut off with a wave of her hand.

"Never mind why…I'm disgusted that you would actually turn to something like that. Why couldn't you have told me? Come talk to me and work things through? Instead, you pine away with drugs over some girl I've never even heard of!" Izayoi said, her anger quite evident in her shaking voice.

Inuyasha closed his eyes. "How…" His voice cracked in his exhaustion. Swallowing and clearing his throat he tried again. "How'd you find out…about her?"

Izayoi bowed her head down and a look of guilt washed over her face. "I was…doing your laundry the other day…and I found-"

'FUCK! Not the receipt!' Inuyasha panicked.

"-a receipt…for a pregnancy test." Izayoi finished quietly, her voice laden with thick unshed tears.

'Shit Shit SHIT! How could I have been so stupid!'

The room was quiet for a moment. He didn't know what to say. What 'could' he say? 'Mind your own bees wax mom' seemed entirely out of the question. So…what was there to say?

Izayoi looked up at her tired son and once again took his hand in hers. "Why didn't you ever tell me that you had a girlfriend?"

Inuyasha lazily shrugged the one shoulder he wasn't laying on. "Didn't think it was important."

Izayoi looked at her son with glossier eyes. She bit her lips and willed the tears back…just for a little longer.

"When…when did she find out she was pregnant?" She said, her voice barely a whisper.

"Mom…" Inuyasha said, pushing himself up so he sat back against the beg rest.

"I'm very disappointed in you Inuyasha." His mother admitted quite bluntly.

'JUST disappointed! Wow…I thought she'd be pissed!'

"Mom…I was…going to marry her if she was pregnant." I admitted.

"Marry? Inuyasha! You're only 18! You've never been able to hold a job much less get one! Did you honestly think you would've been able to support not only yourself but two others as well?" Izayoi snapped, standing up and pacing around.

Inuyasha swallowed and closed his eyes; pinching the bridge of his nose and willing the forming migraine away.

"Mom…she IS pregnant. But…it's not mine." He said, the anger suddenly coming back full force.

Izayoi didn't say anything for a while. She just continued to slowly pace around the room. "Then why did you tryto kill yourself?" She hissed, the anger in her words making me flinch.

Again…what could he say? 'She said she never loved me…she said that I was a good fuck but she didn't want commitment'? Hell no.

So he shrugged. "Dunno…"

Izayoi let out a frustrated sound. "Inuyasha…I've reached my limit. I can't take anymore of this."

'Limit? Can't take anymore of this? What the hell is she talking about?' He questioned, suddenly growing fearful of what she was going to say.

"I'm calling the doctor tomorrow to set up an appointment with a psychiatrist-"

"NO!" He yelled, growing angry.

"-don't you dare yell at me! I'm only doing what I think is best!" She yelled back, her fists clenching at her sides.

"God dammit mom! I'm not going to some fucking shrink who's going to tell me that I'm insane! All of the other one's did!" He yelled, gripping the hospital bed's sidebars so tightly he was crushing them in his fists.

"Inuyasha! I'm not trying to hurt you! I'm trying to make you better! I want you to be a better person! Is it so hard for you to understand that I'm terrified of losing you!" She yelled, tears starting to fall.

"I don't give a fuck! Just stay out of my fucking life! I don't need you snooping around and trying to fix my life! I hate you! Get the fuck out of my life!" He snarled, his voice booming down the hospital hallway, albeit the door being closed.

Izayoi could only stare at her son with wide, tear filled eyes. She was shocked.

Hell…he was shocked! He'd never spoken to his mother like that in his entire life.

'What the hell is wrong with me…?'

He bowed his head down; not being able to look at his mother's hurt filled eyes. The tension in the room was beginning to choke him it was so thick. When his mother shift to the chair next to the bed and shouldered her purse, he looked up when her hand reached forward.

He pulled away.

She stifled a sob and dropped her hand back to her side.

"I've tried…Inuyasha…I've tried to give you a life without worry. Without sadness. But I guess I failed…" She said quietly. He was surprised at how calm she sounded. She continued moments later with a now trembling voice. "But I'll leave you alone…if that's what you truly want. Just remember Inuyasha…that I'll always love you."

Inuyasha felt a lump form in his throat as well as an unfamiliar burning in his eyes.

He didn't flinch when she reached forward and tweaked an ear. Or when she kissed his temple. He didn't even look up when she hurried from the room.

He only fell back onto the bed, the covers pulled tightly over his head. He cried. For the first time in his entire life, from what he could recall, he cried and cried until he fell asleep.

He'd never felt so alone.

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There you have it. The prologue. Yeah, yeah… I know what you're all thinking…I should be updating my other stories right? Right. Well…blame it on the brain farts…

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