InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Blue ❯ Chapter 12 ( Chapter 12 )

 

Disclaimer: No I do NOT own Inuyasha…trust me I would be doing something with my life if I did…

 

 

A.N. I hope that you guys like it-and THIS IS NOT AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE!!

 

 

Blue

 

 

Chapter 12: To Lose Everything…

 

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Inuyasha stared down at the floor beneath his feet, his eyes wide in disbelief.

 

The crowd had long since gone, Shiho had been plucked off his shoulders by a solemn Shippo, and Kagome had once again—unknowingly—walked out of his life.

 

He had thought the whole ordeal to be an illusion, a fake face placed on a doll of a body by his desperate mind seeking to once again find the one that filled his heart with warmth.

 

But it wasn't an illusion.

 

That wasn't anything like Kikyou.

 

The thought of Kagome resembling Kikyou in any way made Inuyasha's gut tighten in disgust.

 

Kagome was nothing like Kikyou.

 

She wasn't cold, she didn't betray, and she always thought of the best for others.

 

Even if it meant her happiness.

 

But Kagome was real; Inuyasha had seen her, so much unlike how she looked before.

 

The young body he had etched into his mind as a pup was now one of a woman--a fully matured one at that.

 

It was more than a mere case of hallucination, this was real.

 

She was real.

 

Flesh and blood.

 

Thoughts flew through his troubled mind at breakneck speeds, making his head hurt, his concentration on the situation waver, and his heart to pound painfully in his chest.

 

He would not let her go unbeknownst to walk out of his life.

 

He would find her, and this time he would not make the same mistake again.

 

He would not let her frail soul slip through his fingers like sand this time.

 

Inuyasha's concealment spell wavered at the intensity of the thoughts and emotions plaguing his body.

 

Shippo, Shiho, and Akina stood off to the side of him, watching with eyes full of pity.

 

It made him sick.

 

He did not want their pity.

 

Inuyasha gripped the railing he had been gripping since Kagome had walked off the stage more tightly. His knuckles turned white at the pressure he was straining on them.

 

Inuyasha suddenly stood up straight, his eyes shadowed from the world behind a veil of raven tresses.

 

The most troubling thought flowing through Inuyasha's head, though, was what Kagome had done before she had disappeared completely from his frantic state of mind and body.

 

She had looked back. Almost as if she had heard him.

 

Her eyebrow had drawn together only slightly, the only indication of her confusion being noticed from the slight crease dancing along her forehead.

 

Inuyasha had seen that look on her face many times in the past.

 

He knew what sort of thoughts were flying through her head as the look danced across her face.

 

Then she left.

 

It looked as if she were debating something, almost as if she was going to figure out who had yelled her name before some unknown person had ushered her on impatiently. The sight of the man made a growl boil in Inuyasha's chest.

 

Kagome was so close, she was so close to figuring out he was here before some man came along and ruined everything.

 

Inuyasha had been crushed.

 

It had felt as if every bone in his body was suddenly too much to support him as his emotions weighed heavily on his spirit.

 

He had slumped against the railing, making Shippo grab Shiho from his shoulders as fast as he could once he realized what Inuyasha was doing. That was also the time Akina and Shiho noticed something was terribly wrong with their uncle. They had kept silent, though, knowing that there was nothing they could do for him.

 

He had been so close.

 

So damn close!

 

She was just in his reach, and he let her slip away.

 

And that's where Inuyasha landed himself now.

 

Standing in the emptying auditorium Kagome had just used to entertain thousands of people.

 

Security guards slowly began to come into the concert hall, ushering all people still lingering in the area to leave.

 

Inuyasha looked at the men through his bangs. His eyes glittered dangerously as he turned on his heel, walking out of the place before the men got a chance to get to him, hearing the following footsteps of Akina, Shippo, and Shiho.

 

He walked briskly to his Aveo, popping his keys into the door and swinging it open.

 

Inuyasha sat down in the driver's seat, starting up the engine and waiting for Shiho and Akina to get into the car. They did not disappoint him as moments later they slid into the car.

 

Inuyasha put the Aveo into reverse, driving out of the parking lot with a small smirk forming at the corners of his lips.

 

He would get Kagome.

 

She would be in his arms again.

 

His only problem: figuring out how to get her.

 

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Kagome stared out of the tinted window of the limo. The concert was over, and her plain white mask was over her face,

 

Sachiko sat beside her, going on and on about how great her concert was while Ron sat across from her.

 

Kagome watched the scenery pass by, wondering momentarily why she was so down in the dumps all of a sudden. Her head was lying lazily in her palm as her elbow supported her by digging into the arm rest.

 

It had happened around the time that she thought she had heard someone calling her name.

 

She had wanted to at least get a face with the person who had called out her name to either figure out how they knew her or to learn that they were a friend she hadn't seen in years.

 

Guiltily she admitted to herself that she would rather it be a stranger who learned her name.

 

It wasn't like she didn't like her old friends, she did—really. She just couldn't stand them. Kagome, throughout her last years of high school, secluded herself and tried to take the trio in small quantities.

 

She still, to this day, could not stand their prying, pushing, and nosiness towards her life.

 

Only a selected few were given that opportunity.

 

And her heart had already been crushed once, why would she just hand it out a second time.

 

Kagome huffed as her thoughts turned down a darker road, her cheeks blowing out with the action. The puff of air fogged the window, and the woman watched absently as it slowly shrank itself into nonexistence.

 

Sachiko continued to talk animatedly besides her, going on about how great the concert was and how she really liked it while Ron just laughed and nodded his head when he felt she wanted a response.

 

Kagome just smiled.

 

She really wasn't in the mood for happiness.

 

She didn't know why either. It wasn't typical of her to just isolate herself so much, but she guessed she could only take so much of life before the troubles in the closet slowly began to seep through the cracks.

 

The ride to the hotel was a silent one on Kagome's behalf.

 

She just let Sachiko talk, knowing that she would talk for her mother also.

 

When they finally reached the hotel the sky was to the darkest point in the evening.

 

The chauffeur walked around to the back of the limo, holding the door open for Sachiko and Ron.

 

Kagome stayed in a little while, watching Sachiko tug at Ron's hand as they made their way into the lobby, zoning out as new troubles and thoughts ran through her head.

 

A man popped his head in the opening to the door, an innocent questioning look on his face. “Ms. Blue,” he stated very professionally, the question evident in his tone. “Are you coming?”

 

Kagome smiled at the man. “Oh yes, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to keep you waiting.”

 

The man suddenly smiled, showing Kagome his pearly whites.

 

“It's not a problem Ms. Blue,” he said nicely.

 

Kagome smile one last time before sliding across the leather seats and stepping into the slightly damp streets.

 

She waved goodbye to the boy briefly before turning her back to the man and heading towards her room.

 

As she walked through the beautiful lobby of the hotel, Kagome looked around, taking in for the first time how extravagant the building really was.

 

She smiled at the lady behind the receptionist's desk, saying a kind hello without stopping on her mission to the elevators.

 

When she finally reached the grand elevators she pushed the up button, watching as it glowed a fiery red.

 

The elevator dinged before letting her in. The ride to her floor was uneventful with the droning sounds of elevator music playing in one of her ears and out the next.

 

She breathed a sigh of relief as the elevator dinged and the doors glided open.

 

Kagome practically ran to her room, trying to get the annoying music out of her head in vain.

 

She felt a tick in her eye at the irritation of the whole thing.

 

Kagome sighed, falling back into her melancholy mood before sliding the keycard into the hotel door lock, watching for the green light and opening the door quickly as it gave her the signal.

 

The adult's leg was immediately attacked by a very hyper Sachiko.

 

Looking down at her baby girl, Kagome smiled before bending down and picking her up and into her arms.

 

“Sachiko why don't I tuck you in for bed?” she asked the little girl.

 

Sachiko whined. “But Okaasan!” she started, “Im not ti--” Sachiko was cut off by her own yawn, pouting as her own body thwarted her ideas of not going to bed.

 

“Well,” she admitted grudgingly, her cute pout face on, “now that you go and mention it.”

 

Kagome laughed, already beginning her way towards Sachiko's temporary room as she made the loud yawn, giving Ron a brief grunt as she passed him from where he sat staring at the television on the couch.

 

When she reached the dark room Kagome left the door open, letting the light from the other room guide her to the bed in the center of the room. She walked quickly over to it, setting Sachiko delicately in. Sachiko burrowed herself into the large comforter.

 

“Night Okaasan,” she whispered into the darkness at her mother's silhouetted figure.

 

Kagome leaned over to her daughter, giving her a quick kiss on the forehead before slipping the necklace concealing her image from the world off her head. Sachiko's ears suddenly appeared, drooping slightly in her tiredness.

 

“Goodnight sweetheart,” she replied.

 

Sachiko smiled a content smile before snuggling further down in the blankets she was resting in.

 

Kagome stared at the child, a soft smile on her face.

 

It always did amaze her how Sachiko could be so innocent and cute.

 

Kagome walked out of the room silently, closing the door behind her, leaving a small crack between the wood and the frame so light would filter through the dark place.

 

She walked out from the hallway, deciding that she wanted some fresh air to clear her mind.

 

Kagome walked past Ron, mumbling that she was going out and she wanted him to watch Sachiko should she awaken.

 

Without another word Kagome walked out of the hotel room, slipping her mask off her face once she checked to make sure no one was in the hallway. She went through the whole process of going down the elevators and out of the lobby, smiling at the receptionist again before leaving the Tasho Hotels completely.

 

Kagome was so wrapped up in her thoughts that she failed to notice the slight frown from the receptionist as she walked away, her eyebrows furrowed in confusion or the way she picked up the telephone to call someone unknown to her.

 

The night's crisp air was a refreshing feeling to Kagome.

 

She walked silently along the not so crowded sidewalks, looking at her feet for guidance.

 

She was immensely surprised when she found herself standing on the outskirts of the park she and Sachiko had visited almost a month ago.

 

Kagome mentally thought of how time flew by quickly for a second before her mind turned back down the depressing road of the past.

 

A wave of hurt and betrayal filled her heart to the brink of shattering.

 

How stupid she was then.

 

The thought brought a sadistic smirk to her face.

 

She was not the same stupid little girl she used to be.

 

Her eyes were forcefully pried open by the harsh truth of life and she saw the world for what it truly was.

 

A joke.

 

Her whole life was a joke.

 

Kagome walked to a bench, sitting on the wood with a sigh.

 

The park was dark; the moon was refusing to show its face to the world by a veil of clouds, the only sign that it was even out indicated by the slight brightness to the floating fog.

 

Kagome looked up at the sky, folding her arms across her chest.

 

A pang echoed through her heart at the sight of one star peeking out of the clouds, the city hiding the true beauty of the sky.

 

The sight reminded her too much of the past blissful unawareness she harnessed, never opening her eyes to the real truth of the world she was just a player in.

 

But even then, the star peeking out through everything was just a planet.

 

Jupiter.

 

Kagome laughed to herself.

 

She wasn't a planet, and for that she was happy.

 

She was happy that she was no longer living with her eyes closed.

 

Tears sprang to Kagome's eyes, making her curse her emotions and weakness to show them.

 

She hated her emotions.

 

She hated the lies that flew around her head.

 

Most of all, she hated the way she wasn't a planet.

 

She was weak and couldn't prevail.

 

She kept losing everything.

 

While gaining nothing.

 

She was the definition of failure.

 

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A.N. Sooo…I hope that you guys liked it! ^_^ I love ya'll! Please do review, and see because of all your wonderful reviews I decide that I would post this chapter today instead on next week! See! They do make me inspired! Please review! Kiss Kiss! (My plot forming m&m's are showing themselves! Bwaha!) I'm also working on another super cool story; I'll tell ya'll when it's out. Oh! And I have a beta now!! Hurray!