InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Born to Make You Happy ❯ Is That Regret? ( Chapter 8 )

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Chapter 8 - Is that Regret?

Kagome slowly woke up to the sound of leaves rustling overhead in the slight breeze. The moon above was pale and waning, nearly gone. She blinked, then attempted to stretch, but something stopped her. Looking down, she found The Something still trapped between her thighs. Then she looked up into the face of The Something's possessor.

If Kagome had never seen a smug smile, this was it. And the damn hanyou wasn't even awake to be aware of it. Blushing furiously, Kagome attempted to squirm out from beneath Inuyasha, but he sure as hell wasn't moving. It was like suddenly he weighed a ton, and then some. To top it off, his strong, lean, and sexy-as-hell-when-naked arms were wrapped tightly around her torso, fencing her in.

Taking the opportunity, she gazed over the body of her hanyou. He still glistened with a light sweat. A hard earned sweat, she thought with a timid smile. She winced as she flexed her legs. Very hard earned. Making a mental note to hurt him when he woke up (and got off her), she returned to her silent admiration.

For some strange reason, his entire body was tanned. Not ugly tanned, like the orange tan that so many girls got with paid money in the future. And it wasn't a hard-baked finished either. It was like a light gold shimmer, as though his body had a glittery spotlight on every single cell. Kagome produced a jealous pout. Why couldn't she get a tan like that? Not to mention the muscles...

It couldn't be denied that Inuyasha was a warrior, and to be a warrior, one needed a very muscular body. But that wasn't Inuyasha. He had not an ounce of fat on him, nor were there any muscles that looked full to burst with veins popping out. That was icky. No, Inuyasha was, quite literally, perfect. She'd rarely ever seen him beautifully disheveled....except for now.

At the moment, his silvery hair was flowing over his back, his arms, her arms. But his head was resting against her neck, placed protectively near the spot where he'd marked her as his own. The smug smile on his face still held an innocent curve of the lip, in pure happiness. Kagome smiled, glad that she could be the one to bring him such joy. She let out a deep contented sigh, and at the rise and fall of her chest, Inuyasha woke up.

But he wasn't going to let her know that he was awake. Oh no. He was going to lie there, on top of her, with her....IN HER?! Oh Kami .... he forgot about that little part there.... haha, little.... he almost chuckled to himself with male satisfaction. But he managed to hold it in, if only it meant being able to stay with Kagome like this a while longer.

But, sadly, good things can never last long, unless you're super duper lucky. And at the moment, Inuyasha wasn't lucky. Because at the feel of her fingers, which were now absently stroking his back, leaving him in shivers, he became greatly aroused. And, considering their position, this would be going downhill pretty fast.

Kagome stiffened, feeling him moving within her somehow. She glared accusingly down at the hanyou and blushed. She knew he was awake, after this many months, now becoming years with him, she knew when he was faking it.

"Inuyasha?" At her voice, he blushed as well. This was a compromising situation. They were both incredibly shy of each other at the moment, somewhat late after what was going on down below. Kagome saw him swallow forcefully.

"Nani?" he responded, not lifting his head from her shoulder. Bracing herself with a grimace, she pushed him up off her somewhat. This jostled their groins and Inuyasha let out a tiny whimper before meeting her gaze. His golden eyes were soft and pleading, and the blush was still on his cheeks, barely visible in the moonlight. He, quite simply, didn't want to face her at the moment.

She blinked rapidly, trying to read his expression. Surely that wasn't regret, or doubt.... was it? She tensed, praying to all gods that it wasn't. Closing her eyes briefly, she decided to be civil and talk about it. If either of them could face each other anyway. This was terribly embarrassing.

"Inuyasha, you're still....umm...." she trailed off, and made a vague motion below, "in there." That was lame.... He, in return, blinked, then gulped again as he prepared to pull out of her. And he couldn't help noticing, through all the embarrassment when he slid out, the mark on her neck. It brought a faint smile to his lips, and the smile made Kagome feel better.

Inuyasha remained crouching above her though, bravely studying her face. He tried not to meet her eyes as he brushed wispy strands of hair off her forehead. His touch tickled, and she giggled. He met her eyes then, and they both sighed. Then they both blushed again.

Kagome couldn't bear looking at him anymore, so she rolled over on her side, the chilly air hitting her back. Inuyasha growled lightly and flipped her over onto her other side, laying on his own so that they faced each other, a little more comfortable.

"So..." she began. He grinned into her face before timidly kissing her.

"So..." he replied when he pulled away. It had been a chaste kiss, but it made her less shy of being naked with him, even after what they'd done only an hour before. Maybe it was because of what they'd done, and the seriousness of it, that made her so frightened. What had they done?

She thought about what she should say, about how Inuyasha would react to most of what she might say. So she decided on the safe approach.

"Wow," she said in a whisper. "We just.... had sex didn't we...?" Inuyasha frowned.

"I'd prefer the term 'mating', myself. It sounds better." He flashed her a small smile. She nodded silently, still thinking. Inuyasha tried not to fidget. Was she regretting this? Kami, please say that isn't it....

"I think I need a bath..." Trying to ignore the hanyou being there, she reached down between her legs and squeaked. "Yup, I need a bath." And with that, she jumped off the log and hobbled precariously toward the hot spring. Inuyasha stared after her, a very confused look on the hanyou's face.

Miroku looked down at the taijiya with tears in his eyes. She'd said his name.... he stood there, her form slowly blurring before his unseeing eyes. Then he closed them and raised his head to the heavens, a tear leaking out and forming a trail down his cheek. He felt a finger wipe away the tear and once again looked into the face of his future. For that's what she was, and what he hopelessly wanted her to be.

Sango herself was crying freely, having totally let go once she'd spoken the one thing that she'd forbidden herself to speak. But she smiled, knowing that those times had been placed far behind her now. She continued to caress his cheek, as he'd caressed hers only moments before. Then she grinned impishly. If she was leaving things behind, why not do something that the former Sango wouldn't?

Miroku wondered what that adorable grin was until her face got very close and her eyes pierced the monk's, right before she pressed her lips firmly to his own. He blinked, then grinned against her lips, opening his mouth to delve deeper into the liplock. She happily obliged after only a moment's hesitation. Her arms slid slowly up his, then locked around his neck, clinging helplessly for fear of her legs failing her.

Finally, regretfully, she pulled away. Miroku's eyes crinkled at the corners with a smile before pecking her lips lightly once again and pulling her against his chest, letting her cry all of her tears, whether happy or sad. For now, no matter what, she would be his...

"Sango? I said earlier that I wanted to ask you a question, and I think I'm ready to now." She was still embracing him, her face hidden in his robes. Her hands tightened on the fabric in bunches, and her eyes widened. Oooooh Kami....

Sure enough, the monk pulled away and, taking her hand, dropped on bended knee. If possible, her eyes opened themselves further at the man kneeling on the ground before her. He smiled smugly at her reaction. He was still Miroku after all.

"Sango, my beautiful taijiya, I promised myself that I wouldn't ask you this unless you accepted me as your equal, or even lower than you. I couldn't bear the thought of you pushing me away with my own status..." He shook his head to ban the depressing thoughts from his mind. "But now, I know that you can see me as I am, without titles, without rank, simply me." He met her eyes dead on and smiled. "Sango, would you be my wife?"

Girl in question slowly closed her eyes, fighting back the second round of tears. To be married, to be tied to someone forever in love. To be accepted, and to have love in her life once again. It was a dream come true. And so was this man. Despite the fact that he flirted endlessly with other girls. Kagome had informed her earlier that it was to make her jealous, and it slightly made her feel better. Only slightly better, but it was a start.

Finding no words suitable for the task before her, she threw herself into his arms. He smiled against her hair as he rubbed her back in a soothing motion, at least, until his hands began to wander.

The slap that followed resonated through the forest and it left Miroku standing slightly tilted, and Sango staring at her hand. Biting she looked at the monk, who had turned a hurt expression on her. She attempted a small, watery smile.

"Old habits die hard."

Inuyasha watched the miko as she slid into the water, turning her back to him. He watched as she absently rubbed her hands over her body, washing away the lingering sweat and other, less pleasant, liquids. He watched as she sighed, sinking slowly deeper into the calming waters. And he continued to watch her, even as his eyes stung from not blinking.

What was she doing? Was she embarrassed, afraid, nervous, what?? Why didn't she say anything to him? Was this all one big gigantic mistake to her? He'd thought they were in love, and isn't this what couples in love did? Committed themselves to each other for the rest of eternity? He winced. Maybe she wasn't ready. Well, a little too late now smart-ass, he thought, looking at the mark on her neck again. It seemed like it was mocking him, laughing at him.

He let an uncharacteristic pout mar his face, his emotions showing for once. Why did everything in his life go wrong? First Kikyo, and that was something he never wanted to go through again. That hurt, that distrust, was simply unbearable. And now this.... was she rejecting him? Was she going to pretend like it didn't happen and go on with her life? Kami, he'd never mated with Kikyo, and she was demanding his soul for a love they'd thought was real.

Not that it hadn't been, in it's own way, love. Kagome just made him feel better about himself, and that's what made him go this far. Not because he simply wanted her body. He wasn't that heartless. It just seemed like the right thing to do at that moment, like a simple kiss couldn't display his feelings well enough. He needed something more to show how much he cared. He sighed for probably the millionth time. Help me Kagome .....talk to me, please .......

Said girl looked up at Inuyasha from her bathing. She was shocked to see his face, so open and sad, unguarded. Frantically, she wondered again if he was regretting this.... would mating Kikyo make him feel better? She frowned before smiling slightly again. No, that couldn't be it. He'd told her the truth, and she believed him. He loved her, not dead broads walking around trying to drag people into hell. She giggled slightly. At least she smelled better than a rotting corpse. With that happy thought, she sank lower in the water and gazed at the hanyou, now facing him.

His ears swivelled around at her giggle, barely catching it. But she had giggled. He looked up slowly, hope forming in his weary eyes. And then he almost jumped. She was staring at him, her mouth hidden under the water, but her eyes wide and focused on him. In the moonlight, he could barely see the crinkles in the corners. She's happy....? He let a smile form on his own face, and it grew when Kagome shyly called him over.

Slowly, he rose and walked to her. Right behind her in fact. Both blushed as he walked over. Even though they'd mated, it's not like they'd seen each other's body much. And here was Inuyasha, sauntering over to her as though she always saw him naked. But he held his chin high, as though daring her to say something about it. She smiled at his haughtiness and began to feel a little more comfortable. This was just weird.

He sat down behind her and began to play with her hair. She relaxed further when he touched her. Why was that? Just a simple touch made her forget about the embarrassment and what was threatening to become shame.

His voice behind her startled Kagome and made her bump her head on the bank of the hot spring, which contained plenty of nasty little rocks.

"OOOW!!!"

"Kagome! Are you alright?" The question was asked softly, as he slid into the water and held her against him, her face buried in his chest as he examined her scalp. She let out a happy breath and put her arms around him, placing a kiss in the middle of his chest. Smiling, Inuyasha lifted her face toward his, leaned down, and kissed her softly. But at this point, soft was the last thing on Kagome's mind.

She opened her mouth under his, taking his lower lip in and biting softly. He chuckled and delved deeper into the kiss, wrapping his arms around her as well. He couldn't believe how deprived he felt after being without her for mere minutes. She'd been there, of course, just not with him entirely. At the same time in both their minds, they thought giddily, No regrets....

Inuyasha pulled away swiftly, panting heavily. Kagome gave him a questioning look before glancing down. Oh... she thought vaguely. Again? She looked up at him with an eyebrow raised and he shrugged with a smirk.

"Can't help myself. You tempt me...." He bent his head and bit her ear gently, then continued on down her neck. She gasped and her hands splayed on his back, opening and closing with each kiss and bite. Finally he pulled away, his eyes cloudy with desire. But he managed to hold it in.

"Kagome? I think we should get back to the village before they start to worry." His face showed his obvious displeasure at this, but he was right. What trouble had Miroku gotten into with Sango by now? And she'd left poor Shippou there without speaking more than a few words to him. She nodded, pouting comically up at Inuyasha. He chuckled and ducked for another kiss before jumping out of the water with her. She shivered at the cold air, but Inuyasha held her close, and he was always warm. Lucky hanyou....

So, after finding their discarded clothes in a reasonable state, they dressed and sat together on a different log, Kagome on the hanyou's lap. She was resting her head against his chest and he was playing with her hair, watching the wind lift the ebony strands and play with them as well.

"Inuyasha?" He made a noise which she guessed meant that he was listening. "What if...what if I'm pregnant?" He thought about this for a bit before responding. It was only the slightest bit possible, but the threat was there. Youkai had the sex drives of normal beasts, and participated in the act of mating as often as bunnies. Due to this, a female would rarely conceive, doing so only once every decade or so. But Inuyasha didn't know about hanyou. No one had quite explained it to him, he merely observed and made mental notes.

So, after contemplating this with a level head, which was quite unusual, he came up with a negative answer.

"I highly doubt it Kagome. Youkai are harder to....uh....impregnate." he stumbled on the word, losing his calm reserve. What if she was?

"Small thing Inuyasha, I'm not a youkai. I'm human." Inuyasha growled lightly. She giggled. "Don't worry, I get it, I get it."

They relaxed again, neither of them wanting to go back just yet. Putting on the clothes simply kept their hormones at bay. Kind of.

"Inuyasha?" Another noise. "Did you.... ever think this would happen? Us, I mean." He stared down at her, thinking again. She always made him think.

"No, I'd have to say nothing could have prepared me for you." She frowned, not exactly knowing how to take this comment. He nuzzled her neck with a smile. "Baka." She turned to him with a smile and kissed his cheek, close to her face at the moment. He smiled in reply and kissed her lightly back. Sighing, he rose, with Kagome in his arms. He looked down at her. Now he had a question.

"Kagome?" She looked up at him, the moonlight breaking through the trees and bathing her face in an ethereal light. Her eyes looked deep enough that he could throw himself in, and throw himself in he did. "Do you regret it? Mating me?"

Kagome frowned, fingering the mark she'd noticed earlier. So that's what that was.... what a possessive little bastard.... She grinned up at him, her hand covering the small mark that made her his. She couldn't say anything, and he couldn't reply. A single, happy tear rolled down in face to be forgotten as he took to the air.

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Wow, that took me forever to write guys, I swear. I hope you're all happy though, cause I'm failing my Japanese class (ironic) and I'm devoting all my time to this fic....hehe....not that I'm blaming you, *snicker* At least YOU appreciate my hard work. It's not like I don't know the Japanese, my teacher just doesn't know English. So, future word of advice, don't teach a language to people unless you know theirs first. Otherwise communication doesn't exist, and you can't do anything about what they do cause they mumble in a language you don't know and when they get flustered then shoo you away. Argh....evil teacher .....Anyways, I meant to make this chapter longer, and include way more, but I realized that it would clash with what else is in this chapter. So sorry guys, nothing lemony in the next chapter, it's all drama. Kind of. Nothing too bad though. Unless you like Kikyo....oops, I didn't let that slip did I? *Wink Wink* Review!