InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bound by Blood ❯ Chapter 12: Break-Down ( Chapter 12 )

Chapter 12: Break-Down

 

Kaede was extremely upset at how Sesshoumaru treated the new inu. He had never truly tried to get to know any of the student body, but it seemed as though he was purposely trying to make the silver inu feel unwelcomed. She wondered at what Kagome transpired between the two.

 

“I take it you two had words prior to this meeting?” Kaede needed to know what was going on between these two.

 

“Yes Sensei.” Sesshoumaru not needing to hear what she was going to say, he already knew. At the moment he was more disturbed by the rogue pair knowing of his father. Not many had that distinction, especially if he talked to them about his family.

 

“I will only say this once Sesshoumaru. You are not to go after Kagome to find out how she knows your father. She will tell us her story in her own time…” Kaede never got to finish her statement.

 

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Yuriye knew that this bump would make getting settled in a lot harder. Kagome had a knack for pissing off the wrong people. But she was also surprised that Kagome remembered the youkai that had released them from the detention center.

 

He had often told them stories about his family to try and distract them from the pain.

 

But in another way she knew that pissing off Sesshoumaru was not the way to go. He could make their life a living hell here. As soon as they were out the door they saw Sango standing and her aura was crackling with anger.

 

Both inu realized that Sango and Miroku must have heard everything. Yuriye noticed Sango's look changed as soon as she saw the blood on Kagome's face. Looking towards Kagome hands, Yuriye noticed that both of them had blood from where her claws pierced her palms. There was also blood coming from her nails on both hands and on her forearm.

 

“What happened Kagome? Why are you bleeding? Kaede never allows students to attack one another unless supervised in the dojos. Why would she allow someone to strike you?” Sango was getting ready to barge into the room when she heard Kagome's broken voice.

 

“No one attacked me Sango, please calm down. The blood you see is simply because I dug my nails into my palms. And if you could take Yuriye to lunch I would appreciate it, I find myself without an appetite. I'm going to head back to my room. I'm sure Yuriye probably would like to watch you fight.” Kagome's voice was barely audible as blood tears continued to run down her face.

 

Yuriye knew that while it sounded like Kagome was making suggestions she was trying to sound polite. Yuriye knew that the tears running down her face came from the pure pain of Kagome's soul. It was almost physically painful for Yuriye to see Kagome withdrawing into herself.

 

Kagome turned away from the small group looking at her she just wanted to run again. At this point in time she was sure that Yuriye would leave if she asked but she refused to allow the prick that much power over them. She had meant what had said, he was nothing like his father.

 

After seeing Sesshoumaru at the lake memories that had long since been buried started to come back to her mind. Kagome was having small flashbacks of a tall male with snow white hair in a high pony tail; he had a single jagged blue stripe on each check. His eyes were a honey colored, the same as Sesshoumaru but with warmth.

 

Walking down the hallway Kagome saw the bathroom from that morning and decided to wash the blood off her face and hands. Again she could start to feel the effects of her poison in her blood. Walking in she went to the sink and mirror tuning on the faucet Kagome tried to avoid looking in the mirror, she knew that she wouldn't be able to handle the sight.

 

Kagome watched the blood slowly mix with the water and swirl down the drain. She knew that she would have to wash the blood off her face and she would have to look in the mirror but she wasn't sure if she could handle the sight. Looking down at her shirt she noticed that she had managed to keep the blood off it. Looking straight into the mirror Kagome became disgusted with her reflection.

 

Sango, Yuriye and Miroku started to walk down the hall when they all heard a shout and a large crash. Immediately behind them, Kaede's door opened and both Sesshoumaru and Kaede walk out.

 

“What was that noise?” Kaede was worried that a fight had broken out in the hallway. She was already in a foul mood from dealing with Sesshoumaru's attitude.

 

Sesshoumaru and Yuriye started to notice that the scent of blood was becoming much stronger. Yuriye's eyes widen when she noticed it was Kagome's.

 

“Kagome!!” Yuriye started to panic the amount of blood had at least doubled, she also recognized the scream as Kagome's. Running down the hall to the bathroom she stopped when she opened the door.

 

She was found trembling on her knees with glass surrounding her, sobs were racking her body so she was having trouble breathing. Glass was sticking out of her right fist.

 

Yuriye wanted to go to her alpha but wasn't sure of how to calm her down. She knew that Kagome wasn't in the right state of mind and could attack her without meaning to. She heard Sango's and Miroku's gasp at the sight before them. She could see Kagome shaking not only from her crying but from the pain of fighting her instincts. Kagome wanted to run, no Kagome instincts were yelling for her to run. But she was fighting, it was taking everything out of her but Kagome was fighting.

 

“Disgusting.” Turning her head, Yuriye saw Sesshoumaru sneering, but the crunch of glass made Yuriye turn to face her alpha.

 

Yuriye had to grab her alpha and restrain her from going after Sesshoumaru.

 

Kagome could feel the instinct to run pull at her, “How dare you pass judgment on those whose history you have no knowledge of? You say I don't have the training to be an alpha, you are correct. I have never received the honor of beginning formal training to fight. But you also know the pack laws; you know what those laws entail. I was a beta like you, but leadership was thrust upon me during the worst of times. I have made do with what little experience available to me.” Kagome was physically shaking; the urge to run at this point was almost unbearable.

 

Kagome was beyond livid, she was barely in control of herself and she was losing what little control she had. When she had seen her face in the mirror it reminded her of everything she had lost. She could see her family's faces flashing through her mind. The blood running down her face set her over the edge. Punching the glass she didn't realize what she had done until she fell to her knees and the glass fell around her.

 

Kagome knew he was right when Sesshoumaru had said she was untrained in the ways of an alpha, but she had been too young to start learning. And yet, to some degree it was not an excuse, others had relied on her and as a leader she failed them. Sesshoumaru's words were cruel and she had to continually remind herself that he was not his father. Nor was he the youkai his father had talked about. The instinct to flee right now was so tempting; she could feel the wind on her face. To run right now would be so easy, she wouldn't have to deal with this, or him. But that would allow the male in front of her to win and if nothing else she was too pig headed to allow him to win or let him think her a coward. Her legs ached to feel the blood pump through them, to feel free without any care or worries. She could definitely do without the added pressure to be perfect or worry of what others were saying about her behind her back.

 

Kagome could feel that her throat was sore; `Did I scream?' looking around, she finally noticed the glass and she felt the blood on her hand. Looking at her fist she noticed the glass that was stuck in her hand but she couldn't feel the pain from it. `That's weird I can feel that my throat is sore but my hand feels completely numb. Maybe I'm going numb again?'

 

Yuriye looked like she was on the edge of tears, she knew Kagome was unable to feel the glass sticking out of her hand by the look on her face. Slowly she moved forward until she could touch Kagome. When she sat down next to Kagome the glass crunched under her. Kagome's eyes flew up to meet her own emerald eyes.

 

Slowly she reached out and grabbed Kagome's hands. Gently, she started to remove the glass shards, picking each of them out of her skin. It took close to five minutes to retrieve all of the shards and to make sure she got them all, in the end she got them all.

 

“I can't feel it Yuriye, I can't feel any pain again.” Kagome voice broken, the obvious pain in it caused the humans to flinch.

 

Yuriye grabbed her and hugged her closely to her chest. She knew that only time would help her alpha out. It was the only thing that would help Kagome out. Not running from the pain and any conflict would slowly drain Kagome of her energy. Not following your basic instincts could be very draining. Right now all she wanted to do was attack Sesshoumaru, but as well as it not being a very wise decision, it wouldn't do any good.

 

Looking back at the door, Yuriye noticed that the asshole was still staring, “Are you happy now? Are you happy that you can point out all the flaws of an alpha that never had any training? The same training she was too young to begin; that I'm sure you are going through. That she has to learn everything by trial and error. She has given everything she has to keep us safe, feed, and try to always keep us sheltered. She got us away from the corrupted government that we lived under. Moving every couple of weeks to try and keep us safe, from being judge for being high class youkai without a home or a name you can stand there and stare but you know what the meaning of blood tears are. You say we have nothing, but we have each other and our honor. That is a lot more then what you can say.” Snarling she finished.

Kagome smiled knowing that Yuriye would rather hit the bastard but knew better. She wasn't threatened by allowing her beta to talk, most alphas refused to allow this but she would. Both of them were very opinionated and she refused to silence Yuriye's opinion.

 

Slowly Kagome started to get up; maybe if she laid down, the urge to run would go away. She also wanted to cleanse herself but she would deal with it later. She noticed that everyone was still staring at her when she got up. As she looked at Kaede she noticed that Kaede looked upset.

 

“I'm sorry about the mirror. I will find a way to pay for it. I promise.” Kagome finished in a small voice. She really wasn't sure what made her punch the glass, but it was probably a combination of anger at Sesshoumaru, the urge to run and the sight of her tears.

 

“It's alright Kagome. You should go to lunch with the others though. We will talk later.” Kaede wasn't mad about the mirror; she was more worried about what Kagome meant when she had said she couldn't feel the pain.

 

“I don't feel like eating right now. I'm just going to go lie down for little while.” Kagome could feel her energy being drained as they talked. She did have to eat but at this point in time it would just be thrown up.

 

Walking out of the bathroom Kagome brushed by Sesshoumaru. The need to run came back full force as she passed by Sesshoumaru, her instincts were yelling at her. But she was determined to stay and give Yuriye a home, but she would be lying if she said she didn't want one too. She wanted to give Yuriye everything they had lost all those years ago.