InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Breathe (With Me Sesshomaru) ❯ I Make My Own Decisions ( Chapter 4 )

Small Needed Warnings (SNW): This takes place a few days after the final episode of the series, so it's gonna be a bit of a spoiler if you haven't seen the end. There are also Limes, Lemons, and a Lemonade or two through-out the story. Characters are a bit OOC.

 

PS- If you see (~*Then something inside.*~), it's me talking

 

 

Breathe (With Me Sesshomaru)- I Make My Own Decisions (Warning: Lime)

 

 

Kagome opened the door to find Inuyasha on the other side. He could smell that she was embarrassed about something. Her face was bright red and she barely looked him in the eyes.

 

`Oh man,' she thought. `How am I going to tell Inuyasha? I know he can tell something's wrong.'

 

Sesshomaru stood behind her and looked at his little half-brother.

 

“Half-breed,” he said, regaining his normal composure.

 

Inuyasha growled, baring a fang. “Bastard brother.”

 

The demon lord glared at his brother for a little bit longer and then went back inside. Before he turned around he mumbled, “We'll meet again Miko.”

 

The door closed. Inuyasha looked at Kagome and she looked at the ground. She hugged herself and was ready to cry. She can't believe that she had done that. She couldn't believe that she would have to tell Inuyasha. Otherwise, he might think that something else had happened.

 

“Kagome?” he asked softly. Her sobs were barely audible, but soon she put her arms out, still not looking at him. Inuyasha understood and wrapped his arms around her. She buried her face into his shoulder, her arms tight around his neck. He rubbed her back and held her closer as he smelt the rest of the gang come into the front clearing.

 

Without disturbing her further, he gathered her into his arms and made his way to the rest of the group. She slowly stopped crying and sniffed into his shoulder, not allowing her face to be seen.

 

 

(~*She's really upset with herself. ;( *~)

(~*Now…what about Sesshomaru's little problem?*~)

 

 

The demon lord walked upstairs, telling the nearest servant to tell the others to leave him undisturbed for a while. The servant nodded, and went to spread the news to the others. If Lord Sesshomaru was disturbed, it would be someone's head…or body.

 

He closed his door and made his way to the bath. He noticed that one of the servants had filled it. He started taking off everything he was wearing.

 

He couldn't get the miko out of his mind. Her face; her body; her scent. He could smell her scent on his hand from her ribbon. His erection got harder.

 

`Damn,' he thought. `Why does she do this to me?'

 

When he was naked he stood next to the water and took his cock into his hand. He worked it a bit before it got too much to handle standing up. He sat against the wall, spreading his legs apart. He dipped one hand into the hot water and splashed it onto his hard dick as he used both hands to work it. He squeezed it at the base and hissed when he felt the beginning of his body wind up. The demon lord continued and soon released into his hands.

 

He panted lightly before slipping into the bath. He rinsed his hands off and cleaned off his dick. He sat there in continued to think about what the miko did to him and why. After a few minutes of that, he would have to do what he had done before, again.

 

 

(~*Haha Sesshomaru has the hots for Kagome. -lol-*~)

(~*Back to the others*~)

 

 

Inuyasha didn't let Kagome down when he reached the others. He didn't put her down the whole time they were leaving Sesshomaru's forest. He didn't even put her down when Sango and Miroku started to build camp in the same spot as before.

 

He did go and sit out of Shippo's earshot and away from the huge hole his body had been in just a day before. He moved her for a little bit so he could place her bag on the ground. He kept Kagome pinned in his lap, not talking for a bit.

 

“I know you aren't asleep,” he said softly. “Just talk to me when you want to.”

 

He sat there, not moving too much. He just used one hand to rub her lower leg and the other to pet her hair. His nose was against the only seeable part of her forehead, the rest of it was against his firerat.

 

 

(~*What Kagome is thinking…*~)

 

 

Kagome still couldn't believe what was going on. She still couldn't believe what she said. She ALSO couldn't believe she was being held by Inuyasha and had been for the last two hours. She could believe how she felt and how he felt.

 

She felt betrayed by herself, guilty, hurt, regretful, angry, upset, and heartbroken.

 

He felt confused, understanding, prepared, caring, loving, and slightly ticked.

 

She needed to talk to him. She decided to tell him.

 

`Better now then later…'

 

 

(~*Back to mostly how Inuyasha is thinking*~)

 

 

Inuyasha nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt Kagome stir in his arms. He put his head up and looked down at her as she rubbed her face into his firerat. Her face turned and looked up at him. Her red face was sad and guilty. She looked like she had just accidentally killed a pet chicken that she had raised from a chick. (~*Sorry, bad comparison. She looks REALLY sad and has puffy red, tear glistening eyes. Better?*~)

 

He looked down lovingly at her which made her eyes tear up more. She rubbed her face back into his firerat, starting to cry again.

 

“Oh Kagome,” Inuyasha whispered. He patted her hair and rubbed his nose on her forehead. “It's okay. Just talk to me. What happened?”

 

She shook her head and he just continued with what he was doing. He wanted her to tell him, but he also didn't want to make her feel any worse by forcing her to talk. So he waited.

 

Kagome cried it out and Inuyasha didn't leave. They stayed there and didn't move. Sango and Miroku were worried about the two of them not eating. But they realized that in the situation at hand (~*That they know nothing about. They only think they know.*~), their stomachs didn't really want the food anyways.

 

The two of them just kept the fire going when they drifted off to sleep.

 

`What's really wrong with Kagome?' Sango thought.

 

 

(~*Midnight*~)

 

 

Kagome was still awake and she decided it was time. She looked up at Inuyasha with her tear stained face. He was looking out across the water and didn't look down at her. His features were solid and set in his normal look. He spoke without looking at her.

 

“What's wrong? What did he do?”

 

She gazed down and then back up. She squeezed him with her arms before answering in a raspy, quiet voice.

 

“I told him.”

 

The hanyou looked down at her. His eyes were wide.

 

“You did what?” he asked with a shocked tone.

 

“I…” she swallowed to regain some of her voice. “I told him Inuyasha.”

 

Inuyasha looked back out at the water, his features unchanging. He didn't speak for awhile. When he did, Kagome wasn't ready to respond.

 

“What did he do?” he asked, still looking out. When she didn't answer, he looked down at her.

 

Her eyes didn't meet his and didn't as she finally got her words together.

 

“He didn't do anything. He told me he didn't understand love and sent me out.” Her voice got smaller and smaller as she told him this. She rested her head on his chest. She wanted to cry again, but her eyes were dry.

 

“That bastard,” Inuyasha mumbled. “I'll give him a piece of my mind.”

 

Kagome's head snapped up to face him. “Oh please Inuyasha. Don't…please don't. I don't care. It was my fault…” Her voice dropped. “Of course he doesn't comprehend love…”

 

“You stay away from him Kagome. You got that?” the hanyou raised her head so that their eyes were locked. “Stay away from Sesshomaru.”

 

Kagome was mad. The rage just immediately surfaced and she shoved herself out of Inuyasha's arms and onto the cold grass next to him.

 

“No,” she told him. “You won't tell me to do that! I'll make my own decisions Inuyasha. And if you don't like it, that's fine by me!”

 

She got up, taking just a few seconds to get her legs back in order before storming off to the fire. She grabbed her sleeping bag and crawled into it. She fell into a mild sleep.

 

Inuyasha just sat there, dumbfounded. What could he do now?

 

 

(~*Back to the Lord*~)

 

 

Sesshomaru emerged from his bath, his long locks dripping wet. He had decided to just bathe completely, and not just using the water for stimulus. He was only in his undermost garments, carrying the others. He dressed as just as he was placing the armor on his chest, his ward knocked on the door.

 

“Lord Sesshomaru,” she called. “May I please come in My Lord?”

 

“Enter Rin,” he answered.

 

The little girl gently pushed open the door to his room. It was huge, taking up 2/5 of the whole third story. There was a great large bed, bigger than a California King bed. (~*Of course, they don't know what that is! lol*~) The bed had nothing on it but a huge brown fur. The windows were huge, sitting in the indent of the wall. The floor was smoothed gray stone, along with the walls. Nothing else was in the room, except for a huge painting of great white dog.

 

“Rin was just wondering where Lady Kagome has gotten to,” she said. “Does Lord Sesshomaru know where she is?”

 

Sesshomaru tried to contain himself. The posture of his face and body remained as stiff as possible. He was working very hard to keep his cool. His little friend started warming back up as he thought of the best way to tell Rin.

 

“Lady Kagome left,” he said calmly. “She left with the hanyou a while ago. This Sesshomaru is apologetic for not telling Rin.”

 

“Oh…” the girl said, looking down. She nodded her head and forced a smile. “Okay; right. She had to go back. Thank you My Lord.” She skipped out of the room, closing the door behind her.

Sesshomaru stood there, confused. Rin missed the girl? Well why wouldn't she? Kagome was nice, and kind and she smelt so…

 

His eyes grew wide. The tent in his pants had returned. He sighed.

 

“Why does this bitch do this to me?” he mumbled out loud. He stripped right there and went back to his bath.

 

 

(~*Hmmm. Wonder what Sesshomaru's problem is. Hehehe.*~)

(~*Back to the gang!*~)

 

 

Kagome awoke to the smell of fish, and a bright blue sky. She blinked a few times, trying to figure out where she was. The Miko sat up and yawned loudly, startling Shippo and the others.

 

“Kagome!” he squealed with a smile. The small fox bounced over and hoped into her lap. “Good morning!”

 

She gave him a smile back. “Morning Shippo,” she said. She hugged him and he hugged back. He noticed how she squeezed a little harder than usual.

 

`Something's still upsetting her,' he thought. She let go and placed a small kiss on his forehead.

 

`Something is REALLY wrong,' the fox child thought with worry.

 

Sango walked over and got down next to Kagome. “How are you Kagome?”

 

The black haired girl looked up at her friend. “Good Sango. Good.”

 

The demon slayer smiled. “Great.”

 

“Come and eat Kagome!” Miroku called. The Miko climbed out of her sleeping bag and got to her feet. Sango went ahead and took a seat next to Miroku as Shippo pulled his fish from the ground. Kagome sat on the other side of Miroku, who handed her a fish. Shippo sat down next to her.

 

They ate in almost complete silence for a few minutes before Miroku spoke up.

 

“How'd you sleep Kagome?” he asked.

 

“Okay,” she responded. She evaded everyone's eyes and continued to eat in silence.

 

The meal passed slowly and when it was over, she finally took a look around. She reached her aura out a bit, but she still couldn't find him.

 

“Where's Inuyasha?” she asked. “He was here when I fell asleep.”

 

Sango shrugged. “I haven't seen him.” She looked over at Miroku, who had been up before her.

 

The Monk looked at the two girls and sighed. “He left into the forest at dawn,” he answered. “I guess he wanted some time to think.”

 

Kagome sighed. This isn't how she wanted this to work. She wanted to talk to him after what had happened the night before. She wanted to tell him that she was sorry about yelling at him.

 

`Why won't you understand Inuyasha?' she thought. `Why can't you let me do this myself? Why can't you just be my rock?'

 

 

(~*To the half-demon we go!*~)

 

 

The half-demon sat high up in a tree, not far from the camp; but just enough that Kagome couldn't sense him. His eyes were closed as if he were sleeping. The leaves were blocking the sun just right to keep the rays from his eyes. Yet he could still feel the warmth. He sighed and droopily opened his eyes.

 

Inuyasha couldn't believe what had happened. Kagome had never been so firmly mad at him before. It had always been something that just made her fume and sit him. This time, she was so mad that she didn't even say the word or threaten it. She just…left him there to think.

 

And think was exactly what he had been doing all morning.

 

Mostly about how in the world Kagome could love his brother. Well…his half-brother; and how Sesshomaru was just crude to her after her confession.

 

But that was his brother. Sesshomaru just doesn't know emotions. It shows with his composure; and the fact that he doesn't have any feelings toward anyone but hatred. Or pity in some cases.

 

And what about Rin? Sesshomaru always takes such good care of her, but how does she feel?

 

`That girl would follow him anywhere,' Inuyasha told himself. `Even off a cliff if need be.'

 

He sighed and rubbed his temples. His head hurt now. His bastard brother always made things so difficult.

 

This was the last straw though. The half-demon wasn't going to let Kagome get anywhere near Sesshomaru anymore. He hurt her once. And he wasn't fucking going to do it again.

 

 

(~*Inuyasha mad!!!! lol*~)

(~*What's the Demon Lord up to???*~)

 

 

Sesshomaru sat in his courtyard; and he thought.

 

This just wasn't normal. Only the heady demon bitches had ever made him “come-to-life”. It just couldn't be reasonable. That girl; she just said three words and he was from zero to seventy in 5 seconds. He just didn't understand.

 

The Demon Lord pondered. Maybe it was because he had been around her too long. That had to be it. A human girl would never make him get so hard so quickly. It had to be because he had been breathing in her scent almost every 20 minutes.

 

Right?

 

 

 

 

Author Note: I'm SOO sorry for the delay! I've been so busy lately and I'm just finishing up my Spring Break. I've been trying to get back in the groove of my stories and so far I've been able to spit out two chapters in three days! Yay! They've been in the works for a while, they just finally came together.

 

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