InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bring Me to life ❯ The Dreaded Day ( Chapter 4 )

Disclaimer: I do love Sesshoumaru, think he is delicious, and want to marry him; but I most certainly don't own him, or any Inu yasha character. Rumiko Takahashi was the genius that gave them life and still owns them.

that was depressing,… Now what you came here for…

The Dreaded Day

The next morning, sunlight entered through the windows, invading her room. Rin opened her eyes lazily. Sitting up, she stretched her tiny arms. She looked around the room, but felt like sleeping a while longer, and grasped the sheet that was covering her. Her sheets were of a pale blue, and her pillows were royal blue with golden hem. `Golden, kind of like the amber of his gaze. His amber eyes… Last night…' Rin gasped. Recalling the previous night's events, she touched her right shoulder. It was sore, but it didn't hurt. At the same time she blushed fiercely, remembering Sesshoumaru's appearance. His face, his hair, his skin… `Just like an angel.' Rin laughed sheepishly at this thought. But then she became more serious, thinking of what he told her.

"Now, no matter where I am, I will always be with you." Rin couldn't help but blush scarlet red again.

Jaken abruptly opened the door. The green toad panted, exasperated. "Miss Rin! How much longer do you plan to sleep?! Your aunt and uncle are here to take you to leave with them!! Hurry!" With that, Jaken bolted out of the room, as he had entered, to attend other chores that had to be done.

The words were very hard for Rin to digest. `Rin's aunt and uncle to take Rin away… from Sesshoumaru-sama?! No…! It can't be…' She felt a knot form in her throat and her stomach revolted, as her heart sank into it. The only live remains of her family had come for her. She never thought that reuniting with her long lost family would be so painful. `There must be something Rin can do… I know! Sesshoumaru-sama will help me!'

Rin quickly got up from her bed, and went to her closet. She opened the cerulean curtain that closed it and gasped. It was empty. All of her clothes were gone but a new, bright yellow kimono with dark orange flowers. Apparently, it was bought intentionally for this occasion. She reached for it to feel the fabric. It was rich silk, soft and shiny. The orange flowers were custom made embroidery. This was a very expensive kimono. Seeing that she had no other choice in the matter, she put on the yellow kimono. She looked in a mirror that Sesshoumaru had sent to put in her room, and realized just how beautiful the kimono really was. And it mad her look even more pretty. Rin fixed her hair in a bun, and put a white flower with the yellow center on her left ear. `Her childish beauty is really breathtaking…' Sesshoumaru thought to himself, secretly staring at Rin from her window without being noticed. He smiled inwardly at her. `…she almost looks like a woman right now.' Even though he felt guilty for it, Sesshoumaru still gazed a little longer, admiring only her beauty. However his concentration was shattered when Jaken knocked loudly on the door, and without waiting for an answer, he opened the door abruptly, yet again. `Stupid toad!! Always interrupting when less needed!!' The youkai lord cursed silently at the smaller youkai in the room.

"Miss Rin, as you may have already noticed, your room has been emptied of your possessions. Your entire luggage is already in your uncle's carriage. And, also, your Aunt has requested your presence at breakfast." Jaken said, with a slightly sad tone to his voice. This was due to Rin's subsequent absence, and whether he admitted it or not, he was going to really miss her. Seeing her in the yellow kimono his master had bought, he paused for a second, "Rin-can, you look very pretty today." "Thank you, Jaken." then he strolled out of the room. Rin, after taking a quick glance in the mirror, followed Jaken. "Jaken, where is Sesshoumaru-sama?" Rin's voice could be heard asking the toad the question.

Sesshoumaru, slightly alerted, instantly rushed by the outside of the castle to his room's balcony, were he was last seen. Stepping on the balcony's floor he noticed that he could see the road from where the carriage had emerged this morning. It was a large; the passenger's cabin was big enough to fit in at least a dozen bodies. On the outside, deep violet curtains, with golden embroidery, very much similar to the messenger's clothes, decorated it. The structure was made of hard dark brown wood. Pulling it were horses, huge black males, from the looks of it. Leather ropes straddled them, held by a skinny man dressed in a violet similar to the carriage's curtains. He whipped the animals constantly as they advanced through a steep hill. Something about that skinny man disgusted Sesshoumaru, perhaps the way he has treating the poor horses, which had no fault of the mass of the carriage they pulled.

Meanwhile, Rin walked down the hall following Jaken to breakfast table. When she had asked before for the Lord's location, irritated, Jaken had answered flatly, as if he had had a violent mood swing, "Right now you do not need to know. You will attend a late breakfast with your relatives. And mind your childish manners girl, these kind of people expect you to behave like a lady." `So rude all of the sudden! Ugh, must be a youkai thing!' Rin was going to protest, but they had just arrived at the breakfast table. Her aunt and uncle were the only ones there, but they still use a table that could welcome about 20 guests, food and all. The chandeliers were recently polished; new candles had been put on them, violet. The breakfast banquet before her was unlike any other she had had. This was the way her aunt and Uncle were accustomed to eat. About 10 plates of different contents lay on the table's surface. Almost never a banquet like this was prepared in the castle, only for highly important guests. Apparently, her aunt and uncle had ordered for the breakfast laid out in such fashion.

Her uncle sat on one end of the table. He was a middle-aged man; he had gray hair with a bald spot on the top of his head. His kimono was amethyst, with pale golden embroidery at the hems. On the kimono, he had a sort of vest that was violet, with more golden embroidery. It seemed that everything they owned, they decorated according to these two colors, a combination that after a while would get anyone bored to death. To his left was her aunt, also a middle-aged woman; she looked young for her age, but not that young. To Rin's surprise she wasn't wearing violet or any tone of it. She was wearing deep green. But then again, there was the golden embroidery. Her kimono was very modest, without too much décor. Also, she wore a golden necklace, from were a big emerald hung. Her hair was black, held in various twists; imitating an ancient empress' hairstyle. Rin sat on the opposing end of the table. "Good morning Rin, I am you aunt," The woman sweetly said, "Madame Kaneda Mongetuu of Tenga-riaru, a region from the Eastern lands. You may address me as Aunt Kaneda.".

"Good morning, A-Aunt Kaneda." Rin politely replied. Then she directed herself at the man beside her. "Good morning, urm…" "I am Master Hikaru Mongetuu, you may address me as uncle Hikaru, and good morning to you too." Hikaru warmly replied.

Rin silently nodded and started to eat her breakfast. "Oh, Rin! We are so happy to have finally found you." Kaneda said, after a little while of awkwardness. "Since we heard that you had become an orphan, we began our search for you. We searched the entire Eastern, Northern, and Southern Lands, but we had never thought of you residing in the Western lands, much less living within it's feared lord's castle." Rin responded with an obliged, insincere smile, rarely seen by the servants. Who, in return, stared at her unusually, because she always seemed to be so happy and careless. But the pair sitting at the other end of the table did not know Rin's open, springy personality to be able to tell.

Kaneda was commenting something about the castle grounds, which Rin didn't cope to hear, because she got completely lost in her thoughts. She observed how full of luxuries their lives were without any real happiness, so very unlike what she had here with Sesshoumaru. Here she could roam free as a bird, nobody scolding her, except occasionally Jaken, who loved to tease her. But now, she will have to always be minding what other people might be thinking of her, because she didn't act very `ladylike.' She had always hated to do so. "… Oh, Rin, I'm so glad that you will come to live with us now, and learn to live `like royalty.' " Kaneda finished babbling, while Hikaru served himself something yellow and white from a nearby plate. Rin, not being able to stand the `small talk,' decided to leave.

Rin stood up. "Excuse me, Aunt Kaneda, Uncle Hikaru. I'm not feeling very well." Rin wiped her mouth with a cloth, and left the table without waiting for a response. The two at the table looked at each other in doubt, and then resumed eating whatever was left on their plates.

`I can't possibly be expected to live like that! No… not without Sesshoumaru by my side. Where are you Sesshoumaru…?' The idea of being separated from him, which had always been impossible in her mind, now was quickly becoming cruel reality. She couldn't and wouldn't bare it. The corners of Rin's eyes were filled with suppressed tears, as she walked towards Sesshoumaru's room. `Oh, Sesshoumaru-sama, Rin doesn't want to leave, all Rin wants to do is stay here with you…' Secretly, when she wasn't feeling very well, she liked to visit his room, and sometimes head for his balcony. She had always felt safe there, in his quarters, where his presence roamed. Why there and not in her own room? Not even she knew, but she liked being alone in Sesshoumaru's room. Or so she thought, because Sesshoumaru eavesdropped on her most of the time, without disturbing her peace.

Rin opened the heavy door that led to Sesshoumaru's room and closed it behind her, thinking nobody else was in the room. Rin snuck through the room, careful not to make any noise, heading for the rice paper doors of the balcony. She opened them slightly, slipping through the opening. When she turned around she gasped, surprised.

Sesshoumaru was standing there, staring at her. His glare as indifferent as ever. She had been `caught red-handed.' Whatever she said went out stammered, "Se-Se-Sesshoumaru-sama! I d--didn't mean to… urm… " Inside his head, he chuckled. "Don't worry Rin." Rin could only stare at Sesshoumaru's amber pools, which stared back at her unemotionally.

Sesshoumaru, avoiding the urge to show emotion, turned to admire the balcony's amazing view. Rin's thoughts went back to the breakfast table. `Rin must ask him. Or else.' "Sess…" Rin barely whispered, cowering at the last moment. "Did you want to tell me something Rin?" His questioning gaze was once again over her. "Hai… R-Rin doesn't want to go! Rin wants to stay with Sesshoumaru-sama!!" Then time froze.

Sesshoumaru's mind processed thoughts at lightning speed. `She said last night she loved me. As a fatherly figure, I'm completely sure of it. If she stays, she will eventually outgrow me, and consequently leave my side.' That was what troubled him the most. He couldn't bare the thought of losing her to another, it would crush him. `Besides, she will do better amongst her own kind.' The thought (A/N: stupid as we all know) seemed perfectly coherent to Sesshoumaru. Yet it hurt him so much, to recognize he was going to lose Rin.

Rin stared at his face waiting for a response to her brief confession, but none came from his face, as usual. Then, without any warning, it came from his unforgiving voice.

"It is for your best interest." Sesshoumaru said coldly, and turned his look away from her.

Rin felt a sharp pain in the depth of her very soul. She knew exactly what the words meant. Her being became filled with misery, and her eyes clouded. `No… he wants me to leave? Why…?' Taking a step back, she started quivering; her mind filled with the infinite despair her master had seeded on her. She had a look of fear imprinted on her face. Sesshoumaru's gaze, fixed upon Rin once again, worryingly watched the rush of heartbreaking feelings her face revealed. Her questions left unanswered, she ran out of the room.

Sesshoumaru put his hand to his head. `What have I done?' Sighing, his gaze tortured by the girl's display, he stood there alone.

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The last time Sesshoumaru saw Rin was when she was already inside in the violet carriage pulled by the black horses, leaving the castle grounds. Rin was looking out the window to the castle, when she saw Sesshoumaru's grand frame on his room's balcony. From the carriage he appeared to simply be standing there, staring at oblivion. Rin felt her eyes cloud once again as she looked at him, knowing that this was the last time she would see him. Jaken was there too, standing faithfully by his side. She remembered the way Sesshoumaru looked in the moonlight, the image having burnt into her mind and soul to forever haunt her. Then, how he had smiled at her for the very first time. Rin let the tears flow wildly through her cheeks, as she could not hold them in any longer, pain and anguish searing her existence. Sesshoumaru saw her from the balcony inside the carriage, shedding tears. Kami, how that hurt him! He knew it was his fault and his fault only. Sighing, he tried to recover his composure inwardly. Still, he failed at the task, since his intense emotions rose anyway. In the corner of his eye, a small tear formed.

Noticing this, Jaken uneasily interrupted his mourning, "Lord Sesshouma-" But his lord cut off Jaken abruptly, "Just shut up Jaken." Sesshoumaru motioned the toad to get out of his sight with a quick hand movement.

Looking back at the departuring carriage, Sesshoumaru thought, `She will not be back again by tomorrow as she always does... or EVER. Nothing regarding her should matter to you now. Forget about her. Carry on Sesshoumaru.' His rational thinking was very harsh for his emotional state, but this was the way he always had dealt with this kind of things. He grasped firmly the balcony's stone edge.

Lowering his head, the small tear that was being held back fell from his eye, not being able to control himself.

End of Chapter Four

A/N: *Even if u don't think so, this chappie was very hard to write…*

kumi: So saaaad… the paaaiiin…. x_x (stabs herself, then dies)

sesshy: serves you right! (chuckles, pokes kumi to see if really dead)

rin: you know, you can be so cruel… BOTH of you.

kumi: Anyway, review cuz I'm goin' nuts!