InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bring Me to life ❯ Breathing ( Chapter 13 )

Disclaimer: just leave me in my no-Sesshoumaru world alone. Until in my dreams…

Ok, to the chap before I am killed!!…

Breathing

He swallowed hard as he saw that she was not breathing. Sesshoumaru put his ear on her chest.

Sesshoumaru felt his heart break and his soul shatter. Her heartbeat was gone.

Rin was dead.

Sesshoumaru's breathing started to cut; as he gawked at the fragile body he had in his hands. Knots began forming at the mouth of stomach and his throat seemed to have closed. His hands began shaking violently, despite the pain of the damage received. Clutching his hands slightly on her shoulders, tears began rolling down his cheeks.

With his eyes shut tightly, he let out a horrifying scream. "NOOO!!! RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNN!!!" Any creature that was in the surrounding areas probably fled with fear of the terrifying sound.

The sorrow that had just surfaced in him quickly became abhorrence for the demon in front of him. His eyes became scarlet once again. As adrenaline fueled him, he began standing; ignoring the pain his broken ribs and arm caused him.

Hatred boiled in his veins, as unknown power surged from within him. His right hand grasped the tenseiga, which had been pulsating along with the tetsaiga beside it. His body reacted strangely to it, as the effect it would take normally on the receiver of its blows now affected its beholder. The tenseiga emanated yellowish swirl of power that traveled through Sesshoumaru's whole body, healing all of his wounds in the process. The blood pouring from his wounds stooped flowing as the skin healed.

Soon Sesshoumaru had regained all of his strength. His now healed left arm seized the tetsaiga as his fingers firmly enveloped it. An amethyst whirl left the tetsaiga, mimicking the yellow one. The effect the two powers combined had on Sesshoumaru was quite frightening to anyone that was on the other end of the swords. The whirls fused into his body as his eyes focused on Nekosu's traumatized ones. Sesshoumaru's eyes had stopped crying and the red in them was darkening. In fact, his eyes were turning from scarlet to raven. The two swords were tightly clutched in his hands, pointing toward their opponent.

The opponent, Nekosu, was trembling in sight of what he had done. `No… Rin… that was intended for him… why did you have to get in the way…?'

///Flashback\\\

"Umm… Rin?" My voice was shy, not really wanting to disturb her.

Rin seemed a bit startled. "Yes?"

"I was wondering, because in all of the time we've been traveling, I never have gotten an opportunity to ask you who was your lord… I just thought I wanted know about him, or her."

"Oh yeah. It must have slipped my mind. It's a he actually," I felt a sudden sting of jealousy. "His name is Sesshoumaru."

I think my face went pale at the sound of that name. "…W-What?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Sesshoumaru." Rin looked at me curiously.

"Your master is Se- …Sesshoumaru!?! The Lord of the Western Lands, Sesshoumaru?!" I had heard much of the youkai lord's awesome power. My jealousy grew intensely.

"Uhh, yeah."

"So… you're that girl that left him about ten years ago, right?" Rin seemed hurt by the comment.

"I didn't leave him!! He was the one who told me to go!" She was a bit pissed by now.

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to anger you!!" I sighed, and my voice came out shyly again. "Just tell me, what happened after you-he told you to leave?"

Rin was now completely expressionless. "My aunt and uncle died when the carriage that was taking us to their palace was trashed by a gang of bandits. After that, I met an old tailor, whom I lived with for the next ten years. Now, I am traveling back to him, Sesshoumaru." I was surprised at how easily she had resumed her last ten years, which seemed to be quite painful.

"But why?"

"…"

///Flashback\\\

"I'm sorry, but I can't." Rin finally said, after her breathing went back to normal.

I felt like a million daggers pierced my chest eyes flashed hints of extraordinary pain. "W…why?" My voice was trembling.

"I have to return to my lord… I already told you." Rin was avoiding my eyes.

"That's just an excuse," I grabbed her by her upper arms, forcing her to look into my eyes. "What's your real reason?"

"I…" Rin tried to avoid me again.

I lowered my head. The jealousy and pain I felt was now eating me alive. "You love him don't you?"

"…" Rin blush at my statement, it seemed her truth. I loosened my grip on her arms a bit, and then he let go of her.

"Why? How can you?! He left you at life's mercy, forcing you to leave with these strangers at the age of eleven! He hasn't even searched for you in all of these years!! If anything, you should hate him!" My voice was more of a plead than anger.

Rin's voice came softly, as she looked directly into my eyes. "How can I hate him? How can I not love him? He brought me back to life when I died, then took care of me… He never tried to take advantage of me; he always saw to that what I wanted, I had… I owe him my loyalty with my life. That is why I am returning to him. Now tell me, how can I not love him?"

I couldn't win against Rin's reasoning. My breathing was becoming very hard then, "I understand. I'm sorry." I gave Rin the most painful smile I had ever had to give in my entire life. My life suddenly seemed meaningless; I decided I had been beaten.

///End flashbacks\\\

Warm tears flooded his eyes as he transformed back into his human form. His head was lowered, his bangs shielding his eyes. "I actually thought if I killed you I would she would be able to love me…" his hands clenched in fists began shaking, as the tears spilled onto his face. "but I only ended up hurting her…"

Sesshoumaru's rage fueled as the other youkai spoke. "NO!!! You did not only hurt her, YOU KILLED HER, YOU BASTARD!!!" Nekosu's crimson eyes met Sesshoumaru's gold and raven ones.

Sesshoumaru began walking towards Nekosu, step after step his hatred grew stronger. Crossing the swords in front of him, he let the blades make contact generating sparks. The sound of the grass crunching under his steps thundered in his ears as he saw Nekosu fall on his knees, muttering something about death.

Nekosu could see the inu youkai coming towards him as Sesshoumaru crossed the blades. Nekosu felt his knees fail him, and fell on them. "I don't think I even deserve to die after what I have done, but I will accept it anyway…" he said in a low tone. Nekosu's eyes met Sesshoumaru's one last time.

"DIE!!!" Sesshoumaru's rage burst within him as he pulled the swords in opposite directions, the chafing of the blades making them glow. When the tips met, a blast of energy was expulsed from them towards Nekosu. When the blast met Nekosu, a powerful explosion could be heard, but no screams could be. The blast burned Nekosu until the flames devoured his body completely and no traces of his existence were left.

Feeling as if a weight fell off his shoulders, a much heavier one dawned upon him. Turning slowly on his heels, he looked at the lifeless corpse lying on the bloody grass. `…Rin.' The black from his eyes had turned into the normal white they usually were, with a somewhat tender look in them.

Sesshoumaru walked slowly, approaching her. `…You can't just leave me…not after…' his strength weakened as he closed in to her, the tetsaiga fell trough his hand, with a soft thud against the grass. He was about 2 meters from her when he stopped walking. He couldn't bare the smell of death on her beautiful self.

"You can't just leave me…!!" Sesshoumaru clutched his fingers tightly around the tenseiga and slashed Rin's body with it. A thick line of yellow adhered to Rin's laying form as her body stirred a little. The yellow line dissolved into Rin's skin slowly. Sesshoumaru watched this eagerly; as after the light sunk into the body she should awake from her `sleep.' When the line dissolved completely, a desperate silence filled the air. Sesshoumaru's eyes widened with terror, Rin hadn't reacted to the tenseiga's slash. Sesshoumaru's grip on the sword began shaking. He slashed her again.

There was no reaction. Sesshoumaru's bangs covered his eyes as his hand's trembling worsened. `…no…'

Once again he used the tenseiga, but this time he did not do it once, he slashed her numerous times blinded by sorrow. "You can't die, RIN!!!" Sesshoumaru kept slashing her limp body like a madman, which jerked every time a hew came in contact with it. "NO!!!" Tears came form his eyes as his sword failed him in the time he needed it most.

His arm seemed to lose force, as he stopped hacking the corpse. The sword slipped from his fingers to the ground, sticking up as it had fallen straight into the soil. His breathing cut, he came closer to the body, "Rin…" Sesshoumaru collapsed onto her, his hair draping over her and the floor. He sobbed into her neck, his hand on her neck.

"Why… Why did you have to leave me again?!" His shoulders were bobbing along with his bawling. "Why did your family had to come and take you away from me all those years ago?! I spent all that time waiting for you to return… and now you die??"

Sesshoumaru's hand was unconsciously following along a necklace she was wearing. "Why did you leave me again?! …why did you had to die… why couldn't it be me…??" he was sobbing to her ears, as his hand found a round orb between the folds of her bloody kimono.

"You can't just leave me!!!" his voice had a very desolated tone. "I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! …RIIIIN!!!" His screams were now muffled by her hair and her neck. The hand that instinctively had found the orb now tightly clasped it, his knuckles had turned white. "I HATE YOU!!! …I hate you…"

Suddenly Sesshoumaru no longer found himself embracing the body of his dead mate. He was now kneeling in the middle of a thick, pink mist. His began searching for any signs of his whereabouts. Suddenly a tall, black haired woman appeared before him. Her colorless eyes glared down at him. She wore robes similar to the woman who had haunted his brother's life for a long time. There was a small smile in her pink lips.

Sesshoumaru was too stunned to speak. The woman widened her smile as she began to speak. "Sesshoumaru… do-" but Sesshoumaru had recovered from the small shock.

"Who are you? Where am I? Where is Rin!? Answer me!!!" Sesshoumaru demanded.

The woman gave Sesshoumaru another smile. "Patience. I am Midoriko, the spirit of the Shikon no tama. Where you are is of unimportance. And Rin…" her expression turned into one of pity. "She is right here." Rin appeared before them, as beautiful as ever. She wore a completely white kimono, cleaned of all the blood she had had, but concealed in a transparent crystal. Her eyes were shut and apparently not breathing.

"Rin!! Rin can you hear me?!" he asked, banging on the surface of the crystal.

"It's useless you know… She can't hear you. She's dead."

Sesshoumaru glared at Midoriko coldly. "Why didn't the tenseiga have any effect on her?"

"Ah yes, the tenseiga. You see, Rin was wearing the Shikon no tama around her neck, which shielded her of the effects."

"Wait, what? How is that even possible?"

"Simple. I had a spell on it so that the tenseiga did not take its usual effect."

"Again, WHY?!"

"Did you ever noticed that no demon actually attacked the castle in order to attain the jewel for its power?"

"What does this has to do with Rin??" Sesshoumaru was growing restless.

"Patience. Did you ever notice?"

Sesshoumaru sighed. "No I never did. In fact… I had forgotten that it was in my possession all of these years…"

Midoriko smiled. "This was because a wish had been placed upon it. After a wish has been made, its aura fades, until the wish is fulfilled, when it will disappear."

"It makes sense, but who had wished …" Sesshoumaru trailed off.

Midoriko continued after Sesshoumaru's interruption. "The night after you saved her from the wolves attack, she gave you the jewel, as a return of the favor of saving her life. I trust you remember this?"

"Yes, I do." As a matter of fact, he remembered those moments with Rin very clearly.

"That night, she made a wish. Unconsciously, yes, but she still made it." Sesshoumaru's eyes widened with interest. "She wished to by your side forever and for you to love her as mush as she loved you. The jewel of course won't disappear before the wish is done, but none could sense it."

"But why hadn't it disappeared before… I mean; I love her with my soul! I've longed her so much for the past ten years and now she's …gone"

"Remember, she wished for you to love her as much as she did. She died for you. The wish was finally granted completely when you said you would trade fates with her… now you know what you don't have. You need her. You lust for her. As much as she did you. Now it is granted. But she also wished to be by your side forever… it was quite unfortunate she passed away though-"

"Can you make her live again?" Sesshoumaru snapped.

"Well yes, but-"

"I don't care, just make her live again."

"But you must unders-"

"I said I don't care. Just make her live. I will make sure her wishes are fulfilled; I will live for it. Now just do it." Sesshoumaru said. His eyes could tell her how badly he needed the woman to live.

"Very well then." With that, she touched the crystal engaging Rin, making it shatter. Rin fell onto Sesshoumaru's arms. Rin was still motionless as he knelt down to put her on the floor. Sesshoumaru looked up to ask the priestess of her state, but she had vanished, and so was the pink fog surrounding them. He returned to reality.

Sesshoumaru looked down to Rin, who was now bloody once again. Suddenly, she gasped sharply taking air into her empty lungs. Her russet eyes opened slightly to meet Sesshoumaru's amber ones for a moment, then closed once again. Sesshoumaru panicked for a moment, but then realized that she was breathing. Finally she was there, with him waiting by her side to make her wish come true. `Like it should be forever.'

Without warning, the jewel rose into the air from Rin's necklace and shattered into pieces that scattered throughout the land once again.

Sesshoumaru stood up, with an unconscious Rin on his arms. He summoned his flying cloud and set off to his castle. `To make her wishes come true… as she has fulfilled mine.'

End of Chapter twelve

A/N: kumi: omg, thank goodness!! I finally finished after the 734 writer's block I got though it. I am so sorry to have taken so long!!! Just for you to be happy, I have an aching sunburn all over my back that can't let me think straight. (So if you wanted for me to feel pain, thank no sun block on my skin!!) aannnyyyywayyyyyyy… I hope to write the next chapters faster.

sess: (looks at kumi less coldly) then hurry up an write!!

kumi: ok, ok, don't kill me yet.

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