InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Vow ❯ Reminscing ( Chapter 9 )

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Hey! Sorry for the cuttoff last time but i just felt like ending it because If I wrote more than it would be the chapter that never ends. And I would like to thank 'Doujo' for being my ONLY REVIEWER!!! god I can't believe how stingy u guys are! On ff I have close to 200 reviews already! oh well, hey I heard about that fanfic contest should I enter this?
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BROKEN VOW
chapter nine: Reminiscing
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Yuta sat up in bed. It was really late. The four of them had made their way back to the castle, Yuta riding with Inuyasha, because Inuyasha had refused to let her and Hiroaki share the same horse. Yuta wasn't sure what time it was but she had woken up about an hour ago and could not go back to sleep. She ran her hands through her hair and then swooped back around to rub her eyes. It was dark. The moonlight through the huge window lit up the large room, creating rather creepy shadows. Not like Yuta was scared...well a little creeped out. Yuta sighed and pulled the blankets off of her. She placed her feet down onto the icy floors and got up. Yuta stretched lazily and reached for a candle. She lit the wick and then headed out of her room and into the hall. It was so creepy here. The long halls reminded her of something out of 'The Shinning.'

"Where to go?" she asked herself. Just then her stomach rumbled. "I guess to the kitchen now huh?" Yuta headed down the hall and down the flight of stairs that led down to the kitchens, Her candle and the moonlight as her only guide. Good thing she could always see in the dark better than anyone else could. Maybe that had something to do with being a hanyou. Yuta made a miner note to ask Inuyasha about that. Yuta stepped down through another hall with tapestries on each side. It was darker in here. There was no longer any windows. Yuta stepped on a loose floorboard that squeaked and caused her to jump and drop her candle. Lucky it landed with it's bottom down and very little wax had spilled from it. Yuta bent down to reach for it and froze. -bump,bump,bump- the sound of hurried footsteps crossed behind her. Yuta could feel the fear alight inside her. She turned around, but could not see anything. Yuta kept walking forward. Maybe she was hearing things. She was tired and it was late-

-Bump,bump,bump- Yuta swung around and punched through the air. She hit nothing. Yuta held up the candle, cursing the fact that she was in an era without electricty. Still she could see nothing. Yuta swallowed the lump in her throat and charged back toward the staircase. "Whose there?" she called bitterly.

No anwser.

"I said who the fuck is there? It's late, I can't sleep and I'm hungry so you really don't want to piss me off!" Still silence. Yuta sighed. Maybe she was hearing things. She was tired and no one was there. She couldn't hear them and she couldn't smell them, but she still felt like eyes where watching her. Yuta shrugged it off and hurried to the kitchen, slaming the door behind her. Very faintly at the exact moment of the door slamming the floorboard squeaked once more...

Yuta sighed at the small fire in the huge fireplace. Above it hung a large cauldron, black with char. Yuta look around. 'Where can I get something to eat in this joint?' she flipped through cobbards and really couldn't find anything to eat that didn't have to be cooked. Not that she couldn't cook, she had learned alot from her mother about cooking but looking at the time and the utenciles it would be better to work in day light. Yuta settled with a block of bread and a glass of milk from a rather early-looking frezzer. Yuta sat down, with her back turned to the door a ripped a peice of bread off and dipped into the milk. Then ate it(A/N i did this when I was little w/ french bread and it was pretty good!) A rather bright light lit up behind her and Yuta turned to face it, squinting at the man's form. The man jumped and then sniffed at the air. He sighed deeply. "Oh Yuta! Gods you scared the crap out of me!" exclaimed Inuyasha letting the door close and then stepped forward. "What are you doing here?"

Yuta shrugged holding up her glass of milk. "Couldn't sleep, got hungry," she sighed. Inuyasha nodded, lighting up a few more torches. It was alot brighter now, almost as bright as a room at home. Inuyasha took a cup and poured himself some milk. He sat down across from her and eyed her snack. "Plain bread?"

Yuta shrugged again. "Beats cooking. Besides I really don't feel like making anything now-unless-no never mind"

Inuyasha looked up questionly. "What?"

"No well, I was just thinking I could really go for a bowl of ramen right now,"

Inuyasha almost choked on his drink. He looked up to Yuta smiling widely. "You like ramen?"

Yuta stared at him with wide eyes. "Like it? LOVE IT!! I freakin' go through 20 packages a week! It drives mom nuts!"

Inuyasha still grinning got up from the table. He lifted up a candle and nugged his head toward a door. Yuta slid off her chair and followed him in wonder. "Where are we going?" she asked as he took them through the pantry to another door. Inuyasha picked the lock expertly with a claw and the pushed open the door. He held up the candle and once again nugged his head toward some large crates. Yuta slowly walked in and took the sheet off of the crate. She couldn't really see what was written on them but the froze when she felt them. 'That feels like cardboard...' Yuta bent down to read the side of the box.

'MARUCHAN RAMEN, CHICKEN FLAVOR'

Yuta's eyes widend as she opened the box to see that they were all crate fulls of ramen. Yuta felt like she could die. Looking around she saw other crates, but these were empty. Yuta turned around in wide eyed happiness. She felt like a little girl being told they were going to Disneyland. Better they were going to live in Disneyland! She couldn't speak. Yuta swallowed quickly. "How the hell did you get this?" she asked him gaily.

Inuyasha smiled and leaned against the wood door frame. "When your mother moved in with me, your grandmother sent us crates full of ramen seeing as they're my favorite. Once this whole cellar was full." he added in an after thought.

Yuta looked at him and down to the package in hand. "If this is your favorite and it's fifteen years old then why the hell are they still here?"

Inuyasha shrugged looking embaressed. He looked down and then back up to Yuta thanking the gods that It was too dark for her to see him blush. "I, um, well Kagome always did the cooking. I never learned how to cook the packages. Only the instants," he nodded over to the empty crates.

"Couldn't you ask Sango how to cook them?"

Inuyasha just shrugged again. "I really didn't want to bother her with something as stupid as ramen(A/N o my freakin' god! never expect to hear that!)

Yuta frowned. "Ramen is anything but stupid." She held up the package and inspected it. Yuta grinned widely looking up to her father. "Do you think these are still good?"

"They should be, why?"

"Cause unlike my proud father, I know how to cook it. Do you want some?"

Inuyasha grinned back. "Of course!" Yuta grabed the intire case and headed up after her father.
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Kagome had reached Miroku's and Sango's hut about half an hour after she had followed Euiko and the others off the trail. It was late now. Darkness had swallowed up the day light. She sat in the front room with Sango and Miroku, reminesing about their many adventures and troubles. Kagome huddled next to the fire in hopes to keep from freezing in the cold night. She looked up to her friends, who held each other so lovingly. So warm, so content they looked. Kagome longed to feel that way again. To have someone she loved hold her like they would never let go. Alas, Kagome doubted she would ever feel that way again. At least it was some comfort knowing that her friends had found true love.
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Kagome came down the hill followed by the siblings. A large cabin met her sight and she gasped at all the children in the front yard. Around the side of the house came a tall form of a man with a dark ponytail and dark clothes. Under his arm he carried a bundle of logs, as did the boy behind him. Kagome smiled idely when she saw his face. "WELL IF IT ISN"T THE LEGENARY LECHEROUS MONK MIROKU!" she called mirthfully as he turned to look at her.

He smiled widely as well and waved for her to come down. Kagome walked down with Arisa and Euiko. Miroku handed his wood to Amane and hugged Kagome when she reached him. It was brief and comforting, but Kagome was utterily shocked when there was no slipping of hands. "Well that's a first," she told him as they pulled away.

"What is?"

"The fact that you had a perfect chance to grope me but didn't."

Miroku smiled. "Aww Kagome that was the old Miroku. I'm loyal now to only one woman. I'm a changed man," he said tilting his head up proudly. Just that second an out burst of coughing broke out around them and very clearly the words "Yeah Right!" and "Sure!" reached their ears. Kagome started to giggle as Miroku slowly turned around. "Was I asking for your comments?" he asked his children jokingly.

An outburst of laughter met them. Miroku turned around rolling his eyes. "Out of the mouth of babes..."

"Ahem" came the sound of someone clearing their throat from the house. Kagome turned around to face a rather rosy cheeked Sango, With a girl toddler resting on her hip. Kagome smiled and rushed forward to hug her. But then she did find the obstical of the fact that Sango was as big as a house! They somehow managed it though. Kagome hung on to her friend. She had missed her so much. Sango had been the best friend she had ever had, and now she had a family and another child on the way. Tears pratically came to her eyes. Kagome pulled away about five minuets later to see a teary eyed Sango and a rather distressed looking tot. Kagome smiled. She didn't know what to say. She looked down to Sango's over grown belly and rubbed the top. "What number is this may I ask?"

Sango chuckled and placed her free hand on her belly. "Number twelve."

Kagome looked around to Miroku wide eyed. 'I guess they really did have some fun.' "TWELVE!! Twelve times Miroku?!" Kagome looked back to Sango. "You poor thing." Sango just laughed. She shifted the child on her arm. "Well Eizan and Euiko were twins so I've only been through eleven pregnancies-"

"So far," came Miroku's voice as he re-picked up the wood.

"'So Far'?" asked Kagome perposterously.

Sango shrugged and then sent a light glare toward her husband. "I think he's trying to re-populate the demon exterminators village..." Sango sighed and then smiled again. "Well don't stay out here, come in, we've missed you so much..."
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The sound of crying met the three adults' ears. Miroku let go of Sango before giving her a chaste kiss in the cheek, and headed up the staires to comfort poor Hana. Sango watched him and then turned back to Kagome. She smiled and then moved closer to her. She nudged her shoulder against her's. "So, how have you been fairing these last fifteen years?"

Kagome sighed. She stared deep into the flames of the fire. 'Should I tell Sango about how horrible my life has been over the past years?' The heartships of raising a child alone in her era? The fact that she hadn't been completely happy since the last day she had spent with Inuyasha? Kagome looked into Sango's deep chocolate eyes. "You've seen Yuta. You should know that raising a child alone is no fun."

Sango nodded. "Yes I have seen Yuta. She's the very essence of Inuyasha, even though she looks like you. Too bad you didn't get to meet Hiroaki. He seems very taken with her. Miroku has the strange idea that in a couple years we'll be grandparents."

Kagome laughed at that. "My Yuta? In love with a boy? Hmmm, never would have thought that right now. God they grow up fast don't they?"

Sango nodded. "Yes they sure do." Silence took over the room. Only the cackle of the flames. Sango looked back to Kagome. She had to ask. They had come so close to the subject all day but never went into it. "Kagome, you are not the girl I once knew. There is no longer that spark in your eye. You know, you were the string that held our group together. We had to force ourselves to remain friends. It was you that always brought those smiles to our faces. If raising a child alone was so hard for you, and your eyes look so despaired, then why did you leave all those years ago? Why did you never tell Yuta of our past? That should have been you to tell her about Inuyasha, not me."

Kagome felt the hot tears prick her eyes once more. When she spoke her voice cracked. "It-I should've told Yuta long ago, but I was just afraid she would've jumped down the well and forget about me as well."

Sango looked troubled. "Forget about you? Kagome, what happened fifteen years ago?" Kagome looked back into the flames. She had not spoken of it in fifteen years. No one but her mother and Souta knew what had happened. Kagome felt a tear roll down her cheek. She looked blearily to Sango before crying onto her shoulder. "He didn't want me. He told me to leave that he needed a new life, that didn't include me or the baby."

"What?!"
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Kagome headed into the study. This castle was huge. She was constantly getting lost in it. Inuyasha had been the new lord of the Western Lands for about two weeks now, and he was no longer as carefree as he was with her. The veil of hate and dread had spread back over him. He was now like he was right after she had freed him from the Goshinboku, full of hate and vengence. Except to her that is. He had always been gentler in dealing with Kagome. Inuyasha had told her to meet him in the study at ten o'clock in the morning. After getting lost once, Kagome found herself finally in the right corridor and she pushed open the door to the study. Kagome scanned the room for her silver haired love, but could not find him. Just then Kagome realized that the back of the chair was facing her. She walked over to it slowly.

"Inuyasha?"

The chair turned around but it was not Inuyasha. Instead it was Nobuhiko, the ancient advisor of Inuyasha's father and brother. Kagome's hand went to her heart and then lowered. "Oh Nobuhiko, You scared me. Where is Inuyasha?"

Nobuhiko looked down to his inclapsed fingers. He seemed sad. Kagome waved her hand in front of the old man. "Nobuhiko? Are you alright?"

The old man sighed and then looked up into Kagome's eyes. Their icy blue sent shivers down her spine. "Troubling business, dear Kagome," he said looking back down to his hands. This seemed to remind Kagome of Myoga and his troubling news. She didn't like it.

"What is it?"

His grip tightened."I don't know how to say this so I'm just going to put it bluntly. It seems the Lord wants you out of his castle."

Kagome's blue eyes widened in shock. "What?" she gasped out "What are you talking about?"

Nobuhiko sighed once more and picked up the letter on the desk and handed it to Kagome. She scanned it and then gasped dropping the letter. She backed up into a collum. "No," she said. "No, this is fake. It's not real. Inuyasha wouldn't do this to me..."

"Well I'm sorry Lady Kagome but You have seen the way he's been acting lately. He's not himself. He doesn't want this position-"

"And what does that have to do with him wanting me to leave?"

"I'm not sure but I say you better go-"

Kagome felt anger rushing through her vains as the old man grabed her arm firmly. She shook him off and grabed him by the collar. "No, I'm not going anywhere. You made this up, Why do you want me gone?"

"I-don't, he did, now please let go of me." choked the old man.

Kagome just held tighter. "Not until I see Inuyasha!" Kagome felt a firm grip grab her from behind her and twist her around. She let go of Nobuhiko and was faced with the menacing glare of her mate. Kagome gasped. He had never acted like this before, except in his full demon form, but his eyes did not hold a tint of red. He held onto her arms tightly. Kagome could feel them starting to bruise. "Inuyasha, let go." She could not sit him or he would land on top of her. What was wrong with him? For the first time that he was ever in his natural state Kagome felt pure fear from his presence. His intense eyes turned to the old advisor.

"Leave us," he seethed to him and the old man scurried out of the room as fast as possible. He then looked back to Kagome. Shudders flew down her spine.

"Inu-yasha, what's happened? Why are you acting like this? Is what the letter said true?" squeaked Kagome. Inuyasha growled and pushed her down into a seat. He then swung over to another seat and instead of sitting just stood.

He looked back to her. His amber eyes full of fire. "Yes, it's all true."

Kagome felt on the verge of crying. "Why?" it was the only thing she could say. She was shocked beyond all doubt. What was happening to them? Inuyasha just glared. He glared at anything and everything ecspecially Kagome. "Why? Why Kagome? I'll tell You why. You sicken me. Your very essence is suffocating me. I feel the need to want a new life. I have been given power and I intend to use it. And it will be impossible for me to manage that and have a girl follow me around. You are what makes me weak. Therefor I must rid myself of you."

Kagome just shook her head. "No, No you don't mean this Inuyasha. We are not weak together. We are weak apart. It was the both of us that defeated Naraku. Our love has made us strong!"

"Love has made me weak. I will not be weak. I will not let the blood line be spoiled any futher in making you my wife. Demons rule over the western lands, not humans."

Kagome stood up. "Is this what this is about? You not wanting to wreak your stupid blood line? Maybe you've forgot Inuyasha, but in 500 years there are no demons! They've all been wiped out or their blood has been decreased by marring Humans! In 500 years it will not matter if I'm your wife because there wont be any demons left! And Love has done everything but make you weak! It has made us stronger." Kagome wraped her arms around Inuyasha. "I love you Inuyasha," she cried into his shoulder. Inuyasha made a move as if to stroke her hair but instead he gripped onto her hands and pushed her against the wall. He pinned her so she couldn't move. His hands gripped tightly to her wrist. His claws dug into her flesh and a small river of blood trickled down her arm. Kagome looked up in terror. This could not be the same man.

"You Kagome are nothing but an object of lust. Nothing more nothing less. We've had our fun, now it's over. Now I want you out of my castle." He let go of her and stormed out of the the room. Kagome sunk down on to the floor. She pulled her knees closer to her. This could not be happening. He had never loved her. She was only a plaything. Kagome's face sunk in shame and heartbreak and cried....
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Kagome gripped tightly onto Sango as she revealed the entire memory to her. She hadn't told anyone in a great length of time. She had only let it consume her, and eat away at her already broken heart. She only talked brave. She had taken from the way Inuyasha used to act, with a tough facade and just let life pass her by. Kagome sobbed into Sango's clothes as the woman held her and rubbed her back. "I'm so sorry Kagome, I never knew."

"No one did. I haven't told anybody but my mother. Oh Sango! Every night I re-dream that awful memeory! It haunts me! It won't go away. I can't make it leave. No matter how much I push it away it just comes back! Sometimes I can't even look at Yuta because she reminds me of him. And now he just acts like it's no big thing and welcomes Yuta into his life with open arms! I don't see what happened to him...he just changed.."

Sango pulled Kagome away from her and looked into her eyes. "Kagome, Inuyasha hasn't been at all different since you left him. I mean, he's never acted the way you've said. Inuyasha has been as depressed as you. He's been heart broken for the past fifteen years. He thinks you left him. He doesn't want us to know but he misses you deeply, but we can all tell. He hasn't had a true smile until he met Yuta."

"No, he wanted me gone," responded Kagome, shaking her head and wiping her eyes.

Sango thought for a moment. "You said that Inuyasha didn't want you or the baby and by the way he talked in your memory it seems as though he knew you were pregnant. But when he came here to get Yuta he didn't know anything about it. He ran in here thinking you had come back to him."

Kagome looked at her friend wide eyed. She remembered his words from last night. "How could you not tell me I fathered a child?" He hadn't known...but maybe he didn't to begin with...Kagome stuffed her face into her hands. She was so confused. One minuet he wanted her, then he didn't, and then according to Sango he missed her. Nothing made sense....

Sango pulled Kagome's face away from her hands and forced her to look at her. "Kagome, do you still love him?"

Kagome looked down to the fire. 'YES' screamed her head. 'YES! YOU LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD!' Kagome felt a fresh train of tears start. She looked up to Sango. She nodded slowly. "I never stopped."

Sango smiled slightly. "Then go after him." she said simply.

Kagome looked stunned. 'What did that mean?' "What?"

Sango's hands went to her belly. She looked back up to Kagome and smiled. She reached for Kagome's hand and brought it down to her lower belly. A small bump kicked right into Kagome's hand. "You feel that Kagome?" asked Sango. "I never thought I would have children. I thought I would be an old prude and never fall in love. I had my family and my village and my life was wonderful." Sango's voice cracked briefly. "Kagome my life was ripped from me. My family was ripped from me. I couldn't save them. I couldn't do anything. Then you guys came along. It started out just with me searching for vengence and to save my brother but that didn't last long. You became my family. I fell in love, I lived, I felt saved, But in the end I couldn't save Kohaku..." Sango despratly tried to keep the tears back. Kagome was cring again too. "Kagome I couldn't save my brother. Maybe if things had turned out different..." Sango wiped away a tear. "Kagome after Kohaku's death, I felt so guilty. Like it was my fault. Like I hadn't did my best to hunt for him. I don't want you to feel that way. Nobody should. I think that you should give Inuyasha a real chance to know his daughter and then go back to him. I don't believe Inuyasha would do something like that. Give Inuyasha the chance to be a father and a husband. Don't live with the loss I have lived with."

Sango slowly got up reached for the bowl on the table. She leveled herself and then smiled briefly before entering into the hall. Kagome was beyond shocked. Did Inuyasha still want her? Did he really mean everything that was said fifteen years ago? Was it all some cruel hoax...? Kagome felt like she knew nothing. Nothing. Kagome stared into the flames of the fire once more. They licked the sides of their walls in a desprate attempt to escape. 'That's how I feel..'But then another thought came to mind. The entire reason she was here. Yuta. Should she give Inuyasha the chance to be a father, like Sango had suggested? Should she forgive him and forget about all these past years where she had never really lived? Kagome highly doubted she could forget everything. "'You, Kagome, are nothing but an object of lust. Nothing more, nothing less...'"

It had been so unlike him. But with all the stress and everything they had been going through, Inuyasha had not been himself. The title had changed him for the worst. But just maybe if that really had been Inuyasha who had told her to go, than maybe, just maybe, Yuta could change him back....

The sound of a shattering plate and a loud gasp broke Kagome's chain of thought. Kagome hurriedly stood up and headed into the hall. There in the dark light of the moonlight, stood Sango, froze, one hand against the wall to support herself. "Sango?" Sango turned around slowly with her other hand clapsed onto her stomach. Something was glistining in the moonlight on the floor. It didn't take long for Kagome to realize what was happening. Sango was going into labor...
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hehe I so through you off didn't I? At first I had thought about putting this into another chapter and making u wait but somewhere between what I had written on paper and between processing and typing, it turned into Kagome's memories. Do you guys get what's going on now? Some of you have already figured it out and I have to praise you reviewers for figuring it out a loooooonnnnggg time ago. If you still don't get it, just wait. In about 3 chapters I'll reveal what happened between both of them. God this chapter started out so happY ((Shudders at the thougtht of eating 15 yr old ramen)) and it turned into such a sad one...oh well I'm not ashamed to admit this But I cried..yes me the brave authoress cried while writting this sequence, DAMNIT!! why do I have to act out scenes? Who knows. SO do you guys think I should enter the contest or what? that would mean you would get quicker updates! Please review and tell me!
-HPangel