InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ By Request ❯ My Innocent ( Chapter 2 )
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By: LuxKen27 
Written for Langus, who requested “Sess/(older)Rin” during the LJ drabble meme. Visit my LJ - LuxKen27 - for details.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.20.2009 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 800 | Status: Completed
Written for Langus, who requested “Sess/(older)Rin” during the LJ drabble meme. Visit my LJ - LuxKen27 - for details.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.20.2009 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 800 | Status: Completed
Title: My Innocent
Author: LuxKen27
Rating: T
Warnings: Angst
Word Count: 1171
Summary: Canon, post-manga. Rin struggles to admit to Sesshoumaru that her feelings for him have changed.
Author’s Note: Written for Langus, who requested “Sess/(older)Rin” during the LJ drabble meme. Inspired, in part, by “Innocence” [song] © 2007 Avril Lavigne & Evan Taubenfeld
Disclaimer: The Inuyasha concept, story, and characters are copyright Rumiko Takahashi and Viz Media.
She glanced up, a warm flush rising up the back of her neck. Her heart beat painfully in her chest as she gazed at him, greedily tracing the lines of his face, the turn of his shoulder, the elaborateness of his ensemble. Sitting this way – head turned away from her, eyes closed – he appeared no different from the first day she’d seen him, ten years ago in that forest clearing. It was his usual stance during these all-too-infrequent visits – he found the need to be chaperoned around her quite distasteful – so why was this time different from the last?
“Rin,” he said, breaking the silence of the room. “What ails you?”
She flushed again, tipping her head to her chest, clasping the cup even tighter in her hands.
I can’t tell him. I can’t admit to this – he’d never come back if he knew.
“You are terrible at keeping secrets,” he continued, his tone calm, if disinterested.
“My lord,” she began, her breath catching in her throat. She cast a quick glance to her left, where Kaede sat in the corner, sorting herbs. She bit her lip, willing the old miko to look up. If she was to speak of such a personal matter, she’d rather not have an audience.
Mercifully, Kaede appeared to receive her telepathic messages. She returned Rin’s troubled glance with a knowing nod, pushing her baskets away and standing up. “Please excuse me, Lord Sesshoumaru,” she murmured, shuffling towards the door.
Sesshoumaru didn’t acknowledge her as she passed, his eyes still closed, his head turned away. As soon as the door covering fluttered closed, however, he spoke.
“Rin.”
She shuddered under the imperious tone. With one word, he managed to convey multiple meanings: that he wanted to know what was bothering her; that he realized it was serious if she dismissed Kaede; that his interest had now been piqued to the point of outright demand.
She found herself powerless to resist his commands, even though she was no longer a child, subject to his severe guardianship.
She gulped the rest of the tea, the hot liquid scalding her throat on the way down. “My lord,” she tried again. “Something has…happened.”
Sesshoumaru was silent. He had not moved once since settling against the wall of the tiny hut, and he didn’t appear inclined to do so anytime soon.
Rin found the courage to face him, curious yet somehow afraid of his reaction. “A village boy tried to kiss me,” she burst out.
“Oh?” he mused.
“Yes,” she sighed mournfully, letting her eyes drop slightly.
She sucked in a breath when his hand found the hilt of Bakusaiga. “Did he hurt you?” he asked, his voice betraying no hint of emotion.
“No,” she replied, her heart fluttering in her chest. “It’s just…”
Oh, God, how can I say this to him?
“What?” he prompted after a long pause.
She raised her eyes, wanting to take in the peacefulness of his expression one last time. If she said this, nothing would ever be the same between them again – of that she was certain.
“I wanted my first kiss to be from you,” she admitted softly.
His eyes shot open, sharp and surprised; his hand tightened around his sword.
Rin’s face flamed as her eyes fell to the floor. Her heart beat painfully in her chest; her breath constricted as her throat closed over tears. I knew it, I knew it, she thought wildly. There’s no way he could ever understand.
Of course, she hardly understood herself what had come over her. She had no idea when these feelings for him had developed; one day, she just woke up and realized she was in love with her lord – deeply, helplessly, painfully in love with him. He was the standard by which she unconsciously measured all others – and no human man could ever be his equal.
But she could never have him. He was a great taiyoukai, one who despised the human race as lower than the ground he treaded. The fact that he still deigned to visit her was something of a small miracle, though this turn of events would most certainly put an end to such indulgence.
She squirmed as she felt the intensity of his gaze fall over her, biting her lips to keep her tears inside. She toyed with the cup in front of her, growing increasingly warm and uncomfortable as the silence between them lingered. She began to feel gangly and awkward as she sat there, under his assessing stare.
She knew he would break her heart, but she wasn’t going to apologize for admitting her feelings. If he’d taught her nothing else in their short time of travelling together, it was to make up her mind and stand by her convictions.
There was a rustle at the door. “My lord,” Jaken said in his best groveling tone. “It grows late. Can we not take our leave now?”
Sesshoumaru stood, and Rin released a breath she didn’t realize she was holding.
Would he say nothing?
“Leave us, Jaken,” he said dismissively, casting his golden gaze towards the downcast Rin once again.
She gulped under the weight of his stare, pushing herself up on shaking legs. Don’t go, she wanted to say. Don’t leave me here. Don’t tell me you don’t love me, that you could never love me. She took a deep breath, finding courage in her conviction. Don’t tell me I’m still a child in your eyes.
She raised her chin, meeting his gaze directly. Whatever she expected to see there – censure, disapproval, outright horror – was not what she found.
He covered the space between them in two strides, and before she realized it, she was swept away in his kiss.
Her heart stopped as she felt the gentle press of his lips against hers. She melted, reaching for him blindly, paying no heed to the sharp metal of his armor. He held her apart, however, one hand snaking over her neck, his thumb tracing the line of her jaw, his claws mingling in her hair momentarily before he pulled away.
“My lord?” she breathed, her eyelids fluttering open as her hands grasped his arms, desperately wanting to hold him in place.
He gave her an enigmatic smile, twirling a lock of hair through his fingers as he withdrew completely.
She exhaled sharply, bewildered and flustered, as he turned away from her and started for the door.
“Does this mean you’ll still return?” she called after him, one hand curling into the silk of her kimono, closing over her heart.
He glanced back at her as he raised the covering of the door. “Have I given you any reason to think otherwise?” he murmured.
Author: LuxKen27
Rating: T
Warnings: Angst
Word Count: 1171
Summary: Canon, post-manga. Rin struggles to admit to Sesshoumaru that her feelings for him have changed.
Author’s Note: Written for Langus, who requested “Sess/(older)Rin” during the LJ drabble meme. Inspired, in part, by “Innocence” [song] © 2007 Avril Lavigne & Evan Taubenfeld
Disclaimer: The Inuyasha concept, story, and characters are copyright Rumiko Takahashi and Viz Media.
~*~
Rin curled her shaking hands around her cup, staring down into the depths of the hot liquid. She took a deep breath, attempting to calm herself. This is ridiculous, she thought, bringing the tea to her lips for a dainty sip, her eyes still averted from her companion. It’s merely Lord Sesshoumaru.She glanced up, a warm flush rising up the back of her neck. Her heart beat painfully in her chest as she gazed at him, greedily tracing the lines of his face, the turn of his shoulder, the elaborateness of his ensemble. Sitting this way – head turned away from her, eyes closed – he appeared no different from the first day she’d seen him, ten years ago in that forest clearing. It was his usual stance during these all-too-infrequent visits – he found the need to be chaperoned around her quite distasteful – so why was this time different from the last?
“Rin,” he said, breaking the silence of the room. “What ails you?”
She flushed again, tipping her head to her chest, clasping the cup even tighter in her hands.
I can’t tell him. I can’t admit to this – he’d never come back if he knew.
“You are terrible at keeping secrets,” he continued, his tone calm, if disinterested.
“My lord,” she began, her breath catching in her throat. She cast a quick glance to her left, where Kaede sat in the corner, sorting herbs. She bit her lip, willing the old miko to look up. If she was to speak of such a personal matter, she’d rather not have an audience.
Mercifully, Kaede appeared to receive her telepathic messages. She returned Rin’s troubled glance with a knowing nod, pushing her baskets away and standing up. “Please excuse me, Lord Sesshoumaru,” she murmured, shuffling towards the door.
Sesshoumaru didn’t acknowledge her as she passed, his eyes still closed, his head turned away. As soon as the door covering fluttered closed, however, he spoke.
“Rin.”
She shuddered under the imperious tone. With one word, he managed to convey multiple meanings: that he wanted to know what was bothering her; that he realized it was serious if she dismissed Kaede; that his interest had now been piqued to the point of outright demand.
She found herself powerless to resist his commands, even though she was no longer a child, subject to his severe guardianship.
She gulped the rest of the tea, the hot liquid scalding her throat on the way down. “My lord,” she tried again. “Something has…happened.”
Sesshoumaru was silent. He had not moved once since settling against the wall of the tiny hut, and he didn’t appear inclined to do so anytime soon.
Rin found the courage to face him, curious yet somehow afraid of his reaction. “A village boy tried to kiss me,” she burst out.
“Oh?” he mused.
“Yes,” she sighed mournfully, letting her eyes drop slightly.
She sucked in a breath when his hand found the hilt of Bakusaiga. “Did he hurt you?” he asked, his voice betraying no hint of emotion.
“No,” she replied, her heart fluttering in her chest. “It’s just…”
Oh, God, how can I say this to him?
“What?” he prompted after a long pause.
She raised her eyes, wanting to take in the peacefulness of his expression one last time. If she said this, nothing would ever be the same between them again – of that she was certain.
“I wanted my first kiss to be from you,” she admitted softly.
His eyes shot open, sharp and surprised; his hand tightened around his sword.
Rin’s face flamed as her eyes fell to the floor. Her heart beat painfully in her chest; her breath constricted as her throat closed over tears. I knew it, I knew it, she thought wildly. There’s no way he could ever understand.
Of course, she hardly understood herself what had come over her. She had no idea when these feelings for him had developed; one day, she just woke up and realized she was in love with her lord – deeply, helplessly, painfully in love with him. He was the standard by which she unconsciously measured all others – and no human man could ever be his equal.
But she could never have him. He was a great taiyoukai, one who despised the human race as lower than the ground he treaded. The fact that he still deigned to visit her was something of a small miracle, though this turn of events would most certainly put an end to such indulgence.
She squirmed as she felt the intensity of his gaze fall over her, biting her lips to keep her tears inside. She toyed with the cup in front of her, growing increasingly warm and uncomfortable as the silence between them lingered. She began to feel gangly and awkward as she sat there, under his assessing stare.
She knew he would break her heart, but she wasn’t going to apologize for admitting her feelings. If he’d taught her nothing else in their short time of travelling together, it was to make up her mind and stand by her convictions.
There was a rustle at the door. “My lord,” Jaken said in his best groveling tone. “It grows late. Can we not take our leave now?”
Sesshoumaru stood, and Rin released a breath she didn’t realize she was holding.
Would he say nothing?
“Leave us, Jaken,” he said dismissively, casting his golden gaze towards the downcast Rin once again.
She gulped under the weight of his stare, pushing herself up on shaking legs. Don’t go, she wanted to say. Don’t leave me here. Don’t tell me you don’t love me, that you could never love me. She took a deep breath, finding courage in her conviction. Don’t tell me I’m still a child in your eyes.
She raised her chin, meeting his gaze directly. Whatever she expected to see there – censure, disapproval, outright horror – was not what she found.
He covered the space between them in two strides, and before she realized it, she was swept away in his kiss.
Her heart stopped as she felt the gentle press of his lips against hers. She melted, reaching for him blindly, paying no heed to the sharp metal of his armor. He held her apart, however, one hand snaking over her neck, his thumb tracing the line of her jaw, his claws mingling in her hair momentarily before he pulled away.
“My lord?” she breathed, her eyelids fluttering open as her hands grasped his arms, desperately wanting to hold him in place.
He gave her an enigmatic smile, twirling a lock of hair through his fingers as he withdrew completely.
She exhaled sharply, bewildered and flustered, as he turned away from her and started for the door.
“Does this mean you’ll still return?” she called after him, one hand curling into the silk of her kimono, closing over her heart.
He glanced back at her as he raised the covering of the door. “Have I given you any reason to think otherwise?” he murmured.