InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Calamity's Breach ❯ Village ( Chapter 2 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

 
 
It was mid-morning when AhUn set down in the woodland with the two riders perched on his scaly back, using the trees to conceal them from the small village laying about a hundred yards away. Sniffing delicately, the dragon tasted the air, picking up the scent of burning wood, sweat, meat, and human the most prominent of them all. It was an action he was used to performing, making sure nothing was close that would threaten the girl or any humans that may have wandered close by and seen them land.
He felt one of the riders slide off his back and both his heads twisted about to see the young woman now on the ground.
Hefting a small pack over her shoulder, Rin looked about her, spotting the village easily through the leaves and branches. Smiling in anticipation, she patted the dragon's side and clasped the hand of her guard as a way of good-bye.
“Be good, Rin-sama. And remember to be back here by sunset,” Keikai said while gently squeezing her small hand.
Rin nodded vigorously. “You will wait here for me, Keikai-sempai?”
“Hai. We shall be here upon your return.”
Rin gave each of them a heart warming smile then turned and walked with a slight bounce in her step towards the village, humming a mindless tune to herself.
She liked going to the village, a lot. She was always able to see her friends and be among her own kind. Not that she minded living with youkai, for Rin was not one to be prejudiced due to species, but it was still nice to be among humans that accepted her. In her early years she had not been accepted by humans, having been an orphan. But these people did not care if she was an orphan or not. Like her, they determined a person's standing by attitude and actions, not birth and occurrences that were beyond their control.
The village consisted of several wooden houses spread out before a quilt of water with grass pathways, the pathways constructing squares that held the liquid. It always reminded Rin of a chess board and her eyes wandered from there up the forested hill where the shrine was located. A long line of stairs led up to the temple and she could faintly see the roof of the building but nothing else. Setting her feet on the dusty road that ran through the heart of the village, she continued her bouncy gait, not once faltering in her song.
She came to the village at least once every two weeks, a deal that had been made by both the Lady and Lord and those that had completed the Shikon no Tama. The ward of the Western Lands went there to be taught by the two mikos, the monk, and the taijiya; learning about rituals, faith, youkai, healing, and even things about the future.
She had known them since before she had gone to live with Sesshomaru in his fortress, having had several run-ins with them when her and the youkai had traveled across the lands searching for Naraku.
Together they had been able to slay the hanyou, though how exactly Rin did not know, and reconstruct the Shikon no Tama. The Shikon no Tama was gone now, having been purified by the younger of the two mikos and used for some wish. Rin wasn't sure what the wish had been, for Sesshomaru had left right after Naraku was slain, not interested in the jewel or what the others did with it.
The band of Shikon hunters now lived in this village and Rin had grown close to them over the years.
She had first begun her studies with them a year after Naraku had been slain, when the Lady of the Western Lands had somehow managed to persuade Sesshomaru to let Rin go there. While Sesshomaru had reached a compromise with his half brother and basically wasn't going to try and kill him anymore, he had been against the idea of sending his ward to a human village to learn from them. But the Lady had changed his mind, convincing him that Rin could learn lots from the Shikon hunters that she could not learn in his estate. So Sesshomaru had agreed finally and Rin was very thankful to the Lady for doing that for her.
She came within sight of the villagers and the people walking about spotted her and gave her a friendly bow, smiling in genuine affection. Children racing about with sticks paused in their course to wave and shout at her before taking off again. Wives and daughters from inside houses stuck their heads out the windows and doors and greeted her shyly.
Rin returned each greeting with an appreciative wave and beaming smile, a warm glow infusing her system.
They did stop long enough to welcome her back but she did not disturb them so much that they broke off from their tasks to stand and gawk at her. The usual flow of the village did not come crashing to a halt due to her appearance and to her that was the ultimate test of how accepted she had become. They viewed her as another citizen, a citizen that came and went and wandered but always came back.
Their acceptance was partly on account of the Shikon hunters. They had brought the girl in and treated her like one of their own, settling the other villagers minds that this was a long time friend of theirs and therefore trustworthy.
Drawing up to one of the larger houses that was close to the hill of the shrine, she lay her pack on the wooden raised porch and went up the steps, looking intently for the occupants. Sticking her head in the open door, she called out, “Houshi-sama?”
There was no answer and she made a “Hmm” sound of contemplation. Retracting her head from the doorway, she knew no one was home, which was odd. With the taijiya's condition she was supposed to be taking it easy. Rin had assumed she'd be home.
Shrugging it away, she bent and scooped up her pack then skipped to the stairs, deciding the shrine was the next best place to check. Reaching the end of the steps at the top of the hill, her eyes raked over the dark building with its red trimmed roof. Throughout the years the mikos had slowly been building the temple larger, accommodating for the growth of the village as well as providing a free education for the children that would normally not receive any knowledge at all except for farming expertise.
Most of the children in Japan weren't as lucky as Rin. They were born poor or in the midst of war and were unable to dig themselves out of the ditch they had been delivered into with the lack of schooling and tutoring that plagued the country. If a man was a farmer, the son would become a farmer. If a woman was a midwife, her daughter would become a midwife.
Rin, on the other hand, was blessed with the edification to be anything she wished to be, so long as Sesshomaru was okay with it. She had been rescued from her distress by none other then one of the coldest demons known to man and she wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
She moved to go inside the temple, passing by a rectangular altar set up at the front of the shrine, purple flowers having been placed at its base.
The inside was rather dark and musty and she scrunched her nose at the dust and dirt in the air. Fighting back a sneeze, she slipped further inside, heading to where the mikos held their classes.
She had attended their classes once, when she first came here to learn from them, but after blowing the other students out of the water with her furthered education, the mikos determined that it was better to do one-on-one with the girl rather then have her take courses she already knew. Rin preferred it that way anyway. It allowed her to become closer to her teachers rather then fight for attention with twenty other children.
Rounding a corner in the dark hallway, she sneezed loudly and sniffled, then fell into a fit of sneezing. Waving her hand swiftly in front of her face, she pinched her nose to stop the onslaught of dust in her nostrils, squinting her eyes to see what had caused so much of the particles to assault her suddenly.
“Rin-chan?” a voice said in surprise and Rin leaned forward.
Emerging out into the hallway from a room was a squat old lady with long gray hair tied back in a loose ponytail, the strands falling down her back to end at her waist. An eyepatch covered her right eye and her face was lined with heavy wrinkles from both sun and age. Despite the wrinkles and loss of an eye, her face was considerate and compassionate, a soft glowing light of charity gleaming in her one remaining orb. She was dressed in the traditional miko clothes, a white wide sleeved shirt and red pants that fanned out widely.
In her hands she held several dusty ancient scrolls and Rin knew instantly the cause of her attack.
“Good morning, Kaede-bachan!” Rin responded charmingly and the old woman smiled at her.
“What are you doing in the temple, child?” Kaede inquired.
She turned and began walking further down the hallway, intent on completing whatever task she had set out to do.
Rin followed her, as Kaede had suspected she would, and the young woman answered, “I was looking for Houshi-sama and Sango-chan but neither of them were home. I was hoping they might be here?”
Kaede nodded sagely without turning her head. “Miroku-sama is helping with the construction of their new home and Sango-chan came here to spend time with the children. She is practicing for later as well as keeping Kagome company.”
“Ahhh...Was it a bad time for me to come then?”
“Oh no dear child,” Kaede reassured her with a shake of her head. “I'll go and inform Miroku-sama that you are here. In the meantime I have a favor to ask of you.”
“What is it, Kaede-bachan?”
Turning into another room, Kaede laid the scrolls down on a large wooden table stacked high with them. The rest of the room was lined with similar tables, all of them also stacked high with scrolls. The room was dimly lit with several square windows cut out near the roof, sunlight filtering in but not enough to totally light up the area. It was a plain room, a storage room most likely or maybe a place where they kept all their references.
That made Rin think back to the library she had been in last night, though this room was not nearly so refined as the Western Lord's was.
“I need to get these scrolls dusted and back in order before the humidity destroys them,” Kaede was saying. “If you would be so kind as to dust them while I get Miroku-sama, Rin-chan?”
“Oh, hai!” Rin agreed radiantly, glad to be of help.
“Thank you, Rin-chan,” the elderly miko said in sincere gratitude. She pulled a cloth out of the pocket of her wide pants and handed it to the young woman. “Be very careful with them. They are fragile and the merest jostling could damage them.”
“Do they all need cleaning, Kaede-bachan?” Rin asked, a sweep of her eyes taking in the magnitude of the stacks.
Kaede nodded and Rin felt some of her eagerness leave her. Kami, there was probably four hundred scrolls here! Just imagining the amount of dust was frightening...
“There will be more brought in as you work,” Kaede added as she turned to leave and felt a flutter of amusement at the girl's widened horrified eyes. “I'll go look for Miroku-sama for you.”
The old miko left and Rin held back the urge to say “Hurry please!” to her retreating figure. She sighed instead and looked dismally at the scrolls in front of her, thinking herself a baka for taking on the job.
Grinding her teeth together, she forced down her gloominess and brightened, shrugging away the bother and instead getting on with the work. The stack wasn't going to get any smaller if she just stood there wallowing in self-pity.
Humming to herself, she sat on the corner of the table that was devoid of items and pulled a scroll into her lap.
She allowed her mind to wander on to minuscule things to pass the time, thinking on such things as poetry and the tea ceremony and clothing, flowers, fish, gardens. Her mind jumped from one thing to the next as they related to each other, thinking fondly of Keikai and AhUn waiting for her in the forest, to Sesshomaru-sama and the Lady, and even Jaken. She was getting to the point where she would be able to squish him with no trouble and that thought caused her to erupt into giggles. She would just have to figure out a way to get that bothersome staff out of his claws...
She had just finished cleaning her fifteenth scroll when the sound of rustling paper and uncoordinated shifting feet on the floorboards reached her ears. A question forming in her head as to what was causing the racket, she looked to the doorway as a figure appeared in it, a large stack of scrolls cradled in his arms. They towered all the way over his face, blocking his view of anything in front of him and her identification of him. He teetered in the doorway and almost ran smack into a wall, softly cursing under his breath as regained his balance.
The sound of his voice and a flicker of something orange caught Rin's attention and she smiled at the discovery of who this stranger was.
Hopping off the table, she exclaimed, “Shippo-kun!”
The young man jumped at the sudden noise and struggled with the scrolls, several of them slipping out of his grasp and onto the floor. With the cascading fall of the items, the stack shrunk considerably, and his head appeared. He stared at the exuberant girl before him, startled at her abrupt appearance in the room.
“R-Rin?” he stuttered in confusion.
She nodded enthusiastically. “Uh-huh!”
“Whatever are you doing in here?”
“Kaede-bachan asked me to help with dusting the scrolls,” Rin explained and bent over to retrieve the fallen scrolls.
“She's imprisoned you too huh?” asked the boy with a slight grin, displaying one of his fangs with the action.
“Oh, Shippo-kun, don't be so negative,” Rin admonished, hitting him lightly on the arm with a scroll before throwing it and the other retrieved scrolls onto the stack. “Kaede-bachan can't do everything herself.”
“Yeah, yeah. Whatever,” he drawled.
He dumped the scrolls unceremoniously onto the table and turned to face her.
He was a good few inches taller than the human girl, her chin barely reaching the top of his shoulder, and his sparkling emerald eyes danced with merriment and mischief. Orange bangs pushed far back to the sides of his forehead were long enough to cover his eyes, and the rest of his long hair descended down his back almost to his waist. It was held in a loose ponytail by a blue bow and small earrings that matched the color of his intense gaze gleamed and twinkled in the scant amount of sunlight entering the room.
His ears were pointed, revealing him to be a youkai along with the fangs that adorned his small mouth. His hands that lay placidly on either side of him were clawed and his feet were indeed fox paws rather then human feet. A fluffy long tail was the orange flicker Rin had spotted when he walked in and it reached to the lower portion of his calf, flicking idly back and forth as he gazed down at her.
Dressed in long pants that tied off above his fox feet, a yellow sash crisscrossing over his waist and hips and a light tan shirt possessing a low neck line revealed a well muscled chest and torso. His arms, even when relaxed, bulged moderately with hard firm muscle. Rin smiled pleasantly while staring into his eyes, eyes that had captivated her more and more over the years, but never so much as they did now. She couldn't tear her gaze away no matter how much her brain yelled at her to and she felt as if she could get lost in those shimmering depths. They were sharp and clear, twinkling with a convivial force that made her heart skip a beat and a blush to stain her cheeks.
Her reactions to his emerald gaze confused and frightened her. Shippo was her friend and she had known him for a long while. Why did his eyes on her now suddenly seem so intense, so...magical? Why did his intense watchfulness suddenly make her have an urge to trace the outline of his lips and lean into that chest that was so very open to her?
His voice cut into her thoughts, making her blush further and she was glad the room was dimly lit so he could not see.
“You are here to see Miroku?” he asked her.
He pulled a washcloth out of his pants pocket and sat down on the table to clean the scrolls, his tail flicking upwards to curl around his hip and lay like a waterfall over the edge. He didn't even have a clue of what he had just caused to happen to her!
“Hai,” she answered, her throat feeling a tad tight as she tried to get her blushing to stop. “Kaede-bachan went to get him.”
“He's helping the villagers with the building of their new house. He doesn't know the first thing about it, and his help is probably more troublesome then helpful, but he insists on helping anyway. They're letting me take their smaller home after they are completely moved by the way,” he said with another grin.
“You are moving out?” Rin asked, surprised.
He nodded, his eyes pinned on the scroll in his hands. “I figure its about time I get a place of my own. And to be honest Inuyasha is getting impatient with me always disturbing him.” He displayed to her a naughty smirk, unwittingly plunging her back into her blush. “I figure its because he doesn't get enough time with his mate. Alone time that is, if you know what I mean.”
“H-hai,” she said weakly. Her heart was beating so fast at his words and that look she didn't know what to think except to be mortified.
His hands stopped their work suddenly and he peered at her intently, raising an orange eyebrow. He leaned forward, closer to her, his nose sniffing the air gingerly. She almost took a step back, her blush turning crimson as he came close to touching her, still snuffling away.
“You smell weird,” he stated a moment later. “Your scent has changed.”
Those words bewildered her enough that she lost her blush, blinking at him.
“What?”
He frowned at her, leaning away from her and back against the wall. “Maybe its just me I guess...Smells a bit more uhh thick you could say.”
He scratched at his neck with a clawed hand, watching her as she became totally baffled.
“New soap perhaps?” she supplied lamely and he laughed, a deep merry sound.
“Hai, sure,” he said with a grin and went back to his cleaning.
His laughter had relaxed her considerably, reminding her that this was still the little fox kit she had been friends with for years, and she sat down beside him, returning to her task as well.
They made small talk as Rin waited for Kaede-sama, Shippo telling her about his new home and how he would be close enough to the others in case he needed anything. He wasn't really nervous about the prospect of being on his own, since he'd still be living in the same village, but excited and anxious. He related to her the decision of Miroku and Sango to build a bigger home closer to the shrine, since they would be needing the extra space.
“How is Sango-chan feeling?” Rin asked at one point.
“She's kind of nervous but mostly happy and eager.”
“What of her health?”
“She's holding up. Don't know how much longer she'll be able to hold out though.”
They talked for a few more minutes when finally Kaede made her entrance, glad to see both young ones still working and sitting companionably with each other.
The old miko had been a little fearful for the kitsune when he had first come to live in the village with Kagome and Inuyasha, not sure how the villagers would react to a youkai living there. Shippo had been ten at the time and he was luckily already used to human company, having spent so many years with the Shikon hunters.
The old miko's fears had died though as the village people accepted the kitsune as readily as they did the ward of the Lord of the Western Lands, even if they believed she was just royalty from a providence nearby rather then a youkai lord.
Kaede had been even happier when she witnessed how readily and easily Rin and Shippo became friends. The village children Shippo did get along with but none compared to the close relationship he shared with the young woman sitting beside him, though neither of them knew it. It was possibly due to the fact Rin spent so much time in youkai company whereas the village children did not. Rin probably leaned more towards youkai companionship then she did human.
Smiling at the closeness of the two, she called out, “Rin, Miroku-sama is waiting.”
The two turned to face her and Rin bounced to her feet, hugging the kitsune teen before departing. “Ja ne, Shippo-kun!” she said and headed to the door.
“Will I see you again before you leave, Rin?” he asked curiously before she could depart totally from the room.
She stopped in the door frame to look at him, her lips pursing in thought. “Hai, Shippo-kun. I will be staying here till sunset.”
He smiled warmly at her, as if glad at her answer, and she felt another tingling blush inch up her cheeks.
“Alright, Rin! Ja ne!” he replied ebulliently.
Rin gave a short nod before diving out the door, her heart beating so fast she was amazed the kitsune didn't hear it with his sharp hearing. Frowning over these bizarre sensations, she walked down the hall after the old miko, wondering what in Kami's name was wrong with her.
She had to be sick or ill. Or possessed. Maybe a spider youkai had bit her while she slept and poisoned her. Either way she would have to remember to take something for it when she got back home. Maybe she would ask Keikai or Sesshomaru about this strange illness and see about a way of curing it.
Shaking her head and taking a deep breath to steady herself, she followed Kaede out of the temple and back down to the village, glad for the first time ever to be out of the presence of the handsome fox youkai that had become one of her dearest friends.
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He rode without stopping until he saw the monk's temple high up on a ridge several miles off and he turned his mount to head there.
The sun had been beating unmercifully down on him all day and the last thing he needed was to kill his mount and himself just because he ran out of water. He could use some rest too, lay comfortabley back on a cushiony pillow before he began the weeks long trek back to her and his promise.
Leaving his horse to graze at the bottom of the ridge, he walked up the broad gray steps to the temple ground's entrance.
He knew of this place due to a wound that he had suffered while in combat with a weasel youkai that had been slaying the villagers's cattle. The caring monks of the temple had taken him in and nursed him back to full strength, providing him with free room and board as his wound healed. He had wanted to pay them for their hospitality but they had refused like he expected.
His dark eyes searched the area for one person he knew quite well, hoping to find that one monk out of the multitude of priests residing here. He spotted several monks praying near a small fountain, but a quick examination showed that none of them were the man he sought. He let himself in, deciding it better not to interrupt the praying monks to ask for permission to enter.
Striding down the brilliant lawn, he entered the main temple, where he stopped a young boy passing though the hall and asked, “Is Saishi here?”
The young boy stared up at him, fear clouding his vision at the black clothed man that had a hold of his shoulder. The grip was clearly powerful, strong enough that the boy couldn't break free if he wanted to. The man wasn't applying any force at all and the boy trembled at the thought. If this black rider wanted, he could probably break all the bones in his shoulder without even straining.
Swallowing audibly, the boy said, “H-hai, sir. W-would you like m-me to g-get him?”
The black rider released his shoulder with a nod, ignoring the stuttering that plagued the child. “Hai, thank you.”
The kid ran off hurriedly, throwing a scared look over his shoulder as he disappeared around the corner. Smirking without humor, the man roamed over to the window, gazing out at the lawn and the monks still praying silently by the fountain.
He had to admit he rather liked it here. Tranquility thrived on these grounds, comfortably laced with a pleasant appeal of life that didn't need to be hurried or rushed, that everything would come in time. The monks wove a harmonious web, creating an aura of security as they moved about the compound in their slow leisurely pace, reciting prayers and blessing every piece of weed, grass, and walking creature they could set eyes on. This was a place untouched by evil, a place pure and innocent, peaceful, unlike so much of the rest of the world.
Almost everywhere he had traveled he had found famine and war, orphans and widows, slain men and boys. Blood coated fields had been his scenery, weeping had been his serenade, dying gasps and whimpers his conversations. It was unusual to find a community or household that had not felt the clawing touch of death, had not felt the horrible riddling of sorrow that stalked at every corner and shadow.
Evil, death, and sorrow were things he was well courted with, having seen and performed much of it in his somewhat short life span. It had left an acidic taste in his mouth, made him turn his face away in disgust at what he had become, left him to this broken shell of a life and the bitter hope of redemption that had turned out to be nothing but a spoof.
His hands tightened into fists as the anger coursed through him, the anger of being denied even the peace of revenge, the anger of having nothing but an unending sense of betrayal to his kinsman, the anger of having no type of salvation whatsoever.
His plight was forever, would probably continue on even after death. The Gods wouldn't forgive him for the hideous acts he had committed, even if he had gotten his revenge. He was tainted, scorned, marked. He wasn't even fit to wear this human skin, be called a man. He was nothing but a killer; the blood of his family had stained his weapon, others had perished due to his actions, whole villages, whole towns.
Remorse, a feeling one would have thought to be enough for him to accept the inevitable, but not in this case. He couldn't leave it alone, couldn't just sit and regret and forget. He did regret, he regretted everything, but it just wasn't enough. He couldn't just forget and pretend none of it ever happened, pretend it had all been some bad dream.
How could someone such as he even be allowed to begin anew, receive a clean slate and start over? He didn't deserve it, not one bit.
Payment was in need. He needed to find an outlet to pass the anguish onto but after six years he was still searching.
Maybe he should just accept the condemnation of his soul to hell.
There was no healing, no atonement, no purifying in the universe that could touch him enough to lift this agony. No matter how many purifying arrows hit his heart, no matter how many monks prayed for him, no matter how much cleansing water was dumped on him, he would never find an emancipation out of this desolation that dogged at his heels like a persistent hound.
Even Kami himself had abandoned him.
`If there is one innocent being left in this world, I'd like to see it. Even the monks have tasted from the jaundiced cup of calamity,' he thought bitingly to himself.
A stir of cloth pulled him out of his thoughts and he turned darkly to see an elderly monk approaching him, his anger fading to be replaced by a detachment from his thoughts and soul as he recognized the man.
The man was half hunched with age, bald with bushy white eyebrows and missing several teeth. His skin was as dry as papyrus paper, the nails cracked, yellowed, and crooked. Lips that were chapped spread in a brilliant calm smile, a comforting happy light in the glazed grey eyes meeting the black rider's own.
He was dressed in ceremonial monk's robes, the robe being black with a gray sash crossing over his right shoulder and tying about his thin waist. He carried no staff with him, too old and fragile to be lugging such a device around.
The monk walked up to the black rider, who had not moved in the least, and his hands reached out in a benevolent and cordial gesture.
If the lone horseman had not known better, he would have thought the monk was trying to comfort him and free his tortured spirit but past experience with the man had proved that this monk cared this way about everyone. He was the most unselfish human being he had ever met, a man who would sacrifice himself in a heart beat to save anyone from even the smallest discomfort.
But he also knew his limits, this monk. He understood the horseman's wishes and abided by them, not bothering to probe at the young man's spirit, allowing him to open up on his own instead.
This is why the lone horseman had sought him.
He reached out his gloved hand and allowed the old monk to clasp it, the elder smiling so brightly he was surprised sunshine didn't split through the gaps of his missing teeth.
“Tandokuno Kishu,” he said and his voice was quiet and pleasant to listen to, like a soft breeze over tranquil grasses. “You have returned to us?”
He released the rider's hand and it fell limply to the lone rider's side, who was nodding.
“For a time, Houshi-sama.”
He would have continued but halted his sentence as the old man waved his hand in the air in a dismissive fashion.
“No terms of respect are needed here, Tandokuno Kishu. Please, use the title I was born with,” the monk said, smiling gently at the young man.
“Your wish is but my command.”
The old man chuckled at the reply. “How is the wound, Tandokuno Kishu?” he inquired.
The lone rider silently pulled down the tight fabric encasing his torso, revealing to the monk the scar that marred the skin across his ribs on his left side. It was the wound the monk had treated, the wound he had received from the weasel youkai.
The old man leaned forward and delicately prodded the scar with his dry fingers, his eyes narrowing as he peered at it. Making a humming sound in his throat, he said, “I have something that can lessen the scar. Come to my room and we will take care of this.”
The lone rider didn't care either way if there was a scar or not but he'd humor the old man. He owed him a great deal anyway and if the man wanted to fawn over him, might as well not fight it. It wasn't worth the energy.
Replacing his outfit, he followed the old monk without a word.
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Rin tried with all her might, all her power, but she just couldn't do it. She just couldn't stop it, no matter how desperately she attempted to push it away it just wouldn't leave. She was powerless, defenseless to prevent it. It was inevitable and she felt herself weakening, finally giving in to it.
Rin opened her mouth wide and yawned.
She at least had the courtesy of attempting to hide it behind her hand.
Blinking her sluggish sleepy gaze, she watched the monk in front of her mutter in frustration as he pawed through a cabinet filled with white jars.
“It has to be in here somewhere...I just know I placed it in here...I bet that damn Shippo took it when I wasn't looking...”
Shaking her head at his grumbling, she yearned to go outside or at least do something rather than sit here bored. Twenty minutes had passed as she waited for the monk to find whatever he was looking for and she was getting impatient, which was a rare thing.
Sighing in utter boredom and disappointment, she reached for her bag and pulled out several pieces of parchment, a small jar filled with ink, and a brush, deciding if nothing was going to present itself to amuse her, she would do it herself. She was not the most skilled artist but she had some talent.
Laying down on her stomach, she chewed on the brush's wooden handle tip as she pondered over what to draw.
The face of Shippo as he gazed down at her fluttered through her mind and she was utterly horrified at it. Why would she ever think to draw him? She never had before.
But yet a part of her wanted her to draw him, wanted to sketch out his handsome features onto the paper so she could remember that moment for all time. Another part of her was frantically screaming that that idea was insane and she had obviously lost her common sense.
She came to a compromise between the two and drew a normal fox instead.
When she had just finished putting the finishing touches on her art work, Miroku gave a crow of triumph and in his hand he held up a small white jar that had praying humans carved into its sides. He swivelled around to face her and she quickly shoved the paper back into her pack before he could catch eye of it. The last thing she needed was the hentai getting ideas that she was attracted to the kitsune.
Miroku's violet eyes focused on the young girl spread out on her stomach on the floor. It still ceased to amaze him that this was the ward of the Lord of the Western Lands, the child that had been adopted by a youkai that was colder than a block of ice. It wouldn't surprise him if rocks had more compassion then Lord Sesshomaru did. Or had. The youkai seemed to have lost some of his coldness over the years.
Miroku had been given the assignment of teaching Rin the ways of religion and Buddhism, to inform her about religious ceremonies and practices, and other such things. He had been delighted, honored that someone would ask him to teach a young one.
But apparently, along with his profession as a monk, Sesshomaru had also become aware of Miroku's `activities' concerning females and the youkai had sent a literal death threat to the monk, stating that if he so much as looked at Rin the wrong way he would personally deal with him.
Needless to say Miroku took the threat very seriously and for many weeks he avoided eye contact with the girl. Not that he would ever think of performing such a ludicrous act with someone so young, that was just disgusting. Besides, another certain female would kill him before Sesshomaru got the chance to.
Grinning at the thought, Miroku indulged in the memory of his beloved in the past when she would get so jealous over his attention to other females. She was such a fiery spirited thing, never the type of woman he had imagined himself falling for and marrying, starting a family with.
Fate worked funny like that though and he was actually, for the first time in a long while, happy and content.
The death of Naraku had cleared the curse that had existed in his right hand and Miroku had been able to touch the skin of his palm without prayer beads or gloves for the first time in his life. It had been almost too much relief for the monk to handle and he had spent days afterward completely enthralled with his hand, engrossed in the feel of the flesh until the others started yelling at him that he was going to make another hole there if he didn't stop rubbing it.
They had moved here shortly after the death of Naraku, this village that all the Shikon hunters had come to consider home, the village where the Bone Eater's Well and shrine were located.
Even if the Shikon no Tama was gone and their mission over, their ties and friendship to each other continued on, remaining strong till this day. As the village had come to be considered their home, they had come to consider their companions their family. They were lost without each other and they relied on each other for a chance at true happiness with caring friends, dedicated mates, and possibly offspring that would continue on their legacy.
Miroku himself had been married in this village, witnessed the emerging of the troubled hanyou into a relaxed dependable adult in this village, watched the growth of Shippo from an obnoxious child to a mischievous yet gracious teen in this village, observed the bond between the hanyou and young miko seal itself in much the same way his hand had done in this village.
Many times in their travels for the Shikon no Tama he had found himself imaging the future but he had never imagined it to be as good as it had turned out. Everyone had received a happy ending for the most part, even if some things were missing overall they were comfortable and happy with their lives.
All except one anyway and there was nothing they could do for him if he wouldn't let them. It had broken his beloved's heart when the young boy had left, going out on his own to try and ease his affliction.
Miroku sincerely hoped that he had found a way to shed the guilt he carried and the monk prayed that his beloved would not ache so much upon his return. Hopefully the boy had found peace with himself and would return to them and stay with them. If he didn't, it was likely Miroku's wife might just plunge back into the pool of grief he had helped her out of years ago.
There were too many good things occurring in her life right now for it to be darkened with sorrow and Miroku silently vowed that whatever happened he would not let her become sad in this time of great joy. No matter what, he would make sure she was happy. No matter what.
“Houshi-sama?” asked Rin and the monk blinked at her.
He acted as if he had forgotten she was even there and she wondered what had caused the monk to slip so deep into his thoughts. He had done it a few times before, sometimes getting distracted by his hand and just sitting there mindlessly poking at it. She could understand why he did it, she had learned about the wind tunnel curse he used to carry some time ago, but she had been sitting here for a while and she wanted to do something else or at least get on with the lesson.
“Ah, my apologies, Rin-chan,” he said with a nervous laugh and he straightened his shoulders, turning professional in a heartbeat.
He placed in front of her a mortar and pestle, an incense bowl filled with white rice ash, an incense stick, a lit candle, and a U shaped koh press. Popping open the top of the white jar, he poured the contents of it into his palm, measuring out how much he wanted. Getting the right amount, he replaced the top and set the jar down off to the side, then scraped the herbs off his palm and into the mortar.
“Do you remember what we talked about last time, Rin-chan?” he asked her before continuing.
“You were telling me about the different uses of Buddhist incense,” she answered.
He nodded and dipped his finger into the herbs. The particles stuck to his skin and he raised his finger into the air so she could see it clearly.
“Today I'll show you how to make makko (ground incense),” he said. “It's used as a base to burn raw incense upon and is infinitely better as a burning base versus charcoal. There are a variety of recipes but we'll stick with the main mixture. This,” he held his finger with the herbs stuck on it closer to her, “is a mixture of sandalwood, aloes wood, and cloves. Its your basic and most widely used makko. This type of burning is called Sonae Koh (offering incenses) and is generally a spiritual practice.”
His eyes darted to the incense bowl as he wiped the herbs off his hand by using his own robes, not even seeming to notice the action as if he were so used to it he didn't pay attention to it anymore.
Rin placed a hand across her mouth to stop the giggles from rising out of her throat.
Miroku was certainly an unusual monk. No other holy man would ever think of using his own robes as his personal napkin.
“You must compact the white rice ash by tapping lightly on the bottom of the bowl,” Miroku instructed and performed the action himself to demonstrate. “An indentation is made with the koh press and filled with the makko and you must compact the makko with the koh press as well.”
He handed the instrument to her and she lifted herself to sit Indian style. She followed his instructions easily, his violet eyes watching her every move.
“Take the incense and light one end of it and place it into the makko.”
She did, being careful not to burn herself or set anything on fire. Precisely she stuck the incense stick into the makko and watched it slowly begin to burn.
“Once the makko is burning you can sprinkle other incense mixtures directly on top of it,” said the monk and leaned back to reach the cabinet, grabbing another jar and opening it.
He dusted the other form of incense over the makko and Rin watched in interest as they both burned simultaneously, their scents mixing together in the air.
“As the makko trail burns, place additional incense on the portion of makko that is burning. You can use this to measure time, just have to judge how fast it burns,” Miroku added as they both observed the burning incenses.
Seconds ticked by as they watched then Rin lifted her head and asked, “What other sorts of incense are there, Houshi-sama?”
“Well there's zuko (rubbing incense), shoko (burning incense), and one other...Hrmm...Can't remember the name of it,” the monk muttered, his eyebrows lowering as he struggled to recall it.
“Its kosui (fragranced water) but that's used to as a purification of items, individuals, and areas and you wouldn't know a thing about purity,” someone said jokingly and Miroku looked up to see his wife standing in the doorway, leaning over to look at him with a smile tugging at the corners of her pretty mouth.
“Sango-chan!” Rin said happily and climbed to her feet to hug the woman, her hands not even managing to go around her due to the woman's big belly.
Sango laughed and ruffled the girls hair, a wholesome look to her face that Rin had seen develop more and more as time passed and the woman's stomach grew.
“Good morning, Rin-chan,” she greeted as the girl released her. One of the older woman's hands came to rub at her swollen stomach, grimacing as a sharp pain went through her.
“Is the baby kicking you again, Sango-chan?” Rin asked in concern.
Sango smiled bravely at her, though she winced as the child she was carrying continued to use her body as his own personal kicking bag.
“He's as lively as ever. I just hope his hands won't be nearly so lively when he gets older,” she kidded, shooting a glance to her husband who was cleaning up the room.
“You crush me, Sango,” he replied elegantly causing her to grin.
“I heard you stopped by here earlier, Rin-chan,” Sango said to the young woman standing beside her. “Sorry. I was with Kagome-chan in the temple. Kaede-bachan tended to you?”
Rin nodded to her. “Kaede-bachan took care of me just fine, Sango-chan. And no need to apologize. In your condition you should be relaxing,” she scolded.
Sango snorted. “I'm not made of glass, you know? You should see how the lech over there whines at me whenever I so much as twitch a finger. This is his fault anyway.”
The monk closed the cabinet and gave her a naughty grin, reminding Rin of Shippo earlier, and walked with lengthy strides to his wife's side, sweeping her into a breath taking kiss that caused both women to blush furiously, Rin quickly turning her gaze to the wall that had suddenly become very interesting.
“Miroku!” Sango exclaimed, mortified, and pushed the man off her.
He laughed at his wife's embarrassment. “I do believe that this `problem' is your fault, Sango my dear. I seem to recall about nine months ago a certain minx waking me with up with ideas of-”
“Don't you dare, Miroku!” she cried and clapped her hands down over Rin's ears before he had time to finish his sentence.
She was as red as a beet and Miroku was enjoying himself tremendously. The woman became so bashful whenever he mentioned their physical relationship, even though she had been the one to bring it up this time.
Smiling fondly at the woman that meant everything to him, he brushed the back of his hand over her heated cheek, then placed it over her stomach. A goofy grin crossed his face as he felt the baby move under his palm, the palm that had held the Kazaana.
This baby would not be born with that dreadful thing. No, Miroku had fought long and hard to assure his children would not suffer as he had.
His eyes met his wife's and held them, a silent current of love, endearment, and tenderness flowing between them, holding them spellbound.
Rin watched the two adults in uncertainty, wondering what in Kami they were doing. Sango's hands were still clamped over her ears and she moved away to remove the appendages, causing Sango to start and step back.
“Sorry, Rin-chan,” she said in apology, a faint blush tainting her cheeks as she realized she had still been holding onto the girl.
Rin smiled at the woman then brought her attention to Miroku.
“Houshi-sama, is that all for today?” she inquired. She had the faint idea that the couple wanted to be alone and she was more than happy to oblige.
“Hai, Rin-chan,” he answered, nodding at her. “You will be returning next week, I presume?”
“Hai if Sesshomaru-sama says it is okay,” she said, stooping to grab her pack.
“How is Sesshomaru these days?” Miroku couldn't help but ask curiously.
Rin paused at the question, surprised at it. “He is...”
He is what?
“He is...Well, he is Sesshomaru-sama,” she said simply.
Miroku chuckled at the reply. “As I figured. Same old Sesshoumaru, except without the trying to kill his hanyou brother and steal the Tetsusaiga idea that is.”
Rin didn't respond to that and waited a moment to see if the monk would ask her anything else but when he turned to his wife, she knew it was time for her to depart. She jumped off the wooden porch onto the dusty road, discovering with a quick glance at the sun to be early in the afternoon. She had a few more hours here before she had to return home and decided to head on up to the temple to find her other tutor.
If that didn't take too long, she would have enough time to spend it with Shippo, if the kitsune was still around. Glancing over the village from her view point on the hill, she saw the ant like figures of the villagers moving about their daily tasks. When she did not discover any of the figures possessing a big fluffy tail, she turned and ran into the temple, wondering why she had bothered checking for him in the first place.
Alone in their home, Miroku looked deeply into his wife's eyes, and noticed instantly the unusual anxious twitch that resided in her irises.
“You are nervous,” he stated instead of questioned. “Is it due to the baby or...?”
He left the question open for she already knew what he was referring to and it made her sad whenever the young man was mentioned.
She sighed heavily and for the first time he noticed the dark circles under her eyes, signs of the strains she was going through because of her pregnancy.
A worried protectiveness engulfed the monk and he wondered if this was the same feeling the hanyou went through whenever the miko was threatened. Miroku had always been protective of his wife but it had not been this strong. Sango was a woman who could take of herself and she fared better in physical combat than he did but this was not a problem she could solve with punches or kicks.
The baby was draining her strength and Miroku was glad it was due soon. He was impatient to hold his child and to get his wife back to full health. She was tired more often, sluggish in most activities, and she yawned a great deal. He knew it was to be expected but he couldn't help but worry. A thousand disastrous scenarios chased themselves round and round his head and she hadn't even gone into labor.
Sango winced beside him as the baby resumed its game of `kick mommy senseless in the ribs' and he snaked his arm around her waist, pulling her to him and leading her to the bedroom. He heard her sharp intake of breath and knew she was in pain. He just wished there was something he could do to help it.
Nudging the screen mosquito door open with his foot while keeping his hold on his beloved, he lead her into the room and pulled her onto the bed. She lay down without complaint and his hand brushed the bangs off her forehead, his thumb lightly passing over her skin. It was a soothing motion and she closed her eyes, feeling her tiredness of being on her feet and active all day pulling at her.
Fighting to stay awake, her brown eyes sought her husband's, wanting to hear the answers to the questions that had been plaguing her all day.
“He is coming isn't he?” she asked, a strained note of nervousness in her voice.
He frowned inwardly. She wanted so much for him to come and though the young man had promised he would, there was no telling if he really was going to show up, and if he did there was no certainty he would get there in time.
“I'm sure he is,” Miroku answered, hoping to relax her so she would sleep. “Why wouldn't he?”
“He seemed so alone when he left,” she whispered, her eyes swishing downwards to stare at the covers. “I wanted so much to help him and instead he left. I know he hadn't meant to do the things he did. It was all that bastard Naraku's fault but he is just incapable of realizing that.”
“I know, beloved, I know,” Miroku said comfortingly, his hand reaching for hers and squeezing it in reassurance. “We all tried to help him but perhaps that was not the type of help he needed. He needed to get away for a while and come to terms with himself. It may be possible now for the true healing to begin.”
She was silent for a moment, taking in what he said.
“Sometimes I think it would have been better if we had left him dead,” she whispered, so quietly he almost didn't hear.
She was close to crying and Miroku was desperate to console her. A hysterical pregnant woman was not going to bode well especially this late in the pregnancy. He knew she was overreacting because of the pregnancy which made it all the more urgent that he get her calm.
Withdrawing his hand from hers, he slid into the bed beside her, pulling her into his embrace as well as he could with her enormous belly, and pulled the covers over them. She clutched onto him like a squirrel to a tree, her head burying itself into the crook of his neck, her tears already soaking the collar of her robes.
Rubbing his hand between her shoulder blades, he placed his chin on top of her silky head, feeling her legs entwining around his to drag him forcibly closer.
Had she not been crying, he would have thought she was initiating intercourse but he understood her actions were only meant to bring something that offered comfort further into contact with herself, namely him. To her, he was a shield from hurt and pain, a comforting blanket that enshrouded her from her worst fears and troubles, the voice and hand that somehow always managed to console and bring her back from whatever depression she fell into. He was her constant, her pillar to lean on, the one thing in life she was sure about.
Kissing the crown of her head, he whispered to her, “It's alright, Sango. Don't cry. I'm sure he'll be here. He wouldn't miss an event this important and special to you. He loves you and he would never do anything to hurt you.”
She was shaking within his arms, her shoulders heaving, and her breath coming in short raspy gasps.
“Then why did he leave?” she hiccupped out, her voice tight with sorrow and muffled against his chest.
“People have different ways of dealing with their sorrows and calamitys in life,” Miroku said, running his fingers through her air to try and assuage her anguish, as he continued offering her the best explanation he could. “Some people turn to others for help, some pretend it doesn't exist, and some have to separate themselves from everyone so they can work it out themselves. He is just one of those people. He needed to get away from it all and go out on his own, to allay the grief that exists in his heart and soul.”
“But he has been gone for so long,” she said tearfully.
“I know,” he said, his voice low, and he tightened his hold on her for a moment. “But he has been through a lot. It must be very hard for him to be missing from himself for so long then to have every memory returned to him all at once. It will likely take a while for him to reach a point of concord within himself. But when he does, I am certain he will return to us and be the person he once was, the person you remember and who he truly is. One day he will be able to share in the joy that we ourselves have come to know and hopefully gain a life that is carefree of most troubling predicaments as we have done.”
He placed his hand over her belly to show what he meant and she stopped breathing as his words sunk in.
She desperately wanted for the young man to share the joy she and her husband felt and she could only hope that he would come to terms with his conflicts and return to her like he had promised. And if he had not alleviated his agony then she would do her utmost to cure it herself.
She had tried once before but the rawness of his wounds had prevented her from reaching them to soothe them. The pain had been too close to him then but now after all these years she would hopefully get a second chance to fix the creature she had been trying to mend as far back as she could remember.
But right now all she could do was wait. She wasn't stupid and she was aware of how fragile and tipsy her emotions had become. It made her feel a little embarrassed and ashamed of her reactions to some situations but luckily everyone understood and didn't challenge her afterwards as to why she had acted thus.
She had a week, a week before he was expected and in that time she would just have to be patient and not agitate herself. It would be quite troublesome for both her and her husband if every time the young man was brought up she fell into a heap of tears. She would just have to think positive and keep telling herself that he was fine and would return to her like he promised, with a clearer head and a serene soul. That was the best thing she could do right now.
Miroku felt her muscles finally loosen and her clutching fingers release the parts of his robe she had twisted into a knot. She let out a sigh that seemed to liberate her of all her tears and lessen her sorrows, relieving the monk. She had apparently come to a conclusion regarding the young man and whatever it had been, it had soothed her and he was thankful for that.
Silence followed her sigh for several moments, as they lay relaxed and content in each others embrace, when she murmured quietly against his shoulder, “I love you.”
His eyes widened in surprise at her declaration, though she was unable to see the reaction. He had expected her to either thank him or wait till later to thank him but never had he anticipated those words.
He never did question if Sango loved him or not since their marriage, for he knew she did, but Sango was a woman who was shy when it came to her feelings and for her to say something like what she had just said meant every word she uttered was genuine and came from the bottom of her heart.
She was trying to convey her gratification of his help in a deeper way then just a thank you, showing how much his comfort and reassurance meant to her and how she appreciated it.
Smiling and closing his eyes as warmth made his heart feel fit to bursting out of his rib cage, he tightened his embrace on her once again, his fingers trailing through her hair, and his mind silently thanking whatever God or deity had bestowed this woman into his life.
“I love you too, Sango.”
She snuggled against him, her breath leaving her body as she sunk into slumber, the emotional distress on her system causing her to fall from tiredness into exhaustion.
As he felt and heard her breathing deepen and saw her eyes slide shut, Miroku let out a distraught sigh.
He had meant what he said about the young man but he wasn't so sure if the boy actually had alleviated his dolor. His intuition was telling him the boy hadn't and it made him grimace as he considered the outcome and repercussions his wife would suffer if his intuition proved right. The boy had been desolate six years ago and Miroku still recalled the emptiness of his eyes.
He had one more week before the young man got here, one more week before things would either deteriorate or reconstruct to become stronger then they already were.
Either way, he was going to make sure Sango came unscathed out of this. He didn't care what happened to him, so long as she was alright, and no matter the length, no matter the distance, he would cross it to be certain she would come unharmed out of this war of emotions concerning grief, anger, guilt, and sorrow.
She had suffered enough from Naraku and she didn't need any more emotional coaster rides.
Running his knuckles over her soft cheek, he stared at her visage, his violet eyes slowly tracing her peaceful features.
He would be her shield, her protection. Whatever it was that was destined to hit her, he would intercept and take the pain onto his own self. No more would she suffer, so far as he could help it.
And that was a promise.