InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Calming Violence, forever mine [sesshoumaru] Part 2 of Calming Violence ❯ Love, Sorrow, and a hell of an argument ( Chapter 1 )

Three months have past since you became Sesshoumaru's mate in more than name.

You woke, sunlight warming your face, you could feel his gaze on your face, smiling softly you open you eyes looking into the perfect molten gold of his eyes. "Morning," you whisper running your fingers up and down his cheek "Morning my sweet," he whispered back rubbing his face against your hand, you could never be this close to him and not touch. You knew every inch of his magnificent body, and he yours but when ever you were close you seemed to need to touch, even just a little, it was like if you didn't touch him you'd die or something, you knew that wasn't true but it was the way it was, like breathing, automatic. Raising your face to his you kissed him, light, gentle, to soft to be called a kiss, the second one was harder, deeper full of probing tongue, lips and teeth somewhere between a kiss and eating each other. Pulling back breathless you lay back down the sheets now down around your waist, your bare breasts showing to the inter room. "Hmmm you taste yummy," you whisper opening your eyes after you finished swooning, smirking he says "Really is that why you bite me? Again," he moved showing you the near perfect set of teeth marks on his left shoulder. Smiling softly you run your fingers over the healing mark, "Definitely yummy," sighing you look over to the closed balcony doors summer had come and gone winter now a breath away. "I miss the open balcony, winter my be beautiful but summer is great," you say slightly sad, "Not as beautiful as you," he whisper leaning down, licking the mark on your neck making you wither on the bed. A small moan escaping your lips "Sesshoumaru haven't you had enough?" you asked smirking as he rose up enough to look at your face. The heat in his face stole your breath but under it was something else, something far more precious than lust, that inextinguishable heat that was consuming you both. He loved you, you could see it, feel it, you knew he may never say it but he did, his was never as free as it was in the bed room, he let every emotion, thought and feeling run over his face. "Never," he whispered kissing you deep hard and thoroughly, kissing him back you drew back with a shaky laugh, "You know if you had your way we'd never leave this room," nodding he kissed your nose. Giggling you touched his face "What am I going to do with you?" you asked shaking your head, kissing your palm he said "Your going to- you knew he was going to say something very erotic and sexual but someone knocked loudly on the door. Sighing you both pulled the sheets up covering your bare flesh as he said "Enter!" loudly {we'll have to finish this later,} his voice easing through your mind with a flood of erotic images that made you shiver with anticipation. {Defiantly,} you said back snuggling in against him as Tokimune Stephen and Sorekaze walked in, Stephen stiffened visibly, Sorekaze just blinked repeatedly as if trying to put it all together in his mind, while Tokimune was studiously looking at your faces. "Yes boys can we help you?" you asked smiling sweetly as Sesshoumaru stiffened, "Oh yes milady, milord, Lord Yusuke's messenger has arrived and is waiting for you in your office," Sorekaze said as the other two seemed unable to find there voice's. "And why did all three of you have to come deliver this message?" Sesshoumaru asked irritation ever present in his voice, you knew the last time some one disrupted the two of you he killed them, violently. "Thank you gentlemen, you may leave we'll be down soon," you said as both Tokimune and Stephen looked relieved. After they left Sesshoumaru got out of the bed, anger radiating from his body "What's wrong now love?" you asked sitting up the sheet locked under your arms. "You over road me AGAIN!! I asked a question and you ordered or whatever them away!! YOU'RE ALWAYS DOING IT!!" he sounded so frustrated, sighing you could see where he was coming from, the men especially listened to you more than Sesshoumaru and it had been bugging him for a while. "Sesshoumaru," you started then when he didn't turn to you, you climbed out of the bed walking up to him, wrapping your arms around his waist pressing your naked body to the back of his. "Please don't be mad," you whispered as he stiffened, pulling away forcefully he turned to you anger written in his eyes, making him frightening and more beautiful. "YOU! YOU HAVE TAKEN MY ORTHORITY AND THROUWN IT AWAY!! I GIVE ORDERS AND THEY LOOK TO YOU FOR PROMISTION!!" he yelled throwing his hands into the air, growling angrily. "EVER SINCE YOU CAME I'VE HAD LESS POWER I BELIEVE IT'S TIME YOU LEARNT YOUR PLACE!! YOU MAY BE MY MATE BUT IN NO WAY ARE YOU MY EQUAL!! GOD YOU THINK YOU CAN COME HERE AND TAKE EVERYTHING I'VE WORKED TO BUILD AND TURN IT UPSIDE DOWN, I THINK NOT YOUR MY MATE, AND LADY OF THIS HOUSE!! YOU ARE NOT A MAN AND ARE NO LONGER TO WORK WITH THE ARMY!!" he yelled glaring at you; you were so shocked you couldn't breath he'd never blown up at you like this. "YOU'LL HAVE MINIMAL TIME WITH THE MEN, YOUR NOT TO TALK TO ANYONE BUT MYSELF, RIN AND SILVA!!" he continued less loud but with the same hot, heated anger he had in his screaming yell "You'll ether be at my side, with Rin, in your room or in here and if you disobey me in any way you'll regret it," when he finished he turned taking fresh cloths out of the wardrobe and leaving to the bathroom. You were so stunned you didn't move for a moment, none of the guys, locked away from all the freedom you'd known for so very long, to be treated like a dirty secret from everyone. What had set him of? Was it that the men respected you but feared Sesshoumaru? Was it that you gave everything you had to give to Sesshoumaru and he's now bored with you? Or was that look in his face, the love you thought was there something different interlay? You walked to the wardrobe in a daze pulling out a silver kimono with red hexagon flower patterns much like Sesshoumaru's on the sleaves. Sighing, you pulled a robe on leaving to your bathroom only two doors down in your room.

O.o

The next month went by slowly with you refusing to leave your room, you sat on the bed staring out the open balcony door's open winter had come in a cold, snowy storm this year as if the weather, mother earth felt your pain, sorrow the cold spot in your heart and soul and wanted the inter world to feel the same cold emptiness. Sesshoumaru didn't come to you, Silva who came every day with food, which you refused to eat had told you that Sesshoumaru had so far kill eight servants, fourteen slaves and five soldiers. You had said that what Sesshoumaru did and to whom was none of you business, nor did you care which was a lie; it hurt you to know that Sesshoumaru felt the need to kill people that helped him. A single crystal like tear slid from your eye, sliding down your cheek as you thought of that soft look, that innocent wonder that used to cover his face every time you finished a very VERY good love making session. There was a light tap on the door, knowing who it was you simply said "Come in Silva," you voice as empty as your heart, "Milady are you alright?" she asked walking in Sorekaze behind her. "Yes I'm fine Silva," you said nodding to Sorekaze knowing that if Sesshoumaru found out you spoke to him he would be punished, it had already happened, twice he came with Silva, you say hello, Sesshoumaru heard and punished Sorekaze. "Milady we're really worried about you," she continued placing your meal down on your small white desk, nodding you looked at your food, the sudden need to throw up wafted over you forcing you to close your eyes looking away. "Milady please try to eat something," she said not coming much closer than two meters, Sesshoumaru had made it very clear that no one was to touch you in any way, Rin was now banned from talking to you completely, which made her upset with Sesshoumaru which made him madder at you. An on going circle of pain. "I'm not hungry," you couldn't look at her as another wave of tears burned your eyes, "please just go, both of you," you whispered, sighing, she left Sorekaze leaving with her.

Sesshoumaru POV

You sat in your office chair, anger like you'd never known eating at you, it had been for the past month or so, unfortunately Devani was the one you blow up at first. She wouldn't say a word to you after she tried for the fifth time to stop you from lashing out, you remember the way you hand, closed fist slammed into her beautiful face, the colour of her blood on the pale marble of the dinning hall floors. The silence that swept over you men, Rin at your side staring at you as if you were evil, cruel, Devani couldn't even look at you, and she just stood, brushed herself off and left her lip bleeding. You remembered the sound of her soft cry two doors down and being paralysed by the fear that she wouldn't love you anymore, so afraid you couldn't move. You knew you were being cruel towards her, but she had to learn that you were head of this house, this land, she was your mate not your master. You realised you hadn't gotten a single thing done all week, your mind always wondering off to the fall of Devani's silken hair across you pillow, the smell of her skin, the way she screamed your name as she came, the bite of her nails against your flesh. The sear power in her hands as she took you, sighing, you started to read the sheet in front of you, finally giving up when the words made no sense, no sense at all. Standing you walk out, servant bowing, fear coming off them in sickening waves, they were so afraid of your next fit, next burst of anger. Rin saw you as she left the dinning hall, a small red apple in her hands, the smile that had been on her face left, replaced by sadness and fear. You finally made her afraid of you why did that hurt your heart, tear at your soul? The maid next to her paled rushing Rin up the stairs toward her room, you walked until you came to the garden, this garden you had made for Devani, right out her window. She could walk out her room and look across the land and see your love for her, you looked up her balcony doors wide open, you could see her face, she was pale, and looked ill. Pain hit you, not physical pain, from a wound, well this was a wound on its own, your heart hurt, in eat you up and made you angrier to see her so sad. Pain, sorrow, depression, emptiness was all you could feel from her, her mind when you tried to read it was blank, she thought no thoughts, felt nothing just sat there, cold, alone and empty. You could see her lips move in a slow subtle movement. Frowning you listen closer to her straining to hear the words she whispered, to her the sweet soft swell of her voice. +My love, my only, I want nothing more than for you to hold me, never leave, tell me please, you'll stay, for one more day, never leave I beg you please, I love you more, More than words can say, I love you in so many ways so please my love my only, please hold me close, never let me go, never say goodbye, for the day you leave me, My soul flee the day you go away, I will die, I die a little more with you no longer here to warm my days, goodbye my love, my one my only, I'll see you tomorrow I'll see you today, Never leave my side, for I will Die, Die an endless death, the pain I die a little more, Please I beg you, with my heart and soul, never let me go, never leave me, my love, my only,+ you opened your eyes to the feeling of something wet sliding down your face. Touching your cheek you saw a single shinning tear, turning your finger around you watched it fall melting the snow underneath the small spot were it landed. "Milord?" Sorekaze's voice made you turn, your face already cold, Silva, Tokimune, Stephen and Sorekaze all stood together as if by being together they could stop one of your rages. "Yes?" "Milord, we're worried about Lady Devani, she won't eat, won't move she barely speaks a word," Silva said pleading with her tone. Sorekaze spoke after swallowing it was almost frightening to see the older demon afraid of you "Milord, I went with Silva today to see Devani after she told me of her concerns, she's ill milord, she heeds no one, please speak with her, for both your sakes, please fix what has pulled you apart," he sounded so genuinely broken up about the detrition of her state. "I thought I told you both, you and that wench not to speak to each other," you growled instantly angry, HOW DARE THEY GO AGAIST YOUR EXPRECS ORDERS!!! Silva stepped forward, closer to you, closer to danger, by the look on the men's faces they feared for her greatly. "Milord, she spoke to no one, she barely says a word to me, please milord, she needs you to forgive what she has done, she needs your love to survive," she whispered tears in her eyes. Frowning, you looked up at Devani she hadn't moved at all, her eyes staring off into the distance, into the freedom you took from her. "What if it's I that needs to be forgiven, I that has done the wrong?" you asked you knew the four of the for long enough to trust them, The men since you were a boy and Silva since she came to you as a young girl a little older than Rin. "Then beg for that forgiveness, ask her to let you in, beg her to bring you back from the cold, plead with her to forgive your wrongs and love you once more," Stephen said surprising all of you by his words. "I too had a love once, I loved her so much I was jealous of every man that wanted her, looked at her, so I took it out on her and in the end I lost her all together, please I beg you milord don't make my mistake, don't let her slip away from you when she is the one that needs to believe that it is her and only her that you truly love," blinking rapidly you stared at him. Someone screamed from inside, looking directly at Devani's room you saw, Rin and her maid standing there Devani no where in sight. {Devani!! What have I done??!!!} you thought as the five of you rushed towards Devani's room.