InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cannot Be Broken ❯ Into the Deep ( Chapter 9 )

Kagome ran as fast as her legs could carry her. She was pent up on adrenaline and she had to catch herself from laughing or else lose her stamina. She had cleared the garden in mere minutes and was now half way across the grain field. Only then did she chance to look behind her to see if InuYasha was made aware her escape. As an extra precaution, she dulled her aura and zigged and zagged through the terrain, and around cattle and sheep, hoping it would stall the dog senses of the `Warden.' She giggled uncontrollably when she finally made it to the stables of the small village and ducked inside.

 

Once she was inside the open doorway of the stable did she finally relax. She leaned against the doorframe to catch her breath and hide at the same time. She imagined the look on the hanyou's face and she began to breathlessly laugh. But she knew he would come for her once he found out and she had precious little time to enjoy her freedom. Sounds of snorting and clopping drew her out of her glee of escape and into her natural element.

 

Growing up, she refused to live the life of a princess. Instead, she embraced anything that allowed her to be in nature. The kennels and the stables of her manor were her closest thing, since she was never allowed beyond the castle walls. For some reason, she felt more comfortable in the company of animals than with people or demons. Animals didn't cloud her thoughts or constrict her soul. Matters of the heart and mind did not confuse them. When she was alone with them, she could let go all the restrictions she had to hold around others, and just be Kagome.

 

She breathed in deep the earthy smell of the freshly cleaned out stalls and began to walk lightly inside. She was glad she wrapped scraps of dress around her feet as make shift shoes or else she'd be a little grossed out walking around barefoot.

 

Looking casually around, she saw that most of the twelve stalls were empty, since many of the horses were out to pasture. But two horses did remain. One was a brown stallion, old but firm. He was friendly and nibbled at her fingers as she stroked his velvet nose. He seemed to have been regularly spoiled. At the far end was the other.

 

Kagome stood transfixed at the tall creature tied up in the back. It was a white stallion, a very wild white stallion.

 

She took a small step closer to it before he raised his head and bucked against his ropes.

 

“You better not get any closer.”

 

Kagome whirled around and clenched her chest, but sighed in relief. It was just a boy.

 

The teenaged boy looked up at her curiously. His brown eyes looked familiar, as did many of his features. He had scruffy brown hair, and a few freckles graced his nose. He looked shy but nice.

 

“I'm sorry?” Kagome breathed once her heart stopped beating in fright.

 

He blushed slightly as if in realization and looked down. “The last one to go near him is still recuperating.”

 

Kagome smiled and nodded. “I understand. I'll be careful.”

 

“Um, my Lady?” The boy still refused to look at her.

 

“You know who I am?” She started.

 

“Yes,” he replied, looking at his feet. “Everyone knows you, Lady Kagome. You are Lord InuYasha's wife.”

 

Kagome sighed. “Yes, but it's not who I am.”

 

The boy shifted uncomfortably. “I'm sorry, my Lady?”

 

“Nothing.” She turned to pet the old stallion, resting her head against its neck.

 

She shared her aura with the creature, something she learned on her own years ago. She shared her feelings with it, losing her qualms of the world as she eased into its instincts and away from her inner turmoil.

 

A clearing of a soft throat caught her attention.

 

She lifted her head and turned to the boy with a soft smile. “You wanted to ask me something?”

 

“Y… Yes, my Lady.” He glimpsed up and then quickly down. “Why are you wearing underwear?”

 

Kagome started and looked down. She had forgotten about her attire in her haste to escape. She laughed nervously but did not have time to respond before a very irate voice cut the mood.

 

“That's very much what I'd like to know as well.”

 

Kagome closed her eyes and groaned. Enter the hanyou.

 

-+-

 

InuYasha stood at the top of the staircase for a good ten minutes before he allowed himself to stand in front of the doorway. He sighed. His heart was racing. In all the battles that he ever fought, even almost died in, it would take one girl to frighten him to death.

 

He hesitantly knocked.

 

No answer.

 

`Shit. She's really mad.' InuYasha could smell her anger still strong from Miroku's visit.

 

“Kagome?”

 

No response.

 

He sighed. “I'm… He… We…. Ah shit, Kagome, what the fuck am I supposed to do?”

 

Still quiet answered him.

 

“Okay, I know that sending the monk was not my best decision. Shit, ever since I met you I have yet to do one thing right.” He leaned his head against the door, time passed, but his mate refused to talk to him. Not that he could blame her.

 

“Kagome… I'm… sorry. I'm sorry for locking you in, I'm sorry for calling you names, I'm sorry for… well, everything up until this moment. You….” He inhaled sharply and murmured, “You have to realise what you do to me, Kagome. I don't know what to do. I have never felt… I have never wanted, needed…. Grrrrrrraaaaawww!!! Kagome? Please, let me in!”

 

No answer.

 

“Fine! You win! No fucking dresses! You can dress like a mental case all you want! Just let me in and we can talk civil for once in this gods damned relationship!”

 

Still, nothing.

 

“Kagome?” His frowned before his eyes widened. `Oh for fucks sake why didn't I sense it sooner!'

 

Her smell had slowly dissipated while he spoke, which would only mean….

 

He growled as he busted the door down and charged into the room. “Kagome!!!”

 

She was gone. Moving his sight quickly around the room he noticed that the balcony window was wide open. He stormed out to it and looked down to see torn dresses tied in a make shift rope. It was secured tightly on the balcony railing, and the rope was now floating blissfully in the wind, empty of any ragtag woman.

 

He howled in frustration and ran out of the room.

 

“I think he found out she ran off.” Shippou said casually.

 

“Took him long enough.” Sango sighed.

 

“Should make for an interesting bit of news.” Miroku grimaced as he placed a raw steak to his other eye.

 

`Never without since she arrived.' They all thought.

 

They all grinned as they watched the hanyou tear into the kitchen, out the door and on the trail for his missing charge.

 

-+-

 

It didn't take him long to find her. She did well to mask herself and mislead him numerous times, but once he saw the stables, he figured he didn't need to search anymore.

 

He had arrived to hear the boy acknowledge who she was, and had even heard her sad reply. He cringed at it, but his fury was too much for him to think clearly at the moment. At the mention of underwear, his temper had hit its peak.

 

“That's very much what I'd like to know as well.” He growled menacingly as he stepped into the stable's opening.

 

The boy jumped at the voice and quickly bowed before InuYasha.

 

“Leave, Kohaku, and make sure Lady Kagome and I have some peace.” The hanyou did not even look up. His eyes were hidden under his heavy bangs.

 

“Yes, my Lord!” Kohaku ran from the stable without a second glance.

 

Both Kagome and InuYasha remained quiet for some time.

 

He could hear her heart racing. His own was now slow and heavy. `She ran away…. She climbed out the balcony of the top floor of a fucking castle! She could have been hurt. She could have been killed!'

 

He took a few steps towards her. She took several back.

 

“Stay.” He growled and took a step closer to her.

 

“No.” Kagome growled in return and moved a step back.

 

Both were caught unawares by a horse's scream and stomping of hooves. InuYasha's eyes flicked to the wild horse a few feet away from Kagome. Its ropes were straining against the force of the animal. Kagome, however, had turned when she felt the horse's fear and anger. She took a step towards it only to be forced back by clawed hands that turned and pressed her against a hard vibrating chest.

 

InuYasha's growls were loud and fierce against her. Kagome was almost afraid to look up at him. She held her breath and raised her head and stared.

 

He was growling at the horse! His grip grew tighter as he backed away from the wild animal until he felt she was safe enough away from it. It was then his claws pierced into her shoulders, breaking the skin and causing her to bleed.

 

She closed her eyes and stifled a whimper.

 

“You stupid girl!” He shook her slightly and looked down at her face. “Do you hate me that much you try to kill yourself when ever you can to get away from me?!”

 

Kagome gaped and looked up at him. She couldn't escape his hold and winced at the pain in her shoulders and the look on his face.

 

Seeing her hurt expression, he relaxed his grip and whimpered slightly as if he could feel her pain. He looked away, his face unreadable.

 

Kagome turned her head away from him as well. She couldn't believe it. She was feeling guilt and remorse! She hated feeling this way, especially around him. `How does he do this to me? Why do I care?'

 

Her heart fell when he said she hated him. No, she didn't hate. She couldn't, not after what she felt from him in the bath chamber. But her mind would never allow herself to recognize that feeling that desperately wanted to let go inside of her. There was just too much in the way to just let her heart decide. The ache inside her doubled as she felt the heat and energy coming from him. She could not let it consume her.

 

“You stupid hanyou! I am perfectly capable of caring for myself. I'm not some weak damsel that needs to be rescued or dressed like a porcelain doll!” She wrenched her body from his grasp and tried to breathe normally but all she could smell was him. So good….

 

She shook her head. `No, not good, not good!'

 

He bared his fangs. “I don't care who you are. No one in their right mind climbs out of castles or tries to pet wild animals!”

 

Kagome crossed her arms and fought a grin, remembering every time she escaped from Kaede. “I have had a legitimate excuse to climb out every castle hat I have escaped from!”

 

InuYasha glared at her.

 

Her grin dropped. “As for wild animals,” she scanned her eyes up him, “I have no reason to fear. I can tame any beast.”

 

InuYasha's gaze grew stern. “Keh, you're deluding your `mighty miko' powers.”

 

“Oh yeah? Watch!” Kagome turned and faced the horse that was watching them with malice.

 

Before InuYasha could stop her, the stable was filled with quiet serenity. Even he almost fell under its power. He watched as she walked slowly to the animal, unable to move and unable to react.

 

Kagome had automatically drowned out everything beyond the stable. It didn't matter what was out there and it didn't matter what was in here. All that mattered was what was now in her. Kagome closed her eyes. Her mind flowed to one thought, one emotion.

 

The Blackness. The complete nothing. The darkness that had never felt what was before, what was to be. For in this blackness, there was nothing, there was never `a was', there was never a `will be'.

 

This darkness was but one thing, one emotion, the one indescribable feeling that all things once knew, and will know again. It was this one thing she channelled. It was this one thing that she feared and prayed for all in one. It was the one thing that connected her to every touch of life around her. She saw it in her dreams, she felt it in her soul, she felt it in everything, and yet she never knew what it was. But she did know it was there. Even if only a small trace of it could be found, she could enter it upon will.

 

Opening her eyes, InuYasha could see that they were a purple haze, both calm and peaceful.

 

She settled her gaze on black pools of fury of the horse's eyes. With her aura, she dived into them and mixed herself with the animal's spirit.

 

She could hear its breathing calm as it grew to know her, as if it always did. Its muscles eased and its heart rate slowed. Eventually it calmed.

 

Kagome walked towards it and stretched out her hand. The horse breathed in the new scent, but in its mind the scent was familiar. She was a friend. She could be trusted. It had nothing to fear from this woman. It stretched its head to her, allowing it to be touched. It almost begged for the touch. It had been alone and afraid for so long.

 

Kagome knew it. She felt those emotions coming from it and her heart bled in remorse. She patted the white face and embraced its sweaty neck.

 

InuYasha's jaw dropped.

 

Kagome forgot he was there and she was whispering to it. “You know me there. We were friends once. Do you remember?”

 

“Ka… Kagome?”

 

Kagome jumped slightly and stared at him as if she didn't recognize him. Her eyes turned back to grey as she looked at him. “InuYasha?”

 

He didn't speak. All he could do was look at her.

 

She looked around and blinked as if clearing her vision. She sighed as she centered her mind back to the present and patted the horse softly. She turned to him smugly. “See, told ya.”

 

He looked at her stunned.

 

Kagome walked over to him haughtily, which irked him to no end, drawing his attention away from his confused thoughts. He growled in annoyance.

 

“Keh. You petted it, so what? It's a dumb animal. You probably smell like apples or something.” He crossed his arms and looked away. `Well, she does smell a little like apples, and rain, and spice, and excitement, and sex, and…. Sex, fuck, why am I thinking that now? Gods, not now. Fuck, look at her. She's teasing me and taunting me. She shows no fear. Not even to me. And she is mine….'

 

Kagome was pissed when he mocked her miko powers and felt one up on him when she accomplished her said task. But the feeling was fleeting. She was worried. It happened again. When she lifted her aura from the animal, she could see that white light around everything. It was not as pronounced as it had been the previous times, but it was there. As quickly as she saw it, it faded to the dull shapes of the stable and its occupants.

 

She wished Kikyo was around. She would have someone to ask then. The only person who may know what all this was about was that perverted monk, and damned if she was about to ask him anything. But still, it had started to frighten her.

 

While she was thinking, Kagome walked by InuYasha. She was heading towards the stable's entrance distractedly when he caught her arm.

 

“InuYasha?” She started and turned to glare at him.

 

“You disobeyed me.” He snarled.

 

“Huh?”

 

“You left your room not wearing suitable clothing.”

 

“You're bringing this up now?” She huffed and struggled in his grasp but he did not let go.

 

He clutched her other arm and looked down at her. His expression was unreadable. “I told you what I would do if I found you outside your room without appropriate clothing.”

 

Kagome gasped. “You're not serious!”

 

He licked his lips, and his upper canines skimmed his bottom lip in an attempt to hold control. `What the hell am I saying?! Fucking demon side was going to cause nothing but trouble. Oh why did she have to smell like that? So excited… so driven?'

 

Kagome's breath caught and her eyes drifted to watch him lick his lips and bite himself. She had automatically licked her lips as well. Her aura was not completely suppressed from her taming of the horse, and it had slightly melded into his when he touched her.

 

Her eyes widened at the realization. She had no idea she could do that. She knew she could meld with lesser creatures, dominated by instinct, but never could she filter with creatures of complex consciousness.

 

But why was it happening now and so easily? Unless she was feeling his instinct. The youkai instinct it felt for its…. `Oh my gods.'

 

Kagome swallowed hard. Her body was reacting to him and she could not let go. Once her aura melded, however slightly, she was a part of the creature indefinitely. She was a part of the essence she touched. It was how she kept her bond. It was also how she inadvertently protected herself against chaotic auras.

 

Damned now that her aura tapped into the essence of InuYasha's youkai, and his lust for her. The only way she could stop it was to suppress her aura but she could not break from his hold on her desires. She could not surface from the heat he has stirring in her.

 

She whimpered in slight defeat and hot arousal. She closed her eyes and tears leaked in the corners. `Damn, it hurts! I throb and ache all over…. Gods I need him! I want him so bad!'

 

`No,' she shook her head, trying to clear it. `No, it's just him feeling this. Damn, how can he stand it?!'

 

He couldn't. His fangs had already pierced his lip and drew blood. It healed quickly but the taste of his blood as he licked his lips again stirred his demon soul. His senses heightened and he could smell her wetness and need. His eyes flicked over her, drowning in desire at the sight of her. He knew he had to let go, he knew he had to push her away, he knew that if he didn't he would….

 

And he did. He claimed her lips in a searing kiss, and knocked them forward into a stable wall from the force.

 

Kagome gasped at the impact of her back on the wall. It only caused his hot tongue to pierce her mouth and lap at her fully. She moaned and her eyes saw sparks behind her lids. She was losing her balance and she gripped her arms around his neck. Instinctively, she tangled her fingers into his white mane, thrusting his mouth harder onto hers. He delved his tongue deeper into her if it was at all possible.

 

`What the hell am I doing?' Her mind screamed.

 

`Something you have wanted since you first saw him.'

 

But that was different! That's when I didn't know who he really was.'

 

`And how is he any different from then? All that has changed is that he has a name.'

 

`A name that is my enemy!'

 

`A name that is now your love.'

 

`Love? No, I don't love him!'

 

`Feel it!'

 

`No, it's not me! I just feel what he feels for me!'

 

`You cannot feel others' emotions!'

 

`Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!'

 

“Ka… Kagome…?” InuYasha gasped into her mouth, asking, begging, and pleading for her. His body throbbed and he couldn't help the light pumping of his hips against hers.

 

“Don't stop….” She gasped back, wrapping her mouth tighter against his.

 

With a guttural growl he tore his hands from her arms and wound one into her long hair, the other he gathered around her slim waist and pressed her hard against his growing need as he shoved it harder against her.

 

She cried out as the hard member pressed and rubbed against her wetness, causing it to ache and pulse. She felt so empty, needing to be filled by him, only him.

 

Tugging his hair wasn't enough. She needed to touch him. She let him hold her up as she roved her hands along his shoulders, neck, and face, memorizing every curve, every dip and rise, every groan he panted into her mouth when she touched certain places. Her hands trailed up to his glorious ears. The very beings she longed to tug and rub and kiss for so long. Even her mind could not deny that from her heart.

 

She traced the rims delicately with her fingers, and yelped into his mouth in desire when he uncontrollably bucked his pelvis onto hers from her ministrations.

 

She grinned slightly and took control. She delved her tongue into his mouth, finally tasting him in all his form. She was drinking him in as if she was thirsty and only he could quench her. Her hands rubbed his ears up and down, stroking and teasing them.

 

His eyes opened in shock, then rolled closed and let her take him. `Kagome! My Kagome! Kami! For all the wrongs I have done, for all the wrongs I have seen. You have blessed me with my saving grace!'

 

He was so hard now it pained him as it pressed hard against her hot sex. He made it more wonderful and worse with each thrust against her that he was unable to control.

 

“Kagome…” he gasped, “Kagome, please… you have to… stop touching… my ears.”

 

Kagome opened her eyes, her considerate and naïve and gentle eyes. “Am I… hurting you?” She panted into his mouth.

 

“Gods, no!” He hushed. “Just I can't… if you don't… I won't be able to… have control.”

 

She laughed lustily. “Oh….”

 

She stopped stroking, only to have her mouth take over the frenzy. She stopped kissing his mouth, only to lick, kiss and suckle his jaw line and neck, then back up. Her eyes roamed up him, and she held a sexily wicked gaze.

 

He shivered and moaned at the feel and the sight of her. But what set him off the most was….

 

Kagome kissed his lips then bit his chin gently. The instinctual sign for submission.

 

His head thrust back and he howled in a dominating declaration to any male who would hear, before bruising her lips in a claiming kiss. He bit, sucked and pulled at her mouth until it was tender and tasted all over. His clawed hand left her hair, and roamed to her collarbone, then to the opening of her kosode, and then in. His hand cupped her swollen breast and he rubbed his calloused fingers over it and its hardened nub.

 

It was hard to tell which enjoyed that feeling more, since both yelled out in pleasure and pain as their sexes pulled and pulsed in an ageless dance.

 

The hand that was on her waist now rested on that pert ass he had admired so long ago. Ages ago it seems. His fingers had hiked up the kosode's hem so that he felt hot bare flesh. His hand grabbed and caressed her ass, first once side then the other.

 

He was addicted and he wanted more. His erection was about to burst in need, until his attention was drawn to a horse's neigh. His eyes opened slightly for him to look around. Automatically he stalled, remembering they were in a very open stable in a very active village.

 

Damn!!! Fucking damn!!! Kami please no!!! Why did this have to happen here?

 

He whimpered and broke the kiss. “Kagome, stop!”

 

Kagome looked at him. Her eyes were deep and liquid in heat. “What? Why? What's wrong?” She panted.

 

His resolve nearly broke when he looked at them. He shook his head, “Nothing, I just… we… no, we can't.” `Gods don't make me explain! Please give me strength! It's all I can say without breaking and fucking you now. I can't let you feel it's just that! I don't want you to think that's all you are to me.'

Kagome only blinked, her eyes dawning. His refusal was enough to ebb the demon lust and ease off her aura. It was enough for Kagome's mind to slap her out of her `delusional' love and want for him. Her heart screamed in pain at his refusal of her, but her mind again told her why.

 

`You knew this! He just lusted, but you repulse him.'

 

`No, that can't be it!'

 

`He's letting you go. He's moving away from you. He won't even look at you! He's trying to make you feel for him, want him, need him.'

 

`No, he's not like that. He loves me. I felt it!'

 

`He can't love! Not you! What kind of love would lock you away?! Insult you… claim you?'

 

`He… he just….'

 

`It was just the link! Break it. Run from him and break it!'

 

`But!'

 

`RUN! Run before he breaks you!'

 

Kagome ran but it never stopped her heart from breaking. It never stopped her tears from falling. It never stopped her from hearing him call her name in desperation. She felt him chase her and she was afraid. She tried to run harder, faster, and farther but he would soon catch her. She didn't want to hear excuses. She didn't want to hope. She closed her eyes and forced a barrier behind her towards him and she ran until her heart felt it would burst from her chest.

 

InuYasha collided into an invisible wall as he neared her, stopping him hard in his tracks. He tore and scratched and swore at it, but it could not be moved by his will.

 

“Kagome, please!” His very being called out to her. `Please, don't leave me again!'

 

She did not reply as she disappeared from his sight.

 

He fell on his knees, becoming hidden by tall grain. He whimpered in dejection before falling on his front, clawing at the dirt. His heart lurched and bled.

 

`What happened? What did I do?' He rolled over and his dirt stained face looked numbly up at the blue sky. He closed his eyes and sobbed dry tears of pain and love for something he almost had, and for what he could never have.

 

-+-

 

Somewhere deep in the forest, something stirred. `In the Blackness, I will find you.' It gave chase into the darkness of the Western Lands.