InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cerulean Sins ❯ My Heart ( Chapter 4 )

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Cerulean Sins

Chapter Four: My Heart

Features: Hello my name is…(General thoughts/or diff. person talking)

Hello my name is…(Emphasize words/or talking)

She had watched me throughout the night, constantly talking to me to keep me awake. The little girl that I so cherished was finally catching on to my current state. I felt bad that I had made her sad. I felt bad that I had made her cry. But I suppose it was better this way. Earlier today I had watched Sesshoumaru struggle with the handling of the Tetsuiga. But I guess once he finally accepted that fact that Rin meant more to him then he was willing to admit things became easier for him. A small bruise among many in his pride.

Tell me a story… She said to me, picking at the grass blades on the floor. They were now dried up, caked in my blood. I think I'm only just realizing that my wounds have stopped bleeding. I looked down at the girl, my fingers running along the caked blood on my stomach.

I'm afraid I have nothing of importance to tell you. I finally said, hoping that she wouldn't feel hurt. Any story that I had to tell from this point on was dreary and sad and Rin was not of a suitable age to hear them.

Jakken rolled his eyes. Rin leave her alone and let her get some sleep. He scolded the young girl and I knew that he was probably anxious for me to die.

Rin sighed. Are you sure you have nothing to say Sango? She asked me softly and I gave into her needs quickly.

I sighed and leaned my head back against the tree behind me. Once upon a time there was young priestess named Kagome. Kagome was very beautiful and very kind. All over people knew this maiden by name. I paused in thought, considering how to continue to story without Sesshoumaru getting angry at me for the use of Inuyasha's name. Well, once upon a time this maiden met a half demon named Inuyasha and fell madly in love with him. However, the dog demon only had eyes for Kagome's reincarnation. Distraught, Kagome tried to think of the many ways to please this man she loved so dear but it seemed that he was never satisfied.

I looked down at Kagome's arrows with remorse and regret. Kagome…I could really use some help… Rin looked at me sadly when I stopped speaking and I looked down at her and smiled. Sesshoumaru cast me a glance and I couldn't tell if it was because he was angry with me or he wanted me to continue to make her happy. Then one night, Kagome finally got the courage to tell Inuyasha how she felt for him. Inuyasha was so wrapped up in his thoughts over Kikyou and Kagome that he ran off leaving Kagome by herself. She cried for hours with no one to comfort her until he finally came back and…uh, and they lived happily ever after.

Rin sat up and smiled at me. I liked that story! Is it real? Did Kagome and Inuyasha really fall in love?

I creased my eyebrows, a slight pain forming within my body. Yes Rin, it's very real. Then she smiled and laid her head down in my lap.

That's nice, she whispered before falling asleep. One day she may come to realize that that story was indeed fake and that Inuyasha would always choose Kikyou over Kagome but for right now she could dream her little dreams of one day feeling the same way. I cast a sideway glance over at Sesshoumaru and he looked at me with cold eyes.

You lied. He told me and I sighed, running my hands through Rin's hair.

Perhaps one day when she grows older you will tell her the real story, but I…don't have the heart or the strength to do so.

Sesshoumaru looked away from me and into the fire. Perhaps…

I sighed and looked up at the moon. Sometimes I think that I'm just like you. But then I become afraid of death and I know that it isn't true. I smiled and pointed up at the sky. Hey look, a shooting star! In my mind I had doubted that he would make any movements to look up but he had and for once I felt kindness from him. Star light, star bright… I began but found that my body was to weak to finish it as I slowly closed my eyes and ventured further into the everlasting darkness.

Sesshoumaru turned to me when I had stopped speaking, and I watched as his eyes trailed up and down my body for any signs of me breathing. In a sick way it was almost comforting to die, to slip away into a darkness that was not my own. I smiled at the redemption it brought to my soul and then watched as Sesshoumaru stood to his feet. Was he perhaps going to give me a proper burial? Moving Rin aside carefully so as not to wake her he put his fingers to my neck.

He said, you do this to feel the heartbeat of another person. To check and see if they are alive. I watched my father as he put his fingers to my uncles neck. See? Don't fret little one, your uncle is just sleeping…

But I…I was not sleeping anymore. No. Now I was watching. I never realized how beautiful Sesshoumaru was. It's a shame. Everything always hit me when I was gone… I watched him put his hand to my forehead and then he sighed, looking back down at the little girl beside him. Would he tell her? Something told me that Sesshoumaru did not take pleasure in hurting her.

Grabbing Tenseiga with his other hand I lost my smile. I watched him unsheathe it and I knew that he was going to do the unforgivable. I was going to make his life a living hell…