InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cerulean Sins ❯ You & Me ( Chapter 6 )

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Cerulean Sins

Chapter Six: You and Me…

Features: Hello my name is…(General thoughts/or diff. person talking)

Hello my name is…(Emphasize words/or talking)

As others were - I have not seen

As others saw - I could not bring

My passions from a common spring.

From the same source I have not taken

My sorrow; I could not awaken

My heart to joy at the same tone;

And all I lov'd, I lov'd alone.

She said, Sango, I think I need you, so I opened my eyes and raised my head. There she sat so beautiful and lonely. There she sat before me in a red and white Kimono that gravely resembled Kikyou's. I smiled softly at her, having never seen her look so formal. There was something in her eyes, something that dulled them and sent an intense wave of fear crashing over my body. My Kagome was slowly changing into a monster. She said, I do not love you anymore… and I felt the surface of my unshed tears break free. Once upon a dream where my worst fears stalked me like bee's stalked honey.

Then - in my childhood- in the dawn

Of a most stormy life - was drawn

From ev'ry depth of good and ill

The mystery, which blinds me still:

From the torrent, or the fountain,

From the red cliff of the mountain,

From the sun that' round me roll'd

In its autumn tint of gold -

Her body was wavering, shaking immensely. Was she fighting for her soul? The black in her eyes had taken control and I found that I was scared. I opened my mouth to speak but like everything else my words were suspended in time. I could hear the beat of my heart as it raced my mind for answers. I let the bloody tears fall down my face softly and slowly and then watched as they hit the floor of Nothingness. I watched her as strung the bow and I let her shoot me in the heart. Anything for you my love…It was odd, that I felt the pain. Perhaps even more so when I heard the surface of my mind shatter. I cried. She had come to take me home…

From the lightning in the sky

As it pass'd me flying by -

From the thunder and the storm,

And the cloud that took the form

(When the rest of heaven was blue)

Of a demon in my view.

I shot up quickly, putting my face in my hands and crying my misery. Once again I found that I was alone and had nothing to live for. Once again I found that I hated myself. I'm happy you're awake…but do you really have to scare me like that? Rin asked rubbing her eyes. I was having the most wonderful dream that we were playing in the Garden!

I took a moment to register my surroundings, noting that I was indeed in a bed. It had four posts and a long veil that hung down over it. There were two initial windows in this room, one on the right of me and one on the left. The intricate designs within them told me that they had been customized and made with special care. The sheets were white silk much like the new gown I was adorned in and suddenly…I felt out of place.

Where am I? I question Rin softly, running my hands through my hair. It felt odd because it was no longer in a ponytail like I originally wore it. I sighed.

You're at Sesshoumaru's castle of course. Don't you remember silly? You woke up yesterday in Sesshoumaru's arms and asked the same question! Then Rin laughed happily and I pulled the covers away from me. I was warm for the first time in days and I knew I was going to regret stepping out of this bed.

I don't seem to remember that… I told Rin as I pulled back the beige veil. This place was very beautiful and had the feeling of home. I think I still remembered what that felt like. Rin, where are my clothes?

The little girl smiled happily, rushing over to the side of the bed that I was on. Taking hold of my hand she began to drag me out of the room. Come with me! I'll take you to them!

I followed Rin down the long corridor and couldn't help but marvel at the beautiful details everywhere. Could this really be Sesshoumaru's castle? It was almost ironic and I couldn't help but laugh. Rin opened the door before us and let me walk inside first. The room carried with it a rather childish allure. It was obvious to tell that this was Rin's room. Here they are, here they are! She bounced up and down happily, throwing open her armoire door.

I stared in wonder. Inside were Kimono's that were obviously to big for Rin and yet she kept them nonetheless. Sesshoumaru must be preparing for when she gets older…I thought, before taking a closer look at them all. Rin, these are all lovely. Who do they belong to?

Rin smiled happily, me of course! Sesshoumaru gave them to me for my tenth birthday. He said that I would need them when I got older! Isn't he just the greatest?

I looked softly down at the girl before me. She really did care for the demon Lord she traveled with so often. I smiled at her and smoothed back her hair. Yeah, he is… I muttered under my breath.

She looked up at me with adoration and it only hit me then: this little girl was looking up to me for no other reason then the fact that I was like a mother. It became quite evident then that I needed to leave this place as soon as I was able. May this Rin dress you Sango-Chan?

Her voice drew me out of my worthless thoughts and I laughed slightly. Yeah, of course you can. I watched her rummage through the closet for something beautiful. God, I must have done something right. It's so inspiring when the child smiles…

This one for Sango? Yeah? In her hands she carried a white Kimono with golden flowers engraved on the silken fabric. The dark shade of green on the leaves almost reminded me or Shippo's eyes and so suddenly I find myself trying to fight back the tears.

It's beautiful Rin. I tell her, taking it in my hands and if only for a moment letting Shippo run through my mind happily. It was okay…he was aloud to taint my heart. Revenge was always bittersweet…

Put it on Sango-Chan! I want to see how it looks on you!

I opened my mouth to say something but found that I was speechless. Look, you can change in my bathroom! Pulling me into her pink painted bathroom she quickly closed the door behind me. Sighing, I found that I would do anything to please this little girl. So stripping off my gown, I pulled over the Kimono and let the feeling of silk sink into my skin. I felt beautiful. I felt loved.

Stepping out of the bathroom I watched Rin look at me and then jump around happily. Doesn't she look beautiful Sesshoumaru! At the sound of his name I quickly turned my head toward the door. I found that I was blushing and working to cover myself up even though I was fully clothed.

Stunning. Sesshoumaru answered and to say the least I was quite shocked. I had never expected even the tiniest of a compliment from the demon Lord himself. I looked at him and then turned away quickly.

How…nice that felt.

Rin, will you please go and play with Jakken. He's looking rather old without your company.

Rin smiled happily and nodded her head. Yes, of course Sesshoumaru-sama. Then she turned back to me and blushed softly. You look very beautiful Sango.

I smiled at the little girl as she left the room then became somewhat frightened as I realized that Sesshoumaru was still staring at me. What? I asked him callously, regaining my composure quickly. I wasn't used to this kind of odd attention and I wasn't ready for it either.

You have quite the attitude in the morning and I must say that it does not appease this Sesshoumaru.

I smirked. Sorry, I guess I wasn't designed with you in mind. Perhaps that was going to be a downfall on my part. I sighed, looking out at the window.

I can't stay here you know. I have a feeling that the only reason you dragged me here was to keep Rin busy for the days ahead. You must have incredibly loyal followers to track down Jinx and you must be incredibly smart to realize that this battle doesn't just involve me. I must say that I am impressed even if you remain impassive to it.

Sesshoumaru regarded me coldly and even though I was not looking at him directly I could feel the heated gaze. He was probably angry that in my own little way I was deceiving him. However, I found that it was hard for me to care. He did not own me and I would not be treated as such. You can do as you will Exterminator. I turned back to look at him.

Thank you for your hospitality. It's much appreciated. For an odd reason I felt that it would be right to bow and so I did.

Sesshoumaru shrugged his shoulders and I left the room with no argument. She will be back. He thought softly, because in his own little way he had grown accustomed to an Exterminator.