InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Close Your Eyes ❯ Hidden Forever ( Chapter 1 )

Close Your Eyes

 

Disclaimer: Song belongs to me. The characters do not.

 

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Kagome sat on her couch, her eyes closed as she tried to hide her pain from the world. It had become a habit for her, when something went wrong she would simply close her eyes and will herself to believe it never happened.

But this time, no matter how much she willed herself or lied to herself- this would never go away. She opened her eyes long enough to recognize the offending noise as the phone ringing. The answering machine will get it, she concluded. The machine took the message and played it, of course- stupid machine.

“Message one” the obnoxious recorder said loudly before replaying the message “Kagome, c'mon please answer you've got us really worried. Sango's having a fit over here. Come on Kagome, please pick up” his voice seeped with betrayal and false emotions, only Kagome ,of course, could see through this.

Anger pulsed through her at this point- it was awkward she usually contained herself better but it was something about InuYasha that brought out the worst in her. She stood and walked over to the machine and stared at if for a second. She did the one thing furthest away from her personality, she picked up the recorder and flung it across the room, shattering it to pieces. Her anger quickly turned into bitter sadness as flashbacks of him and Kikyo holding each other came into mind. This was not the first time he had done this to her, and it probably wouldn't be the last.

 

I wanted to say I'm sorry, but instead I'll slit my wrist

Because you wont forgive me and I know now I wont be missed

 

Tears poured down her pale face as she sunk to the floor. She began clawing at her arms to try to find some comfort in her painful reality. No such luck. Her nails made cuts along her slender arms. Blood seeped down slowly as if savoring every moment of pain. Her ebony hair flung in her face as if shading her from embarrassment. Her brown eyes were now red and puffy from the constant crying. She looked up at the sudden startle of her cell vibrating. “InuYasha” she whispered maliciously, as she squeezed her cell to the point of cracking.

 

And right before I die, I'll write a note in blood

And say how it was you I loved. In this my solemn lullaby

 

She clicked the ignore button on her phone, only to receive an unwanted voicemail. She sighed heavily, allowing more tears to trickle down.

Her phone began vibrating again, she picked it up hastily and chucked it across the room with all the force she could muster- the phone broke on contact leaving a dent in the wall. More tears ran down as she went back and forth from hatred to pain. She rocked herself back and forth trying to calm down but to no avail.

 

I fought myself to try to find

Any reason to live and say everything will soon be fine

But no such luck

Never for me

I found no friends only my own enemies

 

Sick of sitting on the floor, she swayed trying to get up from her current fetal position. She stumbled to the wall and walked the slightest bit to the table and managed a firm grip on the side and walked herself down the hallway to her bathroom. Upon reaching the bathroom she slid in and held onto the sink and slapped at the light switch, suddenly blinding her for a second. She looked at her reflection for only a second before screaming something inaudible and falling into a fit of rage again- she could literally see InuYasha and Kikyo laughing at her pain, smiling at the thought that she was crying. Anger took over her body as she thrust her fist into the mirror.

The pieces shattered and fell everywhere in the small room. Blood now trickled down her knuckles, she didn't bother to clean them.

 

So tonight I'll slit my wrist

And everything will be better

Because I know you'll be happy

And no one will remember

And right before I die

I'll write a note in blood

And say how it was you I loved, in this my solemn lullaby

 

She laid her head down on the edge and sobbed psychotically as she pounded her fist into the side of the fiber glass sink. Her sobbing was short lived as she looked towards the floor, broken glass was shimmering in the dim lighting. She allowed herself to sink to the floor and onto her knees. A thought came to her as she reached out and grasped one of the shards and starred at it sadistically- maybe this was her way out. She took the sharper side and slid it gently, at first, across her wrist. A droplet of blood fell.

 

Don't try to change my mind

Its already engraved in stone

I'll die with you on my mind

And yet I'll still be all alone

 

Satisfied, she made another and one more after that- the slits growing deeper as they were formed-, suddenly she had six or seven slits- yet non of them were deep enough to be fatal. Blood was trailing down her arm, and yet it was nothing compared to the scars on her heart. She made one final cut, deeper then the others. She began to feel dizzy as the blood seeped out, and before she fell one name came to mind, “InuYasha”. She closed her eyes one final time before death carried her swiftly away.

 

Last night I slit my wrist and nothing was fine

Because she lied and said you loved her

And you wanted me to die

But I wrote my note in blood because it was still you I loved

And I ended my solemn lullaby

 

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r/r this might have a sequel not sure, depends on how things work out here.