InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Conditions of the Heart ❯ Hurt Conditions ( Chapter 1 )

Conditions of the Heart

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Dusk.....

 

One lonely soul stealer floated over the silver haired hanyou beckoning him to follow. He knew deep down in his heart what he must do even if for the moment his heart was breaking at the thought of the his beloved being hurt by the actions he was forced to take next.

 

He looked back at the raven haired girl that followed him ... she slowly lowered her vision to his gaze and he could smell the tears welling in her darkening eyes. The rest of his pack stopped all motion and stared at him anticipating his next move.

 

Softly she whispered to him, her voice a resonance of deep sadness...the gash in her heart becoming deeper..."Go... to her."

 

He turned slowly away from her and inhaled deeply letting out a soft moan of pain ..." I'm sorry."... Then he walked slowly until he was out of their sight.

 

 

 

CONDITION OF A HURTING HEART

 

 

He's walking away again ... this night I won't sleep...

 

I run from my friends, down that damn well again....

 

This is what you do to me all my emotions wrapped up in a fire ball... one that burns as intense as my feelings for you.....

 

I lock that window you come though....

 

I grab your picture from my desk and throw my self on my bed...

 

I want so much to tear it... as I look at those lying amber eyes...how innocent they look ... bet they are not that innocent in her arms.

 

Does you heart lie to you?

 

My tears flow in streams down my face...as I begin to gasp for breath thinking of what you could be doing ... with her.

 

Maybe backing her up to a wall and ravishing her... forgetting my existence

Did you go to talk to her of love that never dies... even though she has no beating heart?

 

Those shattered promises you made to me... are like that damned jewel ... the one I broke... its just as fragile as crystal and the way you show your love for me.

 

Like a bandit you leave me at night... I see everything now...you can't lie to me anymore.

 

Everything ... the whole world along with my hurting heart crumbles once again.

 

 

 

 

Conditions of a Dead Heart and the Way a Living Heart Beats

 

 

 

 

Kami I hate doing this....

 

Leaving the one I love behind the holder of my soul and being alone in the dark... but this is something I must do for the last time ... I've made my mind up.... to be free.

 

I see her... no life exists in her clay body the only way I sense her is her scent... dead and stagnant... not the sweet jasmine I once knew... now she's only cold like the night breeze, for love cannot reach her again.

 

I remember her alive...

 

I can see her ... hair free from her crimson ribbon blowing in the soft summer breeze...

 

First time I saw her... she was like fire and ice and dangerous like the sea

so different from all others...

 

I remember her letting me admire her, still untouchable, so prohibited and unreal...

 

We played lovers games ... her young body untouched and ideal.... her eyes reflecting the same innocence as mine.

 

I remember....

 

We made love without knowing what love was... we just melted into one another looking for compassion from this harsh world. Your heart was always impossible to conquer.

 

I never knew if you were loving me, changing me or leaving me... unpredictable beauty... I've come to tell you my hearts desire... That just like the wild animal you once thought of me....I will not be tamed.

 

She walks toward me now... begging me to take her in my arms as if my embrace will bring her the warmth she once possessed...

My step back makes her lifeless eyes widen... she waits for me to speak....

 

I take a deep breath ...

She whispers ..."You".....

 

"No ...Kikyo... you...the same... once friendship ...once tenderness ...how can I know ... now no words can't explain...

 

You now my shadow following me with our story ...one of love that never was...

 

You and always eternally you were just one night, your body and a good bye...

 

You my secret lover... a bit of young passion and the gift of each others bodies on that

fateful dawn...

 

There's no more of that which binded us once... There were no promises made... no pure love exchanged ... never none of that.

 

You... the same as yesterday... telling me there's no conditions... but yet trying to change everything... not waiting for me.

 

You... the same... the one I couldn't grow to love don't ask me why.

 

You... intensely you... alone... desperate for understanding ... needing love... I don't know.

You who when I was hurting decided to befriend me and offer herself to me... now all I can do is offer a pair of white roses to your grave.. I'm sorry... nothing binds us now...i hope You understand."

 

 

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