InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Curse of the Wolf ❯ I'm Sorry ( Chapter 3 )

Authors Note: Hi, just a little note to say that I answered your e-mails to me but I think ff.net messed them up. I had a hard time sending my replies so if you didn't get an answer from me this is why.

 

Chapter 3: I'm Sorry

 

Inuyasha stormed back into the village not believing what he had just done. What the hell is wrong with me? Why would I even want to kiss that stupid wolf? And want to he had, he tried to tell himself that he had been confused upon waking in that warm lap and had thought he was with Kagome, but he knew it was a lie. He had known the second he woke up where he was. It's his damn smell; it hypnotizes you, makes you do things you don't want to. This he also knew wasn't true. He hadn't felt hypnotized or coerced in the least.

 

“What's wrong, Inuyasha?” questioned Shippou looking up from the ground where he was playing with a toy as the hanyou swept past him, his brows furrowed in anger.

 

“Nothing's wrong, just shut up,” he screamed at the young fox causing Shippou to cringe back in terror.

 

“Inuyasha, what's wrong with you? Shippou was just concerned about you,” Sango admonished him, getting up from her seat on the porch of Kaede's hut.

 

Inuyasha didn't apologise, instead asking irritably, “Where the hell is Kagome? I thought she was only going to be a couple of days.”

 

“Oh, yes. She came back a little while ago while you were away, she said her grandfather is still quite ill and she's afraid she's going to have to stay awhile longer.”

 

Inuyasha growled in frustration. “Damn it, I'm going to go get her, how sick can he be anyways, the old coot.”

 

Sango jumped in front of him, holding onto his arm. “She looked really worried and upset, I don't think you should try and force her to come back. I don't think her grandfather is faking an illness just to keep her away from you.”

 

“Feh,” he huffed angrily. Sango was probably right, but damn he wanted to see that girl and try and forget what had happened earlier. I do not like men, he shouted at himself, trying to forget the sweet taste and the pleasant feeling of Kouga's lips on his own, especially when he had returned the kiss.

 

“Come into the hut, let's get some rest. Maybe Kagome will be back tomorrow to let us know more, okay? I'm sure she wouldn't mind a visit from you if you want to see her.”

 

The hanyou didn't reply as he shoved the screen aside and stepped into the hut, going to the corner he normally occupied at night and slumping down. He hugged the Tetsusaiga to him a large scowl adorning his face and closed his eyes. Everyone else settled down soon after, walking on eggshells so as not to irritate the pissed off hanyou any further.

 

A few hours later and still no closer to getting any sleep, Inuyasha left the hut quietly. He sat out on the porch looking up into the starry sky. Now that he had had a few hours to calm down, he was feeling guilty at what he had said to Kouga.

 

There were four things bothering the hanyou as he pondered what had happened. One was the fact that when he first came to he definitely saw how worried Kouga had been for him. Second was that utterly wounded look he had received after his tirade. Which lead to number three, Fucking wolf wears his heart on his sleeve. He doesn't have it in him to pull off some tricky spell. I must have really wanted to kiss him.

 

This was part of the reason Inuyasha did so well in fighting with the wolf. He could read him like a book. The ookami had never been able to hide his emotions, letting them show plainly in his body language and expressions. Inuyasha could almost tell what the wolf was going to do before he even knew it himself, he couldn't be deceitful if he tried. The real pisser for Inuyasha was number four…he had enjoyed that kiss.

 

Now he sat here feeling like shit and unable to get any sleep because of how hurt Kouga had looked. He had absolutely no idea why it should bother him so much, after all Kouga was here to claim Kagome, which was something Inuyasha was not going to allow to happen. But still he felt bad.

 

Damn it! He left the porch and started to walk back to the hotsprings, for the first time in a long time intent on making an apology to someone.

 

Getting closer to the springs he slowed down. He could smell that Kouga was still there and he could also smell the salty tang of previously shed tears. What? Was he crying? Inuyasha approached quietly, now feeling worse than he had before, sure the wolf wouldn't sense him as he was downwind. He peeked out of the darkness and saw the wolf curled up under a large tree, his tail wrapped around his tucked up knees.

 

“What do you want Inuyasha, I know you're there,” Kouga said dejectedly, not moving to turn around.

 

“Nothing, I wanted to wash the blood out of my hair. I thought you would have left by now,” he replied coming towards the water. He was surprised that Kouga had sensed him. He's not so stupid after all. Now that he was here he had no idea what to say and the tone in Kouga's voice was making him feel even guiltier if that was possible.

 

“Don't worry, I'm leaving in the morning, I won't bother Kagome again.”

 

Inuyasha's head snapped towards the wolf who was still lying in the same position as before. “Kagome will be gone for awhile longer, her grandfather is still sick,” he told Kouga not knowing why he even bothered. He disrobed and stepped into the springs dunking his head under the water and giving it a quick scrub before surfacing again. Kouga was still lying in the exact same place.

 

“You stole it,” he accused the hanyou quietly.

 

“What?” Inuyasha had no idea what he was talking about.

 

“My first kiss, you took advantage of me and you stole it.” And you made me enjoy it, he thought but did not voice.

 

Inuyasha's eyes widened in shock, his ears drooped when he smelled the scent of fresh tears. He left the springs throwing his clothing on haphazardly before standing beside Kouga. “I…I'm sorry,” he stuttered out.

 

“And Kagome, you have her too.”

 

Inuyasha stood staring down at the unmoving wolf. “What's wrong with you, you never give up so easily especially not over anything I say.”

 

“It's not just what you said, stupid,” returned Kouga, some of the old fire showing in his voice. He sat up and wiped at his eyes quickly. “It's because it's true, she's not ever going to love me, is she,” he demanded.

 

Inuyasha was going to yell back at the wolf but there was that hurt and wounded look again, like Inuyasha had just drowned his pet puppy or something. “I can't speak for Kagome, I don't know. I was just mad at you, since when do you take me so seriously all of a sudden.”

 

“Since when do you care?”

 

“Since…since…now,” he finished, amazing himself by his honesty as he looked into those sad blue eyes.

 

“Why are you really here,” Kouga asked, frowning and crossing his arms.

 

“I just wanted to tell you…I don't think you're pathetic.”

 

“How wonderful of you,” Kouga returned sarcastically.

 

Inuyasha glared back at the wolf. “Stupid wolf, I wanted to say…I'm sorry I blamed you…I…I…liked it okay. Are you happy now?” he yelled. “I liked kissing you!”