InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cursed ❯ Day Three Hundred Sixty Five ( Chapter 18 )

AN: Just to let you know, this is the chapter that spurred the whole story. I write different odd storylines and occasionally, I liked it so much, I decided to go with it. Just a little silly information for you.

 

Chapter Eighteen - Day Three Sixty Five

 

Sesshoumaru woke early that morning, far before his bedmate. Something wasn't right. Quietly, he pulled himself away from the sleeping woman and quickly dressed himself. Grabbing his sword and cloak, he slipped out of the hut and into the cool, crisp morning air. Nothing looked out of the ordinary but he couldn't shake the feeling that something terrible was going to happen. A light fog had moved in over the night and Sesshoumaru carefully made his way through the eerie gloom. After making a large circuit around the hut, he finally decided that there was, in fact, nothing wrong. He started to make his way back to curl up with his female once more when he heard a strange noise off to his left, inside the forest. Gripping his weapon once again, he moved off to investigate.

 

Though it was probably just a deer or some other creature making its way through the undergrowth early in the morning, he needed to make sure. The feeling was back with a vengeance now as he made his way deeper and deeper into the trees. After several moments of nothing, he glanced up ahead and thought he saw something. In the fog that had only grown denser since he stepped out of the hut, he couldn't be sure of what he'd seen but he move ahead towards the location it had been.

 

He squinted his eyes in an attempt to focus through the misty air and the moment he saw it, he knew. There, obscured by the trunks of several trees and the dense mist, was the same creature he'd seen a year before. Had it been a year already? He knew it was close but so soon? When he was close enough to make out its face, it nodded to him with a strangely sardonic smile and then vanished.

 

Suddenly, Sesshoumaru felt as though he had just been pulled from underwater. Everything was heightened, all of his senses but he was not thinking of that at the moment. What was he going to do now?

 

 

 

“Shin, you're starting to scare me. Please let me see you!” She begged her lover that still kept his appearance covered by the cloak. He'd come back hours after sunrise and she had already begun to worry before that. Now that he refused to show himself to her, she became more than fearful of what might have happened to him. She didn't understand his sudden unnerving desire to hide himself. She couldn't fathom a good reason he should have to do it.

 

“You have to promise me something Takana.”

 

“Anything just let me see you.”

”You have to promise me that you'll stay calm.”

”Ok.”

 

“Promise me!” The strain in his voice was evident.

 

The longer he kept her from seeing him, the worse her fear of the unknown became. She was terrified that he was hurt but until he let her see him, there was nothing she could do but worry. She didn't understand what was wrong that would make him act in such an impossibly strange way.

 

“I promise.” She heard him take a deep breath before he said one more thing.

 

“Do you trust me?” He whispered out.

 

“Of course I do, now please let me see.”

 

There was another moment before nothing happened. Silence filled the little one room hut that had been their home for a year. He sighed, unable and unwilling to stop the sound from hitting her ears. What did he expect? He could only guess at her reaction and hoped for the best. He should have told her long ago, long before this day ever came to pass but now it was too late. Why he only realized that now, he couldn't fathom. With all the regret in the world, he let the cloak fall.

 

Takana just stared at first, frozen to her spot. It was too surreal. Who was this man...this creature? Brown eyes met radiant golden ones and the two stood there in stunned silence, both holding their breaths. Her expression was inscrutable, one he would have been hard pressed to duplicate. She saw the silver hair that should have been black, the golden eyes that should have been blue, the pale flesh that should have been tanned dark by the sun and the face that was her lover's but, at the same time, was not. It was him but at the same time, it was not. The only thing she recognized and the part that suddenly scared her most was the concern she saw in his eyes. That was her Shin but how could this be, he looked like a...?

 

The eerie stillness of the moment was broken by her single step away from him. He closed his eyes in unconcealed pain when he saw and scented her fear.

 

“Takana...” His voice was pleading as he reopened his eyes and took a tenative step in her direction.

 

“No.” She whispered out, something so low that yesterday he would not have been able to make it out. “No.” She said again, a little louder and she looked up into his eyes. “Who are you?” She was shaking now.

 

“I'm the same man you thought I was a moment ago.” He tried to make his voice calm but it was edged in worry and hesitation.

 

“No.” She looked at his clawed hand that was pleadingly reaching towards her. She flinched away when it came near. “You're a youkai!” She cried in disbelief, her fear redoubling. Her eyes flashed back to his face and rested on the crescent moon that delicately proclaimed his status. “Y-you're a tai...” She breathed out.

 

“Yes...but” He clenched his hand when she pulled out of his reach. She was still steadily backing away from the situation and him. Confusion and fear still the dominant emotions he sensed pouring off of her.

 

“Stay away from me!” She screamed at him and turned to flee. It was a poor choice of actions. Never turn you back on a youkai and flee, even one that loves you.

 

His slow hesitancy dissolved in an instant as primal instinct took over. He was on her in an instant, unaccustomed to his regained speed and strength; he slammed her into the wall, caging her between his body and the exterior wall. He immediately regained his composure before he growled at her and mentally smacked himself for his momentary loss of control. He searched his mind desperately for what he should do next to make this all better again. The smell of her fear sickened him. He wanted to see her smile again, to hear her laughter and quick wit. He wanted her to understand that he didn't ever want to hurt her, that he loved her and would always protect her but even as he thought though the words, they sounded hollow and unworthy for her.

 

Takana yelped and tried to regain the breath that had just been knocked out of her. She stood stock still for a moment, dazed by the quickness of the move and the steel force behind it. A horrible sense of deja vu settled over her. She had felt this kind of power once before and again it made her feel small, helpless and absolutely terrified. Another silence settled over them. All Takana could see was a veil of silver hair and alabaster skin.

 

“Let me go.” She whispered.

 

“No, not until you understand.” His breath brushed over her ear.

 

“Understand what, that you tricked me, that you lied to me? What else is there to understand?” She whimpered.

 

He clenched his eyes shut. “I never meant to lie to you.”

 

“Liar.” She choked out. “What kind of sick creature are you? How could you play such a cruel game with me?”

 

“None of this was a game.” He said, pulling away from her when he believed she wouldn't try and run again. He was afraid of himself at the moment. His body, after a year spent as a human, was proving difficult to control, he was out of practice.

 

“What would a mighty taiyoukai want with a worthless castaway like me?” Tears started to slowly drip from her eyes as her world came crashing down around her. She should have known that it was too good to be true. Everything had been so perfect, she had finally started to believe that she wasn't cursed, that she would have a happy life but now...that was gone. It felt like nothing more than a beautiful dream that she had been viciously awakened from without her permission. “You pretended to be human...”

 

“No, I was human.” She shot him an icy look and a choked out laugh that held no humor. “You must believe me, it's the truth; I was cursed and left to be human for a year. I was attacked and left for dead until you found me. I truly didn't remember anything in the beginning.” He was still pleading with her; he needed her to understand, to believe him like he'd never needed anything in his life.

 

“But in the end?” She was still barely whispering out her words and standing absolutely still, too stunned to do anything else at the moment. She stared at the floor between their feet, unwilling to look at the unusual eyes that should have been blue rather than a stunning golden.

 

Sesshoumaru closed his eyes. Yes, he'd fucked up and now he was paying the price for his cowardice and indecision.

 

“Please...” It was a word he only used with this woman but his pride didn't matter right now. All that mattered was her.

 

“Shi...oh my god that isn't even your...” Her eyes shot back up to his. “Who are you?”

 

He closed his eyes again for a moment before choosing his words carefully. “I'm...I'm the man whose life you saved, who saved yours.”

 

She seemed unphased by his words, defiance and anger boiling up in her eyes, replacing the fear she'd felt earlier.

 

“Who...are...you?” She ground out between clenched teeth.

 

“My name is Sesshoumaru.”

 

Her eyes opened wide again in astonishment. “The lord of the Western Lands...” She breathed out.

 

He shook his head to confirm what she already knew. He reached out her once again to lightly touch her face. Before he could feel the silkiness of her skin, his hand was roughly smacked away and her hand didn't stop until it solidly struck the side of his face. Her anger bubbled to the surface as the humiliation she perceived in the situation sunk in. He had used her, toyed with her, and made her love him, all for his sick amusement. It didn't matter that she had just struck probably the most powerful youkai in all the lands, it didn't matter that she knew full well that he could tear her apart with no effort at all. All that mattered was the pain in her chest, the pain of her heart being torn apart more fiercely than it ever had been before. Suddenly she hated him, what he'd made her believe, made her feel and made her hope for. She had been fine in her little world. She had been alone but it had become a constant in her life she could handle but this...this humiliation, this new meaning for the word torment, made her hate him with all of her being.

 

“Don't you dare touch me you bastard!” She yelled at him and suddenly her body sprang to action once again, intent on getting away from the humiliation of being anywhere near him.

 

He responded immediately. She didn't get more than a few inches away from him before he roughly pushed her back up against the wall. Now she fought him. She managed to hit him again with the same hand as her legs attempted to make contact with whatever part of his body that she could. Sesshoumaru felt himself loosing control yet again and grabbed her roughly by the neck with one hand while his other attempted to capture the hand that had managed to land yet another blow to his person. He quickly found it and subdued it against the wall next to her head. He pressed himself completely against her to quiet her furious legs but that still left a second hand to contend with. He found it suddenly lodged in his hair, trying to pull him away from her by it. He instinctively snarled at the woman, baring his fangs to her in an attempt to gain her submission but it had no effect.

 

Takana felt his hot breath against her and heard what should have been a terrifying sound issue from his lips but she was too incensed to pay either any heed. She gave his hair another firm tug, all she had left to do but it again had absolutely no effect on the creature that she loved so desperately and now hated so deeply.

 

He felt her pull again and his eyes met hers, now hoping to stare her down but the moment he saw her eyes shimmering with unshed tears and lit up with fury, something snapped within him. He crushed his lips against hers in the most punishing yet passion filled kiss he had ever delivered.

 

Takana's eyes clamped shut, in a feeble attempt to deny him something but she failed utterly. She was only able to resist him for a split second before returning the kiss with the same amount of passion. As misdirected at it may have seemed, her body burned for him. In its confusion, it mistook her fury and his domination for the highly charged sexual inferno it had just become.

 

Sesshoumaru relinquished his hold on her wrist in favor of freeing his hand in order to hike her skirt up and over her hips. His movements were not the calm practiced ones of an experienced lover but the jerky, needy movement of a man possessed by the need to utterly consume. His other hand slipped up from her neck to her jaw so he could completely control all of her movement.

 

With her other hand released, it joined its mate in the hair of the beast in front of her. She offered no resistance when he picked her up under her buttocks and practically dropped her onto the closest table available. She spread her legs of her own will when he stepped back enough only to release the ties of his pants with one hand as the other continued to hold her, never breaking their mouths away from one another.

 

It was only a moment after being deposited on the table and spreading her legs that she felt him press back up against her and only a split second later that he forced his entire length inside her. She cried out, not in pain or even in pleasure but a strange mix of both. He gave her no chance to recover as he immediately pulled himself nearly all the way out before ramming back within her. Every thrust he delivered caused both of their bodies to jar against the table. It wasn't long before whatever had been sitting on the surface of the table went crashing to the floor, unable to maintain its position.

 

Without warning, Sesshoumaru broke away from her mouth for the first time since this insanity all began and roughly pushed her onto her back. The hand that had controlled the movement of her mouth once again found its way to her neck. It didn't apply any pressure at all, just held her there so she could not rise again as she had been. His other hand moved from her hip to rip away the fabric that was aggravatingly keeping her body from him.

 

Takana lay on her back and cried out at each brutal thrust. Her eyes were squeezed shut and she moaned when his mouth latched onto a hardened nipple.

 

This wasn't making love and it wasn't fucking; it was something else entirely. It was both a desperate plea for forgiveness and an act of brutal domination. It asked both for love and hate. The act was so contradicting simply by its passionate and brutal nature that neither creature engaged could have described it even if they had wanted to or tried.

 

Sesshoumaru's thrusts started to become more erratic as he brought his forehead up to rest against hers. Only a few strokes later, he shoved into her one last time and spilled his demonic seed inside the woman that had ensnared him more completely and changed him more thoroughly than any curse ever could.

 

They both lay there panting for several long, strained seconds before Sesshoumaru pulled himself off her and released her from his hold. He stood there, still breathing heavily as she sat up. She finally brought her eyes up to meet his. He could easily see the disgust in them but where it was directed, he couldn't tell. The one thing he did know was that it broke his heart to see her like that.

 

“Takana...” He whispered and attempted to touch her still flushed cheek. She brushed his touch away again and pushed against him. This time he relented, his beast still too satisfied by the release it had just been given to react to her defiance again. He moved out of her and slightly way as she got off the table onto uncooperative wobbly legs. She pushed past him and shrugged off the hand that lightly gripped her upper arm. He watched as she grabbed her bathing robe, throwing it over her now ruined dress and left the small hut that had once been their happy home.

 

She had been gone for several minutes before he stopped staring at the doorway she had just exited. He turned and bent over the table, leaning his weight onto his hands. How was he going to fix this? She hated him and he didn't blame her. What had just passed between them had solved nothing and only compounded matters further. How could he fix this if he couldn't even control himself enough to make her understand? He would loose her and worse, he had just broken a creature that had been broken so many times, it was doubtful if she could ever truly recover. She had already been through so much in her young life. She'd been so careful to keep herself safe from pain and now, he had just delivered her back into the world from which she had fought so hard to escape.

 

The sound of snapping wood brought him back out of his depressing thoughts. He looked down to find the now roughly gouged and nearly ruined table. A pathetically embarrassing whine escaped his lips as he slumped to the floor. The creature had placed no curse on him. He had been cursed for far longer that that. It seemed anything he touched, no matter how precious to him, crumbled in his hands.

 

AN: If anyone copied chap 16 with its review response, I would be eternally gratefull if you emailed it to me. I experienced some comp problems (all user induced) and lost the responses. If you can, thanks a bunch. Also the following review responses will span both chaps, sorry if it's pretty long.

 

angelsfalltearfully - I think it's important to know what Sess thinks since he says so little, that way we know where he's coming from without getting him too OOC. Secrets are definitely bad but boy does it make for fun writing.

White Luna - I'm happy you understand it as well as it means I'm able to make myself clear. Yay!

SnowFlakeAlchemist - I'm always sad and thankful when I finish a story but thanks for the much appreciated OC praise. Don't worry; I have this strange compulsion to do what I do.

KingSamuraiJack - Thanks for getting exactly what I was trying to say in that chap. It is supposed to be a story of redemption and new beginnings for both and only now are we starting to see what made Sess the way he is. I never thought of myself as a drug pusher but now that you put it that way, I guess I am, only the legal kind of course. Don't worry, responses are one of my favorite part of the process, last chapter was a very rare exception to the rule.

Nikkie23534 - Your enthusiasm over all my stories is so flattering. I hope that someday soon you'll be telling me that you just finished rereading all of cursed.

Lamb - My god, you always have such dead on reviews. Unique, I think I'm just fortunate to posses a unique mind and that's not always a good thing. It has almost gotten me in trouble before but that's why I have this more creative outlet. Will her pregnancy play a role in forgiveness? Only time will tell. I just can't help myself with this convolutedly complex story line and it's only going to get worse before it gets better. Stay tuned for more. No worries on the responses as last time should be a one time deal. I love em too!

Vickey - Ahhhh, excellent question. That will be just one more of the mysteries I'm weaving to be revealed later. Mwahahaha. I can't say anything about the whole, who the father was before but I will say that it is addressed but to what ends? I refuse to comment. :)

Cochrann - Now you know. Now the question is `what's going to happen now'?

DYquem - Hehehe, you'll have to stick around to see, no one ever said I was predictable so my suspense for you will continue. Yeah, she's had one heck of a time with all of her personal relationships. Tisk, tisk, tisk. Who knows if it will end well or not or if he's the original father? Oh yeah, I do but I'm not going to tell until it's posted. Sorry for the cruelty but I just can't help myself.

AngelsRebellion: Ahhh, the question everyone is asking. Hanyou, human.....well, let's just say that you will find out at some point but not today. :)