InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cursed ❯ Necessary Choices ( Chapter 19 )

Chapter Nineteen - Necessary Choices

 

It was easy to find her. Now that he was possessed of his old abilities, he could easily track her down by her scent. After all, he was covered in it from his loss of control through his sexual domination of her only hours ago. Also, the scent of her tears was quite easy to follow as well. He found her sitting by the river, staring across at it and hugging her bathing robe to herself as she clutched her arms around her knees. He let his presence be known by walking loudly as a human would and not with a youkai's stealth. He wanted her to hear him. She'd had enough surprises for one day that he believed sneaking up on her would not help their situation in the least.

 

He wasn't sure what to do, even after hours of thought and meditation. He needed to get back to his fortress and assess the damage that a year's worth of absence had caused, very little he hoped. On the other hand, he did not want to leave her alone. Even though she had survived for almost four years all on her own, he was unwilling to take the chance that in his absence, something terrible could happen to her. The day they went to collect wood came to mind and of the men that would have violated her had he not been there to stop them. However, it was equally as dangerous to take her back with him considering the uncertainty he faced at the prospect of returning to the fortress after such a long sabbatical. And to top it all off, he had no idea how she now felt about all of this other than the fact that she had not taken this turn of events very well. In retrospect he would have been amazed if she had.

 

“How long have you known?”

 

He was taken off guard by the question and the break from his internal thoughts. It took him a moment to collect himself enough to answer. “Since the middle of winter, the day you served me cold stew and called me `my lord'.”

 

“Since then?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“You had known all that time and you didn't tell me. Why?” She sounded angry and it matched the emotion that fell off her in waves.

 

“I did not think it was the right time. I was still human despite what I remembered and there was still half the year until I was returned to my present form and even then, I was not sure that who did this to me would keep their word.” He seemed to be stumbling over his words so he sighed and put it simply. “I thought it unwise.”

 

“But bedding me was wise?” She hissed out. She was still looking across the water, refusing to look at him.

 

He sighed and looked to the side. “I did not plan it.”

 

“You did not plan it? What, was it some kind of accident that you just couldn't avoid?” He could sense her anger increasing now as it quickly replaced the depression she had been wallowing in.

 

“I...” But he had no real response to her question.

 

“Leave.” The command was simple and direct but he had no intention of obeying it.

 

“No.”

 

She turned her head to look at him after his refusal. “You will leave me alone.” She hissed at him as she stood.

 

“No, I will not.” How quickly he slipped back into old patterns of speech. Saying as little as possible and making the one he was speaking with guess as to his full thoughts on the matter.

 

“I owe you nothing, so nothing should keep you here. You've had your fun, now just go and let me be.”

 

“Your right, you owe me nothing but there is something that keeps me here.” He took a step towards her and saw every muscle in her body tense. “None of this was done in jest. All of my actions have been honest, even if I failed to tell you of my origins when I remembered them.”

 

“Honest is not a word you're allowed to use with me. Nothing about what you did was honest. Don't you dare try and convince me otherwise. Just leave me be and go back to wherever you belong because it is not here.” She turned back to the river, an obvious dismissal of his presence.

 

Sesshoumaru's brow was a mass of knots. He wouldn't leave her. He came to a final conclusion. He had to return of his fortress and he could not leave her alone so as a matter of simple deduction, he would have to take her with him and be very cautious about making her presence known at first. There were people he could entrust her to while he smoothed over any problems that might have taken place while he was away.

 

“I will go back to where I belong but you will be going with me.”

 

She spun on him, her face filled with righteous indignation. “I am not going to go anywhere with you.”

 

Sesshoumaru looked off to the side and into the distance. He hated doing this but he didn't have time to convince her. His explanations would have to be made later. “You would be unable to stop me.”

 

Takana jumped up from her position and angrily stalked over to the creature she should be terrified of but all that came to mind was the near mortally wounded man she had nursed back to health and then fallen in love with only to them have him lie to her in the most horrible way.

 

“You do not own me. I am not your wife or mate or whatever you call them. I saved your life and you repaid me my ruining mine. I am not going anywhere with you, do you understand. If you so much as touch me, by the gods, I will... I can't hurt you but I can make you dead to me. Now I just hate you but if you get anywhere near me, it will be as though you never existed and I will think on you no more!” She finished in a somewhat hoarse yell. She stopped just in front of him, breathing heavily from the rage and hurt that was draining away her vitality.

 

Sesshoumaru had not looked at her the entire time she spoke and had closed his eyes at her decree of making him dead to her. It hurt more than he would ever admit, even to himself because that's exactly what would have to happen in order to make sure she was safe. He was right, he was going to lose her but he would protect her whether she liked it or not.

 

“Then I have died and you have killed me.”

 

 

Angelsfalltearfully - Don't you dare die on me, you're one of my best reviewers! Besides, I will always let you know what's going to happen next. She did take it badly but I'm more than pleased that I did it in a way that people didn't expect.

Twinkle - No worries, I'll always update. Ah, yes, angst is my specialty, in fact I'm not sure I can write non angst stories but since this is not my career and just my hobby, I think I'll survive. He has no idea about her current condition and is too caught up in what to do next to even wonder about it.

Lamb - Lamb strikes again with by far the most in-depth and longest review. It was a horrible thing for him to do but I hope I made it clear that it was practically out of his control. I say practically because I don't want to take away any blame but it was consensual on her part as well. There were just too many confused emotions going around. Also, your Author ID thing actually made me laugh. I have no idea what happened on that one. There's so much I could comment on from your review but please know that I loved them both. They gave me a giggle, made me blush and boosted my ego! Thanks for that.

Vickey - Provocative...wow, I'm happy to have that word used to describe my story. Thanks. He is a mess and for a bit, he might act like one too. Don't worry, she's my character and I say she wasn't forced. She didn't expect it and wouldn't have initiated it but she was a willing partner. My take, if she hadn't kissed him back, it would have ended there. I really didn't want this to be a rape, just a lot of confused emotions that led to an unexpected outcome.

White Luna - Very sad and it won't end like that, this story is far from over. Still need to get a little more angst, a little more redemption, a little action, a little intrigue and heck... a whole lot more.

FELITTLELADY - THANK YOU. Though I won't comment on the ending but you should still stick around and see.