InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Damnation ❯ preparation and follow through ( Chapter 3 )

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I was in a trance the whole morning of the next day. I was locked in my room with my mother, Izayo, and as many handmaidens as my room would allow. They had all at one point in time tried to converse with me but there was no point. I was in a daze. I wasn*t as panicked as I had always imagined I would be. I had always invisioned myself running around frantically trying to escape.

What I was doing actually scared me more. I was like a person who was to be sent to death, that had, had enough time to become resigned to their fate. I was impassive. It was as if I did not care. It is almost painful to think of myself as ever being such. To think I had given up all hope of ever being truly happy.

I let them fuss over me. They did something with my hair, they forced me into a dress, and painted my face. I just sat there unfazed as they went about their preparations. It felt very depressing but there was naught I could do.

I was finally done after roughly ten hours of prep time and they all left me alone. I got up out of my chair and moved to look at my reflection. The mirror showed me a person I had never seen before. It showed me someone who was uncaring and weak. I felt the anger well up. Why had I let this happen? My inner demon went crazy. I was letting them force me to do something I did not wish to do. Damn! I was furious and the only person that I was angered at was myself.

How could I let this happen without at least putting up a fight? I would make my parents and his rue the day they had betrothed me to that ass. If just for today I would rebel against them. While still obeying. I would mate him, to be sure, but I would not do so easily. For it would be dishonorable to go against my father*s wishes. They had no idea what they had unleashed upon themselves. I smiled happily at my reflection and moved to clear my face of the paint they had applied to my skin. I left the dress on because I actually liked it, but I gave freedom to my ebony locks from the intricate coif. I looked myself over in the mirror and sighed with relief as I saw myself looking back at me. This was me and they would just have to accept me as such.

I left my room and went down to join in the celebration. I could hear the snickers of the other demonesses in the room as I entered, but I chose to ignore the twits. I moved with a fluid grace, I was unaware I possessed, towards Sesshomaru. I did not, for once, let even the smallest of smiles grace my features. I chose instead to look upon everyone with cool disdain as I passed. It was no secret that I did not revel in my parent*s choice, but now I had made it blatantly obvious. I smirked inwardly. I was within two yards of my fiancé when I realized he was glaring at me. I lifted one of my own ebony eyebrows at him and smirked at him in puzzlement. I knew what was wrong, but I reveled in the fury the look caused. It was not noticeable to others. His facade was still in place, but I was not looking at his face. I was looking into his eyes. *The windows to the soul.* As many had referred to them. I merely thought one thing about his eyes, exquisite.

I walked over to him and stopped before him. We started one of our infamous staring contests. I would not give ground and neither would he. It was a common occurrence amongst us. It was about victory. Whoever won was the victor for that day and could have the satisfaction of beating the other. I bared my teeth at him in a smile as I gazed into the depths of his honey eyes. They were truly amazing. They were gold but they held so many other colors, as well. I scoffed inwardly at the irony of it. Silver and Gold. Total opposites. As every thing between us was. With the exception of one thing. Our breed. We were both Dog demons, and very powerful ones at that.

He was on the verge of growling at me, I could tell, when our little *competition* was interrupted.

*Yo, Fluffy.* Inuyasha said coming up beside his brother. Sesshomaru shot me one last glare before he redirected his gaze to his little *brother*. He was annoyed. I sniggered. Inuyasha turned to look at me. *Kagome!* He cried before he picked me up and spun me around in circles. I giggled happily. *Inuyasha.* I said once my feet were firmly on the ground once more. Our little display had attracted an audience but as always, we could care less.

*So how is your mate?* I inquired while smiling brightly at him. He still had not released me from his hug. He smiled again.

*She*s great. A little moody but that*s to be expected.* I looked at him curiously. He laughed.

*You don*t know? You're going to be an aunt soon.* I jumped up and down clapping my hands to vent my joy. *Oh Yasha, that*s wonderful.* I cried and I pulled him into another hug. He chuckled at my antics. He always brought out my younger side. * You*re going to bring my niece or nephew to visit me often, right?* I asked happily. He nodded and I squished him in another hug. He just shook his head grinning widely. I stepped back. I was still smiling, my cheeks were starting to hurt, but I couldn*t stop.

*Speaking of my mate.* Inuyasha said as an ebony haired girl walked up. *Rin!* I squealed and I enveloped the tiny girl in a bone-crushing hug, not literally of course. The girl returned the hug.*Hello Kagome.* She gasped.

I released her and stepped back once more. The young human moved to her mate and wrapped an arm around one of his. I grinned they were so cute. I took in her appearance, mainly her abnormally large abdomen.

*It is good to see you.* I stated happily. I had totally forgotten about my intended, but he would not be ignored by everyone.

*Sesshomaru.* Rin said as she moved to embrace the demon lord. He let her. Rin was one of a few people that he would allow to do such a thing. He just nodded at her once she was finished.

*So Kags it looks like you are finally old enough to become my sister. My sympathies.* Inuyasha said. He looked genuinely sorry, as did his mate. I accepted their pity. It was truly a horrible fate. Sesshomaru glared at the young couple. Inuyasha just looked at him. The message was clear though. Especially since he put his hand on the hilt of the Tetsaiga. The look said *Hurt her and I*ll hurt you.* I was grateful for the sentiment, but the implication that I could not take care of myself made me slightly angry. Sesshomaru did not acknowledge his brother, but instead chose to look around at the people present. A hand came to rest on my backside and I immediately turned around and knocked the damned person out. There was a girl with dark brown hair not but two feet away shaking her head in exasperation at the boy on the floor. I grabbed her and pulled her into a joyous bear hug.

*Sango!* I cried as I squished the demon slayer. She laughed. I let her go. *Kagome.* She said nodding at me.

*It has been to long since I have seen you. I missed you so very much.* She smiled.

*I have missed you as well.*

* I missed you too.* Said the boy who had recently arisen from the floor. He brushed off his robes. I rolled my eyes.

*You might not want to do that Miroku. For after today you might end up dead.* Inuyasha said joining in our conversation. The *monk* looked perplexed. Then a look of understanding spread across his features. He shot a wary look behind me. I had known he was there but had chosen not to acknowledge his presence knowing that it would anger him.

*If you will all excuse me but there is someone I must talk to.* I said. They all nodded and I took my leave. I had not been lying, I truly was looking for someone. I sniffed the air delicately and rushed off. I collided with a fox demon. Surprisingly that had been my intention. I hugged the fox beneath me. He laughed happily. We both stood up a few moments later. I dusted myself off.

*That is no way to greet a fellow lord you know.* The fox said in mock annoyance. I huffed.

*It is good to see you to Shippo.* I said rolling my eyes. He smiled. I looked him over. He had been so small the last time I had seen him. Now he was a tall regal lord with long red hair and bright emerald eyes. I smiled widely, how things had changed while I was away. He had gone from a small child-like figure into the equivalent of a grown demon.

*Being the Lord of the East has obviously done you some good.* I said approvingly. His smile widened.

*Yes it has.* I could sense the double meaning and I knew exactly what he was talking about. He was referring to his new mate, and coincidentally my cousin, Ayame. It was a weird match, a wolf and a fox, but I have seen weirder. I shook my head at him.

*Have you seen Inuyasha yet?* I asked. He shook his head.

*You better go and find him then or he will be angry with you.* I said rolling my eyes yet again. Inuyasha loved Shippo as much as I did. He was just better at hiding it. The fox demon nodded at me and headed in the direction I had just come from.

I felt the sudden need to be alone. The room was too crowded so I went in the direction of the closest garden. I entered the enclosed space and felt immediately relaxed. My feet moved of their own accord down the path. I looked around at all the beautiful flowers. Red, blue, violet, green, pink, coral all these colors and so many more were everywhere. My feet stopped and I looked in front of me. My favorite tree stood there. It*s large branches stretching towards the sky. I jumped up onto the lowest branch. Leaning back against the trunk and I felt truly at peace with the world. I closed my eyes. The afternoon breeze rustled the leaves in the tree. It was soothing.

In a few moments I found myself knocking on sleep*s door and close to entering his abode. Only my peaceful thoughts were interrupted.

*I have been looking for you all over. Now get down her.* I looked down. I smiled and jumped down to the ground. I landed in a crouch and I looked up at the person who had interrupted my reverie. I was aware that the sun had long since gone to sleep for the day and I wondered briefly how long I had been out here. The woman eyed me warily. I pounced. I tackled the demon to the ground and tickled them furiously. All the while laughing loudly.

*Mercy!* The demon called over and over. I released the cat and stood up. I once again brushed myself off. The cat demon rose as well and glared at me half-heartedly. I giggled at my cousin. She just sighed and rolled her eyes.

*Dinner is waiting. Aunt and Uncle will be displeased if you are late.* I smiled.

*Relax, my dear cousin, all is well.* The cat just shook her head at me and turned to head back inside. I followed.

*So Kirara I heard you were mated recently.* I said making small talk. She nodded.

*Yes I was, to the Lord Buyo.* I laughed. That particular lord was very easily distracted by shiny objects. I remember one time when Inuyasha had a gem on the end of a string and he had the lord chasing it around the dining room. I shook my head.

*I was so thankful that he lost most of the weight before we were mated.* I laughed. Kirara was not the type who worried about how one looked, but I knew that Buyo was a very robust young demon. She grimaced.

* At least your mate is pleasing to the eye.* I nodded in agreement, but in truth I would have mated someone like Jaken instead, had I been given a choice. Kirara and Buyo had been promised just as Sess and I. Parents can be so cruel. We finally arrived in the dining room. Both of us took our respective places. Sess was on my right, but Inuyasha, thank the gods, was on my left. Maybe dinner would not be so bad.

Wait. Dinner? But that would mean....I have to go to bed after this. Oh no. my depression had returned. It was as vicious as before. I did not eat nor did I attempt to. I fell back into my daze. I would not go easily, but I would not try to make things better either. I could hear people talking and realized that they had attempted to talk to me. I ignored them, but forced myself to snap out of it. This was the last thing I wanted to be doing in my last few minutes of freedom. So I got up and left. I did not explain myself to anyone there was no point. They all had some idea as to what was wrong with me. Once out of sight I ran. I ran all the way back into the garden, but I did not stop there. I jumped the walls and found myself in the surrounding forest. I was oblivious as I ran further and further away from the confining castle. I stopped when I reached my destination. It was a small clearing with a water fall and a lake. I looked up at the moon that was smiling down on me. I glared at it. How could it be so happy when I was so miserable?

I stripped myself of everything and dove into the cold water. The shock of the cold water on my skin erased my somber thoughts. I swam around for quite some time.

I crawled tiredly out of the water and onto the bank. I transformed quickly into my demon form and shook myself dry. Then I lay down to rest. The world was so much simpler in this form.

Suddenly a large ivory dog entered the clearing. I knew instinctively who it was. I rose up on my legs and watched him closely. The dog walked slowly towards me. Our crimson eyes locked on each other. I growled in warning. *Leave me.* He just kept coming towards me. I was preparing to run, but I knew this form was much slower so I returned to my other form.

I had forgotten that I was naked. Damn. My clothes were on the other side of the clearing. I made a mad dash for them but was stopped midway by a large white paw. I narrowed my eyes and growled at him. *Let me pass.* He acted as though he did not hear me. His large muzzle came down and he gazed at me. He nudged me with his cold, wet nose, in the stomach. I rolled my eyes. I reached up and ran my hand along his neck. His eyes closed. Things were so much simpler in that form. I ran the second he was totally relaxed. I made it to my clothes but found myself on top of them, being held down by a very angry demon lord. What an ass. His clothes were enchanted so that when he transformed they didn*t get ruined, and when he changed back he was still clothed. To be honest my state of dress was the least of my worries though.

He growled at me. His hold on my wrists tightening. *Mine.* Back to that again. *No, never.* I stated. His eyes narrowed at me. *You are mine. Accept it.* I shook me head fervently. *Never.*

His face came closer to mine. *Accept it.* He glared. I shook my head again. I would not submit. I would die first. He growled in pure frustration.

Then he kissed me with such a force my head left a dent in the ground. I was shocked, but recovered quickly. I writhed beneath him, trying to escape his hold. I was panicking. I wanted him to let go. I wanted to go back to my room and hide forever. He pressed his body against mine effectively making my struggle futile. I whimpered. I did not want this. I shut my eyes tightly and wracked my brain for options. A thought came to me and I grasped onto it. It was my sole lifeline if it did not work all was lost. I relaxed and kissed him back. I forced his mouth open and explored his mouth with my tongue.

I arched my body towards his. I could smell his arousal. It was intoxicating, so I did not breathe through my nose anymore. I nipped at his bottom lip and ran my canine along it. He pressed me farther into the ground. His hands released my wrists and they moved to my waist. I moaned. I placed my hands on his shoulders and readied myself. I flipped him over landing on top of him. I did not break off our kiss. His hands were still on my waist. I intertwined his fingers with my own and pinned them on the ground below. Then I sprang up and ran back towards the castle. He was not going to be happy. I did not know where to go. I hadn*t thought that far ahead. Damn. I ran as quickly as I could away from him. I knew he was chasing me and I could feel the fear grip my heart. I was tackled from behind and my face met the ground below me. The weight was gone soon and I was about to run again when I was picked up and thrown over his shoulder. It was hopeless. I felt like crying in sheer frustration. Damn. Instead I chose acceptance. I would accept it. I would stop this futile fighting. I would end it. It was all that was left to do. I had tried everything else. I can not express with words how I loathed my parents at that moment.

I was soon dumped on his bed, in his room. He stood there glaring down at me. As if this was entirely my fault. I scoffed and crossed my arms over my chest. He turned away from me and walked to the door on the other side of his room. He came back with a moist cloth. He threw it to me. I caught it and began wiping away the dirt; my fall had caused to become stuck to my person. There were a few scratches as well from twigs and stones that had been on the ground. I would have glared at him for it, if I had possessed the strength the action required. Instead I sighed.

Once I had cleaned myself, I got up from the bed and kneeled on the floor. I removed the hair from my neck and tilted my head to the side. It left the column of my throat open. I was submitting to him. All else was stupid and a waste of energy. I did not have the will to fight him any longer. It was depressing. I waited. There on my knees, in the nude, on his floor, I waited. He kneeled before me so that we were almost eye level. I closed my eyes. He grabbed me by the back of my neck and my eyes shot open. Silver met gold. He then leaned forward and he kissed me again. It was gentle, but still had force behind it. Instinct took over. I wrapped my arms around his neck and I moved closer to him. He stood bringing me with him.

He walked forwards pushing me backwards. We fell on the bed in a heap of body parts. His lips moved down my neck and to my collar bone. His hands moved to explore my body the heat they radiated almost burned. My hands tugged at his clothes trying to get them off, to even the odds. That and I wanted to feel the smooth skin those clothes kept hidden. Losing my patience I shredded them with my claws. They would mend themselves so I was not worried. He ran his claws down my side and I whimpered I could feel the heat pumping through my veins like fire.. His lips latched onto the tip of one of my breasts and my back arched. His other hand was kneading the other orb of flesh. I moaned and bent my head and began kissing his shoulder. His skin was smooth and warm beneath my lips. Then I pulled his head back up, using his hair. I pressed my lips to his in the most passionate kiss I could muster. He returned it with equal fervor. One of his hands found itself on the inside of my thigh. He scraped his nails across the smooth flesh. I moaned into his mouth. His hand slid further north. My body was growing increasingly hot.

I ran my hands along his spine. I traced the skin there with my claws. I reveled in the hard muscles that flexed with every movement his body made. It was amazing. Then his hand reached it*s destination and my hands gripped his shoulders tightly. My body shook with pleasure as his fingers toyed with my body. I gasped in ecstasy as one of the offending digits slid inside me. I bit down on his bottom lip. I could taste his blood but it only added to my desire. I moaned and moved in rhythm with his finger. I could fell my muscles tensing readying themselves for what was to come. I moaned his name as his finger sent me into sweet oblivion. He kissed me and I kissed him back passionately. I felt him get into a more comfortable position between my legs. I cried out when he entered my body. It didn*t hurt exactly it was more like discomfort, but it quickly faded as he began to move. I wrapped my legs around his waste as he drove into me over and over. Each time deeper and harder than the last. I knew it would be quick because I was already on the edge of my orgasmic cliff. I went tumbling over the side soon after but he was relentless and did not stop. I moaned his name countless times. He bit down on my shoulder, as I did his, then with one final thrust and a kiss we were both sent into paradise.

He collapsed on me and I welcomed the weight. I wrapped my arms around him. Our skin was moist with sweat. It was well worth it. He was sleeping peacefully after just a few moments. Before I let myself drift off to join my mate in sleep I had one last thought. For the first time since I could remember, I actually thought that I just might have been wrong.

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