InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Dear brother ❯ Confusion ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha.

 

“Dear InuYasha.”

 

A/n: Since I never really put up a chapter title for the first chapter; which will become my prologue now- which I thought maybe a one shot. But due to the outrageous demands, Lol, I'll continue.

 

 

Chapter 1: Confusion~

 

“SIT BOY!” Kagome's voice roared throughout the forest, just as a loud thump of vibration ran throughout forest followed shortly behind the echo of Kagome's subduing command.

 

InuYasha had just come back to let them know that he was not going to be around, and that he had other business to attend to else where. Of course, possessive Kagome hadn't like the idea of her “Boyfriend” wandering off, knowing that he could easily be going to find that damnable Kikyo's dead body somewhere where she had disappeared a month or two just before the final battle with Naraku. She knew that InuYasha was still hurting from some loss of a dear friend.

 

Had Kagome really known the truth that InuYasha's feelings never were for either of them none of this mess would never had occurred. It was all a mask that he had put up.

 

The most InuYasha felt for the two girls were a friendly bond. Maybe not even that- sometimes.

 

In truth, InuYasha's feelings were all corrupted into nothing. He really didn't know who to love. Even if he said he did, his heart did not feel the same; nor his soul and youki.

 

“WHAT DID YOU DO THAT FOR WENCH!?” he roared back as he pulled his face out of the dirt, his nose bleed from the breakage caused by the face implant caused by the sit command. He really did not care, it would heal shortly; within a few hours time.

 

“SIT!”

 

Another face plant.

 

“Bitch!!!” he roared again, pulling his face out of the crater again.

 

“Sit!!!! I'm not a bitch! Or a wench!”

 

Crash again.

 

A low growl emanated from the dirt just as InuYasha's spell wore off he spat the dirty blood and dirt out from his mouth onto Kagome's shoe. How dare she?

 

It was just another reminder of how much he hated her. The only reason he stuck around her was because of the cursed beads around his neck that could only be removed by her or another really powerful Miko.

 

Just as she was about to say another Sit command, Miroku, the perverted monk saved him. “Kagome, I think that is enough. I think you should think about his needs rather then your own. He is not your toy to have heel at your side when you need him most.”

 

“Well said!” InuYasha said just as he brushed off the dirt from his clothes and wiped the rest of the blood and dirt from his mouth. “I'm quite tired of you!” he said turning to Kagome with a cold glare. “I”m not your fucking dog!”

 

With that said he took off to the forest where he could re-read the letter that was given too him by Sesshomaru. He had come back trying to explaining that he needed to go away for a while, and he got the Sit command when he had said it was non of there fucking business, shortly adding an explanation for his departure; that he wanted to get laid just for laughs.

 

He knew that Kagome wanted him more than ever. She wouldn't have him though. Getting jealous at the very idea that someone else would have him, he had regretted saying such as soon as he hit the ground.

 

As soon as he was deep within the heart of the forest, and non of them would be able to find him, he settled up on a high branch within the tree's, pulling out the letter, out from beneath his hoari.

 

What was Sesshomaru really doing? Was he sick? Did Naraku's poison some how infected his mind and body, so that he had to go away to heal?

 

Or was this some sort of trick?

 

He never in his life would have thought that his brother, Sesshomaru, would ever apologize to him! “He must have lost his mind!” he said as he re looked over it once more.

 

His golden eyes stopped short of the page, was he really asking to be his mate? He looked down at the letter closer:

 

'I have to ask you something. Not as a brother, not as a stranger, but as a friend. I know it is hard for you to understand this all, but just please. Once. Will you care for the Western lands while I am away? I am not sure when exactly I'll be back. Be assured, I will return some time. I will also need your assistance of caring for Rin, Jakken and Ah un. Most of all, I ask you to to be my mate, which is a doubtful idea. That is all I will ask of you. '

 

It was indeed his brothers hand written, and it was indeed asking forgiveness and that he wanted to be InuYasha's mate.

 

He asked himself again, could he really forgive his brother for all the shit he has done to him? “No! He's a cold hearted shit fuck that would care to give less of a damn about me!” he told himself as he shook his head in denial.

 

'Oh, InuYasha, but you know you want to, in truth he has done nothing better to you. If he really wanted to kill you, he would have done it already. He has the ability to, you know that well,' his concious told him. ' Why do you deny that you want to forgive him?'

 

InuYasha growled at himself, not knowing what to do. Mating was forever. The bond grew stronger with time. He knew in his heart that he should. But the change would be hard.

 

His brother had done so much to him, and rarely had done anything kind to him. Even as a child his brother rejected him in the most cold ways.

 

'Lies!'

 

Flash back

 

He struggled to free himself. He looked over at Sesshomaru who was walking away and out of his range of view. The forest was full of demonic plants that could eat him alive in a few hours if he had not been careful.

 

His father had told him not to go into the forest. But retrieving the yellow ball had been too tempting and his little legs carried him into the forest .

 

InuYasha was almost out of the forest just when something grabbed his legs, sending him into a bush of thorns. The vines around his legs tightened themselves.

 

No one was around.

 

He was alone, and the vines were tightening themselves as they traveled like snakes, coiling themselves around his small body. He could be consumed within 5 hours if he didn't escape!

 

Sesshomaru! He had to call for him.

 

“Sesshomaru!” he called out.

 

Nothing. His brother wouldn't come to him. He was only a Hanyou.

 

 

He heard his brothers cries shortly after he arrived back at the castle 2 and a half hours later. How he had? He didn't know, he could not smell his brother anywhere close but he knew the Hanyou had gotten himself into trouble.

 

Acting out of character and unconsciously he headed back in his brothers last known directions.

 

 

Sesshomaru watched InuYasha's struggles to untangle himself from the thorny vines that wrapped themselves around the small body as he had tried to emerge from the forest that he had somehow wandered off to. The guards should have watching the child. He was only about 4 in human years, but was about 9 in demon years.

 

It had been partially his fault as he had thrown the ball at his brothers head, roughly, before it bounced off of it and landed in the forest. He had been walking away, not thinking that his brother would have gone into the forest alone. He had turned expecting the little Hanyou to follow him home shortly but paid no heed to his brothers missing presences as his brother would follow about 15 minutes behind him, not wanting to get the claw across his face.

 

His father would have his head if he ever allowed his brother to be consumed alive. Like he cared though? He could have just said he was no where around him. But what made him want to save his brother?

 

Sighing in confusion he just followed his Youki's decision and approached his brother as he watched the fear in his golden eyes, his heart strings jerked and his heart panicked.

 

“I'm sorry, Sesshomaru. Kill me now if you're here to do that now, put me out of my misery. After all I'm just a Hanyou,” he said, his breath was tight and labored as his lungs were constricted further.

 

Such words coming out of his small little mouth. He was smart. He acted tough at times, now he was being submissive and smart. Sesshomaru's youki growled at him. 'Save him! He is your future mate!' Mate? Not possible. However he would do what his youki told him. It was going to force him to if he did not listen anyways.

 

With a few graceful slashes of his claws he tore the vines from his brothers body. “Get up InuYasha, go home and clean up. Never speak of me doing this again. Is that clear?” he inquired coldly as he watched his brother tumble out of the boarder of the forest, out of harms way.

 

He was covered in blood and thorns that covered his hair and body. His father may just kill him now for allowing this. Perhaps not, InuYasha was always getting into messes. His father may just think that he had been rolling in the dirt or something.

 

He gave his brother disgusted look.

 

He saw the child nod, tears formed in his eyes. “Gomen.”

 

He watched his brother give a quick bow and dash off home. He gave a sigh to himself and shook his head.

 

End of flash back

 

He had saved his hide on more than one account. He was feeling worse now. He was sorry. He had to make up for his foolishness. He owed him that much.

 

Tucking the letter back in his hoari, placing it close to his heart subconsciously. He had a few days to think it completely over. The messenger would come for the answer soon.

 

Crossing close to his body he set his elbow on his thigh and his hand cupping his head. Sesshomaru had to be sorry.

 

There was no other way he would waste his time written to him. However he would write back to him giving his answer, that he would come to the western lands and watch it while he was away, and that he would forgive him.

 

Confused on how to react to how he should write back to his brother about the mating situation, he sighed. It was natural for demons to mate to the same family. There DNA would not create mutations, they would instead accommodate it and/or change it to fit the parents; should they mate and have pups.

 

Did he want to really mate to a cold hearted bastard?

 

Sesshomaru could possess a heart at times, but would his heart accept Sesshomaru's? Could he break the cold heartedness and his heal his heart to the point of being his mate?

 

Shaking his head he could give it a shot. It couldn't hurt right?

 

The least he could do was this little thing.

 

Getting up he slumped his shoulders and headed back to camp, at least he would not have to be Sat any in the mean time. The damn bitch.

 

 

“InuYasha! Where have you been?!” Kagome questioned.

 

He crossed his arms in his sleeves, ignoring her annoying voice. His opening his mouth would get him another sit. One he did not need , seeing how his nose was still healing from the previous 3 or so sits he had received.

 

“Answer me!”

 

“Non of your business!” he growl.

 

She shot him an evil glare. “It is too my business.”

 

He looked at Miroku and Sango for help. “Feh.”

 

“Kagome, it is non of your business. If you cannot handle InuYasha running around like he can, maybe it is time to go back to your time where you can command people to do so,” Miroku spoke up.

 

“Yes, he has a point, Kagome. InuYasha has every right to go where ever he pleases,” Sango said as Kilala mewed in agreement as she went over to InuYasha and purred rubbing against his leg, before she sniffed him and jumped into his lap and reached up and licked his cheek.

 

She could smell what was going on. In more ways then one.

 

“If it will help you shut your fucking mouth Kagome, I'm going into a heat soon, so I am running around more than usual. Do you fucking mind now?” he hissed, feeling inside a small fire just starting to get ready to ignite.

 

“A heat?”

 

“Yes! All demons have them.”

 

“Oh.”

 

It shut her up. It wasn't a big idea that he was going into his heat, he had them before. He knew what it would be like. “Well, I'm going away for a long time. I have no idea when I will be back.”

 

 

 

 

“I have no idea when I will be back, Rin. Jakken,” Sesshomaru said as he wrote down another note in a book.

 

Jakken opened his mouth to protest, but was cut off by Rin.

 

“Yes, my lord. Will you be back soon!?” Rin asked not questioning her lords matters.

 

“I am sure that InuYasha will come by to care for you,” he stated coolly.

 

“My lord! INUYASHA?! Have you gone mad!?” Jakken exclaimed.

 

Sesshomaru looked down at Jakken with a cold glare. “You will listen to him. You will show him respect.” There was no room for protest. He had to listen to his lords wishes.

 

“Hai.”

 

“Jakken! Isn't it wonderful! Sesshomaru little brothers coming to visit! Oh boy! We can dress him up!” Rin squealed happily as she bounced around her lords servant.

 

“Silence.”

 

She quited down instantly.

 

“I want you both on your best behavior.”

 

Sesshomaru was sure that his brother would come. Even if he did not. There were servants at his castle to care for them. Not to mention, he was sure that Rin could care for herself, she had Jakken and Ah un to play with.

 

He was sure that the letter would certainly catch his eye, knowing his brother.

 

Rising with grace out of the high back red velvet chair he closed the small journal of taxes and among other land concerning issues he got picked up the book and went over to the fire place and stared briefly into the flames that licked at the logs. InuYasha could never want him. He couldn't forgive himself for his own foolishness. Walking over to the shelves near by, he placed the book high up and turned around to the double mahogany doors that led out into the corridor.

 

“Where are you going my lord?” asked Jakken as he started to follow him but was shot with a small cold glare for him to to still.

 

“I have other matters to attend to,” he said as he turned his back to go again. He had to find a reliable demon messenger, or human messenger who could find InuYasha. He had told InuYasha in the letter that he would send for his reply in a few sunsets.

 

Perhaps he could find one of them wolf messengers? He had seen the travel here and there swiftly, they would work for anyone if they had food, money, or something of value.

 

He would set out to find one.

 

 

 

“Why are you going away for that long?” Shippo asked.

 

“I don't know how long this heat will last. Could last months,” InuYasha said.

 

“Oh.”

 

InuYasha thought for a moment. How could he reply? He had no parchment. Looking over to the monk and slayer he asked, “Do you have any parchment around”

 

They shook their heads. “Sorry no. I have my spell paper thats about it. Why?” asked the monk curiously. He had never really seen the dog demon write before , he was starting to question if he could.

 

“I have to write something down and send it to someone.”

 

“Have a pen and paper with me, you can use that,” Kagome offered as she dug around in her big yellow pack.

 

InuYasha would not have taken it but it was necessary to write back with his reply.

 

Looking at the odd written utensil and “note book” he placed them in his hoari. He would write to him later when he had more privacy than the noisy human, Kagome, around.

 

He just sat there in silence, looking into the fire, pondering how to reply.

 

 

 

A/n: How is that? I think I'm getting better, it definitely is better than my other fiction: The sun and the moon. But I think I still like that one better. Meh, you can judge for yourself.

 

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Sorry if its too short, I do have other stories to write haha :)

 

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Till next time.

 

Kootles.