InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Demires : The Love Of An Enemy ❯ Inuyasha ( Chapter 4 )
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By: DemonKirara00 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): / Romance / Adventure | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 09.10.2004 | Updated On: 09.12.2004 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 475 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): / Romance / Adventure | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 09.10.2004 | Updated On: 09.12.2004 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 475 | Status: Completed
Demires: The Love Of An Enemy
Four: Inuyasha
I can hear her breathing; it's almost as loud to me as a scream is to a human. But I don't mind it. It's peaceful somehow.
I don't know why, but for some reason, I feel somewhat attracted to her. I mean, I've always felt this way, but it was never as strong; not until she actually agreed to help me. To me, it seems like she doesn't hate me as much as I thought.
And what I told her before was true. She never once agreed to sit down and talk with me, or let me attempt to apologize. Sure, I know her brother's gone, and the rest of the family (and not just bitten; they were literally killed by my kind) and I can see why she's upset about it. But I loved her so much then - and maybe I still do - to even think about hurting her or someone she cared about. And truly, I'd give my life to change the way it all happened.
I turn my head to glance at her. She's staring off into the sky, her chocolate eyes reflecting the small glitters of the stars. There's a slight breeze, and her hair continuously swirls around her face in small motions. Somehow, I feel like I need to explain to her everything. Why I am the way I am, that I didn't have any control whatsoever over what happened to me; that I didn't want it to happen.
"Kagome?"
She turns her head to make our eyes meet. "Yes?"
"You know that I never wanted to be like this...right?" I ask quietly.
She nods her head. "At least, that's what I've always thought."
"Good, because really, I didn't have any control over it."
"I believe you Inuyasha. And I'm sorry I've been so mad at you for a long time...I guess because you started the race of demires, I took it all out on you; blamed you for everything. And not everything was your fault. Just...I don't know. With the three of them gone, I feel like there isn't a place for me anymore; like I don't have anything to live for. And I know it's not true...but it's how I feel..." her voice trails off as she turns away to look at the sky once more.
"Don't say that," I say. "But look, this hasn't exactly been easy for me either, you know." I could tell as soon as those words came out of my mouth that I shouldn't have said them.
"Oh, really? Because you can go around and kill anyone you want, without getting caught, go out whenever the hell you want, pretty much do anything you want...you call that hard? I'd give anything to be like you...without having to kill, of course. But still! How can you even say that?" she nearly screams. Ouch.
"Kagome, I'm sorry, I didn't mean -"
"No, just don't say anything, please. All I need to say to you is that I'm stunned that something like that would come out of your mouth. Did you want me to just go kill your friend in there? That's not something I'd really do, but how'd you like it if I did? What if I just don't help at all?" She's glaring at me with those eyes of hers. And there are no words to describe how it hurts.
"Okay, Kagome, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said -"
"No, you shouldn't have. Honestly...how...Gods...I just don't know anymore..." And after that, I smelled tears.
"Kagome...I..."
Silence. Long, awkward silence.
Finally, she turns to look at me, showing her tear streaked face. "Inuyasha...?" she says softly. I look at her, letting her know I'm listening. "Why? Why aren't I mad at you? Why don't I hate you? I want to hate you; want to hate you for you, your race, everything, but I can't. I just can't do it, and I don't know why...please, why can't I?" she sobs. And soon, I find her in my arms, sobbing into my chest.
I run my hands through her hair, telling her that everything will be okay...but I know it won't be. I think I love her - I honestly am not sure - but even if I find out that I really do love her, I can't. I can't love her because she's not like me. I'm not like her. It's as simple as that. I'd give anything to be human again; anything . Because if I was still human, I'd be with her. I'd be with her every minute of the day, and telling her every chance I got that I loved her. But that's not how things are, unfortunately.
She abruptly pulls away and wipes her eyes. "Sorry," she says.
"Don't be. You have a reason to be upset, a reason to cry, and a damn good reason not to ever speak to me again. And if you don't want anything to do with me, I understand," I say softly. I've finally realized, that maybe, just maybe, a lot of this is my fault, too.
She shakes her head. "No...I want to see you, but I don't understand...I'm supposed to be mad at you, aren't I? But I can't be mad at you; I don't think I'll ever be able to be. But I still don't understand why..."
Everything she's saying makes a part of me a little more alive. She can't be mad at me? At least I know she won't try to drive herself away, because she's never been one to do that - I hope.
She looks up at me to make eye contact once more, and as I look into her teary eyes, I can't help but realize how much I've missed her. I can't help but feel sorry for her, feel like I want to cry too. But I don't want to cry because of her parents, or her brother. I want to cry because I know she'll never accept me.
But why not try? She says she can't be mad at me, and I don't think I could ever be angry with her, either. Maybe...just maybe...
"If you can't be mad at me, then you won't hate me for this, either..." I nearly whisper, holding her close as I make our lips meet. It's not a demanding kiss, just something simple. And as soon as it started, it's over, because I realize she doesn't feel for me what I almost positively feel for her. I pull away, opening my eyes to meet hers. She just looks at me for a few seconds, and nearly jumps on me, pressing her lips against mine. Maybe she does feel the same. Maybe she does want what I want...maybe she wants me to love her, as I want her to love me.
I pull away once more, realizing that nothing will work. "Kagome...I-"
She hushes me and pulls me closer, kissing me once more. I pull away again. "Kagome, this won't work...I mean, I'm a demire, and you, you're human, and..."
She heavily sighs and looks at me. "You're right," she whispers. "But even so..."
"Kagome, I love you, and you're mortal, and I don't think I could take it if you passed away...left me."
She nods, and than says, "I know, but..." Tears begin to fall. "Why is this so complicated? I want to be with you..."
Silence, again.
Suddenly, like she's finally realizing what just happened and what she's said, she shakes her head and says, "We should go check on your friend."
I nod, knowing that now is not the time to talk about what's going on between us, and lead her back inside.
Even after what we talked about at the end, as saddening as it was, a part of me is smiling. She loves me, just I love her, and no matter what happens, I'll find a way for it all to work. And that's a promise; I won't give up on her.
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A/N: dun dun dun...the kiss! w00t! -giggle- Anyway, Kagome's feelings on the whole thing (if your wondering what was going on in her head the whole time this went on) will be explained in the next chapter ^_^ I don't know when the next chappie will be out (school's being evil) but I'll try my best. ^_^ thankies!!
Four: Inuyasha
I can hear her breathing; it's almost as loud to me as a scream is to a human. But I don't mind it. It's peaceful somehow.
I don't know why, but for some reason, I feel somewhat attracted to her. I mean, I've always felt this way, but it was never as strong; not until she actually agreed to help me. To me, it seems like she doesn't hate me as much as I thought.
And what I told her before was true. She never once agreed to sit down and talk with me, or let me attempt to apologize. Sure, I know her brother's gone, and the rest of the family (and not just bitten; they were literally killed by my kind) and I can see why she's upset about it. But I loved her so much then - and maybe I still do - to even think about hurting her or someone she cared about. And truly, I'd give my life to change the way it all happened.
I turn my head to glance at her. She's staring off into the sky, her chocolate eyes reflecting the small glitters of the stars. There's a slight breeze, and her hair continuously swirls around her face in small motions. Somehow, I feel like I need to explain to her everything. Why I am the way I am, that I didn't have any control whatsoever over what happened to me; that I didn't want it to happen.
"Kagome?"
She turns her head to make our eyes meet. "Yes?"
"You know that I never wanted to be like this...right?" I ask quietly.
She nods her head. "At least, that's what I've always thought."
"Good, because really, I didn't have any control over it."
"I believe you Inuyasha. And I'm sorry I've been so mad at you for a long time...I guess because you started the race of demires, I took it all out on you; blamed you for everything. And not everything was your fault. Just...I don't know. With the three of them gone, I feel like there isn't a place for me anymore; like I don't have anything to live for. And I know it's not true...but it's how I feel..." her voice trails off as she turns away to look at the sky once more.
"Don't say that," I say. "But look, this hasn't exactly been easy for me either, you know." I could tell as soon as those words came out of my mouth that I shouldn't have said them.
"Oh, really? Because you can go around and kill anyone you want, without getting caught, go out whenever the hell you want, pretty much do anything you want...you call that hard? I'd give anything to be like you...without having to kill, of course. But still! How can you even say that?" she nearly screams. Ouch.
"Kagome, I'm sorry, I didn't mean -"
"No, just don't say anything, please. All I need to say to you is that I'm stunned that something like that would come out of your mouth. Did you want me to just go kill your friend in there? That's not something I'd really do, but how'd you like it if I did? What if I just don't help at all?" She's glaring at me with those eyes of hers. And there are no words to describe how it hurts.
"Okay, Kagome, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said -"
"No, you shouldn't have. Honestly...how...Gods...I just don't know anymore..." And after that, I smelled tears.
"Kagome...I..."
Silence. Long, awkward silence.
Finally, she turns to look at me, showing her tear streaked face. "Inuyasha...?" she says softly. I look at her, letting her know I'm listening. "Why? Why aren't I mad at you? Why don't I hate you? I want to hate you; want to hate you for you, your race, everything, but I can't. I just can't do it, and I don't know why...please, why can't I?" she sobs. And soon, I find her in my arms, sobbing into my chest.
I run my hands through her hair, telling her that everything will be okay...but I know it won't be. I think I love her - I honestly am not sure - but even if I find out that I really do love her, I can't. I can't love her because she's not like me. I'm not like her. It's as simple as that. I'd give anything to be human again; anything . Because if I was still human, I'd be with her. I'd be with her every minute of the day, and telling her every chance I got that I loved her. But that's not how things are, unfortunately.
She abruptly pulls away and wipes her eyes. "Sorry," she says.
"Don't be. You have a reason to be upset, a reason to cry, and a damn good reason not to ever speak to me again. And if you don't want anything to do with me, I understand," I say softly. I've finally realized, that maybe, just maybe, a lot of this is my fault, too.
She shakes her head. "No...I want to see you, but I don't understand...I'm supposed to be mad at you, aren't I? But I can't be mad at you; I don't think I'll ever be able to be. But I still don't understand why..."
Everything she's saying makes a part of me a little more alive. She can't be mad at me? At least I know she won't try to drive herself away, because she's never been one to do that - I hope.
She looks up at me to make eye contact once more, and as I look into her teary eyes, I can't help but realize how much I've missed her. I can't help but feel sorry for her, feel like I want to cry too. But I don't want to cry because of her parents, or her brother. I want to cry because I know she'll never accept me.
But why not try? She says she can't be mad at me, and I don't think I could ever be angry with her, either. Maybe...just maybe...
"If you can't be mad at me, then you won't hate me for this, either..." I nearly whisper, holding her close as I make our lips meet. It's not a demanding kiss, just something simple. And as soon as it started, it's over, because I realize she doesn't feel for me what I almost positively feel for her. I pull away, opening my eyes to meet hers. She just looks at me for a few seconds, and nearly jumps on me, pressing her lips against mine. Maybe she does feel the same. Maybe she does want what I want...maybe she wants me to love her, as I want her to love me.
I pull away once more, realizing that nothing will work. "Kagome...I-"
She hushes me and pulls me closer, kissing me once more. I pull away again. "Kagome, this won't work...I mean, I'm a demire, and you, you're human, and..."
She heavily sighs and looks at me. "You're right," she whispers. "But even so..."
"Kagome, I love you, and you're mortal, and I don't think I could take it if you passed away...left me."
She nods, and than says, "I know, but..." Tears begin to fall. "Why is this so complicated? I want to be with you..."
Silence, again.
Suddenly, like she's finally realizing what just happened and what she's said, she shakes her head and says, "We should go check on your friend."
I nod, knowing that now is not the time to talk about what's going on between us, and lead her back inside.
Even after what we talked about at the end, as saddening as it was, a part of me is smiling. She loves me, just I love her, and no matter what happens, I'll find a way for it all to work. And that's a promise; I won't give up on her.
x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x
A/N: dun dun dun...the kiss! w00t! -giggle- Anyway, Kagome's feelings on the whole thing (if your wondering what was going on in her head the whole time this went on) will be explained in the next chapter ^_^ I don't know when the next chappie will be out (school's being evil) but I'll try my best. ^_^ thankies!!