InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Demon's Diary ❯ Nightmares ( Chapter 12 )

Chapter 12: Twelfth Entry - Nightmares

 

I have had that dream again, the one where I cannot save Rin. I can see her face even now, eyes wide looking to me for help and I am too late. I cannot prevent Suikotsu from slashing her throat with his metal claws. Although this did not happen it still haunts me and I wake in a sweat trying to hold back my screams.

 

This dream was almost a reality if not for that miko woman, the one who betrayed my brother those many years ago. Suikotsu had taken my Rin for Naraku to lure me onto Mt. Hakurei. I could not let them have her so I followed through the barrier. It was a most painful sensation walking though that barrier as it tried to purify me, I could feel myself weaken but I was not going to leave Rin in the hands of Naraku or his minions. I do not know why I was not purified to dust but I managed to make it quite far onto the mountain.

 

An old man once told me that my name could also mean Regent of Purity; he told me that my heart was very pure for a demon, odd ne? I've often wondered if I had some protection from being purified because of that. I should probably not listen to the ramblings of an old man, foolish thoughts indeed.

 

I found my Rin in the clutches of Suikotsu and he held her while Jakotsu engaged me in battle. I managed to avoid his attacks only getting slightly nicked on the forearm from his snake like blade. My movements are not as quick and I cannot get a good hit on Jakotsu, what is worse is that he notices. I can hear the fear in my Rin's voice as she calls to me and something drastic must be done. I charge Jakotsu again and throw Toukijin back at Suikotsu while putting my poison claws through Jakotsu. That slithering sword manages to gouge out a good piece from my shoulder but I do not falter. I am sure I have managed to destroy them both but those damn shards are in them and they are not defeated.

 

Suikotsu again grabs my Rin and is going to kill her; I know I cannot reach her in time. That is when an arrow hits the clawed mans neck and takes him down, it is from my brother's first lover. My relief is so great I almost collapse but manage to stay upright.

 

Her arrow hitting that shard in his neck has brought the human back to his normal self. I listen as he tells his story of how he became one of the band of seven. He is asking her to take the shard from him and let him die, I do not understand her hesitation. His own team member, Jakotsu, takes the shard from his neck with that sword and leaves. This just reinforces my opinion that humans are not very loyal creatures.

 

I allow Rin to thank the woman and then we must leave, the pain is almost more than I can bear being in that barrier and I must get Rin to a safer place.

 

By the time I make it back, the barrier is gone from the mountain and Naraku has a new body. I come to late to save the miko woman. I would have if I could , she did save my Rin. So instead I attacked Naraku, if I couldn't help her perhaps I could gain vengeance for her. I was foolish to underestimate Naraku; he used me to test out his new body. He is able to withstand my attack and bring his body back together. He seems to think he cannot die but he should learn not to overestimate himself. Everyone has a weakness without exception and I will find his.

 

My brother arrives shortly after Naraku flees and I am glad to see he still lives. I turn to leave to give my brother privacy. I know that woman meant a lot to him.

 

He yells at me, accusing me of standing by and watching her die. It hurts to hear him say that, to know he thinks so little of me. In my anger I tell him it is his fault because he was not there soon enough. I think back to my Rin, I would not have been soon enough either.

 

I try to soften the blow of my words, I can see the wounded look in his eyes and I do not like it. I do not want to be the one to put that look there. I tell him to save his grief for another time, to not fight with me but to go after Naraku who was the one that killed his Kikyo and then I leave. I wanted to stay, to console him but that would have been foolish indeed. He hates me and that is how it will always be.

 

I still have that nightmare; that I watch as Rin dies, that Kikyo did not get there in time to save her. Sometimes I see the other children in that dream and once it was my brother but still it is the same. I do not get there in time.

 

It was at times hard enough to protect two, now I have five and Naraku is still at large. I try to keep an eye on my brothers group as well and it is difficult. They tend to break apart and travel in different directions at times and sometimes I lose where they are and it takes me days to find them again. It has become quite exhausting. But no matter what I will not allow Naraku to take those I care for from me.

 

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“Kikyo saved Rin,” Kagome uttered, shocked. “I had…I had no idea he cares for that girl so much that he would put himself in danger like that.” Kagome was quickly gaining a new respect for the demon lord.

 

“He cares about us, about me,” Inuyasha stated.

 

“I can't believe he keeps an eye on us; kinda makes me nervous,” Miroku told the group, shivering a bit and looking around at the trees.

 

“Can you sense him, Inuyasha?” asked Shippo nervously.

 

“No, but I don't know if I can if he doesn't want me to.” Inuyasha stuck the book back into his haori, glancing around and giving a quick sniff just in case.

 

“What about what the old man told him? What do you make of that?” asked Sango.

 

“That could be true,” replied Miroku. In old style kanji his name does translate out to mean Regent of Purity. As for his heart, I don't know, I've never bothered to try and sense that deep into his aura.”

 

“I wonder where he is?” asked Shippo looking off into the distance. “Sure would be nice to have some other kids to play with,” he said longingly which caused the older members of the group to look at him sadly. Tomorrow they would search again.