InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Demonic Demons ❯ Sesshomaru's Tragic Past ( Chapter 20 )

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Chapter 20





A/N: I know what your gonna say....and im REALLY sorry for not updating sooner. I been busy, going places, seeing things, getting sick...all that sorta crap. To tell you the truth... i'm not really into the story as much as i was since ff.net deleted it. I havent gotten many reviews....I use to get like 30 reviews per chapter! But that doesn't mean I'm not going to finish the story. I couldnt possibly have a story unfinished... and i still have more to come....allot more. Anyways lets get to what youve all been waiting for... the story! Enjoy! ^.~

Oh and one more thing... I had a friend spellcheck this chapter, but i lost the 1st half of the spellchecked version, so, please don't whine about the 1st half not being spellchecked lol, I'm doing my best here folks, honestly!


Sesshomaru's Tragic Past




"Sango! Calm down! Your going to hurt the baby!" Miroku pleaded to Sango. She was rushing frantically to get into the hospital, her stomache had a a small yet visible bulge. "Oh Miroku, I just can't help it! So much has happened to Inu yasha and Kagome. They already lost their first child and their sencond is on the brink of death! How am I supose to calm down?!" She breathed heavily as they entered the hospital.

Satoru couldn't help but let out a weak weap at his mother's words. His eyes were already red and swollen with tears that stained his cheeks. "Daddy... Is...is Tsuki going to die?" Satoru asked, whiping the tear out of his eye with his long purple sleeve that went down 6 inches past his fingers. Miroku smiled sadly at him. "No, no, she'll be fine" he replied in a 'not to sure' voice.

He didn't know how this could possibly happen. He remembered Kikyo very well. She was a kind and gentle person, she would never hurt a fly. When Kagome called and told them what had happened... he just couldn't believe it. Kikyo was dead...He even went to her funeral for crying out loud! How could it be?
'I guess it doesn't matter anymore...' he thought to himself as they went to Tsuki's hospital room.

It all was just to much.... they couldn't deal with these sort of things happening anymore. They all had family now... Sango was pregnant yet again... their family was getting bigger. They couldn't put themselves in this kind of danger anymore. There was just to much on the line.

But it was over now... wasn't it? Naraku is dead now... and so is Kikyo. At least Miroku hoped as much. He hadn't seen what had gone down, but from the stories he had heard of Naraku... He still felt the possibility he might still be alive. He shoved all those horrific thoughts out of his head as they entered Tsuki's room.

There was Rin, Kouga, Ayame, Kagome, Inu yasha, and of course, Tsuki. She looked horrible. So pale, her eyes closed in a peacful maner, tubes runing all in her, all over her. Satoru took one look at Tsuki and swallowed hard as he walked slowly to her side. She looked so... he didn't know what the word was for it. Her skin was oily with sweat, and it looked as if she was fighting for her very life. He let his hand caress her's as more tears slid down his cheeks. He just couldn't understand. Everyone seemed so quiet... No one would explain to him why she wouldn't wake up to his touch.
The silence was driving him insane. He needed answers!

"Why?!" He half asked, half yelled as he turned around to the others. They all jumped a bit at his outburst. None of them gave him an answer at first, they all simply stared sadly at him. What were they supose to say? "Why? Why wont she wake up?" he weaped softly before turning back to Tsuki.

"Wake up Tsuki! WAKE UP!!" he cried out as he shook her gently. Sango couldn't help the tears that fell from her eyes. To see her son in so much pain was extreamly hard for her. She walked over to him and wraped her arms around his small form. He leaned into her, crying his little dark brown eyes out. He still didn't understand. He wished someone would tell him. Was she ever going to wake up? He looked down at her again. It wasn't supose to be like this. They were supose to grow up with eachother, they were supose to get married when they grew up... She said so...

Flashback...



"Higher Satoru!" Tsuki laughed as Satoru pushed her on the swing. Satoru complied, pushing her higher until she was so high above him, he couldn't reach her. He walked over to the swing next to the one she was on and started swinging himself. He watched Tsuki as she swung so high (almost over the pole) then jumped while she was in mid air, landing swiftly on the soft sand almost 30 feet away!

Normally, Satoru would have been suprised or amazed, but he had been around Tsuki so long and he knew her demon side was strong. She came back to the swing and sat back down, not swinging herself, but simply kicking sand a little. Satoru stoped swinging and did the same next to her.

"Hey Satoru?"

"Ya?"

"You wont ever leave me right?" Tsuki asked him. He was curious to why she would ask such a question.

"No... I will always be here with you Tsuki"

"Forever and ever?"

He smiled childishly at her. "Forever and ever and ever"

"You know... with a promis like that, then we'll HAVE to get married when we grow up"

"Why would we have to do that?" Satoru asked her with curiousity clearly printed on his face. She giggled at him.

"Because my mommy and daddy got married to be friends forever too, like a promise, you know? Thats why everyone gets married I think..."

"You really think thats why people get married?" he asked her.

"Well of course! Why else would people get married?"

"Well, my Daddy told me something about love..." He replied to her.

"Love? Well, I love you... and I love my mommy and my daddy and uncle Sesshomaru and aunt Rin...but i dont want to marry them... I bet we would have soooo much fun living in our own house with no grown ups to tell us what to do"

"Well, thats because WE would be grown ups... and we'll be all boring, just like them" he laughed.

"Yeah, well at least we get to grow up together" she said as she grabed his hand and laced her fingers with his, giving him a toothy grin.

"Lets make it a promise. Promise that we'll grow up together and get married" she said as she took the other hand that wasn't holding Satoru's and held her tiny clawed pinky to him. He looked at it for a moment before laughing and bringing his own pinky to hers, wraping them around eachother. "I promise"

End Flashback....



Tears fell more rapidly from his eyes as he remembered this. He got free from his mothers gentle embrace and kissed Tsuki on the cheek. "Please wake up...You promised...WE promised..." He cried as a tear fell from his face and dropped onto her forehead. Suddenly, her eyes snapped open and she inhaled very deeply as she arched her back upward.

BeepBeepBeepBeepBeepBeepBeep

"Oh my god!" Kagome said as she gently pushed the shocked Satoru away
and pressed the button for a doctor to come immediately. A doctor came
in with a bunch of nurses right away. "Everybody out!" The doctor said
as the nurse began to shove people out of the room. Everyone except
Satoru...somehow, they didn't see him hiding in the
corner behind the drapes.

He watched closely as the doctor tried to keep her
alive. "DOCTOR!!!!! Doctor look! She's awake! Its a miracle!" The nurse with curly red hair said as she handed the doctor tools. "Its not a
miracle yet Trisha, not if we lose her now!" the doctor said back to her.
Tsuki was breathing heavily with choppy breaths. The doctor
wasn't even really sure if she was conscious at all. Luckily arching her back
didnt re-open her stitches. As a matter of fact, the doctor was amazed
to see that the wound was already healing itself. Then again, she was part
demon.

BeepBeepBeep

He had to act quick if he was going to save Tsuki's life. Weather she
was conscious or not, he had to do what he needed to do in order to keep
her alive, but he couldn't give her sleeping gas. Suddenly she took
one last exhale and completely stopped breathing.


Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

Tsuki's eyes shut again and she appeared to be
lifeless.
"DOCTOR! She's not breathing!!"
The doctor was quick to grab the tongs and rub them together, then
hovering them above Tsuki's chest.

"CLEAR!"

BeepBeepBeepBeepBeepBeep

"We got her back, but her heart rate is way over the charts!"
Tsuki's eyes snapped wide open in pain as she managed
to scream out one word as she lay there in shock.

"DADDY!!!!!!"

Satoru was so surprised he had forgotten that he was supposed to be hiding
and ran to Tsuki with his arms stretched out as if to reach for her.
"Tsuki!"

All the people in the room looked at the boy. Trisha gasped when she
saw Satoru, knowing that a boy of his age should never have to witness
this. The doctor only looked for a moment, then looked back to Tsuki,
still trying to keep her vital signs stable. "Nurse! Get that boy out of
here!"



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Sango held onto Miroku's arm as they sat down with everyone else in complete silence. It stayed like this for at least 15 minutes before Sango
noticed something was missing. She looked around for a moment, then
once again, but this time more frantically. "Where's Satoru?" She asked
as she kept looking around. As if on que, he came bursting out of
Tsuki's room and fell on the hard, cold floor, crying so hard he was
beginning to feel weak and tired.

Sango was at his side immediately, helping him up and cradling him in
her arms.
"Ohh sweetie, its ok, what happened?"
He wiped his tears away with his sleeve and sniffed as he looked up at
her. "Tsuki... she....she...wasn't breathing... and..and they put
these things on her chest... and... and" He burst out in tears, not able to
finish the rest. Seeing Tsuki in so much pain made his stomach and his
chest hurt.

"Its ok... don't say anymore..." Sango said as she lead Satoru to
Miroku's chair and set him on his lap. Miroku wraped his arms around Satoru and softly brushed his hair with his fingers until he had fallen asleep in his arms.

Once he was asleep, the room fell under a dead silence once again...

"I'm going to go see Sesshomaru for a moment" Rin said softly as she
got up and walked out of the room. She couldn't take the silence
anymore. It was sooo bad that you could probably hear a freakin feather drop!
She walked to Sesshomaru's room and opened the door
quietly, afraid that if he was asleep, she might wake him up. Once
she opened it, she found that he was not asleep, but wide awake, staring
off into the distance.

"Sesshomaru..." she whispered sadly. She could tell he was upset, even
though his face showed no emotion. She walked up to
him and kissed his forehead before sitting down in a chair by his side.
He let his eyes drag to her face, still not saying a word.

"I hear they'll let you come home tomorrow"
"Yeah...how's Tsuki doing?"

Rin frowned at his question. "Well, I'm not very sure, the doctors had
to come back in and they pushed us out... it was like
she suddenly woke up and was in shock or something. Satoru somehow
stayed long enough to see that she had stopped breathing... I...I'm not sure
what happened after that... I don't think she's...she's" a tear dropped down her face as she could no longer speak the rest. She wasn't really sure what was going on with Tsuki.

"I see..." He said as he let his head fall back on the soft pillow..
Somehow, he knew she would fight this and live, she was a survivor.

Yet still this whole thing just bothered him. He started having the
feeling that Naraku may not be dead. Perhaps it was just because he was
being over reactive and paranoid. He wasn't sure, but
that didn't mean he wasn't going to be more careful. Naraku had killed
that child...Rin, the first human he had ever cared for in his entire life so long ago... he wasn't about to forget that. No. He would never forget that.
Even after the hundereds of years that had went by, he still remembered it
clear as day. Naraku had destroyed the Tensaiga (sp?) right before he had done so.

He looked over to Rin as this memory came to haunt him once again. She
looked so much like that small child. Just as innocent and beautiful.
The face he thought he would never see again all those years ago was
now staring back at him with loving eyes full of life.
There was no doubt in his mind that Rin was the reincarnation of
the child he knew so long ago. He might not have thought so when he first
met her... but now, he was so sure. They were just so much alike.

He, 'The Great and Powerful Lord Sesshomaru' had never once cried in
his life, yet one time... he had gotten so close to losing it. All this
thinking about it was getting him close enough.



Flashback...


"Sesshomaru-sama!!!!" Rin shouted as she tried to
reach out for him.
Naraku grabbed her hand, twisting it back, making her cry out in pain,
and smiled wickedly at Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru stoped instantly. "Well,
well, well, looks like I have gotten the upper hand now Sesshomaru. I
know what this HUMAN child means to you. I don't know why you have
such interest in this one, but it has made you soft"
he paused for a moment then laughed as he looked at the shattered
remains of the Tensagia.
That was the first thing he had gone for during this
fight, and it was nothing but shattered metal on the ground now.

"And since I have destroyed your Tensagia, You will not be able to
bring her back!"

He had been put under a situation like this before, yet this was
different. This time he actually cared for the person that had been hostage.
He had never cared about anyone before. What was he to do? He wanted
so bad to say 'Go ahead...kill her. What is she to me?', but for some
reason, he couldn't bring himself to say it.

This was the moment he felt his demon instincts kick in. It was as if
his brain had thought that HE himself was in danger of his life and the
Tensaiga was not there to tell him to hold it back.
Even though he didn't really like the sword that he had been given,
he still would listen
to it... feel what it wanted him to do on occasion and he would obey,
knowing that its wisdom proceeded his own.

His eyes began to glow red, his teeth getting longer
and his face was changing form as he growled viciously at Naraku.
Naraku seemed amused yet somewhat disappointed. He didn't really want to kill this child... well, not yet anyways. He wanted Sesshomaru, thats
what he wanted. Rin was just to lure Sesshomaru to him. Yet now that
Sesshomaru was in his full dog demon form, his demon puppet didn't stand a chance at winning. Yet Sesshomaru had not yet noticed that this
was a puppet, and if he has, he had shown no sign of it.

Sesshomaru was now 10 stories tall and standing on all fours, and the
look in his eye looked like he was out for blood. As Sesshomaru lifted
his huge claws to strike down his enemy, The demon puppet of Naraku
knew its fate. What happened next was 3 huge things that happened in a
slpit second. Knowing death was about to come, he immediatly flexed his
own human like claws and plunged them deep into Rin's small stomache,
emitting a loud, torturous scream from her. Right at that moment,
Sesshomaru's fierce claws had crashed down on him like a ton of bricks, his
claws slicing him apart as what was left of the body flew 30 feet in
the air then turned to dust.

Sessomaru saw the dust and knew it was a puppet.
'Damn him...' he thought to himself. He could smell Rin's blood thick
in the air as he looked over to her. She was drenched in her own pool
of blood as she opened her eyes and tried to reach out to him.

Sesshomaru walked on all fours over to Rin, and
hovered over her. She looked up at him with absolutly no fear of his demon form. No, the only thing he saw was pain in those brown eyes of her's. He transformed back into his normal self and knelt down to her. He
let his hand caress her cheek which was growing colder and colder by the
second. She took her own hand, putting it over his and pressed it a
little more against her cheek, nuzzling it with her face.

She was dying, and she knew it. She could feel deaths cold hands grip
at her very soul as blood constantly drained from the wound in her
stomach. Yet, none of that mattered, the only thing that mattered was
this very moment. She loved him so so much. She might have just been a
child, but all the years they had spent together, she had fallen in love
with him. She, of course, had never told him. She thought he would
probably laugh at such human emotions. She was 12 now, and she knew she wasn't going to live to see another day, and that now was the time to
tell him or she wouldn't be able to rest peacefully.

She looked into Sesshomaru's deep cold eyes. The eyes that had never
once held any sort of emotion, now had so much sadness
in them. He was sad for her. He was sad that she was going to die.
She couldn't help but smile as a tear dropped down her cheek. He cared
that she was dying, he really cared for her!

"Se..Sesshomaru-sa..ma" She uttered out painfully.

"I'm here, Rin, don't... don't talk" He said as he put
a clawed finger over her lips, as if not talking would help the pain.

"I need...to tell you... before I die..." she coughed
up a bit more blood before she could continue.

He pulled her in his lap and held her while she was
slowly dying in his arms. He wrapped his tail around her as well, to
keep her warm. He didn't know why he did all this. He didn't know why
he felt the way he did. What was one less human child to him? But... she was more than that. Somehow, she had broken through the hard cold barrier that surrounded his heart.

"I...I don't want to leave... you Sesshomaru-sama!" she cried as her
grip tightened on him a bit more. There was this lump in his throat he
had never had before. This stupid weak emotion! It was an emotion he
shouldn't have! But at that moment, he just couldn't help but feel sad.
His facial fetures might not show it to much, but Rin could see it in his eyes.

"Don't...don't be sad, I know...tha..(cough cough)
that we'll meet again...someday"

He looked at her once again, wondering how she could have possibly read
his emotion, but instantly shoving the thought out of his head. Thats not what mattered.

"There's something I...Ive been wan...wanting to tell
you for the past... god knows how long...and, I know... Im just a
human child... but..." she paused.

He didn't respond, he simply stared at her, waiting
for her to continue as he brushed a few stray hairs behind her ear.

"Sesshomaru-sama I... I... I love you" She whispered to him as more
tears fell from her eyes. She brought her hand to his face and lightly
brushed her cold fingers across his warm cheek, before leaning up just
slightly and pressing her soft, cold lips barely against his. For that
brief moment, his eyes widened as he looked into her face as she kissed
him, her eyes closed and peaceful, as if she could now die peacefully.
But almost right after her lips had touched his, she let out her final
breathe, and died in his arms.


End Flashback....



"Sesshomaru?" Rin asked worridly as she shook him
slightly out of his thoughts. His eyes were now slightly watery, as if he
were going to cry, but his face remained emotionless. The way he looked at her made her want to break down herself. It was the most intense look she had ever received in her life. It was almost as if he was seeing her for the
first time. "Sesshomaru, I..." She didn't know what to say, but she knew
something was getting to him. Something that wasn't about what had
happened that day.

"Sesshomaru...please, tell me what is troubling you so much. I don't
ever want you to be sad" She said as she stared into his eyes. His eyes seemed to have dried up, no longer watery like they were before, but
they still looked so sad to her. He reached up his hand and touched her
cheek. Her warm, flesh-colored cheek.

"Rin... I want you to know, that no matter what, I'll never let you get hurt again" He said to her. Her eyes watered up as tears leaked out.
Why was he saying this? Why was he acting like this? At first she thought that it might have been because of what had happened, but now...
she knew better. She knew HIM better than that.

"Why are you saying this? Please tell me what is hurting you so bad"

The sadness in his eyes seemed to have totally vanished as fast as it
came. "It is something I don't wish to talk about right now Rin..."

"But..."

"I will tell you in good time... I just... I can't-"

"Shhhh, its ok, I understand" she said as she pressed a finger to his
lips.

He grabbed her hand and kissed it, bringing her close to him, and kissing her lips passionately before letting her go and resting his head back
down on his pillow.



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A/N: Just to let you know about that flashback, its not like im trying
to show sesshomaru actually LOVING Rin (the little one) like a mate or
sumthin, it was just more like... He cared for her. Rin fell in love
with him, and even though she was only 12, she kissed him before she died
so she could die happy, and Sesshomaru was just really shocked lol.
Just to clear that up... Dude, I've still got SOOOOOOOO much more for
this story. I really hope you guys enjoy it and GIVE ME MORE REVIEWS FOR IT SO I DON'T LOSE INTREST IN IT ANYMORE. lol, sorry,
but its true. Anyways, I'm so freakin tired. I'm really sorry this took me so fuckin long to update, same for love and insanity. But let me assure you, I've already pretty much got the next chapter in my head, and the next chapter for love and insanity is already more than half
finished. I wanted to get more into what happened to Sesshomaru in this
chapter, the next chapter will be getting into what happened to-

Kouga: "SHHHHHHHHH YOUR GOING TO GIVE IT AWAY YOU
FUCKING DUMBASS!!!"

Yeah yeah, what ever... anyways, It will be good. I have a lot planned
for this story still.

Kouga: "Oh great... more tragity, blood, guts, violence, and death...
you know what Arianna? You're one sick little Bitch"

Me: YOU (points finger) SHUT UP BEFORE I MAKE MY NEXT CHAPTER ABOUT YOU AND INU YASHA HAVING SEX IN THE BROOM CLOSET OF THE HOSPITAL!"

Kouga: "EEKK!!!! Shutting up!!!

Inu yasha: "Hey! what the fuck! Why me?!"

Me: Oh Inu yasha... I don't need a reason, I'm the author!

Inu yasha: *cough cough* bitch

ANYWAYS! lol, I'll be updating soon, so keep watch and dont forget to
REVIEW!!!! ^.~



Arianna