InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Destroyed Happiness ❯ Destroyed Happiness 6 ( Chapter 6 )

Destroyed happiness

 

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Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, and I do not make money off my stories.

 

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A/N: I'm sorry for the long, long pause, but I've been focusingon other stories. Here comes another chapter - I'm just so optimistic these days, I think it shows in this chapter. Enjooooy and thank you all for your constant support :) Oh, and btw, there's no Houjo bashing, I just found the idea pretty funny and ironic.

 

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Inuyasha was sober. For a week he'd stayed sober in case Kagome decided to come by with her daughter - their daughter, but nothing happened. Maybe she was scared, yes, she had to be. He'd told his brother not to butt in anymore - he was done needing his help. From now on, if something good happened he wanted it to be because of him and Kagome and Aiko, not because of Sesshomaru. Yes, he was grateful to his brother, but no he didn't need his help anymore.

 

But then, why wasn't Kagome coming? He'd expected her to come, to say something. To have a reaction. To…

 

What should he have expected?

 

He hadn't been that drunk that night, just a bit hazy, so he knew he hadn't said anything too out of line. He'd just… kissed her. Was that the problem? Was that what stopped her from coming?

 

He wanted to call her, to go check on her and Aiko, to do something.

 

What if she decided to find another man fast so he wouldn't have a say-so in the matter anymore? Well, he was the child's father, so he had as many rights over her as Kagome did, but he wanted them both. He wanted the mother and the daughter.

 

He was calm now. A week had passed, he'd had a lot of sober time to think, so now he knew how to react. They were both at fault, he couldn't keep blaming himself or Kagome. They had to start from scratch if they wanted a new life. Would she ever forgive him? He'd make sure she would.

 

Like Hell am I letting her get away this time.

 

Okay, so he had to do something, otherwise he'd surely lose her.

 

Tomorrow. If she doesn't come tomorrow, I'm going to go get them.

 

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The next day came and Kagome still hadn't given any signs that she might return. That was the last straw for him! He'd waited, and waited, and waited, and now he just had to see her!

 

Determined, Inuyasha asked his brother for Kagome's address and raced to her apartment, eager to see her and tell her he was willing to try. He was willing to fix their relationship. He wanted nothing more than to be a good husband, a legitimate husband, and a father to Aiko. This was his dream. This was his goal. He'd do anything.

 

Smiling, Inuyasha knocked on her door, only to have his expression fall at the sight of Ayumi's slightly horrified face.

 

“Come in,” she urged, “come in. I didn't know how to do to call you without Kagome finding out.”

 

This scared him, but okay, “What's the matter?”

 

“It's Kagome. She-”

 

“What's wrong with Kagome?” he panicked, his heart literally beating wildly against his chest. “Where's Aiko?” Ayumi began shaking her head, but Inuyasha wasn't concentrating anymore, “Where's my daughter?”

 

“Shh! Shut up, you idiot! She's fine. Both are fine now. Kagome's sleeping. She spent three days in the hospital, that's why she didn't call you or anything. Now she's resting. Will you keep your voice down?”

 

It was a relief, really, it was, but, “What was the matter with her? What did she have?”

 

“She didn't get much into it, but I think she was weakened. She just… fainted one day. Luckily, I was there, because Aiko wouldn't have been able to do much. I drove her to the hospital and took care of the girl for those three days. Kagome told me not to tell you anything because you'd panic really badly, and it seems she was right,” Ayumi chuckled.

 

Inuyasha sighed, biting his lower lip. After all, it wasn't that Kagome hadn't wanted to see him, she just wasn't able to. That brought a hint of a smile to his lips - it was reassuring. So he still stood a chance.

 

“Do you think she'll ever have me back?” he asked Kagome's best friend, unable to meet her eyes.

 

“Unfortunately, yes,” she scoffed.

 

“Hey!” he said in indignation, crossing his arms over his chest.

 

Suddenly, his little bundle of joy came racing to Aunt Ayumi, throwing herself behind her. Aiko looked very hesitant to look at Inuyasha - he was still a stranger to her, a man she didn't know. This hurt him somewhat, but he knew he shouldn't give it too much thought.

 

Instead, he dropped to his knees in front of the little girl and decided not to tell her he was her father right away. She would probably be scared out of her wits. What he did do was smile warmly and wait until she disentangled her arms from Ayumi's legs and stepped forward.

 

“Hello, Aiko, remember me?”

 

She seemed timid, like she didn't really want to talk to him, but, “You're the weird guy that mommy said was expecting to leave her in the middle of the street without saying much.” Well, kids were perceptive like that.

 

“I was upset that day, I'm sorry. Remember my name?”

 

The girl shook her head shyly, she was so cute.

 

“It's Inuyasha. Yours is Aiko, right?”

 

This time, a wide smile spread over her lips as she nodded enthusiastically. “Uh-huh,” she said, “I'm Ai-ko.”

 

“Well, Ai-ko, why don't you show me your room, huh?” The girl was overly excited by his request and gripped his wrist to make him follow her. Inuyasha's heart swelled with bliss when his daughter dragged him after her to show him her toys. It was a very important moment in his life that couldn't wait any more.

 

The little girl showed him her princesses and her princes and her doll house with a bathroom and a living room and a dying room - where Inuyasha corrected her, telling her it was a dining room, not a dying room. She admitted that she loved boys' toys, too, but that she didn't want to tell her mommy, because she might get mad.

 

Inuyasha memorized this detail, wanting to make sure that his daughter had everything she wanted. Next time he came, he would bring her a helicopter with a remote control so she could have it fly aaaall over the house. That would make Kagome throw a fit, but he didn't care. She'd have to compromise.

 

He smiled at the thought of them both compromising, like a true husband and wife would.

 

After a couple of hours, Inuyasha found himself wanting to see Kagome, to make sure she was okay, even if the doctors had made sure to make that happen.

 

“Honey, stay here and play some more, I'm going to go see mommy, okay?”

 

The girl nodded, still looking at a particularly beautiful Barbie doll, dressing her up, “Okay, daddy.”

 

Inuyasha froze in the doorstep, trying to figure out if his hearing still worked properly. Ayumi was right in front of him, eyes-wide, rather agape. She knew how Ayumi kept asking about her father, how much she wanted a male figure in her life. But why did she cling so desperately onto Inuyasha? And so soon, too? Ayumi merely shrugged and watched the girl - she didn't seem to realize what she'd said.

 

“Go,” she mouthed at Inuyasha, who was still dazed.

 

He did as told and entered Kagome's room. The woman he loved looked sound asleep. Smiling at the lovely view, he sat on the edge of her bed right next to her, content to just watcher. She was the same beauty, the same warm soul he had fallen in love with. Life wasn't always peachy, he knew that, but it had its way of putting things back together. Life was a puzzle that had to be solved.

 

“I'm sorry for everything I did…” His words were smooth, calm, but he was a mess on the inside. He wanted to tell her these things in person, he wanted her to know how hard it had been for him, but he was too much of a coward still.

 

“I'm a coward, aren't I, Kagome?”

 

She didn't answer. Of course she didn't answer. She was asleep.

 

“You have no idea how terrible I felt about myself when I realized I'd fallen in love with you and I was still married to Kikyou. I felt like I was betraying both of you, but I figured I should at least choose the least of the two evils. I chose betraying Kikyou, because I didn't love her anymore, and because I knew she didn't love me either. It was easier that way, easier not to stop seeing you, easier to fall deeper in love with you, easier to make promises I was intent on keeping.”

 

Gods, why was this so hard? “I… when she wouldn't give me the divorce I thought I was going to die. I kept pushing, and pushing, and… until she finally relented. That day was one of the happiest days of my life.” Inuyasha shook his head and chuckled at the irony. He was confessing to Kagome while she was sleeping. That was pretty stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid, but, “I love you still. I love you so, so very much, and I can't begin to tell you how happy I am you haven't sought solace in another's arms. I'm jealous like that, even if I know I don't have the right to be. I just… I want you back. I want you for myself. Is that selfish? Maybe it is, but I do. Come back to me, Kagome.”

 

He traced her brow with a slender finger, her skin was still so smooth to the touch. Kagome was perfect.

 

“Out daughter called me daddy today, I don't know why, but she did. Is that normal? Was the way my heart beat and my breath caught normal? It was the first time she called me that, even not knowing I am her real dad. Is she that eager to have a father? Would she have called anyone that?” It was frustrating, “Kami-sama, Kagome, wake up, please. I want to kiss you.”

 

But she didn't say anything. It was probably his imagination, but he thought her breath was normal, like she wasn't asleep at all. But that couldn't be, right?

 

So he figured she wouldn't mind if he kissed her. After all, she wouldn't feel it, she'd sleep right through it. Slowly, gently, he hovered above her and hesitated for a second before brushing her lips with his tentatively. Tingles shot through his entire body and he smiled against her mouth. This was so good, so sweet.

 

He realized he couldn't stay like this for too long, so he dragged his tongue over her bottom lip slowly, gently, relishing her taste before leaving. He wouldn't forget this moment. He still had a chance. He could win his family back.

 

Right after he left, two misty eyes opened swiftly.

 

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“So you kissed her while she was sleeping?” Sesshomaru asked skeptically. Well, it didn't sound as good as it had felt the way Sesshomaru put it, but it didn't matter. Inuyasha was so certain Kagome would forgive him that not even Sesshomaru could crush his high hopes. Surprisingly, the older brother didn't even try doing that.

 

“Yeah, and it was amazing.”

 

“I don't need details, I merely asked you if you kissed her while she was not awake.”

 

Well, yeah, of course, he'd said that, hadn't he, “Sure.” Inuyasha shrugged. He'd had a whole night to think about it, and the kiss really seemed right. After all, Kagome didn't know about it, and he felt better now. He had no remorse whatsoever. Today he'd visit her again, and hopefully, she'd be awake this time.

 

“Baka,” his brother scolded, but Inuyasha merely shrugged. Yeah, yeah, baka. Why not? Being a baka brought him so many advantages sometimes.

 

“So, how's the kid?”

 

“Rin is fine. She's asking for you,” Sesshomaru replied firmly.

 

“I'll come visit one of these days. I just want to settle things with Kagome. Not right now, but I don't know, in time. I'm going to buy Aiko a helicopter,” he announced enthusiastically, missing Sesshomaru's cocked eyebrow.

 

“Isn't she a bit young for such extravagant gifts?”

 

“Not a real one, idiot. A toy one. With a remote control. She's gonna love it.”

 

Sesshomaru pursed his lips. Really, did he have to teach Inuyasha everything? “Inuyasha, girls like dolls.”

 

“Yeah, I know, but Aiko likes boys' toys as well, it's just that she hasn't had the guts to tell Kagome yet,” he explained, proud that the girl had seen fit to tell him and not her mother. He was gaining ground, wasn't he? He supposed he should be grateful that the child wasn't afraid of him or something - that would've been really terrible.

 

“Hey, did I tell you she called me `daddy'?” Inuyasha asked excitedly, watching Sesshomaru as he calmly inspected some contracts.

 

“Only for the hundredth time today,” the older brother answered casually. His eyes narrowed a bit and he flicked through the pages quickly, but Inuyasha didn't pay attention - he was scowling.

 

“What do you feel about Akitoki Houjo?” Sesshomaru asked all of a sudden, pursing his lips while underlining something from the contract with his pencil.

 

“The one with the stupid gifts? Nice guy, I like him, why?”

 

“He's going to die,” Sesshomaru said seriously and Inuyasha almost believed him. Almost. He knew what happened to people Sesshomaru declared were going to `die' - they were going to spend the rest of their lives in prison.

 

“Why, what?”

 

“He thinks doing money laundering inside my company is fun,” Sesshomaru answered gravely and Inuyasha didn't ask more. His brother was pissed and it was best if he left him to his own devices. After all, he had his own problems to take care of.