InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Divine ❯ Chapter Six ( Chapter 6 )

A/N: In answer to a few questions: Inuyasha's views on sex aren't reflecting my own. Although, that doesn't mean I share Kagome's either. I'm keeping well out of this fic

::grins::

I'll just let the characters battle out their differences…

Divine

Chapter Six

"Everything about you pains my envying

Your soul can't hate anything

Everything about you is so easy to love

They're watching you from above"

Muse, "Bliss"

On Friday night, Kagome had been convinced that she needed to stay away from Inuyasha in order to preserve her innocence, and possibly even her safety if the repercussions turned out to be particularly bad.

On Saturday night, Kagome had thrown most of her previous notions out of the window.

Inuyasha had seemed a little stunned at Kagome's sudden initiation… but that hadn't lasted, and soon he was the one dominating, pulling Kagome onto his lap in order to better control the kiss. Kagome didn't mind - in fact, she was glad. She needed Inuyasha to lead her, because Kagome just didn't have the confidence to initiate more than one simple kiss.

Even though they both lacked experience, they seemed to instinctively know what to do. Inuyasha's lips left hers and began trailing down her jaw to attack her throat. Kagome gasped in response, slowly allowing herself to succumb to the pleasure he was giving her, arching into him to try and close every millimeter of distance between them. It felt too good to be this close to him, almost too good. Being this way with him… it was foreign and a little frightening… but it also felt like the most natural thing in the world.

But is it really ok…?

Kagome's fingers tangled aimlessly in Inuyasha's hair, cradling his head as his teeth skimmed the underside of her jaw. A large part of her wanted to shut up the small voice of reason in the back of her head and carry on enjoying his attention… but the voice had a point that she couldn't ignore.

Should I be doing this with him… when it doesn't seem to matter to him…?

His hand was traveling up her inner thigh again… "Kagome…" He certainly wasted no time in getting to the point and Kagome's wracked moan filled the stuffy boiler room as his digits pressed against her heated center.

Should I be giving myself away so gracelessly…?

Kagome had to push his hand away. "Why do you always go so fast?" she panted, trying to recover from how fast he'd elevated her pleasure.

"What?" his voice was husky, like he was half asleep.

"You know… you tend to grab the goods straight away…" she felt a heavy blush settle over her cheeks and was grateful for the dark. "There are other places you can touch."

Almost quizzically, Inuyasha's hand landed on one of her breasts.

Kagome sighed and fought the urge to roll her eyes. "I tried…"

With some reluctance, Inuyasha removed his hand and made to cup her warm cheek instead. "Sorry… I guess I'm in a hurry to get going before you change your mind." He meant it as a half-hearted joke, but from Kagome's responding and rather flat "Hmmm", it sounded like her mind was already changing. He quickly pulled her forward to kiss her again, and again he felt a little resistance… a small hesitation.

There had to be some way to get her hot for him without resorting to 'grabbing the goods'…

Inuyasha began running his hands from her waist to her hips, squeezing his fingers to caress the flesh beneath the clothes. She felt firm and lithe beneath his hands and it only made him ache for her more… especially when he felt a little of her reluctance fade. He smoothed his hands up her rumpled shirt and let the settle, somewhat hesitantly, on her breasts. There was a chance she was rebuke him again if he went too fast…

And just as he'd feared - "Wait." Kagome's hands came up to cover his. She didn't try and push them away, but instead trapped them against her breasts gently.

"What is it?" Inuyasha expected another speech about virginal innocence and everything happening too fast for her.

"I just…" she seemed hesitant again, but for a different reason than he'd assumed. "I… I don't know…"

"Are you scared?" he asked quietly, flexing his fingers against her chest and felt her clasp her hands tighter over his. "Don't be…"

"I'm not… not scared." She whispered.

"Then what?"

Her face contorted into an expression of torn indecision. "I don't know…"

Inuyasha sighed and gathered her close to him, tucking her face into his neck. He let his hands roam her back in an effort to comfort her with stroking and soothing touches. He couldn't help but hold her so tightly… even though it felt like she'd never been further away from him in his life. His embrace was almost protective… trying to protect her from her own uncertainties that seemed to be plaguing her conscience. If only she would just relax and let him show her how pleasant and non-threatening a coupling could be…

Absently, he pressed his mouth against her neck, her shoulders… and all the while she clung to him with her eyes closed tightly. He nosed her head aside. "Please, Kagome…" he whispered heatedly into her ear.

Kagome refused to open her eyes. In truth, Inuyasha's simple touches and caresses had made her tingle in all sorts of places… it felt strange, but it was also a wonderful sensation. It was such a magical feeling of intimacy that she didn't want to let go of… she didn't want to face reality and the realization that she'd have to face the world again after this. Would she be changed? Would she be a woman and no longer a carefree girl? She was scared for herself… but she longed to take Inuyasha up on this offer…

What about Kikyo? Could Kagome really let Inuyasha leave knowing what they had shared together?

What about her family? Would she have to tell them about her relationship with Inuyasha? Or would she lie and pretend she was still innocent to the darker pleasures in life?

Would she ever be able to look at herself the same way…?

And what about the repercussions that her fortune had warned her of? She tried to tell herself that she was worrying over superstitious nonsense - but after all she'd seen over the past year, she knew not to take the supernatural for granted.

However…

Every bone in her body was yearning for Inuyasha's touch. Her breasts seemed to tingle and swell, begging for his hands upon them. But most worryingly of all, was the gathering moisture between her legs. She couldn't deny that her body craved this experience… even if her heart shuttered in fear of it.

Inuyasha kissed her brow again, a soft tender touch of lips against her skin that reminded her of their short interlude in the hot spring.

She made up her mind.

Kagome put a hand against Inuyasha's chest to halt him and he pulled back. She could almost feel the bemused look he was probably shooting her. She took his wrists in each hand and pushed them down to his sides, with the strong hint that he should keep them there. "I want to remember this… at my own pace."

Inuyasha blinked rapidly in surprise as her hands settled on his shoulders and she leant up to kiss his throat. Instantaneously, he felt his blood heat and his mouth dropped open in a small gasp. Her lips trailed sensuously up to his chin and along his jaw - instinct proving to make her act like an experienced lover. He tried to catch her mouth with his, but she only evaded him and continued up to kiss the bridge of his nose sweetly.

It was almost as if she was memorizing every inch of his face for her personal recollection. She lifted herself up onto her knees in order to reach his brow, and kissed him in the same way he'd kissed her only moments ago. She had trapped his head between her hands and he realized that he only had to lean forward slightly in order to bury his face between her breasts. But she probably would consider that as breaking the 'mood' she was always on about.

But the most frustrating side-effect to her bobbing up and down on her knees whilst straddling his lap was that her soft behind kept brushing against his hips… exciting his already rather excited arousal. He had to clench his fists by his sides in order to keep from grabbing her and pulling her hips down hard against his own. Kagome probably wasn't even aware of her effect on him, but Inuyasha's breath began to shorten as her bottom once more to rub against him as her lips kissed his cheek.

It was too much.

Seizing her face between his hands, he pulled her down roughly for a kiss that ended up being harder than he'd meant. He didn't even give her the chance to protest as tugged her chin down with his thumb and plundered her mouth with his tongue.

Kagome unintentionally rocked herself hard against his growing erection and she stiffened at once. Evidently, she'd only just noticed it. Inuyasha groaned into her mouth and helplessly pushed up against the warmth he'd encountered, all the while imitating the penetration he wanted with his tongue. His head felt light and he was dizzy… probably because most of his blood was rushing straight to a certain other appendage. His hands strayed to Kagome's breasts, dragging the pads of his fingers against the stiff nipples he encountered under her shirt. He was fast losing control…

"I need you." He groaned against her mouth between their deep kisses. "Please, Kagome…"

Such an earnest plea… and Kagome was already unable to gather the will to stop him anyway. There was an ache between her legs that made her restless and overheated in an already hot room. She shifted her hips urgently against the hard bulge in Inuyasha's pants, trying to appease the ache somewhat, but only succeeded in heightening the feeling. Sense and reality was slipping from her grasp and she soon found herself becoming an automated shell of pure instinct and reaction. All that mattered was that Inuyasha was igniting all kinds of feelings inside her… and they were amazing.

Their kissing grew fierce and Kagome found herself reaching under the folds of Inuyasha's shirt to slide her clammy hands across his chest to grip his bare shoulders. She used him as leverage to push herself harder against he erection, all the while arching forward to offer her breasts to his eager hands.

There was a moment of hesitation and surprise when Inuyasha pushed her low-necked shirt down to expose her bra. She wondered what he would do, confronted with this contraption of modern technology… but he simply pushed it up and out of the way as quickly as possible. Kagome stilled in shock, wondering what he thought. He'd seen her topless before (many, many times) but perhaps this was the first time she was willing… even so… Kagome was a tad self-conscious and what if Inuyasha didn't like what he saw?

Maybe he did, maybe he didn't. But he lowered his head nonetheless and took a distended nipple into his mouth. Kagome stiffened initially but she let the tingling pleasure wash over her and her eyes closed on their own. She held his head to her and whimpered slightly as she felt his searing tongue circle her nipple. The same tongue that had insulted her numerous times, the same tongue that had played Kikyo's long before it had played hers… and the same tongue that had set her alight with one quick dart across her cheek.

He switched breasts and laved attention on her abandoned nipple with his quick fingers. Kagome grimaced in pleasure, trying to get some semblance of control - but it was hard when she wanted nothing more than to lose it.

Inuyasha's other hand, which had been occupied with grasping her hip to hold her down, suddenly moved to slip under her skirt again. This time, Kagome didn't mind - in fact she welcomed his touch to the part of her that ached the most. She gasped and clutched at his shoulders desperately as his fingers pushed her underwear aside and probed deeper into her. Despite being a virgin himself, Inuyasha sure seemed to know which buttons to push. Thatone in particular.

Two of his fingers busied themselves with rubbing that tight bundle of nerves between her legs, while his mouth became occupied with the curve of her neck.

"Inuyasha…!" Kagome gasped and gripped his shoulders so hard that he would have bruised if he'd been human. She was paralysed with the pleasure wracking her body in sharp waves. "Inuyasha - that's - oh!"

Kagome knew her body well, but her reaction to his probing fingers had surprised her. She knew from experience that she could play with herself for several minutes and still find it hard to work up even the faintest of arousal… but Inuyasha had managed to push her up to the clouds in a matter of seconds with his touch.

It must have been because it was simply him touching her…

Her body acted out on its own, moving her hips up and down in time to his fingers. She felt her climax approaching sharply, but his fingers didn't seem to be supplying enough satisfaction.

She wanted him inside her.

With no time to go through with that inner desire, she settled for seating herself firmly against him and rocking back and forth as desperately as she could, grinding against that hard ridge separated by their clothes. Kagome bit down on her lip hard as his mouth continued to pleasure an ear lobe - but she was concentrating solely on the building pressure between her legs.

Then everything snapped out of focus and her body convulsed with a harsh cry. She clung to him blindly, riding out and absorbing the intense waves of pleasure that travelled from the pit of his stomach to the tips of her toes and then reverberated back. She was left burning, throbbing, and completely drained save for the satiated aftermath.

Kagome wanted to stay like this, draped over Inuyasha in a state of complete contentedness for ever. Her breathing began to regain a little steadiness and she felt drowsiness set in. She just wanted to sleep in his arms now.

But her mattress didn't seem to want to comply.

Inuyasha's hands stirred her by shaking her by the upper arms, gently, as he whispered in her ear. "Kagome…?"

"Nmm…?" she responded, content to stay curled up on his chest.

"It's my turn."

"… for what?" she sat up with a frown, but the confusion slid off her face to reveal surprise when she realized she was sitting directly on the rather hard… thing… in Inuyasha's lap. "Oh… um…"

"Give me your hand," Inuyasha seized her wrist, and with his other hand began working on freeing the ties of his hakama.

A small thrill of fear gripped Kagome's stomach. "Inuyasha, I don't think-"

He pulled her hand down suddenly and Kagome's fingers collided with the most interesting object.

It was hot… incredibly hard… but almost like the finest of velvet to touch. Kagome put her apprehension on hiatus as she let her hand close around the shaft, feeling it twitch in her hand. She moved her hand down a little, trying to get the measure of it… and discovered something rather horrific…

"Oh my god…" she stage whispered. "You're huge…"

If she'd thought to pick up the flashlight and shine it on Inuyasha's face, she would have seen the rather pleased smirk he was wearing. But as it was, Kagome was far too shocked and awed to do more than gape in the darkness.

She'd had all the sex ed. classes. She'd watched all the uncut videos that they played for the teenagers, and had seen the package the male model had possessed. Apparently, the guy in the video had been deemed by the boys (grudgingly) and some of the more experience girls, as being rather gifted. But that guy seemed to pale in comparison to Inuyasha… perhaps it was because the model hadn't been excited, and Inuyasha clearly was, but even so, Kagome could only flounder as she tried to get a rough estimate of how big her little hanyou was.

She could cover him completely in three fists… so… eight or nine inches?

The apprehension returned.

"Inuyasha, I'm not sure about this…" she told him quietly, quickly pulling her hands away from his burning length.

"What?" he sounded upset. "Why?"

"I just don't think…"

"Is there something wrong with it?" he demanded, still sounding upset.

Kagome's mouth dropped open. Had she just dealt a major blow to his ego? "Oh no! No, no, no!" she tried to amend quickly. "It's lovely - perfect - the best I've ever seen… or… well… touched."

"What's that supposed to mean?" he sounded guarded now.

"Nothing!" she admonished. "It's a very nice… thingamabob…" she choked on her wording. "But… doesn't this feel weird to you?"

"What feels weird?" she felt him shift as he sat up slightly.

"This. This whole situation - us doing these things in here…" she looked down at the gap of light beneath the door. "It doesn't feel right."

"It feels fine to me." He shrugged

"Well not to me, it doesn't." she gave his shadowy form a sharp look. "I'm not going to give my first time away in a dingy little boiler room-"

"Oh not that again!" Inuyasha growled angrily.

Kagome growled straight back. "Aren't I allowed to even see your face when we make love?!"

"Don't call it that!" he barked. "It's not making love! No love is made!"

"Well tough! I want to remember it as a nice moment - not a big black nothing!" she cried. "I can't see anything - I want remember what I see!"

"What's the point?! You'll only close your eyes anyway!" he pointed out.

"Oh, if that's your attitude then you can forget it!" she hissed, backing out of his lap. "I'm going to sleep - and if you try anything again then I'll sit you so hard that you won't be able to try anything for a year!"

Does she know…? Inuyasha reeled back slightly, worried that she may have just made a reference to the first time he'd touched her while she was supposed to have been sleeping. Better not act guilty… so he acted angry instead. "Bitch! How can you just take your pleasure and leave me like this?!" he gestured down to the uncomfortable object in his lap.

"That's your own fault." She retorted. "You should have thought about that before you stamped on my feelings."

"I didn't stamp on anything! You stamped on me!"

"I'll stamp on you literally if you don't leave me alone!" she shot back irately. "You don't try and steal my first time like that and get away with it, you-"

She broke off suddenly as a door slammed downstairs. Then they heard someone calling for Buyo… but it wasn't anyone that Kagome recognized.

"Who's that?" Inuyasha whispered.

"Um…" Kagome tried to place the voice. "A neighbor I think… must have come to feed Buyo."

"At midnight?"

"Well, Buyo does like his midnight snacks." Kagome responded.

They both sat quietly.

Inuyasha leant over to Kagome. "What do we do?"

"We get out of here, that's what we do!" Kagome all but shoved her friend aside in order to get to the door. "Mrs Sakamoto! Mrs Sakamoto!" she banged on the door. "I'm stuck in the boiler room - could you help me out of here?!"

"Kagome…?" a woman's voice echoed from downstairs. "Where are you?"

"Upstairs!" Kagome yelled back.

Footsteps thumped up the carpeted stairs and Inuyasha desperately rearranged his hakama to hide the rather obvious hard-on he was sporting. He noticed Kagome was doing the same with her shirt and bra.

A few seconds later and with a little handle twiddling, the door of the boiler room was thrown open and blessedly cool air wafted over them. Plump Mrs Sakamoto stood there, looking bemused with Buyo under one arm. "What on earth are you doing in here?"

"Long story…" Kagome shot Inuyasha a nervous look… noticing that he looked incredibly disgruntled, despite their new freedom.

That was yet another risqué scenario avoided…

But Kagome wasn't all that happy about it.

It had taken far too long to get rid of the crazy neighbor in Inuyasha's opinion. The woman had insisted on knowing exactly why Kagome had been trapped in the boiler room in the middle of the night with a strange boy - and Kagome had simply told the truth. She and Inuyasha had gone to fix the cold water, but had gotten themselves stuck in the process - and between getting trapped and getting rescued, they'd played a nice innocent game of 'guess which finger I'm sticking up at you' to pass the time.

Sensing the animosity between the two teenagers, Mrs Sakamoto had been satisfied that her teenage neighbor was still innocent and had been on her way - leaving Buyo to their capable hands.

"She says my family are coming back on Monday." Kagome sighed wearily as she flopped down on her bed and reveled in the much cooler air of her room. She glanced at her alarm clock and wrinkled her nose. Half past one on Sunday morning. She still had a whole day left in which to guard her innocence. "We should probably check if the snow's cleared tomorrow." She told Inuyasha.

He grunted his agreement, but he seemed to be sulking and wouldn't say any more to her. Kagome rolled her eyes and shifted to get more comfortable. "I'm going to sleep." She had no intention of getting changed or getting under the covers. It was far too hot to do either. So she just turned off her bedside lamp and settled back down to close her eyes.

She wondered what Inuyasha would do, since it wasn't often that he came to sleep over at her house… but when he did sleep over, it was usually against the wall or on her bed (while she took the floor instead).

Inuyasha didn't seem to be moving, so carefully she cracked open an eye and peeked through the moonlit room to where he stood by the window.

He was staring at her.

Both of Kagome's eyes popped open. "What?" she demanded sharply, not keen on being stared at. It made her feel uncomfortable… but a little tingly as well.

Rather than give a verbal reply, Inuyasha closed the distance between him and the bed. Kagome watched in puzzlement as he came to kneel beside the bed to be eye level with her. What was he doing?

"What are you doing?" Kagome; ever the one to state what was on her mind.

One clawed hand snaked out and smoothed up her outer thigh, reaching all the way to the hem of her short shorts… then moving his fingers under the clothing to squeeze the soft flesh of her buttock. Kagome had thought about stopping him the moment he'd reached for her, but for some reason she'd wanted him to touch her…

"I still want you," he said, watching her eyes carefully as he rested his chin on the edge of the mattress. "I'm still hard for you."

Kagome's chest had gotten progressively tighter and she found it difficult to breathe. He only had to look at her and talk dirty and she was turned on… but this was what she was afraid of happening. He was going to turn her into a sex-a-holic!

"I'm going to sleep." She said in a cracked voice, and rolled over to avoid his gaze and tear herself free of his touch.

"What's the matter?" Inuyasha said suddenly.

"Nothing." She said to the wall in front of her.

"You said that you didn't want your first time to be in a boiler room - so isn't this better?" he waved a hand around her room. "Isn't this what you want?"

"Just because I said I didn't want my first time in the boiler room doesn't mean that I'll get down and screw you in the very next room!" she snapped. "I'm tired. I just want to sleep."

"But…" Inuyasha screwed his face up and clenched his fists, finding it hard to understand. "Don't you want me? Is that it? You don't like me, do you."

Kagome quickly rolled over to face him. "Of course I like you!" she told him, meaning every word. "You know I do!"

"But you can't stomach the thought of being with me, is that it?" he narrowed his eyes at her.

Kagome opened her mouth, but quickly shut it. "That is not the problem."

"Then what is?" he ground out. "I don't understand you, Kagome! One minute you can't keep your hands off me and then the next you turn cold and won't let me near you!"

Kagome bit the inside of her cheek, feeling too many conflicting emotions rise within her, along with the tears that prickled at the back of her eyes and around the lump in her throat. She felt her vision blur as she lost the battle to hold back the tears. "I'm sorry…" she whispered. "I don't know what I want…"

Inuyasha gave a caustic smirk. "Maybe it's Hojo you want. Or even Kouga."

Kagome scowled deeply. "That's not funny." She nearly pouted.

"Then who do you want?" he scowled back. "If you say "Sango", I will be forced to strangle myself."

Kagome felt a heavy blush spread over her face and maybe even down her neck. "You know who I want." She said quietly.

Inuyasha cocked his head. "Tell me. I need to hear it."

Kagome dragged the pillow over her to hide her embarrassment. "You…" she whispered wearily. "I want you… I always have… I do right now."

The pillow was tugged away from her head and she blinked sullenly up at Inuyasha. "Well, I want you too." He said simply.

Kagome almost lost her temper again.

Wasn't it wonderful? He wanted her, she wanted him. Equality. So what better than to do it together?

Kagome ground her teeth. What ever happened to wanting to do it for love? She wanted her first time to be meaningful… to be for love.

But…

Weren't they in love anyway?

Kagome's anger alleviated somewhat as she looked up at Inuyasha's open face. She already had the strong feeling that they were both in love with each other… it was unspoken… but did saying it aloud make it any deeper a love?

She had read all about how people could see love burning in their partner's eyes… but Kagome didn't see love in Inuyasha's golden orbs. She didn't know what it looked like. Maybe there was love there, but Kagome might have been missing it. She recognized the lust though, the hunger with which he looked at her. She recognized it because she had felt it too.

But even so, she still shied away.

Why?

Not because of Ayumi's prophecy… or that she was worried about the other people who seemed to be involved with their relationship such as Kikyo and Kouga…

Sex was just a big step… and one that Kagome's wasn't confident enough to take yet.

"Maybe some other time?" she suggested elusively. "I'm too tired now."

That's right… putting things off is what you seem good at…

Kagome ignored her inner conscious and shifted over on the bed. "You can sleep with me." Wait, that had sounded better in her head. "I mean - just sleep - no nookie."

"Keh…" he shrugged, but moved to settle down beside her anyway.

A few minutes and a lot of shifting later, they'd found a very comfortable position on the single bed… this position being Inuyasha pressed up nice and tight to the wall and Kagome spread out nice and wide on the mattress.

Well, what else were you expecting?

"G'Night, Inuyasha…" Kagome sighed sleepily.

Inuyasha responded only with a sigh of his own. The hard-on still hadn't gone away, and with Kagome lying this close, it wasn't due to go away for quite some time.

It was going to be a long night…

>TBC<