InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Do What You Have to Do ❯ Chapter 2: Conjured this temptuous rage ( Chapter 2 )

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Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah McLachlan

Chapter 2: Conjured this temptuous rage

A month goes by much quicker when you have depression, loathing and a small amount of hate filling your every waking moment. One month turns into two in what feels like one. Not that I had many moments awake. I have found myself drained as of late. The smallest task leaves me exhausted and not too soon after sleeping in whatever spot I sat my weary body. This evidentially amused and worried my companions to no end. I suppose it was odd to find me sleeping in front of the fireplace or in a different corner every night and yes, once or twice on the roof and a few times invading Shippo's futon, often snuggling against the kit and once found hugging him close.

It hadn't really bothered me until I found myself running from the Kaede's hut in the morning to vomit and dry heave whatever was left in my body undigested. I had managed to do this in privacy until this morning when I found my hair pulled away from my face by Kaede herself.

I wiped my mouth and moved away from the sour smell, Kaede releasing my hair as I did so.

“Have you, figured out what ails you Inu Yasha?”

I looked down at my bare feet and fidgeted a bit.

“From your, reaction I'm guessing you, suspect the culprit,” she asked more than said.

I stood there unsure of what to say, whether I should voice my suspicions or let her tell me what she thought or knew what it was.

“Come Inu Yasha, I'll make you some tea to settle your stomach and then we shall give you a check up.”

I felt her move past me and into the hut and I followed softly behind her lost in my whirlwind thoughts. I sat down in front of the fire in the middle of the room and watched flames lick the sides of a small kettle that Kagome had left for Kaede before we had left for her time. I smelled an array of herbs and spices as she came to sit before the fire with tea cup in hand.

She pulled the kettle from the flames with a doubled rag and poured the steaming water into the fragrant tea cup causing wisps of steam to rise and with them the smells of mint, chamomile and a few other scents I couldn't discern in the mix. She mixed it with a small spoon that Kagome had also left her and then held the cup out to me. I took it with one hand and brought it to me, wrapping both hands firmly around it before taking a deep sip. It was sweet and bitter at the same time but as I swallowed I felt it sooth my sore throat and sighed softly.

“Have you mated recently Inu Yasha?”

I wasn't surprised by the question but I still self-consciously looked around, glad to find Shippo loudly snoring in the corner.

“I take your nervousness as a yes.”

“Yes, okay, yes.”

“I haven't seen any signs of heat upon you so I believe that your mating was a success and that a pup has been conceived.”

I looked at my stomach which had already begun to soften and round.

“Yes.”

“There are few you would let touch you and there aren't too many left who could best you in combat and only one other is as strong as you who wanders this territory.”

“He is the father and I'd rather he not know.”

“Is it pride or another worry that keeps you from telling him?”

“He sees me as less of a demon and almost less than a human on his chart. I don't trust him enough to tell him of a conception between the two of us. Bitches do not find the mutts who have pupped them; they merely birth and raise the pups on their own. I don't need him for that.”

“That is the animal not the demon clan Inu Yasha, both of us know that the two of you are the last of your clan in this territory and that he would want to know of an heir to his lands.”

“I will not tell him, he treated me like a lesser being and I will not have any pup of ours growing up like that!”

I found myself gasping for air after yelling louder than I had meant to.

“Uhhnn….what's going on”, asked Shippo as he sat up rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

“It is nothing Shippo, Inu Yasha and I were just talking.”

“We might as well tell him Ba-ba. I am already starting to show it won't be long before it's even more noticeable.”

“Tell me what,” Shippo asked sitting up and ruffling his bed flattened hair.

“I'm expecting a pup.”

The look on Shippo's face was priceless and all at once you could see the answers he had been seeking about my return come to him. He had realized why Kagome and I could not make a pup together.

And as I saw it fill his thoughts I realized that I did right in leaving Kagome and her time. Our love would be love but neither of us was meant be together, both of us had the job of passing on our genetics and those of someone else. We had to pass on our thoughts, dreams and our stories to others. I suppose that in itself was good enough but now I had to explain to those remaining how I had found myself pupped.

“You must not tell anyone, Shippo. This has to stay within our pack. I will tell Sango and Miroku when they return to visit. I may even need their help.”

“Why?”

“Sesshomaru pupped me, its best to avoid rumors and news traveling his way. I want him to think I'm avoiding his contact for no other reason that what's been done.”

“Fine…”

“So what do you plan to do, Inu Yasha,” asked Kaede.

I sighed, “I will stay here for now since it is the safest place to be hidden until the pup arrives. Sango is coming down with Miroku in a month's time for more healers training. When the pup is born I'd like to follow them back to the youkai hunter territory. With their clan rebuilding itself having me there is like hiding a needle in a haystack. Who would sense me and my pup with all the youkai armor and other parts surrounding their huts, in their weapons, armor, gates and land?”

“Sounds like you've thought this through somewhat Inu Yasha.”

I nodded, “I had a feeling I was pupped when my morning retching started. It's a safe bet that it hasn't crossed Sesshomaru's mind that I can be pupped because I'm a lowly hanyou so I should be safe unless rumor and news of my condition spreads.”

Kaede nodded and so did Shippo. It was the start of a secret I would kill to keep.

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Time seemed to fly as days turned to weeks and the weeks became a month. It was now near the end of July and it felt it. The weather was every bit as hot as one would expect in the summer. Occasionally there were breezes but more often than not they were hot like a breath across your body. I watched as Shippo and the youngin's played in the cool stream a small distance away from the rice patties I helped to tend in the scorching sun.

I stood wiping the sweat off my brow with my arm, which was luckily clean of mud. I heard Shippos's gleeful shout from across the field and watched him bound out of the water and uphill towards two familiar shapes in the distance.

Miroku and Sango…

It had been two years since I had last seen them. And looking at the toddler bobbing along beside them and the one being carried in Miroku's arms I could say that the two of them had been more successful in breeding than I had.

I watched as they talked animatedly and then Shippo jumped up and excitedly pointing in my direction. I watched their heads turn and the confused expressions form on their faces. I stood up straighter and wiped my hands along my pants legs before stepping out of the patties and walking towards Kaede's hut. I wasn't looking forward to explaining things so I opted to make my way to the cold mountain fed springs instead.

It was a bit of a walk but a quiet one. I found the spring and took a deep whiff of air tasting it on my tongue, scenting to be sure that it was safe before I undressed. Nothing out of the ordinary hit my sensitive nose so I simply started undressing, setting my clothes beside me. Once I was completely nude I leaned over the spring dipping the first article of clothing into it slapping it against stones and the water before scrubbing it against the rocky sides. When I finished the first I hung it up on a near by branch in the sweltering sun to dry. I did this with each piece of clothing and when I had them all hanging in various places on various sunlit branches I stepped into the spring slowly and carefully. I had become much more cautious now that I was with pup. It wouldn't do to harm the life within me because of my own stupidity and clumsiness.

Soon I was waist deep in the middle of clear cold water that smelled slightly of pine. I ducked my head under watching the water overhead shimmer in the shining sun. I came up, my long locks plastered against my head, neck and back. It felt nice and relaxing as I washed away the grime, dirt and sweat from my body, stopping when my hands slid over my ever present swell which grew a little more each day.

It looked as though I had simply over-eaten at first but now, now it looked like a small melon had been pushed under my skin. I lay my hands over it and closed my eyes. I could feel a faint aura, very faint but there. I carried a full demon, I could tell. One would not feel the aura of a hanyou or human, not unless they were powerful but even then their aura's felt “different” from those of youkai.

I lay against a smooth rock near the springs edge and watched the sky filter through the leaves and wondered what I carried, a male or female pup. The hot breeze blew across my body drying my bangs in its attempt at cooling those out in the heat.

I finally stood and made my way out of the spring, stopping to quench my thirst in a small waterfall before gathering my now dried clothes and slipping them on. They felt more comfortable with the sticky sweat washed away and smelled a lot better as well. I flipped my hair over my shoulders and made my way back to Kaede's hut. As I walked the sky darkened, like the dimming of a candle in a darkened room.

I saw many of the field hands and farmers heading back to their own dwellings for dinner and sleep which I too wanted to do but something told me even with my absence and Kaede and Shippo to tell the tale I would still have much to explain.

Upon reaching the hut I stepped inside and witnessed a wide-eyed infant starring up at me. I starred down at what I assumed was a young girl as she studied me. Her eyes were a deep brown and her hair the smooth silky ebony tresses that resembled Sango's. Her facial structure and eye shape were all Miroku, one could wonder if he had looked similar to this when he was her age. She suckled her thumb, a raggedy cloth which I assumed was a blanket held tight against her small pudgy body. She removed her thumb and looked up at me, giving me a smile.

“Puppy!”

I couldn't imagine what look I had on my face but I heard the laughter behind her but I couldn't take my eyes off of her.

“No, Hitomi. Inu Yasha,” Sango said as she walked towards her daughter.

Hitomi gave a once over and then pointed up at my face declaring once again, “Puppy”, turning towards her mother with her face set in a stern manner as if daring her mother to tell her other wise.

I knelt in front of her and pointed at my ears, “puppy”, I asked as I eyed her.

She grinned and nodded, “Puppy!”

“Want to feel,” I asked.

She nodded eagerly so I lowered my head allowing her to pet my ears hearing her ohh's and ahh's as she did so. When she had her fill she patted my knee to get my attention. I looked at her and watched as she wrapped her arms around my knees and attempt to climb into my lap.

I grinned and lifted her into my arms, holding her close, “She's a cute kid Miroku, definitely takes after her mother.”

“Oh, I agree her looks are mine but her manners definitely came from Miroku,” said Sango as she sniffed but gave a grin all the same.

I held Hitomi close as I sat down beside the fire place with the others, their eldest child watching me cautiously from across the fire a look of jealousy and curiosity across freckled cheeks.

“What's your name kid,” he gave me a surprised look before glancing down.

“This is our son Katsurou,” said Sango as she softly ruffled his hair.

The night had continued on in much the same manner as Katsurou watched me with curious eyes weighing me with a gaze much unlike a child while his sister lay sleeping in my lap. We woke Hitomi to eat and when the meal was finished I watched Miroku lift his yawning daughter and carry her into the guest quarters. Sango looked down at her son and said softly, “Go ahead Katsurou.”

He gave me a look that said what was on his mind so I stood up and knelt in front of him lowering my head to his height. When I felt nothing I took a deep breath, “Go ahead kid, touch them. I can't kneel here all night.”

I felt his hands quickly pet and softly squeeze my ears and then the sound of his hurried footsteps as he ran to the guest room, Sango and Kaede chuckling at his quick departure.

“Thank you, Inu Yasha. I believe that you will be a good parent, it seems as though you can read children pretty well,” Sango said as I situated myself back into my abandoned space.

“It's not hard; he reminds me a little of Kagome's younger brother and a lot of Shippo.”

The quiet loomed over us until Miroku returned, child free. He sat down beside his wife and cleared his throat.

“We've heard what happened from Kaede and Shippo and we're more than excited to have you join us once the pup is born, Inu Yasha. We'll be her until next spring so Sango can complete her healer training. That will give you plenty of time to recover after the birth of the pup.”

I let out my held breath and nodded, “Thanks Miroku, Sango.”

The rest of the night was spent in quiet conversation about Sango's training and my impending delivery.

To Be Continued…..l

I haven't given up on my older stories; my muse just wouldn't let me continue until I at least started this one. I'm still alive and writing. I'm still staffing Otakon as well as other cons so basically I'm pretty freaking busy especially when you add the fact that I only get one day off a week. Well bye for now!

Kat >^_^<