InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Do What You Have to Do ❯ Chapter 9: And I have the sense to recognize that… ( Chapter 9 )

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Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah McLachlan

Chapter 9: And I have the sense to recognize that…

November came in whirlwind of activity. I had discovered that my brother's mother had deemed his keep worthy of visiting. I have never met the mother of my brother and part of me wondered if I would enjoy it or find it almost as trying as I found his company at times. Not that he was really doing anything wrong, per se…he just…he was too damn quiet sometimes. I was beginning to think that he had no hobbies and then I realized that I had become his hobby. He watched me when I ate, walked the gardens, played with Ryusei and talked with Aoiyuki.

I suppose I have no room to speak, I watch him just as much. For having had him caress the inner most parts of my body, having carried and delivered his heir and carrying another you'd think we'd have moved past this blushing glances and shy comments but we just can't seem to get to that point. The two of us are certainly a horrible mess. I wondered if his mother was coming to see if she could remedy this situation.

I suppose we needed a push.

Although I suppose I could give him an A for effort. He tried; it was me who seemed to run like a frightened child. I knew it was childish and down right cowardly but some things take a while to get over.

I sat on this fine fall day watching the whirlwind of colors that our son created with his small whip his father had given him, calm commands given from the afore mentioned man who demonstrated with his own whip. Even though our own relationship was faltering father and son seemed to be getting on just fine. It made me proud to see it. Ryusei would have what both Sesshomaru and myself lacked and so would our next child, god willing.

I watched as the energy from Ryusei's whip knocked Sesshomaru's whip from his hand and smiled at Sesshomaru's faked look of shock and bold praise. A proud father if ever there was one.

“ChiChiue!! Did you see, did you?”

I laughed as I watched my son bouncing from foot to foot excitedly and nodded, “Well done, you are certainly growing.”

I looked at Sesshomaru and gave a small smile to which he inclined his head.

I watched as Sesshomaru was handed a towel by Jaken and Jaken animatedly tell him of obligations that needed fulfilled and then he walked over to Ryusei and dropped the towel atop his head grinning at Ryusei's muttered curses as he walked with Jaken from the garden. I went down and began my lessons with Ryusei in the garden, lessons on how to use your sense of smell and testing him on what he could sense with his tiny dirt smudged nose. We did this until the sun was nearing its setting and then we made our way to the baths which were warm and waiting. I washed Ryusei's back and he mine. Once we were clean we went into the nice hot baths and lay back relaxing; at least I was. Ryusei was trying to catch air in his rag, his eyes large when he did causing me to chuckle. He commented on how his air bubble reminded him of my now growing belly.

“Hey, you were in there six years ago! Now your sibling is.”

He gave me a serious expression which looked too cute on that little face that reminded me of my brother as he crossed his arms; “It'll be seven years come next month.”

I laughed and pulled him into a hug, “Yes, yes it will be. What would you like for a gift?”

He puckered his lips and puffed out his cheeks in thought which made me chuckle again, definitely not a look I'd imagine on his sires face.

“Can I have a sword like you and father?”

“We'll see; I'll let him know of your wish.” As an after thought, I wondered if Sesshomaru would give a fang to forge such a sword for his son.

He grinned and snuggled against me closing his eyes, his arms squeezing against mine.

I sighed happily and closed my eyes as well. I decided against falling asleep in the baths. Sesshomaru himself had Aoiyuki give me a stern warning against it mostly because hot water was not good for the pup. I gently shook Ryusei waking him up and setting him outside the bath on wobbly feet. I stood up myself and stepped out from the bath and grabbed an overly large towel, drying Ryusei's body and then his growing white locks, now wavy from being wet. I wrapped the towel around his body as I grabbed a towel for myself drying my body off and then my slowly growing but shortened hair and ears before wrapping my towel around myself.

Once we were wrapped warmly in fluffy towels I walked to a stone bench where quiet servants had set out our sleeping wear, a large white yukata for myself and a pale blue one for Ryusei. I watched as Ryusei tried to dress himself, helping only with the obi as he did so. The little one had grown so much and could already tie his fundoshi.

We made our way to our quarters and as I tucked him into my bed beside me. I realized it was time to get him his own quarters. The thought frightened me. My little one had grown so much and was ready to leave my side and without him beside me I had no excuse in the future for turning away Sesshomaru's advances.

I sighed and closed my eyes cuddling against Ryusei, like he was my only lifeline.

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Two days later I brought Ryusei's independence to Sesshomaru's attention and he gave a small frown and nodded. It was decided to move my quarters further down the hall next to his room; there was a room that was connected to another by a door. This would become my new Quarters as well as Ryusei's. Ryusei was excited and worried all at once, to help him over his jitters it was decided that we would travel to the town as a family and pick out what he wanted in his new room.

The night it was announced Ryusei was shaking with excitement and couldn't sleep half the night keeping me awake with him with his constant talking and movements. He eventually fell asleep only to have us awoken four hours later as the sun rose to get ready for our journey. I was given yet another new kimono to wear, this one as red as my old fire rat kimono with white carnations weaving their way through the red and around the sleeves with a white and pale blue obi. I dressed myself while a kind maid who I had come to know as Hikaru dressed Ryusei in a deep blue and white hakama set.

Hikaru was a kind and sweet girl no older than two hundred, with deep brown eyes and the fawn brown hair. Ryusei had developed quite the crush on her. I couldn't blame him, she was rather cute. She was from the rabbit tribe and at times when she were flustered, nervous or excited two brown floppy ears would sprout from her head and a fluffy brown and white tail from her bottom. Needless to say, Ryusei loved frustrating the poor thing. I believe the boy has an ear fetish. I wonder if it has to do with my own puppy ears.

Once we were ready we made our way to the dining room where we broke our fast with a traditional Japanese breakfast of rice, miso, and smoked and grilled fish. Ryusei picked at his pickles but ate them all the same.

We decided against taking Ah Un for the time being and instead walked from the palace to town, taking the time to give Ryusei his first lessons on branch hopping, Sesshomaru walked beneath us in case Ryusei fell but the boy was as I always said, grace and power in one lithe package. A slip here, a wobble there but not once did he fall. After a few minutes his father joined us and we made it to the outskirts of town in record breaking time, jumping down from our branch road when we caught scent of the humans close by.

It was never good to frighten the locals; it usually ended badly for both sides. I stood back, following slowly behind Sesshomaru as he and Ryusei entered the village. I watched Ryusei as he grabbed his sires hand and led him down the street past the ogling stares of the townsfolk and others among them.

No rude comments were uttered and no sounds of disgust were heard and it surprised me a little. I kept my eyes ahead of me on those two backs; one small and growing the other strong and broad. I watched as Sesshomaru found a carpenter and began telling him of the job he wanted done and while he talked Ryusei stuck to his side listening intently, his hands now at his sides as he tried to act every bit like his sire. It brought a sad smile to my face. I couldn't put the feeling into precise words but it was as if I was watching my little Ryusei vanish right before me. He was becoming his sire's son and less mine to some extent. They would share a bond that I never would. It hurt like no physical wound ever could but when both pairs of eyes looked over at me I grinned and nodded happily.

Once they had arranged for materials and a date to start we went on our way, deciding to stay and walk amidst the townsfolk for a while longer.

I didn't mind, the walk would do me some good and the smell of the village brought back fond memories that plastered a smile on my face. We stopped to partake in some red bean pastries and even bought a few extra for a later snack and once again made our way home.

I found myself withdrawing from them unintentionally and upon reaching home I made my way to my quarters and closed the door. I found myself sliding to the floor as silent tears overtook me.

I brought my knees as close to my chest as I could get them without fearing for my unborn pup's safety. I wiped my eyes and in a frustrated gesture ran my hand through my hair realizing it was still in its sheared form and taking it's time to grow back thanks to the strain on my now overtaxed body ripe with pup. What was more important pup or looks, my body chose the pup as it should.

I made my way over to my vanity and sat down on the stool there gazing at myself in the mirror, dressed in the finest garments with intricate patterns and fine stitching and embroidery looking like some soiled prince with swollen red eyes and swollen belly, my hair shorn like some summer sheep. My bangs had remained the same as they have always been but my sides now outgrew the back and the back was layered thanks to Aoiyuki's attempts to fix my shorn locks.

What A sight I must be. I've had much reassurance that I looked fine but I couldn't help but feel inadequate.

I wiped away more errant tears feeling weary and tired down to my bones. I could fight the exhaustion no more before I finally stood and made my way over to the fireplace.

I sat down on the soft fur rug beside the fireplace and amidst the soft amber glow and warmth of the crackling flames I fell asleep.

To Be Continued….

Sorry, trying to update. I find it hard to sit still in the Fall let alone sit and write.

I'm trying.

Kat