InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Don't go. ❯ Don't go. ( Chapter 1 )

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IYFG 2nd Place Q4 2006 for Best Romance: Other! It has been seven years since Sesshomaru rescued Rin from the depths of Hell. How have their feelings for one another changed?

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Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama / Angst | Type: One Shot | Uploaded On: 10.05.2006 | Updated On: 02.16.2008 | Pages: 4 | Words: 4.3K | Visits: 5.4K | Status: Completed

Disclaimers: I do not own InuYasha or any of the manga/anime characters. They belong to the wonderful genius Rumiko Takahashi.

This fic was written for druidica at deviantART. It was inspired by her piece, “Don't go.” which you can see in her gallery along with her other beautiful artwork at http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/38810185/ .

Don't go.

“Don't go.”

He froze at those words. He did not expect to hear them. While he did not know the cause, lately she had seemed more attached to him, though he did not understand why. He was not treating her any differently than he had before.

Then again, maybe that was the problem.

He was not certain when his own feelings for her had shifted. However, he kept them to himself and did not allow them to show. All he could remember were his mother's words; “He's become like his father in the strangest ways. All this fuss over one human girl.”

That had been seven summers ago, when he had traveled to the depths of Hell to rescue Rin when she had been swallowed by the Hellhound. He had realized then that he loved her, though at the time he considered her more as his own pup than just a ward he was responsible for.

That wasn't the case anymore.

Sesshomaru had stopped when he felt her hand grasp his armor as she leaned into his back, desperate for contact with him. This was the boldest she had been, and the first time she had actually attempted to stop him.

“Rin,” Sesshomaru said softly, though he had intended to sound much sterner.

“Why?”

“Explain, Rin.”

“Why must you leave me? Why would you leave me here alone?” Rin barely whispered. “Please. Stay with me.”

In truth, Sesshomaru did not wish to leave her at all, even if only to walk the forest. He had decided to because Jaken had left on an errand, and left them alone. Sesshomaru had suddenly become afraid of his own desires, afraid of what he might do. Rin was no longer a small, undernourished child. She had grown into a beautiful woman, bright and headstrong and…tempting. Her body had matured into that of a woman several seasons ago. And as she had grown and changed, so had the Taiyoukai's feelings for her. He thought he had hidden it well, though occasionally Jaken was brave enough to make some comment that earned him a thump on the head.

He closed his eyes as he felt her lean into his back, pressing her warmth into him, trying to absorb his. He slowly turned, but she did not let go. Instead, she snaked her arms around him and held him close, pressing her head into his chest as she sobbed, “Please, do not go.”

Rin, herself, did not understand what she was feeling. Jaken had told her so many times that she was human and foolish. He said that youkai did not feel such things. He had also informed her on numerous occasions that Lord Sesshomaru only kept her around because he felt obligated to. After all, he had saved her life more than once, making him responsible for her several times over. The imp told her that if it weren't for his sense of honor, the demon lord would have cast her aside a long time ago.

All Rin knew was that she had grown from looking up to him, to wanting him, needing him. There was a hole in her very soul that she felt like only he could fill. She was desperate for his touch, even if he would do nothing more than hold her. She was grasping at straws as she wrapped her arms around him and held on. She knew he could toss her away like an insect, but trusted that he would not harm her. With Jaken finally gone for a few days, she knew that this might be her only opportunity to try to seek to understand her own feelings that consumed her, and to find if he even had feelings since Jaken kept insisting that the great lord had none.

“Rin. This Sesshomaru has left you before, and has always returned. What is different this time?” Even as he said the words, he knew he would not leave her now. She needed him, even if he could not allow her to know he needed, even wanted, her as well.

“Rin does not know. Rin feels…empty…when you are gone. Rin does not understand. Jaken said it was foolishness.”

That made Sesshomaru raise an eyebrow. “What did Jaken tell you?”

“That only foolish humans feel such things. That youkai are not hindered by such feelings…” her voice trailed off.

“Rin,” Sesshomaru started, but halted. He did not know what he should say, or what he should do. He had always sworn he would never mate with a human as his father had, but increasingly had the desire to do so. It was one reason his mother's words still haunted him.

Still, loving Rin had not made him weak, when he thought back on it. The only reason he had finally been able to master Tenseiga was because of his love for her, and his grief when he thought she had truly died.

And while he had blamed his father's death on protecting a human and their hanyou son, in life his father was the most powerful demon alive. Sesshomaru had mostly been angry because at the time he only wanted power, and thought he would have to defeat his father in order to obtain it. Instead, he had obtained power through his protection of a human child, the one who was now clinging to him.

Then there was the hanyou, the half-breed that was his half brother. InuYasha had become far more powerful than anyone had ever thought possible. He had mastered Tessaiga and was able to do things with it that should have been impossible. And all because he sought to protect a human miko.

Maybe his father had not been wrong.

Sesshomaru finally wrapped his arm around the young woman. “Rin, just because youkai do not exhibit their feelings, does not signify that they do not have them.”

He felt her arms tighten around him, and her heartbeat speed up. Finally, she looked up at him with her face streaked with tears. “What does it mean?”

“It means that-” but the great demon lord did not finish his statement, as he was overwhelmed with the desire to kiss her. He leaned over and captured her lips, and heard her gasp in surprise. He abruptly turned her loose, but she did not let him go.

Before he could say another word, he felt her hands reach around his neck and pull his face back to hers. She looked him directly in the eyes and said, “Do it again. Please. I was not prepared for that.”

A rare look of astonishment crossed his face as she gazed at him and made her request. He thought he had gone too far, but to her, he had begun to mend the hole in her soul. Rin now understood that she needed him as she needed the air to breath. She understood what the hollow place within her was. It was there for him to fill.

And Sesshomaru realized that only she could tame him, and make him hers. Only Rin could satisfy the growing need in him, and so he lowered his mouth to hers and consumed her.

She responded with a heated passion he had no idea she possessed. His body on fire, consumed by his need, he threw his mokomokosama on the ground and wrapped his arm around Rin, lowering her body to it. He nipped at her neck and shoulder as he tugged at the belt that held her yukata closed.

Rin was inundated with feelings she did not understand, beyond knowing that she wanted to please her lord, and would do anything he asked of her. Her body was tingling all over, and she felt herself starting to become wet. She would have been embarrassed had it not been for the fact that she felt so good. She didn't know what he was doing, but she couldn't get enough of it. For over a year she had been having these feelings that she could not quench. She was just beginning to understand that it was all related to her feelings for Sesshomaru.

She gasped and arched her back as she felt his mouth land on her breast. She responded by wrapping her hands in his beautiful mane and hanging on, trying to hold him to her breast as he suckled on her nipple. She would have sworn she heard him chuckle, if it had been in his nature.

Rin could not help but to squirm as he continued to assault her body: first traveling across to her other breast and running his tongue around it in circles, while he rubbed her other with his palm. She continued to quiver all over as he nipped his way to her belly, and then brushed her dark curls with his hand. Even though his hand was drenched when he pulled it away, still he was not sure.

“Please, don't stop,” she whispered.

“Are you certain?” he asked.

“Yes,” she said definitively. She understood what she wanted now, and it was all of him. She needed him to satisfy her body that he had awakened.

“Turn over,” he commanded.

Confused, Rin rolled over on her stomach, but was unsure what he wanted.

“On your knees,” Sesshomaru whispered as he stripped out of his own clothing.

Rin was shaking, not certain what was coming, though she shrugged off her yukata as she did as he asked. She felt him nudging her knees apart with his hand, and then was both stunned and pleased when she felt him lick her with his tongue.

She looked back to see that he was lying between her legs, and could feel him fondling her butt with his hand as he lapped at her. She spread her legs a little wider and lowered herself to his face. Gods, she had never felt anything like it. She had experimented some with her own body when she was desperate to relieve her want of him, but it was nothing like this.

Rin's entire body began to tense up as he went after that one little nub that seemed so sensitive. She started to pant as she felt everything wind up in response to his actions, winding up as if preparing for some great release.

When it came, she cried out as she jerked against his mouth; for now he had thrust his tongue up deeply into her and felt like he was trying to drink her dry.

And still, it was not enough. Oh, she felt much better after experiencing such a release, but the feeling of his tongue up inside of her made her realize that she needed to be filled - by him.

She felt him at first, rather than heard him, as he covered her back with his body. “Rin, this will hurt,” he said as he prepared to guide himself into her.

Though not experienced herself, Rin had seen animals mate and tensed up, expecting the worst. She was frightened, but she wanted him.

“Rin, relax,” she heard soothingly in her ear. She felt something that was both hard and soft at the same time tease her entrance, causing her to tingle all over again.

Before he entered her, he rubbed himself between her folds, helping to lubricate them both. The sensations of his flesh against hers was causing her to become so heady that she was hot and wet, and helped her to relax so that he would be able to enter her. Once he was certain she was prepared, and he could stand waiting no longer, he prodded her entrance and slipped his head in.

“Oh,” she said softly as she felt him enter her. He was starting to fill her up.

He moved slowly, stretching her as he went, until he hit her maidenhead. Considering everything she had been through in her short life, he was surprised she still had it. He thrust through it quickly and heard her give a small cry, and he withdrew part of the way. Now that the barrier was gone, he started a slow, even motion, thrusting a little further each time as he continued to stretch her to accommodate him. Finally, he was totally sheathed inside of her. He felt her move against him, like she was trying to bring him even deeper within.

He had surprised her when he thrust so sharply and it hurt. So far, he had moved slowly and she was starting to enjoy it. But when he almost pulled back out, she was anxious for him to try again. She felt no more pain; only the want and need to accept him into her own body. When he was finally all of the way in, she felt full, but something was missing. She squirmed against him and realized that what she needed was motion.

“Do it again,” she implored. “It feels good.”

Sesshomaru had been fighting his own desire to pound into her, not wanting to harm her fragile human body. She was so hot and wet and tight, and he had not been with a female in very long time. He rested his hand in the middle of her back to help balance himself as he started to thrust.

Rin had settled her forearms into the soft fur of the mokomokosama, and was grateful for the cushioning as he started to pound into her welcoming body. At first she had tried moving with him in rhythm, but as he picked up speed, she could only brace herself and hold on for the ride. She felt her body winding up again; though this time it was much more intense than when he had pleasured her with his tongue. She screamed as her body spiraled out of control and began to spasm, pulling him even deeper inside of her.

Sesshomaru exploded with a roar that sent the birds in the trees screeching from their roosts. Exhausted and spent, he collapsed on the young woman's back and they both crashed into the soft white fur. He nuzzled her neck as he remained inside of her, and felt her hand reach back to rub the side of his face. When his length slid out of her, rolled her back over before he moved down and cleaned up the results of their coupling with his tongue. Rin lay on her back, watching him with only a look of complete trust and adoration on her face. He slid back up next to her and placed his hand on her belly. She leaned over and kissed him as she cupped his cheek in her hand.

“Thank you,” she said softly as she lay back down. “I felt like a part of me had been missing, but now I feel whole again. Is that human foolishness?”

“No, Rin, it is not.” Sesshomaru could not say that he did not feel the same way. For someone who always controlled his feelings, he suddenly felt very content after giving into his long-held desires.

“Thank you, Rin,” the Taiyoukai practically whispered as she continued to gaze at him.

“For what, My Lord?”

“For saying, `don't go'.”