InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Promises Last Forever? ❯ Talking to Air ( Chapter 10 )

Song recommendation: Last Train Home by Lost Prophets

Talking to Air

Inuyasha had been in Kagome's room for the past two days. He slept there, ate there; he only left her side to pee and shower. He slept in a cot net to her. He refused to leave.

During the second night, he'd finally planned out what he wanted to day to Kagome. He started talking aloud, allowing the words to roll off of his tongue and slowly lift a weight off his chest that had restricted his breathing since Wednesday night.

"I'm sorry, Kagome. I really am. For everything. For that day in the seventh grade. For what your stepfather did after that. For Hojo. For Wednesday. Every time I see you, I seem to cause something horrible to happen to you. I can't stand it.

"About Wednesday, Kikyo told me about your planning to play me. And after Naraku asked you out, I became insanely jealous. It took all of me not to jump at him and tell him not to go anywhere near you because you were mine. But then, I remembered, you weren't mine.

"I guess I wanted to get back at you in the worst way possible. If I showed you that you weren't going to play me, I figured I'd knock you off your throne, and that would be that. But that didn't happen, did it?

"I read your note to Ayame. I couldn't believe what I had in front of my eyes. I leaned you had new-found feelings for me, and not only that. You said that I "made you feel things you never thought you could feel again." I'm assuming whatever those feelings are, they had been ripped away by that bastard, Hojo.

"I didn't know what to do. A part of me said to leave you, that you didn't matter. But something else yelled at me, screaming at me to not let you get away again. That I was a fool if I did.

"When you came out in that catsuit, Kagome, my reaction was like any other guy's. I wanted you. So badly. As I saw you dance with Sango, I wanted to take you and make you mine. My mate. But I couldn't. I wouldn't. You would have regretted it. I didn't want you regretting anything. Especially not me. I wouldn't be able to live with myself. And you deserve better than me, Kagome. I'm a worthless half-demon." He sighed, but pushed on.

"After you pulled me to dance with you, my god, Kagome. You were amazing. I don't know how you did it. No one had ever been able to do to me what you did. When you stepped away to dance on your own, no matter how short a time it was, I couldn't stand it. I needed you; with my mind, body, heart and soul I craved your touch.

"I looked into your eyes when we were dancing. Miroku was right. The amount of sadness and pain in your soul was unbelieveable. I wanted to take all of that pain away.

"Then…then you kissed me. It may have been a drunken kiss, I'm not really sure what possessed you. But you still kissed me. And I kissed back. All of my soul was poured into that kiss. And then…then this happened. And I couldn't do a thing about it.

"I had lost one of my best friends to this drug. But Kagome, I couldn't lose you. I wouldn't be able to go on. The day you left, it was the worst day of my life. If you died, I would have died right there along with you. I need you, Kagome. I don't know why. I don't know how. I just know that I've fallen madly in love with you."

He then put his head in his hands and let the emotions he was previously stifling wash over his body, consuming him wholly.

"I know I'm just talking into air. But thanks for listening."

What Inuyasha didn't know was that Kagome had heard every word he just said. And if he looked at her, the very tips of her lips curled up in a slight smile.