InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Drown ❯ Chapter 5: And I can’t take ( Chapter 5 )

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Title: Drown
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Kouga mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/Kikyo InuYasha/OC
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Drown" by Bring Me The Horizon

Chapter 5: And I can't take

I blinked open my eyes and had to quickly close them as the warm rays of the sun stretched across the room to cover my face in warmth and bright light. It was still freezing cold but the sun had never felt so…amazingly warm and comforting to me as it did now.

I opened my eyes once more and glanced around the room finding Kouga gone from his spot beside me. I found Sachi across the room starring out the window with two of Kouga's wolves. I could smell Ginta nearby, probably out front keeping guard.

My bladder was screaming at me and I shifted in the furs debating on how to move to the chamber pot in the next corner to relieve myself. I must have made a frustrated sound because I looked up finding Sachi at my side. She followed my line of sight and immediately understood. She fetched the chamber pot and helped me like she had so many times before; helping to ease my body over it and then turning away to give me privacy and oddly enough Kouga's wolves did the same.

Once my bladder had been relieved of its heavy burden I cleared my throat and Sachi came over and took the chamber pot and its contents away without a word.

I re-bundled myself and snuggled as far into the furs as possible as I could so that when the door opened I was prepared for the icy blast of air that followed. I watched as Sachi left and after a few minutes she returned with a cleaned chamber pot and a kettle packed full of clean snow. I watched as she put the kettle of snow over the fire and then went back out with an empty bowl, returning with the bowl now filled with packed snow. As the snow in the kettle melted she added the snow from the bowl until there was none left and we both watched the kettle heat and steam.

When the kettle whistled she pulled it off and grabbed an old can and opened it allowing the smell of stale green tea to permeate the small shack. She poured water in three cups and added the tea leaves before leaving the shack again with her kettle and bowl. I watched her repeat her earlier actions, only this time while the water boiled she opened the jar of honey and added it liberally to the three cups and brought a cup of the steaming beverage to me.

I took it from her chilly hands and brought it to my mouth sipping it gingerly and enjoying the taste of green tea and honey as it warmed me and filled my aching belly. As I drank I watched as she handed a cup to Ginta who stood guard out front. She came in and sat by the fire sipping the third cup. She filled it again with water, tea leaves and honey and poured the rest into a bowl which she set before the wolves giving them a small amount of tea leaves and honey which they happily lapped up once it had cooled some.

The door opened and Kouga entered carrying two white rabbits. I felt my mouth water and my stomach growl and then Hakaku walked through the door and behind him came the tall and intimidating figure of my older brother; Sesshomaru.

I felt my stomach drop and I fought the need to whine and cower as he fully entered the room. He emanated power and though we had come to blows before and I had removed his arm from his body I now felt anything but powerful and strong in his presence. I felt broken and weak and the need to be anywhere but in this shack with him was strong.

He looked around the room and finally his eyes came to rest on me. I felt my ears flatten against my head as he stared at me and traveled over what could be seen from my head to the bottom of the furs and blankets. I could see him perfectly clear which let me know that my blackened eye had healed much over night.

“How bad is he…damaged,” Sesshomaru asked and I had heard the odd tone in his voice as he asked the question aloud. Part of me bristled knowing he hadn't asked me personally but as broken as I felt I knew I would find it difficult to answer him.

Sachi came to my side and knelt beside me as she gave me a sad look and a reassuring nod while she gently pried my fingers from the furs so that she could part them. I fought it and a whine was tore from my throat and I hated it and my self in that moment for looking so weak in front of my brother as well as the others gathered around us.

“He might know healers that can heal the damage, let him see and then you can cover back up,” and though I trusted Sachi's words I wanted to cry out and tell her that he was the one person I didn't want to look weak and broken in front of but I couldn't and so I let go of the furs and grabbed her hand and squeezed it like the lifeline it was.

She returned my squeeze and we were both surprised when Sesshomaru knelt slowly in front of me, making himself seem smaller and slightly less threatening. I closed my eyes and the furs and blankets parted exposing first my twisted and mangled ankles colored in purple, blue and green bruises. The cold air traveled to my knees which were as mangled and broken as my ankles with bruising. Finally the cold forced my eyes open as my chest and belly were exposed for all to see.

I yanked my hand free from Sachi's and wrapped it around my belly where my other hand had already been wrapped; which still felt too exposed even though it was hidden behind the ratty robe I wore. I shivered then and couldn't seem to stop as whines left my throat unbidden while I looked up into Sesshomaru's eyes. I saw his eyes widen and then narrow and there was a minute clenching of his jaw.

It was him that pulled the blankets and furs back around my body and Sachi who then tightened them. I felt the shivering slow until I was still once more and my whines had softened to nothing. I still stared at Sesshomaru, watching to see what he would do or say. I had heard many hurtful and cutting words from him over the years that hurt almost as much if not more than his attacks but I was unprepared for the look of pity and shock that chased across his usually schooled features. It was momentary and was replaced by fury and then a cool anger I was more accustomed to because it was usually aimed at me. He stood again and I flinched at the sudden movement but continued watching him.

“Over time he can be healed. He will need the bones to be broken and reset. It will be painful but it needs to be done,” and as the words left his mouth I felt sickened.

More pain…of course…

“He's carrying,” said Sachi as if it wasn't obvious.

“Yes, which means it would be a slow healing process so it would have to be done one at a time,” stated Sesshomaru as he seemed to give me that look of pity I found so odd on usually emotionless visage.

“I figured as much…” muttered Kouga he calmly watched over us.

I was felt confused and Sachi patted my shoulder, “Carrying takes a lot of your energy; it's why you've been healing so slowly.”

I suppose it made sense. My body was helping another life grow and develop so I had no energy to spare on breaks let alone blackened eyes.

“We need to get him moved somewhere he can get rest and care,” said Kouga and I watched as Sesshomaru looked at him and then over at me as the two of them considered things that went over my head but more than likely involved me in every aspect.

“Do you have a preference InuYasha,” asked Sesshomaru.

I looked at him and thought about the palace that was more than likely filled with demons that were as biased as Sesshomaru seemed to be when it came to hanyou and humans. It would probably be stuffy and filled with rules and etiquette lessons and I would spend my days walking on eggshells afraid to do or say something that would offend someone. It would also be uncomfortable for both Sesshomaru and I trying to interact with each other let alone the idea that I would soon birth a pup that was part wolf with no sire.

I looked at Kouga and realized that he would be more laid back. I had been to his caves multiple times and knew his pack and his mate. I knew how caves worked and for the most part I understood pack politics and societal workings. I would also have other wolves around who could help me with my unborn pup. I was once told by Kira that the pack was one large family and everyone had a part in raising cubs in one way or another. But would I be a bother? Would I be a hindrance to his pack and drain on their limited winter supplies?

I must have whined as I felt the decision weigh on me because Kouga spoke first helping me in my decision making.

“Come stay with us for now and if you decide you would rather stay with your brother then we can easily contact him and have him come for you. Seem like a good plan to you, Sesshomaru,” Kouga asked with his arms crossed facing my brother with a slight grin in place.

My brother nodded, “It is agreeable with me if it is agreeable with InuYasha.”

I saw both pairs of eyes looking down at me and it seemed the best plan of action for now and I nodded my ascent.

“Lets eat a bit and then we can head to the Eastern Mountain,” Kouga said as he held up the rabbits.

“I will see that you arrive to the caves safely and then I will return to my territory,” Sesshomaru looked down at me and I nodded feeling a little safer in his presence than I had since I was a child.

Kouga made quick work of the hares; skinning, gutting and mostly de-boning them. He tossed the innards to his gathered wolves and made sure to give the thickest cuts to Sachi and myself. He offered Sesshomaru some of the raw red meat but he declined. I myself only occasionally ate raw meat but whether it was the lack of such fatty and protein rich food or whether the pup inside was causing the desire I was ravenous for it and so when I had eaten my helping I was surprised to find another helping being handed to me.

I blushed but took the offered meat with a soft “thanks” and ate it all; licking the blood from my fingers once it was gone.

Food and drink in our bellies, we were on our way to the caves. My body had done its best to heal while I had slept through the night but I still yelped and gasped as I was once again lifted into Kouga's arms.

I was wrapped securely into my furs and blankets and we left behind the warmth of the shack and headed out into the snow once more.

The sun had warmed the temperature some but it was still chilly and I took full advantage of Kouga's body warmth while we journeyed to the caves.

Upon arriving at the caves we were greeted by many wolves and pack members including Ayame whose expanded belly was as noticeable as my own.

She came over and leaned in giving me a big hug, “Welcome home InuYasha.”

As she said it I had hope that perhaps these caves could become my home…

To Be Continued….

Okay, onto the next chapter.

Kat