InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Drown ❯ Chapter 16: Won’t you drag the lake ( Chapter 16 )

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Title: Drown
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Kouga, Kouga/Ayame, Inuyasha/Kouga/Ayame, mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/Kikyo InuYasha/OC
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Drown" by Bring Me The Horizon

Chapter 16: Won't you drag the lake

Winter came and with it the hustle and bustle of the pack quieted some. Old and young alike slept longer. The young seemed to be the most energetic of the pack as the meandered and wandered the caves and their many passageways in search of something new, interesting and entertaining. The biggest excitement thus far had been the discovery of a room filled with crystals that reflected beautifully in torch light. We made it a play land of sorts and often escorted the cubs there where we all took turns telling stories and legends by torch light. What had started out a group of rowdy and bored cubs soon became a group filled with all ages. We learned from tales of heroes and villains and laughed with life lessons and comedy.

Dinner was often stored vegetables and dried meat cooked into stews and soups served with rice or porridge. Bellies were filled along with mind and spirit and that was all we needed. At night I would snuggle into bed with Ayame and Kouga and in the middle of the night we were often joined by Ran and Yuki.

Soon Ran turned a year old and with that celebration we tried to be stricter when it came to nursing though I was never one to say no once tears began to form in his bright green eyes. I had the same problem when Yuki turned a year old the month after.

Weaning was rough business and I was weak to my little ones tears. I helped ease his hunger with sweetened boiled oats or softened rice with a bit of honey. Eventually I had all but weaned Yuki and it was a bittersweet moment when I realized my milk had dried up.

As Spring came our sons grew even more and soon they toddled around talking in short sentences enough to understand what they wanted, what they had seen and who they had saw.

After three long months the weather finally cleared and all traces of winter had vanished with the snow and in the first week of spring Ginta had birthed his and Hakaku's first cub. They were now the proud parents of a beautiful baby girl with tufts of ebony hair with two patches of soot gray amidst the front strands. Ginta took to mother with as much grace and dignity as I had and he glowed with it. Hakaku fawned over his small daughter and seemed to grow more mature with her birth. He named their daughter Haruna and the cave welcomed her with open arms. It was surprising that she was the only new birth from the many couples that had joined last spring.

As with last spring we all felt that familiar call once more to join and mate and though we did I knew neither I nor Ayame would conceive this year since we had just freshly weaned our little ones though that hadn't stopped us from acting like crazy lovers in the midst of heat.

With the pups weaned we were able to leave them with the other young wolves in the den of pups with others to look after them while we were given small breaks during the day to act like fools in between our daily menial tasks.

We stole moments of quiet pleasure time when we could and it amused me to see who would pull me aside and when.

Ayame would usually snag me in small nooks or crannies for small pleasures, often kisses and hugs and sometimes much more. Kouga was rougher and more often than not he would pull me aside for a quick romp. Though those moments were amazing my favorite time was when I had them both in those shared moments of pleasure. Kouga was majestic and strong with his movements and Ayame was soft and gentle and together they were beautiful.

In moments of passion when they were lost in each others arms and I was able to watch them as the made love I though it was a beautiful sight. I was lost in them and often lost in my own thoughts as well.

I often wondered what they saw in me. I was this broken hanyou who was more work than I was worth and yet as I thought these negative thoughts, lost in what I wasn't they embraced me and everything I was.

To turn not just one but both of their eyes was something I couldn't wrap my mind around. They always looked at me like I was some pure being of light and purity and not the dirtied and broken creature I felt I was.

They would both utter words like “beautiful”, “mesmerizing” and “amazing” and for a short time I felt like I was everything they described and more.

I said those words and many more to them and about them and each word out of my mouth was my way of letting them know how felt about them in case my actions weren't enough.

Though I had been loved thoroughly in and out I still couldn't' explain why I felt so scared of losing them, of losing this moment of happiness.

“Please don't make that face, Yasha.”

I turned to look into Ayame's eyes and smiled giving her a questioning look.

“One day we will convince you that those worries deep inside your head and heart are just that, worries,” and as she said it she kissed my nose, my cheeks and finally my lips.

Kouga leaned over and kissed Ayame in the same fashion she had kissed me and then kissed my lips and smiled at my sappy smile as I looked up at them.

We dressed and grabbed our cubs before we hit the spring to bathe. I had just finished washing Yuki and was about to step into the water with him when howls rent the air. Kouga stood and threw on his furs running from the room. The hairs on the back of my neck stood on end and I wrapped Yuki in a clean yukata before dressing my self hastily and waited as Ayame did the same. Once she and Ran were dressed we rushed to the communal area where many of the pack were already gathered. The commotion had all but calmed and as I looked around I took a mental roll call of who was present. It only took a few minutes for me to realize that the ones that were missing were the ones who were called in to patrol the borders as well as combat enemies. Ginta came to sit beside us with little Haruna snuggled in his arms.

It was quiet, even the little ones lost in the tension of the gathered crowd as we waited to see why an alarm had been raised. As an the first set of wood on the pile burned to ash another was added and too soon that pile had become ash and so another was added as time went by the gathered crowd slowly dispersed with the exception of the elders and those of us who had loved ones who were out on the prowl.

The sun was just beginning to set when a new set of howls rent the air and this time joyous ones, meant for celebration.

Ayame gently set her hand atop Ran's head, “Stay with Yasha. I'll be back.”

Ran nodded and crawled into my lap along with Yuki who snuggled further into my embrace as howls and yips excitedly echoed from the caves entrance.

I watched as Koname passed me with a gentle pat to my head, Shizuka at her heels. They exited the cave and I waited with baited breath, my nerves taught and my body stiff with nerves.

Shizuka made a swift entrance into the cave and stopped before me momentarily; her body trembling, her eyes almost haunted looking. She looked down and hastily walked past me and into a deeper part of the cave.

Koname slowly entered the cave and as she did so I watched her along with those gathered, as if we waited to here some horrible news. She made her way to my side once more and looked down at me with sympathy so thick it was almost palatable.

“Kouga has asked for you to join him out front. I can take the youngin's.”

As the words left her mouth I felt it as a command more than a request and with a tight chest, dry mouth and heavy limbs I stood and placed a kiss on both Ran and Yuki's foreheads.

“Be good for Koname-baachan.”

The words sounded hollow and worried even to my own ears I could only imagine how they felt watching me leave with such strange words and odd body language but they nodded and stood grabbing onto the hem of Koname's robes.

I turned and walked the short distance to the cave entrance and wolves and youkai parted to let me through. I felt many pairs of eyes on my back as I came to a circle of wolves and the hunting party. They stood tight and packed in letting me know that someone or something lay hidden from my sight inside it. When I came to stand at the edge of the circle Hakaku and Ayame approached me with serious looks which seemed foreign and unnatural.

As they stood by me the circle opened and I took a deep breath and entered that circle.

There in the center stood Kouga holding what looked to be a rope made of woven leather that he held tightly in both hands. I followed the rope and saw that at Kouga's feet knelt a dirt and blood covered person. As I looked closer I realized that it was not a person…not it was a youkai. I stared into that bloodied face and fought to recognize this creature that seemed to have earned Kouga's anger. No, not anger; as I looked into Kouga's cerulean eyes I saw pure and unadulterated rage.

Kouga let go of the rope with his right hand, maintaining hold with his left. With his freehand he reached down and grabbed a handful of oily black locks fisting them tightly and tanked on them cruelly so that the creature was forced to display his throat in submission as well as forcing him to look up. It was then I saw those deep brown eyes and I knew who Kouga had caught.

There on the ground at Kouga's mercy was Tobe, beaten and bloody.

His eyes settled on me as I looked at him lost in memories and yet his filled with confusion as he looked upon me and then they widened as I watched recognition fill them along with a small bit of fear.

“Do you recognize this wolf youkai, InuYasha,” Kouga called out loud enough that all in the clearing could hear.

I swallowed and nodded and finally finding my voice, “He is Tobe.”

“And this Tobe is who or what to you,” and it was then I noticed Sesshomaru among the fray who stood by watching me with the others.

As much as I wanted to not have this become I spectacle I knew that it had to be. It didn't mean I had to like or enjoy it.

“Tobe is one of Kiba's pack members,” and as the words left my mouth I felt vile rise in my throat.

“Was he just a pack member,” asked Kouga.

I felt Ayame come to stand at my back but and I fought the urge to back away from this crowd.

“He was his right hand.”

“And what did he do as his right hand,” asked Kouga and I felt him trying to pry the words from my throat trying to get me to say more.

I closed my eyes and I felt a whine building deep in my body and I took a step back only to feel Ayame's hands on my back holding me in place.

“Tell them Yasha, make this a punishment, not a murder.”

Her words were whispered against my back and I felt my heart clench and my eyes grew hot as I allowed the words to leave my mouth, “He abused, beat and tortured those captured by Kiba. He had first choice….”

At that Kouga growled and yanked that fist full of hair high so that Tobe fought not to choke on the leash that still held his body towards the ground.

I watched as Kira and Sachi both came to stand at my left side, their hands clasped tightly.

“An eye for an eye, a crime for a crime.”

As the words left Kouga's mouth howls sounded around us in agreement and Kouga whistled and Hakaku stepped forward holding out a dagger.

I looked at the dagger presented and felt my insides turn cold. Sweet and talkative Kira walked forward hand in hand with Sachi and I watched as it was Sachi who let go of Kira's hand and took the dagger and unsheathed it raising it high. She came to stand in front of Tobe and fisted a handful of his dirty ebony tresses in her small hand and ran the dagger through them. She held the shorn locks high before tossing them to the ground. She did this twice more before handing the dagger to Kira who finished the job of shearing Tobe until his head was a mess of uneven shorn locks.

They handed me the dagger and I stared at it almost horrified as I stared down at Tobe where he knelt humiliated. Kouga raised the hand holding the rope again exposing Tobe's neck. I knew what needed to be done and yet I felt my self hesitate. I looked at his neck and backed away dropping the dagger. No one uttered a sound or word and as I looked at Tobe I saw not the man who had done such horrid things to me, I saw myself bound and helpless and it made me sick to my stomach.

Sesshomaru took pity on me and stepped forward raising his sword high, “For what you're crimes against the youngest son of the Inu Youkai tribe and to those we call ally I shall take what is owed,” I watched as his sword sliced through the air silently. It was as if nothing he been done but then Tobe's body fell to the ground, his head falling a moment later and with a grace only Sesshomaru could pull off he wiped his blade clean and sheathed it.

Howls rent the air and I stood there feeling lost. I didn't feel any better nor did this bit of revenge change anything. I felt slightly safer with Tobe's death but I knew that Koba still roamed free and that thought alone made me shudder. I felt myself gently pulled past the crowd as howls chorused through the circle and soon a circle of wolves gathered around the fallen body.

I tried not to think about the sound of tearing flesh and the crunching of bones. I was better off not knowing how they wild canines disposed of the body.

I was lead back into the cave and past the main den. I realized I was being lead to my own den. I didn't fuss or argue; I let them lead me into our den and our shared furs. I didn't look to see who had led me I merely sat and covered myself as I shivered from a cold that had nothing to do with the actual temperature. I lay there lost and then I felt the small bundle of energy that was Yuki cuddle against me and I closed my eyes holding him to my heart and I inhaled the scent of milk, pine, fresh grass; his smell.

I was amused that as I lay on my side I soon had not one cub to fill my arms but two. Two snuggly little bundles of happiness to warm me and my heart. I held them like the tiny lifelines they were and closed my eyes. I lay there as Yuki and Ran napped and napped on and off with them. At some point I found myself the center of a puppy pile with the boys in my arms, Kouga at my back and Ayame at my front with their hands joined over me. It was warmth, it was happiness, it was what I had in this moment and that was enough for now.

To Be Continued….

Sorry, super sappy tonight. More tomorrow if all goes well.

Kat