InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Drowning ❯ chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )

Drowning
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She didn’t know how long she had remained in that position against the well, how long she had cried, or how long it had taken Inu Yasha to find her. She had clung to the well when he had tried to take her back to the village, when he had tried to touch her. She flinched away from him and gave him a look full of pain. Why she had felt the urge to just get as far as possible away from him was odd. She had a limited time left with him, but only because he chose to go with Kikyo. No, she wasn’t going to wait for him to go to hell, she wasn’t going to watch…

“Kagome, dammit!” The hanyou ground out as he stared at the girl before him, clinging to the well like it was the last solid thing on earth.

She flinched at his irate tone, her small whimper causing the hanyou to calm down.

“You…” Inu Yasha started, breathing in and out heavily, glancing around, looking everywhere but her. He closed his eyes as he crouched down in front of her, noting that she didn’t recoil this time. He held the jewel out towards her, his eyes opening slowly and making contact with her. She bit her lip and shook her head.

“I can’t… I want to go home.” She whispered, resting her forehead against the top of her knees.

“It’s… you can’t just give it to me!” he hung his head low and inhaled loudly again. “Just… take it back. I’m not gonna use it.”

An uncomfortable silence settled in between them, anxiety and impatience thick in the air. Kagome’s soft words were the first to break it.

“You can… bring her back.” She whispered softly, so softly that if Inu Yasha hadn’t had a acute sense of hearing, he wouldn’t have heard her at all.

Inu Yasha jerked his head up and simply stared; hard and pensively.

“Stupid.” He scoffed. “Stop talking that way.”

She remained quiet, her soft breathing and soft sniffles the only noise that occupied the air.

“Kagome… just--- get up, Kagome, lets go back.” He coaxed gruffly, reaching out to touch her arm. This time, she gave a small sob and abruptly stood up when he touched her. His white furry ears lowered against his skull as he watched her small figure fidget near his touch.

“No, you can’t just… I can’t!” She whimpered, hiding her face behind her hands.

The hanyou growled softly and stood up, reaching for her again.

“You’re going to abandon me.” She lowered her hands, her arms limp against her sides, her head hung low.

“You’ll leave me… because you don’t need me.” She didn’t meet his gaze and her voice was slightly hoarse from her outbursts.

‘What’s wrong with her?’ Inu Yasha wanted to just shake her, to wrap his arms around her and squeeze her until she would stop and listen… to stop thinking.

Taking a step closer towards her, he attempted to draw her in himself, to just make her understand. What he didn’t expect was the looks she gave him when she looked up.

“Don’t do this to me…” Her voice cracked and she bit her bottom lip as the tears started to trickle. It felt as if the tears left a thin trail of fire down her cheeks and she quickly tried to scrub the feeling away, hastily wiping it away with the palms of her hands. She took a step back, and before Inu Yasha’s outstretched hand could grasp onto her, she had already fell down the well, down into the time portal… five hundred years away from him.

His hand stayed outstretched, his form frozen in place. She had run away from him… why had she run away from him?

Clenching his outstretched hand, he slowly placed it back to his side, his gaze still lingering on the well.

“You’re going to abandon me.”

His nails dug into the palm of his hands, the scent of his own blood assaulting his nose made him quickly unclench. She wasn’t thinking straight… But wasn’t it true? He was going to abandon her. Choosing to go with the woman that had died fifty years ago was considered abandonment to Kagome.

“Don’t do this to me…” Her voice cracked and he bit her bottom lip as the tears started to trickle.

She was crying… Inu Yasha quickly spun around, quietly raging and stalking off towards the woods.

‘She was crying because… she doesn’t want you to go, baka.’

‘She was crying because she doesn’t want to be near me, dammit. I’m only good at hurting her, at making her cry.’

He hadn’t noticed the set of eyes watching him as he continued to fume.

“Do you think she’s coming back?” Shippou questioned, his usual bright eyes had dimmed and taken up a sad tone.

“Honestly… I don’t know.” Miroku replied, sighing and leaning his staff against his shoulder.

‘Honestly… I really don’t know if she’s willing to come back.’

The small kitsune gave an annoyed sigh, bouncing off of Miroku’s shoulder and landing on all fours. Standing up, he folded his arms across his small chest and huffed.

“Baka Inu Yasha… He better bring her back.”

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For the first part of her trip, she wasn’t relieved when she had finally left… finally abandoned him. As soon as she had entered the well, a surge of loneliness overwhelmed her. It hurt her physically to cry, and so she forced herself not to break out sobbing and wailing like a child in a tantrum… but she had wanted to cry… to try and let out pent up frustration and the feeling of misery in the form of salty drops of water. This was no fairy tale… he didn’t love her like she loved him, he wasn’t going to stay to protect her from monsters, real ones and ones of her own.

Her throat felt raw and her she couldn’t prevent the way her body shook when she climbed out of the well. Curling up into a small ball beside the well, she gave a small whimper, willing her body to rest…

Why did she feel so tired?

She hiccupped and closed her eyes, sniffling and curling into a tighter ball, clinging onto the sides of her uniform shirt. She knew he wasn’t coming back for her…

She remembered how he changed after the defeated Naraku. He seemed like he had one less burden to carry… and although they had lost some things precious to them to Naraku, he had given her a small smile at the end.

Naraku had sent out Kagura to kill Sessshoumaru before he could disrupt their battle. In the end, while Naraku had been so intent on killing him, so focused on his demise, Kagura had been the one to distract him by hitting him with her Fuujin no Mai.

“Kongosouha!” He bellowed, swinging his mighty sword, the tetsusaiga, and watched as the diamond spear blasts hit Naraku, tearing him apart. Naraku had given him such a surprised looked, then glared.

“You can’t beat me, hanyou!” He snarled, but his body wouldn’t generate or piece back together. Finally disintegrating into a mass of dust, Inu Yasha had relaxed.

Kagome had dropped her bow and arrows, sinking to the ground in utter exhaustion. Looking up into the sky, she noticed the wind youkai grip her chest and give a strangled gasp. The feather slightly tilted and Kagura fell, plummeting down towards the earth. Sesshoumaru was the one to catch her.

“How very funny.” She chocked out, “He dies and I die too…”

Sesshoumaru had stared at her, the same impassive face.

She placed her hand over her mouth and coughed harshly. Giving him a soft smile, Kagura closed her eyes, and finally, she looked like she was at peace.

The taiyoukai had rested her on the ground and drew out Tenseiga, the sword of healing, and attempted to bring the demon back to life. When he realized he couldn’t revive her, no matter how many times he slashed around her, he gave an enraged growl.

Kagome had watched him carry her away, she had watched Inu Yasha kill Naraku, had watched Miroku’s Kazaana disappear and she had watched Sango cradle her dying brother. She had watched everything.

Inu Yasha had turned around to face her and she looked up from her spot on the ground. He offered her a small smile and reached out to her.

“It’s over.” He said softly.

Kagome had woken up to find herself in her room, her mother patiently sitting at the end of her bed, the same warm smile lighting up her face.

“How’d I get here?” she asked, her voice sounding different in her ears.

“Houjo came by and Jii-chan found you in the well house. Houjo had offered to carry you back inside.” She smiled and rubbed her daughter’s leg. “He thought you collapsed from your ‘illness’.”

“What disease do I have this time?” she grumbled, one of her brows drawing up.

“Not a disease. Jii-chan made up another story about your absence, but this time, he just said you had menstrual cramps.” Another voice answered. Kagome turned her head to stare at her little brother.

“Hey sis, feeling better?” Souta asked as he hopped on the bed. The boy had grown since the incident when she fell in the well.

She nodded and turned to her side, curling back under her pink comforter.

“I’m tired…” she replied, closing her eyes once more.

“Alright then, I’ll go make some dinner.” Mama informed as she slowly got up and placed a kiss over Kagome’s temple.

When they had left, she had wanted to cry.

She only left him because she was a coward, because she didn’t want him to leave her.

‘Kagome… you should just stop thinking about him. Aren’t you happy? No more jewel hunting, no more being yelled at… you can live a normal teen life now.’

‘Yeah…’

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“Get her right now! I demand you bring her back here! She’s only gone because you’re a BAKA!” The small kitsune was screaming now, and finally, he flopped down on the ground, staring up at the hanyou perched up on the branches. “INU YA-AASHAA!!”

The hanyou didn’t reply, only further ignored the infuriated child youkai.

Shippou finally quieted and glared at him.

“Now, now Shippou, insulting our friend won’t persuade him to retrieve our other friend.” Miroku commented as he stared up at Inu Yasha.

“But he is a baka.” Shippou huffed.

“I know this, Shippou, but you must at least not point out the obvious.”

Inu Yasha’s ear twitched and so did his eyebrow.

“The obvious? I don’t think he knows he’s a baka.”

“I can hear you even though I’m ignoring you!” The irate hanyou barked as he shook his fist.

“Calm down, Inu Yasha. Shippou merely wants you to just talk to Kagome.” Miroku replied soothingly.

“Keh.”

“I want her back! You can’t take care of me! I need her!” Shippou wailed as he fisted his small hands into the grass and pulled. “Inu Yasha!”

“Shut up!” He snapped as he jumped up to his feet and leapt off to another tree.

“Baka! Get her back right now!” the kitsune cried in a shrill voice, kicking his feet on the ground.

‘I wish I could.’ Inu Yasha growled as he sprang past the trees, the air whipping his hair around his face. Her actions back at the lake and the well had obviously worried him, and the way she stared at him, how she ran away from him… he was scared of rejection from her. She had been the one to accept him for what he was, and now she was running away from him.

“I like you as a hanyou.”

‘Then why did you run away from me?’ He wasn’t angry… he was hurt and confused.

‘She’s only running away from you because you’re going to hurt her.’

Inu Yasha stopped and hung his head low. It was true. He knew she’d get hurt by him… of all the people, he wanted to protect her and here he was, hurting her.

‘I… dammit, I can’t do it! I have to do this…she died because of me.’

‘Tell me, Inu Yasha… are you going to leave the girl that taught you to trust, that accepted you for you…’

‘Fuck, I promised to Kikyo… and I have fucking honor… I have to--- ’

‘Honor my ass. You’re going to pick the woman who pinned you to a tree?’

‘Yeah.’

The other voice didn’t reply, and suddenly, he felt lonely. He wanted her back here, with him.

‘I’m so sorry, Kagome.’

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Kagome coughed as she sat up slowly, her gaze slowly going over to the window. She was expecting him to just appear there, glaring at her and barking at her to come back. He wasn’t there, but that didn’t relieve her. She missed him. As much as it hurt her to be near him, she wanted to go back… and to be near him.

Throwing off the covers, she got off the bed and stared outside, the well house in her line of vision. It was dark now, the sky lit with small shining stars that looked like diamonds sprinkled across a black velvet cloth.

‘I can’t… No, I want to stay with him… I want to stay with Inu Yasha.’

‘Kagome, you’re gonna get hurt again.’

‘I wont… because I’ll be with Inu Yasha.’

And with a small smile, she began to pack up.

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A/n: okay… so you’re reviews MADE me want to continue and write faster… thanks for that, though. I really do want to continue, I just need people to push and threaten me.

Thanks to:

NEW FAN!!!......bubbles-sama......mela……w_j [well, I find it odd how the well works, like that time when they fought with Yura? Even though they didn’t have a shard, Inu Yasha and Kagome still got back to the feudal era… lets just say this is a weird moment where Kagome thinks she can’t get back home ]…… innocentdarkangel

Discalimer: I really don’t own them. Really! Don’t believe me? Well then… ninjas, attack! >:D