InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Even Evil Has Reincarnates ❯ Bittersweet Need ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

InuYasha is slowly allowing his walls to crumble and Kagome is close to crumbling. Can InuYasha offer her some reassurance? Well at least the best reassurance a grouchy, irritable hanyou can offer.

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Comedy / Action / Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 06.23.2008 | Pages: 9 | Words: 9.8K | Visits: 646 | Status: Work In Progress

DISCLAIMER-

Unfortunately, this story and the characters herein pertain to Rumiko Takahasi.

Except for a select few... those are MINE! ALL MINE!!!!!!

[Clears throat]

This story is rated M for Maturity.

Hanyou thoughts

Demon thoughts

Human thoughts

Note: Only those words that are not frequently used in fanfics will I put a translation to. I mean, come on… we know what a BAKA is…right?

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Chapter 2: Bittersweet Need

A few days later the inu-gang continued traveling their way north. There had been a lot of youkai activity, although most had been lower level youkai, therefore non-impressive. Regardless, it had been annoying and tiresome all the same.

Winter was approaching quickly, therefore taking flight was not a good idea unless the humans of the pack wanted to freeze in the air or catch their death by pneumonia. They had been traveling by foot almost non-stop and were aching and weary.

“InuYasha, can we please stop for the night?” Kagome pleaded.

“Yes InuYasha, we've been going non-stop now for a good 6-hours, we should stop for the night”, Miroku slurred from exhaustion.

“KEH! FINE!” then mumbling, “weak humans”

Kagome cocked an eyebrow at him and started using her right hand as if it were talking to her left, “I'm a big bad inu-hanyou, I'm too good for these weaklings”

She then took her left and did the same to her right, “but InuYashaaaa, we're your friends and we like you just the way you are…” The group was around laughing and holding their sides laughing while InuYasha's eyebrow twitched at her “imitation” of him…

Kagome trying to stifle a giggle continued on her little show, going back and forth with her impromptu 'puppet hands', “KEH! WENCH!”…. switching… “InuYasha, SIT!”

[thump in background]

From his InuYasha shaped crater, “Bitch! Why?! I didn't do nothing!”

At this point, Shippo was rolling around the grass laughing so hard he could barely breathe,

Sango and Miroku were holding each other up so they wouldn't fall laughing and even Kirara was suspiciously mewing non-stop…InuYasha was mumbling curses from his crater.

With a satisfied `hmph', Kagome stood up, clasped her hands together and with a huge smile she faced her friends, “soooooo that settles it, we're staying for the night!”

She dug into her yellow backpack and started taking out the sleeping bags to set up and her bathing essentials to hit up the local hot spring.

“Sango, would you like to go to the hot spring?”

“Oh yes! After 6-hours of walking in this cold weather, I need it!” Sango stated, through gritted teeth and glaring daggers at InuYasha.

Grabbing their stuff, Sango looked over to Miroku with a vein popping in her forehead.

“MONK, if you come anywhere near that hot spring… if you so much as step on a blade of grass in the vicinity of that hot spring… you will no longer be able to ask ANYONE IF THEY WILL BARE YOUR CHILDREN FOR LACK OF TOOLS & EQUIPMENT!!!!”

He slightly winced but all the same put his hand over his heart feigning innocence, “My dearest beautiful Sango, how could you ever think so lowly of me to actually believe I would spy on you AND Lady Kagome?” he asked with a goofy smile on his face and a twinkle in his eye.

Sango and Kagome looked at each other before saying in unison,“Because you're a hentai?”

With that they walked off towards the hot spring but not before Sango could send an 'I-MEANT-WHAT-I-SAID-OR-CHOP-CHOP-HENTAI' glare in said monk's direction.

The monk sweat dropped and then smiled, “Perhaps… but so worth the torture…”

“Heed the warning Monk, heeeeeed the warning”, InuYasha intervened while getting up from his crater.

“But my dearest friend, tell me it would not be worth the pain to catch a glimpse of those two beautiful maidens as they were meant to be seen?” He looked at InuYasha with glazed over eyes.

InuYasha keh'd and said “I DON'T WANT YOU CATCHING A GLIMPSE OF ANYTHING ON KAGOME! And erm...SANGO! KEH! Pervert… bouzo?!”

He looked over and saw the monk had disappeared, smelled the direction he took off to and smirked, “There is no WAY in hells I'm going to miss this beat down! Come on runt!”

Shippo rolled his eyes, "I'll never understand these idiots... they will never understand those women or the dangers that implies"

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Meanwhile at the hot spring...

"Oh Kami! I didn't realize just how sore and achy I was until we settled in here!" Sango said as she was kneading the knots out of her shoulder.

"No kidding AND tired" stifling a yawn and leaning her head on the rock behind her, Kagome cast a sideways glance at Sango.

"Um, Sango... can I tell you something?"

"Sure, what is it Kagome?"

Kagome dipped herself lower into the water.

"I'm-- I'm becoming worried now that, um, we're almost facing the end... but, not about what's going to happen to me or us during battle because after all we've gone through, I know we're made of tougher stuff but... I'm terrified of what's going to happen AFTER we get the jewel back in one piece." Kagome finished and tried containing a sob.

Sango got up and was immediately at her best friend's side. "Oh Kagome, what exactly has you scared then? Is it about the well possibly closing? About being stuck here or in the future?"

Kagome nodded her head. "I won't be needed here anymore.... I won't have a duty to be here anymore. I'm afraid of what the jewel will do. We don't know for sure what will happen and I --- ", Kagome hugged her friend back tightly and was sobbing uncontrollably.

"Kagome, listen to me. We will always need you. You aren't here solely for duty... you know that! This mission... it was so much more than a jewel hunt. You helped us heal, you keep us together... you made us a family! I'm sure the jewel will recognize your selflessness!"

Kagome spared a look up at her best friend and sister, "Oh Sango, I have a bad feeling....it's not you guys it's..."

[Twig Snaps]

Both girls raised their eyes to one another and Sango mouthed to Kagome "shhhhh"

Kagome played along and continued to "sob" inconsolably playing the poor, weak female while Sango was quickly assessing the situation.

Sango was eyeing around carefully for her weapon of choice and found a rather large rock by where Kagome's head had been laying. Picking it up, with an unrecognizable speed and strength, she thrust it in the direction of where the noise came from.

Hearing as it reached and hit its target, both girls made a mad dash for their towels to deal with the intruder.

As they look behind the bush the noise came from, there laid Miroku with a bump the size of a fist on his head while mumbling, "t-t-t-t-two...na-n-n-n-aked... bea....utiful....laaaa...dies...hug-g-g-ging..." and from where Sango stood she could see a smile and happy tears swarming his eyes.

When Miroku's vision cleared, he was staring at two visibly irritated women, which both had a compulsive eyebrow twitch going on.

"Why, la-la-ladies, what brings you all to my place of rest and rela-rela-xation?" Looking up he tried to give his sweetest, most innocent smile but, the girls were not falling. "Oh Buddha, I'm in deep..."

"HOUSHIIIII!”

Sango was fuming, she was so red Miroku was sure if he touched her at the moment, his finger would sizzle, “-- INUYASHAAAAAAA! LEND ME THE TETSUSAIGA NOW!" Sango screamed at the top of her lungs. By now, she was huffing and she could not be any redder in the face, it just couldn't be possible. It looked like she was engulfed in flames, 'Oh it's flames alright, fury flames'

Miroku gulped, got up and tried departing his spot slowly. He knew that wild animals attacked if you made any sudden movements and his Sango was as fierce as her youkai-nekomata companion right now.

Holding a hand to himself and one trying to hold her back, "Sango, my dear, T-T-T-Tetsusaiga would no-not transform fo-fo-for you... it has a dull blade otherwise..." Miroku was a little confused as to why she was asking for Tetsusaiga.

"Precisely Monk...” She bared her teeth at him, “ALL. THE. MORE. PAINFUL. IF. IT. TAKES. ME. LONGER. TO. CASTRATE. YOU. GOT. IT?"

By the time she finished her sentence, Miroku had run off squealing like a girl with a fuming, towel clad taijiya hot on his trail.

"I can't miss this!" Shippo started running behind the other two.

Kagome smiled and shook her head and still wrapped in her towel, sighed, grabbed a second towel and sat on a nearby rock. She started drying her hair and starting humming quietly and started singing not knowing she had a one-person audience.

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`I knew I shouldn't have followed the monk. I could only imagine if Sango caught me here... or Kagome.... I am NOT about to be SAT and BEATEN by both simultaneously, keh'

[InuYasha's POV]

I slightly cringed when I heard the demon slayers threat towards the monk and winced at the possibility she just might make good of her threats for once. [Shakes head]

Getting over my moment of silence for the monks family jewels, I looked over to my Kagome. Although, she, of course, would probably laugh in my face is she knew that I thought of her as mine. [sighs] Even a lonely, lowly hanyou can dream. `Keh, dreaming never solves shit!'

She was staring off into the direction of where Sango had chased off Miroku with a small sad smile. I could still smell the tears in the air. "I wonder what she was going to say? Damn monk always having to be a pervert....now, I won't know what's on her mind since, she'll only really share those thoughts with Sango"

[sighs]

'That's because you never really do ask her.'

'You again?! Why are you coming around more?'

'Someone's gotta knock sense into that brain of yours..'

'You're back too?! Listen, GO. AWAY. Don't wanna hear it!'

'Make our bitch submit to her alpha, she can not be hiding secrets from her mate!'

'MATE?! We aren't mates. TRUST ME, you WOULD know IMMEDIATELY! Besides! Who in their right mind would want to mate me?!'

“Our bitch would!”

`K-keh!'

'Stop feeling sorry for your baka self. Well the demon is half right, try talking to her and asking her instead of listening in...stop assuming shit.'

`[GROWL] She'll tell me when she is ready and then AFTER Naraku, we'll see about that other shit, now leave!'

I looked over to where Kagome now sat drying off her hair, Kami, her scent is wonderful... I just sat there staring at her, wondering, what I ever did to actually just be blessed by her presence. Just when I thought there was nothing more I could love about her, she made my heart stop and then start beating rapidly…

There will never come a day

You will ever hear me say

That I want or need to be without you

I want to give my all

She smiled to herself for a second and started combing her hair. I stayed in my tree. I was astounded when I heard Kagome sing. It was a symphony of her emotions… sad… yet beautiful…

Baby, just hold me

Simply control me

Because your arms, they keep away the lonelies

Her eyes were bright with unshed tears. Her voice was shaky but, all the while she maintained her smile. 'She really has grown into an amazing woman.' I saw her sigh and continue singing sadly.

When I look into your eyes

Then I realize

All I need is you in my life

All I need is you in life

Cuz I never felt this way about loving

Never felt so good, baby

Never felt this way about loving

It feels so good.

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[Normal POV]

She remained humming after the song was done. She took a shaky sigh, dropped her hairbrush and stuffed hair face into her hands and cried. Cried over the stress of four-years, cried for all those lost, cried for the pain of those she cared for and finally, cried for herself, and cried for InuYasha.

She shook her head as though, by doing that, the thoughts would just fall off her mind. She took a deep breath and held it. Then suddenly she felt someone wrap their arms around her waist and breathe on her neck.

"EEEEEEP!!!!!!!" she started struggling and screaming.

He put a clawed hand up to her mouth, to avoid being `SAT', "Shhh, Kagome, it's me, relax"

"Inu....InuYasha?" She turned around and embraced him almost as if she was afraid to let him go.

He started a low comforting rumbling in his chest while drawing small circles on her towel clad back. 'Wait! Towel? Oh shit...no escaping'

“Um...K-Ka-gome?”

“Mmmm?”

“You-y-, um, fuck, yourestillinatowelpleasedontsitme!” He cringed slightly, closing his eyes shut, preparing for the nose dive into the ground, but it never came.

He slowly opened his eyes as Kagome pulled back just a little in order to look him in the eye, gave him a saddened smile and whispered, “InuYasha, I trust you. I'm not going to sit you because I'm in a towel and you felt you needed to comfort your best friend...”

He was beyond a little shocked. She would have sat him into oblivion before regardless of the situation. What in the hells changed?

He blushed and cleared his throat, “I'll let you get dressed” He tried to turn and walk away but Kagome was holding a fistful of his haori and he couldn't get away.

“InuYasha...” She hugged to him tighter. “Please hold me...just....for... please... just a little while longer.”

He couldn't help to think of the song she had sung before. `She sounded so lonely, so sad…”

He did not hesitate and sat down and pulled her back against his chest and nuzzled her hair. He felt the night being a bit too cold for her to only wear a towel so, he removed his haori and wrapped it around her. She cuddled into it for a moment and then put it on. She stood up and once the haori was wrapped tight around her, she let the towel drop from underneath.

InuYasha gulped and looked away, his face surely matching his fire-rat robes.

'Holy mother of Kami. Do not think of a naked Kagome beneath your haori....do not get a hard on, do not get a hard on... think ugly thoughts, think of a naked Kaede-baba...oh no, I'm gonna puke'

“InuYasha? Are you ok? You look like you're going to be sick!” She ran to where he was sitting and in an instant she was by his side, touching his forehead, stroking his cheek. “Was it the poison from that snake youkai you killed?!”

She kept touching his face and trying to get some type of response from him. He was sweating and was pale.

“I-InuYasha? Say something! You're scaring me!” He then turned and looked at her while his eyebrow was twitching and a vein popping in his forehead.

He then focused on her and his gaze softened, 'Now I'm worrying her because I got sick with that image of Kaede-baba'

He smiled at her then and said softly, “Keh. I'm fine, just dazed off is all.”

“You sure InuYasha? You looked like you were going to spill your stomach out...I thought that snake youkai had poisoned you.”

She continued stroking his cheek. His inner demon kept screaming at him as a reminder that he had a half-naked Kagome in front of him, to take what was his.

His human side although, was battling the demon, keeping him in check. He slowly took a hold of her wrist and brought it to his lips and kissed her pulse point.

Kagome gave a small gasp. 'Get it together girl. It was just a small peck on your wrist. Nothing to get so riled up about...right?[sigh]... yeah tell that to my raging 19 year old hormones'

InuYasha immediately detected the spike in her scent and it almost made his eyes want to roll into the back of his head.

He just stared at her and couldn't start comprehending what he saw and definitely smelt. She was sitting there, her grey-blue eyes staring at him with love, tenderness, lust and want. `Her eyes always do reflect her feelings… she never bothers hiding them…'

Her smell was her natural smell of fresh spring rain mixed in with the sweet and musky smell of her arousal. Her full mouth was slightly opened and she was breathing unevenly.

'Hells, if that's the reaction I get just from that small peck on her wrist... Hmmm... I'm gonna have to do that more often'

He smirked as he looked at her and let go of her wrist. He brought up a clawed hand to the haori she was wearing and pulled her forward. She gasped and stared wide-eyed at him. He smirked some more. When she was almost in his face, he released the haori and placed his hand in the nape of her neck and started massaging, careful of his claws.

She dug her face into his neck. Her breathing became even more so erratic and she had to do everything in her willpower to not let out a moan. `I will not - oh Kami…'

“Mmmmm” 'Uh oh. You were supposed to hold that in girl! What's gotten into me!?'

She spared a glance at his direction and he was staring at her with... wait, lust...and LOVE?

“Inu-” she felt him curl a finger under her chin and brush at her lower lip with his thumb. 'Oh Kami, help me not jump him right here'

InuYasha was mesmerized. Her pouty pink lips were as soft to his calloused hands as they had been on his lips. Her lips were slightly apart, while her breathing was no where near in control. He wanted to kiss her again. Scratch that. He wanted so much more than that, so much more that it hurt. They couldn't, not yet but, he leaned in closer, confident that she wanted what he was craving so much at that moment…what the both needed at that moment.

He replaced his finger with his lips and started kissing her slowly. When she gasped, he took the opportunity to slip his tongue into her mouth. She responded immediately and started kissing him back fiercely.

What started as an innocent kiss was growing passion-fueled by the second. They were battling one another for dominance in the kiss… it was a safe tie.

She moaned into his mouth and that made him groan. She felt a little bolder and made her way into his lap, straddling him. He pulled her closer to him. He needed so much more, he needed her. He kept kissing at her hungrily.

Kagome needed him. She knew that nothing could happen until after Naraku's defeat but, Kami, she couldn't help her need. 'Does he still think of me as Kikyo's copy?'

Not giving a damn she showed him how much she was not frigid, empty or cold like the original. She was warm, fiery and very much in love with the inu-hanyou in front of her.

They pulled apart for some much needed air and stared into each other. They were both flushed and panting. It was then that Kagome blushed severely at the sudden bulge she was feeling between her legs pressing into her naked womanhood. She tried containing the blush and started rubbing his chest where a frustrated growl was erupting. She looked up at him and licked her lips. “InuYasha...”

He nodded and grunted once, to let her know he was listening. She got closer to him and whispered into his ear, “InuYasha, I need you, Kami knows I need you...” and with that she held him close.

When she had said that, it sent a shiver down his spine, through his heart and straight into his groin. He almost let out a whimper when she got up.

“But, I'm ... I'm not sure....um… about something... heh...” She had her bright-fake smile plastered on and she was fiddling with her hair, winding it around her fingers.

InuYasha knew that smile was fake. When he raised a brow at her, she started wringing her hands together. Like a light-switch, she stood poised with her chin high and looked him with nothing but seriousness in her face. “InuYasha... I'm going to say something and I need you to listen and not talk.”

He glared at her, “Oi bitch! What do you mean I can't talk?!”

“InuYasha... I'll say 'it'... either you listen or I walk away...”

“Keh.”

Taking that as a `fine', Kagome went and knelt in front of InuYasha who was now glaring at a nearby boulder with his arms crossed and his nose in the air. “InuYasha....”

When he wouldn't look her in the eye, she sighed and started to get up but, before she could stand she was pulled back into his lap.

“Spit it out wench, we ain't got all night...” He told her in a bare whisper that she barely caught with her human hearing.

His statement came through loud and clear... he was scared of what she was going to say. 'What could HE possibly be scared of?I'mthe one who should be freaking out here!'

She pulled back from his grasp a bit to pull his face to look at her and she too let the walls fall she had built to keep her secret, crumble.

Taking a deep breath and giving him a small sincere smile, “InuYasha... I love you...” He looked at her with wide eyes.

He was dumbstruck. “K-Ka-gome, I-I-”

She lowered her head and spoke silently, almost to herself, blocking his visage of her face with her bangs. “I don't need to hear anything back from you now... I know... I know, you still love Kikyo but, I'm not her. I'll never amount to her and I can't compete with that --”

He grabbed her by the chin, none to gently and was growling, slightly snarling with red-rimmed eyes. “Shut up!” He said through clenched teeth.

Kagome went to open her mouth but InuYasha slammed down on it with his own. She gave a little whimper but, definitely not in protest. When he accomplished shutting her up, still grabbing her chin, he made her look him in the eye, “Shut up.”

There was silence for a couple of moments. He was breathing in and out trying to calm himself. He could not and would not allow his demon to take control. When he finally felt like himself, he opened his eyes and Kagome visibly relaxed. His eyes were now back to their normal amber.

“You stupid, dumb wench.” He had stopped snarling but was still growling.

When he saw that the vein in her forehead was starting to throb, “SI-”

He covered her mouth with his hand, “NO YOU DON'T BITCH YOU'RE GOING TO LISTEN TO ME NOW!”

'Fucking wench won't shut the hell up. Won't let me get myself in check. Won't let me put a fucking word in. STUPID, IRRITATING, FUCKING…BEAUTIFUL wench.'

“Now you listen to me. Oi! Don't bite me!” He glared at her and she glared right back at him.

He could smell a bit of fear radiating off of her and he didn't like it one bit. `She's never been scared of me…'

“LISTEN dammit!” He lowered his voice and looked straight into those ocean orbs he could get lost in.

“You are not fucking Kikyo. I've known that forever! Nor do I compare you to her! You are RIGHT, you are NOTHING alike. I thought she was perfect --”

He could see the hurt in her eyes and quickly amended, trying to contain a growl, “But then I met you. Kagome... do you even realize how special you are? How different you are? How warm? How kind? How loving? Compassionate? Who else but you can make a family out of the oddest individuals ever? You, ya damn wench. I can sit here all fucking night until you understand it you hardheaded bitch…”

He was pissed. Kagome was now struck shocked and stopped her attempts of removing herself from his lap and looked at him with wild eyes.

When he saw her shrug, he wanted to break that pretty little head of hers.

“Keh! For someone who goes to this, `Sss-cool' to get an education, you're pretty stupid…”

Counting to ten and ignoring the waves of anger coming from his miko, he continued, “Kagome, seriously though, how do you expect people not to compare you two when you constantly remind everyone of the association between you. You need to see who you truly are. You are not Kikyo nor will you ever be --”

He saw the hurt again, “Kikyo, the one I knew... IS GONE…has been. You are --” He let his hand lose from her mouth and put it behind her neck. He leaned forward until he was a whisper away from her lips, “you...KA-GO-ME.”

He gently kissed her lips. He stopped and looked at her.

Snapping out of her shock and trying to regain composure, she pulled back some. “Um, I guess we should start heading back”

`'That doesn't mean he loves me though'' her head was down and her bangs were currently being used as a curtain against her eyes once more. He could feel sadness coming from her.

“Kagome...”

“Hmm?” She kept her gaze averted.

“I'm not good with words... since they have never been given to me...”

With that he got up and pulled her up with him and whispered in her ear, “I need you too Kagome”. He pushed her into his body, showing apparent evidence that he needed her as bad.

'Why did he have to do that? UGH!'

She pushed her hips into him which caused him to groan, “I know, in more ways than one... that's a start.” She gave him a cheeky yet sad smile and with a chaste kiss, she jumped out of his embrace, leaving him in mild shock and quickly gathered her clothes.

He turned around to give her privacy, still spaced out and after she was dressed she handed him back his haori.

They did not say anything else. They walked hand-in-hand in companionable silence back to camp.

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Credits -

Song was: “Never Felt This Way” sung by Alicia Keys / Brian McKnight