InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Even Evil Has Reincarnates ❯ Coping ( Chapter 18 )

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Unfortunately, this story and the characters herein pertain to Rumiko Takahasi…but couldn't I just wish? Eh.

Except for a select few... and the plot! Those are MINE! ALL MINE!!!!!!

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This story is rated M for Maturity.

Note: Only those words that are not frequently used in fanfics will I put a translation to. I mean, come on… we know what a BAKA is…right? If not, Google it…I did =)

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Chapter 18: Coping

No one spoke a word on the way back to Gonzalo's flat. Kagome sat up in the frontseat with Norio, unable to face her family. She knew what she must look like.

A monster.

A monster no better than Zenaku himself.

She knew that she should feel at peace with herself. Afterall, she had saved Lai from a far more painful and eventual death… Right?

`Am I trying to convince myself or is that the truth of it?'

Kagome shook her head and wanted to laugh like a maniac. The truth was, no matter what her reasoning and how much she believed she did the right thing, she could just not find it within herself.

She had been able to do what was needed with no emotions before her family from the past showed up four days ago. Was that a good or bad thing? `Will I be able to finish what I started?'

Right now, all she wanted was to get into a fetal position and cry to her hearts content.

Luckily for her… she was good at keeping tears at bay. She had had plenty of practice.

As soon as they arrived at the complex, Kagome practically jumped out of the van before it came to a full stop. She ran straight up the stairs, flung the door to the flat open and ran directly for the bathroom…spilling the contents of her stomach.

The sound of Kagome hacking was the sound that everyone was met with once they ran in behind her into the flat. Sango was about to run after Kagome but, was stopped when Chika placed a hand on her shoulder. The taijiya sent her a withering glare that said she was clearly not impressed with being stopped and not allowing her to comfort her sister. Chika looked at InuYasha, whom had a worried clearly etched on his face and they silently agreed that he was the only one that could possibly help her at the moment.

Patting Miroku on the back, InuYasha looked at Sango with a look pleading for patience, “Get some rest…let me take care of her -”

Sango sent him the same glare she had offered Chika but was stopped short when she saw her `brothers' pleading gaze and a word she rarely heard during the five centuries she, Miroku and Shippo had spent with the hanyou.

“—Please.”

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InuYasha walked into their bedroom and scrunched up his nose when a wave of vomit and tears wafted into his nostrils. Pushing aside the disgust because of his oversensitive sense of smell, he walked into the bathroom and almost collapsed to his knees when he saw his miko.

She was leaning over the toilet looking so tiny, so pale, so very fragile and so utterly broken. Wordlessly, he picked up a nearby washcloth and dampened it under the sink. Kagome was so lost in her own world or trying to ignore him that she did not even acknowledge his presence.

He confirmed his suspicion of her being in her own world when he placed the washcloth on her forehead and she jumped, looking at him startled and with wild, frightened eyes.

Kneeling down beside her, he looked at her with gently and understanding. Trying to let her know without words being spoken, with just one look, that she was not and would not be alone ever again.

Fully understanding what he was telling her, she choked and rasped out, “How can you even touch me or look at me right now?”

Not tearing his gaze from hers, he trailed the back of his knuckle down her cheek, “The same way I always have.”

“But I -“

Placing a finger on her lips, he got up and walked over to the bath turning on the water. Eyeing some lavender bath salts, he added them in. Turning back to her, he tugged at her elbow and pulled her up. He began removing her clothes as she stood there completely motionless, still looking lost. Once he completely undressed her, he turned her around and started undoing her braid. Running his fingers through her hair once, he lifted her off her feet and placed her in the warm bath water.

Stripping out of his own clothes, he sat himself behind her in the bath and lathered up a washcloth and started to wash her body gently. Almost afraid that too much pressure could break her. Kagome just looked at the tile wall in front of her. Remaining silent because, she was too shocked to say anything. What could she say? `Yeah..umm sorry about killing someone who didn't deserve it…I hope you don't throw up at the idea of loving me!'

InuYasha kept washing her body slowly and when he washed over her tattoo, she whimpered and let out a choked sob. He dropped the washcloth and held her tightly to him…shushing her and whispering reassurances into her neck.

“I-I-I k-killed her. She d-didn't deserve it.”

Leaning on her shoulder, he rubbed over her heart that needed much soothing. “No koishii…she didn't but, you had to do it… we all understand that -“

Kagome slammed her fists into the water and hissed through clenched teeth, “I am no better than that - that monster!”

She was whipped around so fast she had not even realized she had been turned until she was eye to eye with a golden, surprisingly not angry but worried gaze.

InuYasha had never been thankful for staying away from his Kagome for as long as he had but, now, he did in a way. It had taught him the patience highly needed when it came to this specific woman. Always carrying all faults on her shoulders. Believing that she was the cause of anything and everything negative around her.

`Baka…'

“You're nothing like that monster. You would have truly been a monster if you let her live to be killed by him.”

Grabbing onto him, she wept into his neck while he continued rubbing circles on her back. Sniffling, she leaned back and took his face into her hands and barely managed to rasp out, “I love you…so much InuYasha… I just pray to kami you won't hate me by the end of this. I don't think I could stand that.”

Leaning forward, her kissed her tenderly and wiped the tears from her eyes, “Never. I could never hate you because I know that you are not evil Kagome. You wouldn't be here crying over Lai if you were malevolent. I love you and you'd better remember that wench.”

Shooting a wobbly smile at him, she picked up another washcloth and lathered it, washing her hanyou tenderly only to be stopped. InuYasha removed the washcloth from her hand and turned her back around.

Confused, Kagome lowered head, believing that he was after all disgusted with her at the moment until she was snapped from her self-reprimanding thoughts by warm water being poured over her head followed by her hanyou, massaging shampoo into her scalp.

Leaning forward, he whispered in her ear, “Let me take care of my mate for once Kagome…please.”

Loosening her tense body, Kagome almost melted into a puddle of nothing and she heard herself release a small moan followed by InuYasha chuckling. As she got used to the amazing sensations of having her mate wash her hair, she felt more warm water spill over her head once more and felt herself being lifted out of the tub and wrapped in a towel.

Starting to make her way into the bedroom, she felt herself once again lifted and staring into InuYasha's face. Not tearing her gaze from his, she faintly heard the sound of sheets rustling and found herself lying face down on the bed and weight on her back. Her hair was pulled to one side and her mate's talented hands started working on the knots in her back.

Leaning forward, InuYasha placed open-mouthed kisses wherever he worked out a kink, smirking when he started smelling his mikos arousal.

Kagome felt like she was getting a piece of heaven that she did not deserve but, pushed the nasty thought aside as soon as he felt InuYasha's lips creating an invisible trail on her back. Without her consent, her throat released another moan.

InuYasha worked his way back up her back and placed a hand under her on her stomach, his hair tickling her back. He leaned into her ear and she could swear she heard a smirk in his voice, “I said I would take care of you wench.” Sliding his hand further down, he found the core of her arousal and carefully slipped a clawed finger into her slit.

Kagome moaned into the pillow and pushed her body off the bed, grabbing fist folds of sheets into her hands. InuYasha continued thrusting his fingers in and out of her until, he started feeling her walls clench. He quickly flipped her over and saw her flushed face and ragged breathing. He smiled down at her when she let out a frustrated groan. Leaning forward he captured her lips in a melting kiss. He leaned his forehead on hers with his eyes closed. “Wench, gimme a minute. The scent that comes off you when you're about to orgasm calls to my demon and my demon really wants to mark you…”

Kissing the tip of his nose, she let out a little sigh, “Thank you koibito. You don't have to force yourself -“

He whipped his eyes open to look at her bewildered, “Force myself? You're kidding. You should be flattered bitch.”

Trying to contain her laughter, she failed but, quickly got herself together. “I am absolutely flattered I bring out your beast koi but… I know it's hard on you and -”

“Then let me mark you Kagome.”

Her azure eyes looked into his amber and she searched those depths for a response to her own quarry. `Should I really keep that wall between us?'

He could see all the questions running through her mind and let out a little sigh. “Listen… I know you said you did bear my mark and all that but… to me koi… it isn't the same. You have to get rid of that barrier. If something happened to you Kagome… like you dying…I would not be able to live another year, let alone, another century or five without you.”

When Kagome made an attempt to speak he shushed her, “Just sleep on it ok?” Silently nodding her head, she put her arms around his neck and her head on his chest. She let out a huge yawn, indicating just how tired she was and let out a mumbled, “I love you.” before falling asleep. Sticking his nose in her hair and allowing her scent to calm him, he kissed the top of her head and closed his eyes, “And I love you mate.”

They fell asleep naked and content in each others arms.

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Stretching herself, Kagome groggily asked, “Mmmm InuYasha what's that delicious smell?” When she received no response she looked over to the other side of the bed only to find it empty. Taking a deep whiff of the smell her stomach grumbled. `When did I last eat? I'm starving!'

Torn between getting out of the overly comfortable bed or directing herself to the delicious smell, the miko made an important decision. “Ugh, I have to get up if I want some of that…” Dragging herself out of the bed, she made her way to the bathroom for her morning ritual. Dressing herself in some gray yoga pants and black tanktop, she lazily brushed her hair and threw it into a messy bun. Absentmindedly, she patted it. `Maybe it's time I think of getting a haircut.'

Walking out of the room, she saw everyone lounging around, chatting, smiling and eating some of the mouth-watering culprit that dragged her out of bed. Sango was the first to spot her, “Ohayo!” She pointed her thumb towards the kitchen, “There's tons of omelet, toast, sausage, ham and bacon left in the kitchen!”

Kagome looked at everyone's smiling faces with a confused look and then shook it off with a grunt and wandered into the kitchen, all the while wondering where InuYasha was.

She made a beeline directly to the coffee machine and could have wept when she found there was none. She was definitely not a morning person without it and could be extremely terrifying without it. Just when she was about to clobber the damned coffee apparatus, a cup appeared in front of her nose.

Taking the cup and looking into the persons face as if they were a kami themselves she took a deep whiff, took a sip and let an `ah' out of contentment. “Thank you.”

InuYasha chuckled, “I was told that you weren't much of a morning person anymore and you basically made all seven hells look like child's play without it.”

Not detaching her mouth from the cup but, dignifying a stare over the rim, she offered a small smile and mumbled, “Remind me to thank Souta.”

He gave her his infamous smirk, “Wench. We all thanked him for the warning… believe me.”

Savoring another sip, she regrettably detached her mouth from the cup and looked at her mate's face dubiously, “Are they all ok with me?”

She nearly jumped out of her skin when she felt someone grab her and hug her from her side and nearly spilling some of her coffee spilling over the rim. “You know Kags, you doubt us way too much.”

“Sango! You scared ten lives off of me!” Setting her cup down her hugged her best friend back and smiled…a real smile. “I have to work on that, ne?”

The taijiya nodded her head and tears worked their way into her eyes. Kagome could plainly read what lay behind them and grabbed to hug her best friend again, rubbing her back. “I missed you too Sango.”

Quietly, InuYasha left the kitchen to give the `sisters' much needed bonding time.

Shaking her head and giggling, Sango wiped her tears. “You know… I refused to marry the monk at first after your disappearance. I wanted him to wait five hundred years…just so you could be there.”

Kagome laughed. Really laughed and clutched her stomach, “S-Sango, th-that would've been the death of him! Imagine Miroku having to wait that long! He would've created another whole new kazaana in his hand!”

Giving her best friend a knowing smile, “Oh. I know….but then, I realized, our marriage wouldn't carry over through the centuries so… when all this is over… and we are `reborn', we want to get married again… this time… including you.”

Kagome could not stop smiling, “Hai. We'll do that. Maybe… I can ball and chain InuYasha in human terms after all this is done…” She lowered her head, suddenly saddened. “I mean… that is… if he would… want that.” `Want me…'

Sango knocked Kagome on the head. Whipping her head up in astonishment, she was met by a nasty glare from the demon slayer that made her want to cringe. Sango pointed an angry finger in the mikos face and chastised her, “Listen here Kagome Higurashi…starting today, do not doubt any of us…” Gentling her gaze, she placed a hand on Kagome's shoulder and squeezed, not missing Kagome's slight wince. “Please. You deserve happiness too Anue… stop berating yourself and thinking you are not worth anything when you are probably worth more than the lot of us in this flat or building.”

Grabbing onto Sango, Kagome hugged her fiercely and giggled. “Damn. Did I ever need you Sango. You always did knock sense into me… at least… not so figuratively but, you always made me see what I refused to see.”

Clearing her throat and willing the kamis for dry eyes, “And that my dear Kags, is what sisters and best friends are for.”

Not being able to hide her own tears of happiness, Kagome nodded, “Hai. Sisters.”

Miroku walked in on the tender moment and with a face splitting grin. Walking up to his two favorite girls, he embraced both females. “Such a lovely reunion. Makes my heart expand in my -“

Suddenly, he was whacked across the head by two different pairs of hands.

“Hentai!”

“Houshi!”

Holding his palms out, he tried backing away from the two very irate and equally dangerous females, “I couldn't help it! They are two very, very lovely rears!”

“BOUZO! Did you just grab my mates ass?!”

Miroku turned to find a very, not tender nor patient looking at the moment InuYasha leaning in the kitchen doorway with nostrils flaring. Squealing like a downright girl, he ran… followed by a pouncing and predator like InuYasha.

Kagome and Sango looked at each other with wide-eyes and mouths agape for a moment.

Blinking twice, Kagome whispered, “What just happened?” Looking at Sango once more, they simultaneously started cracking up.

The other occupants of the flat wandered into the kitchen and each raised a confused eyebrow at the hysterically laughing girls.

Souta cleared his throat, “Um, why is InuYasha-nii-san chasing Miroku like a bat out of hell?”

Gasping for breath from laughing so hard, Kagome turned to her brother, “B-Be-Because he gra…” She doubled over in laughter and squealed out, “Because he grabbed my ass and squealed like a…little…girl…when…he saw InuYasha!” Kagome and Sango were both beat red and crying from laughing so hard.

The rest of the group remained looking at the two like they had finally lost it.

Sango waved her hands at them, “You…You had to be there!”

The next moment Miroku literally, dove into the kitchen and hid behind his wife. “Sweetheart please! I was only trying to cheer you girls up! Don't let him kill me for kami sake!”

InuYasha stalked into the kitchen breathing raggedly heading straight towards the cowering monk. Miroku cringed and closed his eyes. `It's been a long life Kami… thank you for the happiness you have bestowed on me…'

Miroku awaited the final blow with sweat dripping on the side of his face. When he heard coughing, giggling and laughing, he cracked open one eye and saw InuYasha hugging Kagome from behind smirking down at him. Turning his head, InuYasha gave Kagome a kiss on the cheek and nuzzled it, “Feeling better?”

Kagome looked at his face. He could see pieces of her self erected walls start to diminish. Gifting him with one of her bright smiles, “Much. Reminded me of all those times in the Feudal Era.”

Clearing her throat and hating to rain on everyone's parade, Chika spoke, “Kagome, we need to plan our next step.”

Not taking her eyes off her mate and still smiling, Kagome responded, “Let's go back to Japan. We know Nariko is heading to London but, not right away. This will give us a chance to get all our affairs, like the club, in order. First, we need to stop by Madrid before we head back.”

Ai jumped and clapped, “Higurashi-sensei! Then we can have a small celebration for your birthday! Since we didn't get to do anything before.”

Before Kagome could respond, InuYasha interrupted. “Sounds like a great idea Ai-chan and please…” He smiled at the younger miko, “Call her Kagome like she asked… I'm sure she prefers it.”

Kagome pouted and mumbled, “I can speak for myself ya know.”

Nipping her on the cheek and earning a squeal he chuckled, “Yeah. But I kinda like knowing what you're thinking my love.”

She tried sounding aloof, “Showoff.” But failed miserably when she blushed like a schoolgirl.

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“So… tell me my pet… did they fall for it?”

A small, sandy haired female smiled at her master. “Oui Master.”

The man smiled. “They believe you are dead.”

Lai strode up to Zenaku and started massaging his shoulders. “Yes, you should have seen my little theatrics. `Oh, please kill me if not Zenaku will do much worse!'” She laughed evilly. “They will be in London soon trying to find Nariko but, I'm almost positive they will be going back to Japan soon mon amore.” She spat, “Fools! How could they not know that I can only be killed by you? You do hold my heart and only you my master have the privilege of ending my life.” She purred as she leaned into him and maneuvered a hand down his chest, “I wouldn't have it any other way.”

Zenaku grabbed Lai and placed her on his lap so that the petit demoness was straddling him. Slicing her clothes off with a clawed finger, he leaned forward and suckled on one of Lai's nipples, causing the demoness to hiss.

Smirking, he tugged at her nipple with his teeth, let go of it and grabbed both breasts with both hands. “Hn. Then I believe we need to send Kenachi and company out to play with our little miko bitch. Make her bitter and make that jewel so tainted that she'll make it much easier to grant me my highest desire.”

With that, he threw Lai on her back and started ravishing her body.

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