InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fallen Part Two: For Whom the Bell Tolls ❯ Ordinary ( Chapter 19 )
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By: lil_rei_chan 
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Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 07.09.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.1K | Visits: 184 | Status: Completed
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Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 07.09.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.1K | Visits: 184 | Status: Completed
Chapter 19: Ordinary
It had been several weeks since the incident with Satyr, and both girls had healed and it had been decided that for the sake of their friends and sibling that they would leave the village. During their journey across Japan, they somehow made it back to the village in which Kagome had been training. Her sensei had been more than overjoyed at her return, greeting her and her sister with open arms. It was there that she and her sister learned the basics to harnessing and controlling as well as understanding their powers.
Kagome’s powers were contradictory. She held the purity of a miko and could harness the purity of her soul to purify demons and yet she held dark powers as well. She held within her a miasma attack similar to that of Naraku’s, however she learned that once she could control it, she could dictate who and what it destroyed by shielding whatever she wanted to be kept safe with her miko powers. She also learned how to contain and use her youkai nature at will, much like Sesshoumaru could, being able to call upon her true form whenever she should need it.
Rin’s powers weren’t anywhere near as sinister as her sister’s, nor as powerful in the sense of destruction. Rather, Rin’s powers lied in the art of healing. Not only could she heal wounds of varying severity, being able to bring someone back from the brink of death, but she could detect and heal any kind of disease known to man and youkai. The ability that she had so to speak other than her blood beast to protect herself was her ability to control the elements. She could call on any of the four elements at will to make an escape or protect herself.
Both of the girls learned a lot in their time with their sensei, however their time was cut short when they were attacked by a horde of demons led by their aunt months later. A malicious smirk graced her features as she led the attack, effectively dividing the three. Hours later after the fight was over, Kagome and Rin managed to make their way back to each other, battered and bruised, but all they could find of their master was a pile of ash. The rest of the village they had been living in was decimated, leaving nothing left of it. The corpses of the villagers were effectively torn apart, limbs strewn about the area. This was where the draw backs to Rin's powers became painfully obvious. She could not bring people back from the dead, only from the brink of death. After giving the dead a proper burial, the left the small village and never looked back.
The death of the village and their sensei was a heavy blow to the girls. It was then they decided that they would stay clear of all inhabitance, for it seemed that all they could bring to those around them was pain and death with the enemies they had made. Traveling for many weeks, the looked for somewhere that was far away from life of any kind, to make a home for themselves. They could not live a rootless existence, nor could they live with other people. They could not live with themselves if they brought more death upon innocents.
During their travels, they had at one point crossed a village in their human disguises, but it seemed that there was someone amongst them that recognized them for the youkai that they were. The males of the village had come after the girls brandishing makeshift weapons of all kinds. The last few months had been very stressful especially on Kagome since she had not heard from Sesshoumaru in a very long time. When the villagers attacked, Kagome lost her hard won control, decimating the villagers. It was only after she had reawakened, breathless and bloody, that she realized that she had done. With a sharp cry that bespoke her anguish, she dropped to her knees, sobbing wretchedly. She blacked out again, and it was days later that she was pulled out of the abyss of her despair by her sister, who assured her that all the lives had been saved. Kagome had attached herself to her sister then, sobbing brokenly for hours before she was able to compose herself.
It was a week after that incident, that the girls found themselves a place to build a home, high up in the mountains. There was a small clearing there, surrounded by a lush forest. Not far from where they had built their meager hut, there was conveniently a hot spring where the girls could bathe. They lived a quiet existence, almost peaceful for several more months.
As the time went by, Kagome had heard nothing from Sesshoumaru. The length of his absence stretched out more and more. Eventually Kagome began to lose hope of ever hearing from him again and once that hope was gone, his memory slowly began to deteriorate. Slowly as time wore on, it became almost difficult for her to even recall his name. It wasn't until one night, almost two years later that she was visited by him once more.
~X~
She had just fallen asleep, she knew it, and yet now here she was standing in the forest. There was something achingly familiar about this place and yet she couldn't place her finger on what exactly it was. Slowly turning around in a full circle, she remained aware of her surroundings as she searched for some form of a threat. Finding nothing, she sat there thinking for a moment before she decided to explore the area. Barely making it through the trees, she jumped when she felt leaves brushing against her sensitive wings. When did her human guise fall?
With a snap of her fingers, she tried to conceal her flamed wings and her demonic aura, but found that she could not. She tried again and again and began to panic when she found that she could not conceal her demonic heritage. She tried again and again and was about to fly into a full fledged panic when she heard tinkling laugher that she could only recognize as her mothers and a snort from a male that she could not distinguish.
"Mother!" she cried as the woman slowly made her way out of the foliage. "How did you get here? I thought you were dead!"
"You're dreaming, daughter," she replied with a soft chuckle. A momentary look of confusion crossed Kagome's face before recognition flashed. A beet red flush spread across her cheeks as she moved to embrace the older woman.
"What brings you here mother?"
"We have much we must discuss, daughter. You have been left alone with your sister for so long, you have forgotten your friends. They will need you soon."
"M-my... friends?"
"Yes, Mayoke. There is something on that mountain. It's stealing your most precious of memories. I fear if you stay there longer, you will be lost."
"I have felt nothing, mother."
"But I have. Even here in this realm, i can feel it. You and Rin need to leave. Take nothing with you, for all that resides on that mountain is now tainted. Leave and do not look back. Please do this for me."
"I will do this for you, mother."
"Good. Now i have someone to introduce to you," looking back into the shadows, she silently beckoned the figure hiding in the shadows to come forth. The man who stepped forth from the shadows elicited a gasp from the unsuspecting Kagome.
"Y-you, i know you. Where do i know you from?" she asked no one in particular, searching her mind for memories of the familiar figure but coming up with nothing. His silver hair and pale skin was familiar to her. She recognized the crescent moon upon his brow, but there was something different about it though she could not place it. It didn't look the way it was supposed to. Then she noticed the slight shimmer of a silver design overlapping the dark blue crescent. From her vantage point, no matter how hard she tried to distinguish it, she could not. Continuing her perusal, she found that he had scarlet lines across his cheek bones, his pale skin seemed to glow, but what stood out to her the most were his eyes. His eyes were bright, molten gold, and surrounding the black holes of his pupils was a ring of red.
She blushed slightly, when the object of her perusal raised his delicate silver eyebrow in her direct, indicating his awareness of her admiration. Something foreign and yet achingly familiar flooded her senses, however, she did not have time to analyze it as her mother's voice jolted her out of her thoughts. "This, Kagome, is a friend of mine. I have been training him for months now..."
"He is dead?"
"No, not entirely."
"Then how is he with you?"
"A part of him died, Mayoke. His body died along with a part of his soul, that was replaced by something else. The two halves fought for dominance, but eventually blended. He is dead, but not."
"I don't understand."
"He is one of us, but not. He is like me."
"Like you? Mother, i don't understand. I thought you were born a phoenix."
"He shall be reborn, just as i was before him. He like myself is now only half inu youkai. You, Mayoke, are one quarter inu youkai, however you seemed to have inherited your father's true form. That is your primary spirit form, but should you need it, you can call on your other form."
"How do i call upon it?" she asked, disregarding the raised eyebrows of the male in her presence.
"You will know when the time comes..."
"What of Rin?"
"You will have to help her. Though she is like you, her form will be drastically different from yours, she will need your help."
"I understand mother."
With that, the form of Kyouki, faded from sight, leaving only Kagome and the familiar stranger before her. With the departure of her mother, Kagome turned, though it tore at her to turn her back on the beautiful stranger before her and she knew not why. Just as she was about to walk away, a silk smooth voice called out to her, causing her to stop.
"Wait," that one word from that man was enough to send a delightful trill down her spine. Slowly she turned to him, not knowing what possessed her. Then as if drawn to him magnets of opposing poles, she slowly, tentatively made her way to him.
"Who are you?" she asked before, she realized the words had left her mouth.
//Whose eyes am I behindI don’t recognize anything that I see//
"This Sesshoumaru is disappointed in you, Kagome."
Those words sent a chill down the young woman's spine. "Th-that name. I know that name. Where do i know you from? How do i know you?"
Leaving Kagome's questions unanswered, Sesshoumaru stepped closer until they were mere inches apart. Kagome's heart began pounding in her chest and her breath hitched in her throat as his mere proximity did things to her that she couldn't begin to understand. She looked up into his unusual eyes and found herself drowning in a molten sea of gold. As he leaned closer, she released a breath she didn't know she was holding and closed her eyes with a gentle flutter of her coal black eyelashes.
At the feather soft caress of his lips upon hers, a jolt seared through Kagome's body. Liquid fire spread through her veins as something in her soul ignited and embraced her like a long lost lover. A wave of euphoria washed over her and blanketed her mind as she found the missing piece of her soul and her memories, both cherished and unpleasant returned to her in a rush. One memory surfaced after another, each only fleeting glimpses to times passed, until her mind came to a screeching halt on one set of images.
With that set firmly in mind, the euphoria that had enveloped her was swept away, leaving her feeling cold and hallow. What she had done gripped her for a second time and she pushed herself away from the man she had loved with everything she had and yet didn't realize it. Tears welled in her eyes as she gazed into his eyes, noting the confusion and hurt swimming in those twin suns belying his stoic mask.
Her attention was torn from his silently pleading golden eyes as she looked down at her hands. "So much blood," she whispered, almost to herself. She continued to stare hard at her hands as the scent of blood flooded her olfactory nerve and she realized that her hands were covered in the offensive liquid. Her knees and hands began to shake, causing her to drop to the ground. A tortured scream escaped her as tears welled and overflowed. "Why?" she screamed as she tried to rub the blood off of her hands in the grass. "It won't come off, it won't come off," she stated in a panicked whisper as she began to hyperventilate.
//Whose skin is this designI don’t want this to be the way that you see me//
Sesshoumaru looked on at this all, confusion evident in his posture now. Her words made no sense. When she began to wipe her hands on the grass and hyperventilate, he came to a decision he didn't know he was hesitating to make. Swiftly moving to her, he knelt down and gently grasped her hands. "Stop this," he whispered. He was surprised when she looked up at him with tortured eyes, and tore her hands from his grasp.
"It won't come off," she whispered.
"What won't come off?" he asked gently, as if addressing a child who just woke from a nightmare, quietly coaxing with soft words and unconscious comforting gestures. He hadn't realized it, but after she had pulled from his grasp he had grabbed her and placed her in the security of his arms. He held to in his lap, close to his heart as he gently stroked her hair.
"The blood. It won't come off. There's so much of it. Why won't it come off? WHY WON'T IT COME OFF?! I didn't mean to kill them! I DIDN'T! They just kept attacking... they wouldn't leave us alone. Why wouldn't they just leave us alone? Why did I lose control?" she ranted, seemingly forgetting she was being held, or that there was even anyone there.
"What happened, Kagome?" he gently prodded. He was trying his best to comfort her and make sense of what she was saying, but nothing was making much sense to him. He assumed they had been attacked and she lost control defending herself and her sister, but that would not warrant her completely broken state, bordering on insanity. The reaction he received to his question caught him completely off guard.
"NO!" she screamed, "get away from me!" With that, she pushed herself away from the confused inu with a blast of power. Once freed, she once again dropped to the ground, curling in upon herself and sobbed. "Don't look at me! I'm dirty, I'm a monster! I killed them all, I enjoyed it! I enjoyed it! They couldn't defend themselves against me and i enjoyed that. I'm a horrible person, a monster... Oh gods! The blood, it won't come off! Why won't it come off? There's so much of it..."
//I don’t understand anything anymoreIn this world that I’m tired of//
Sesshoumaru stood there for several moments in shock. After the shock faded, he desperately wracked his brain on some way to stop her. She was now staring at her small clawed hands with a look of pure horror upon her face. Her eyes were glazed over, she was reliving it. He needed to find a way to distract her from this. Without thinking, he rushed to her side, and none too gently lifted her to her feet. When she did not acknowledge him, he lifted her face so she was gazing at him and roughly crushed her lips to his. He felt her stiffen for a moment before she relaxed. A smirk formed when he felt her arms slowly wind their way around him and hands tangled into his hair.
His plan worked only for a few moments before she pushed him away once more. Tears were streaming down her cheeks again as she looked at him with such pain filled eyes, it made him want to cry. He, however, being a character of such strong will was able to force the damnable things back. He didn't understand why she could invoke such feelings in him. If he was having difficulty controlling rampant emotions before, he found it doubly so with her next words.
"You don't want me. Please don't do this to me again. You're not real, you died. I saw you," she whispered, shaking her head to herself. "But... but she said... mom said... No! She's wrong!" she said, starting off in a low whisper and then ending in a yell. With a scream of profound rage, she turned her back to him.
//Is taking me right up these wallsThat I climb up //
“Kagome..."
"Stop! Don't say anything! I don't want to hear it, just please leave me alone!"
"Kagome," he said a little bit louder this time, a slight growl lacing his voice.
"No! Please don't do this to me! Don't say it! I love you damn it! I couldn't take it if I heard the words from you!"
"Kagome," he all but yelled. "Stop this!"
"NO! Don't say it!"
//To get to your storyIt’s anything but ordinary//
With a growl, he was standing before her. She had no time to react, he was standing there, staring at her with those intense eyes. She found herself being sucked into the swirling vortex of his soul. A brilliant display of lights flashed before and around her as she was dazzled by the indecipherable secrets of his vast soul. There she learned everything and nothing about him. She could feel every emotion he felt, everything he felt for her in that moment. The feelings she felt emanating from him were profound.
She found herself gazing into his eyes for but a moment before she was pulled out of the comforting haze of colors that was replaced by a sea of black. This void was ineffable compared to the swirling colors she saw but a moment before. She had witnessed the pure part of his soul, the small portion that still lived on in the solitude of banishment; locked deep within his subconscious. The part of his soul that lay before her bare and exposed at this moment was pure black with large spots of gray and small specs of white. This was the part of him that all the world saw and revered him for. This was the cold, emotionless part that ruled his persona.
She had witnessed both extremes of the spectrum of his soul in but a matter of moments before she was pulled back to reality by one of his clawed hands, the tips of his fingers gently tracing their way down her cheek and lovingly gliding to her lips, lingering there. Something shone in his eyes as he gazed upon her, something she couldn't describe. //And when the world is on its knees with me its fineAnd when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind//
She had faced down countless demons without fear. She had looked death in the eye more times than she wished to count without fear. And yet here she stood, facing the man she loved more than life itself. He was staring at her with something indescribable in his eyes and it scared her. It scared her and exhilarated her at the same time. Something shot through her veins that she could not describe. It coiled through her body like a snake, curling in and around itself before it finally settled in the pit of her stomach. There that snake injected the poison of doubt, letting its venom slowly eat away at her soul. It started out as a little drop, but eventually it would grow and fester, something had to be done to prove that unspoken love that she had yet to decipher in his eyes.
"What is it, in your eyes that captivates me so?" she whispered more to herself than him. "What is it that calls to my heart and makes my soul yearn for something i don't know? What spell have you woven with those eyes? There is something you want... don't interrupt me, i know there is. There is something you want from me... what is it? What is it that i possess that makes everyone flock to me, begging me for things that i cannot or will not give? Tell me. Tell me what it is, i want to know!"
Silence reigned as she finished her tirade. The silence fed the poison within her, fueled it like oxygen and wood fuel a fire. A tear came unbidden and slowly slipped its way down from her eyes, an angel fallen from the grace of its heavenly prison of blue.
//Everybody seems to be getting what they need with mine‘Cause your what I need so very but I’m anything but ordinary//
That silence, however was shattered, not by words, but by a gesture so profound it nullified the poison that had been trying to take root in her moment of doubt. He had backed her into a wall she didn't know was there and placed both hands on either side of here, effectively trapping her. With an agonizingly slow pace he inched his way towards her until her was mere inches from her face. He hovered there for a moment, searching her eyes for something only he knew about. Seemingly finding a favorable answer to his unspoken question he closed the distance between the two of them. //I think I’m trying to save the world from youYou’ve been saving me tooWe could just stay in and save each other//
The kiss was agonizingly slow and tender, but through that kiss both poured all of their unspoken love. They found in each other a safe haven in which they could hide for as long as they needed. Slowly they could heal the wounds in each other's hearts and souls. They were soul mates in every sense of the words, just as they were complete opposites. They were an unlikely pair, one of light, the other of dark. Only one could save the other, for they were meant only for each other just as they were destined to do great things with the love they shared. //I’m anything but ordinary (ordinary)I’m anything but ordinary (ordinary)//
~X~
Eight solid pages! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! I haven’t written that much since the first part of Fallen… that was so long ago… almost a year now. Anyhow, I wrote this extra long chapter b/c I felt bad about the wait you guys have been putting up w/. JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND TO KEEP THE REVIEWS COMING!
~Ruby~
It had been several weeks since the incident with Satyr, and both girls had healed and it had been decided that for the sake of their friends and sibling that they would leave the village. During their journey across Japan, they somehow made it back to the village in which Kagome had been training. Her sensei had been more than overjoyed at her return, greeting her and her sister with open arms. It was there that she and her sister learned the basics to harnessing and controlling as well as understanding their powers.
Kagome’s powers were contradictory. She held the purity of a miko and could harness the purity of her soul to purify demons and yet she held dark powers as well. She held within her a miasma attack similar to that of Naraku’s, however she learned that once she could control it, she could dictate who and what it destroyed by shielding whatever she wanted to be kept safe with her miko powers. She also learned how to contain and use her youkai nature at will, much like Sesshoumaru could, being able to call upon her true form whenever she should need it.
Rin’s powers weren’t anywhere near as sinister as her sister’s, nor as powerful in the sense of destruction. Rather, Rin’s powers lied in the art of healing. Not only could she heal wounds of varying severity, being able to bring someone back from the brink of death, but she could detect and heal any kind of disease known to man and youkai. The ability that she had so to speak other than her blood beast to protect herself was her ability to control the elements. She could call on any of the four elements at will to make an escape or protect herself.
Both of the girls learned a lot in their time with their sensei, however their time was cut short when they were attacked by a horde of demons led by their aunt months later. A malicious smirk graced her features as she led the attack, effectively dividing the three. Hours later after the fight was over, Kagome and Rin managed to make their way back to each other, battered and bruised, but all they could find of their master was a pile of ash. The rest of the village they had been living in was decimated, leaving nothing left of it. The corpses of the villagers were effectively torn apart, limbs strewn about the area. This was where the draw backs to Rin's powers became painfully obvious. She could not bring people back from the dead, only from the brink of death. After giving the dead a proper burial, the left the small village and never looked back.
The death of the village and their sensei was a heavy blow to the girls. It was then they decided that they would stay clear of all inhabitance, for it seemed that all they could bring to those around them was pain and death with the enemies they had made. Traveling for many weeks, the looked for somewhere that was far away from life of any kind, to make a home for themselves. They could not live a rootless existence, nor could they live with other people. They could not live with themselves if they brought more death upon innocents.
During their travels, they had at one point crossed a village in their human disguises, but it seemed that there was someone amongst them that recognized them for the youkai that they were. The males of the village had come after the girls brandishing makeshift weapons of all kinds. The last few months had been very stressful especially on Kagome since she had not heard from Sesshoumaru in a very long time. When the villagers attacked, Kagome lost her hard won control, decimating the villagers. It was only after she had reawakened, breathless and bloody, that she realized that she had done. With a sharp cry that bespoke her anguish, she dropped to her knees, sobbing wretchedly. She blacked out again, and it was days later that she was pulled out of the abyss of her despair by her sister, who assured her that all the lives had been saved. Kagome had attached herself to her sister then, sobbing brokenly for hours before she was able to compose herself.
It was a week after that incident, that the girls found themselves a place to build a home, high up in the mountains. There was a small clearing there, surrounded by a lush forest. Not far from where they had built their meager hut, there was conveniently a hot spring where the girls could bathe. They lived a quiet existence, almost peaceful for several more months.
As the time went by, Kagome had heard nothing from Sesshoumaru. The length of his absence stretched out more and more. Eventually Kagome began to lose hope of ever hearing from him again and once that hope was gone, his memory slowly began to deteriorate. Slowly as time wore on, it became almost difficult for her to even recall his name. It wasn't until one night, almost two years later that she was visited by him once more.
~X~
She had just fallen asleep, she knew it, and yet now here she was standing in the forest. There was something achingly familiar about this place and yet she couldn't place her finger on what exactly it was. Slowly turning around in a full circle, she remained aware of her surroundings as she searched for some form of a threat. Finding nothing, she sat there thinking for a moment before she decided to explore the area. Barely making it through the trees, she jumped when she felt leaves brushing against her sensitive wings. When did her human guise fall?
With a snap of her fingers, she tried to conceal her flamed wings and her demonic aura, but found that she could not. She tried again and again and began to panic when she found that she could not conceal her demonic heritage. She tried again and again and was about to fly into a full fledged panic when she heard tinkling laugher that she could only recognize as her mothers and a snort from a male that she could not distinguish.
"Mother!" she cried as the woman slowly made her way out of the foliage. "How did you get here? I thought you were dead!"
"You're dreaming, daughter," she replied with a soft chuckle. A momentary look of confusion crossed Kagome's face before recognition flashed. A beet red flush spread across her cheeks as she moved to embrace the older woman.
"What brings you here mother?"
"We have much we must discuss, daughter. You have been left alone with your sister for so long, you have forgotten your friends. They will need you soon."
"M-my... friends?"
"Yes, Mayoke. There is something on that mountain. It's stealing your most precious of memories. I fear if you stay there longer, you will be lost."
"I have felt nothing, mother."
"But I have. Even here in this realm, i can feel it. You and Rin need to leave. Take nothing with you, for all that resides on that mountain is now tainted. Leave and do not look back. Please do this for me."
"I will do this for you, mother."
"Good. Now i have someone to introduce to you," looking back into the shadows, she silently beckoned the figure hiding in the shadows to come forth. The man who stepped forth from the shadows elicited a gasp from the unsuspecting Kagome.
"Y-you, i know you. Where do i know you from?" she asked no one in particular, searching her mind for memories of the familiar figure but coming up with nothing. His silver hair and pale skin was familiar to her. She recognized the crescent moon upon his brow, but there was something different about it though she could not place it. It didn't look the way it was supposed to. Then she noticed the slight shimmer of a silver design overlapping the dark blue crescent. From her vantage point, no matter how hard she tried to distinguish it, she could not. Continuing her perusal, she found that he had scarlet lines across his cheek bones, his pale skin seemed to glow, but what stood out to her the most were his eyes. His eyes were bright, molten gold, and surrounding the black holes of his pupils was a ring of red.
She blushed slightly, when the object of her perusal raised his delicate silver eyebrow in her direct, indicating his awareness of her admiration. Something foreign and yet achingly familiar flooded her senses, however, she did not have time to analyze it as her mother's voice jolted her out of her thoughts. "This, Kagome, is a friend of mine. I have been training him for months now..."
"He is dead?"
"No, not entirely."
"Then how is he with you?"
"A part of him died, Mayoke. His body died along with a part of his soul, that was replaced by something else. The two halves fought for dominance, but eventually blended. He is dead, but not."
"I don't understand."
"He is one of us, but not. He is like me."
"Like you? Mother, i don't understand. I thought you were born a phoenix."
"He shall be reborn, just as i was before him. He like myself is now only half inu youkai. You, Mayoke, are one quarter inu youkai, however you seemed to have inherited your father's true form. That is your primary spirit form, but should you need it, you can call on your other form."
"How do i call upon it?" she asked, disregarding the raised eyebrows of the male in her presence.
"You will know when the time comes..."
"What of Rin?"
"You will have to help her. Though she is like you, her form will be drastically different from yours, she will need your help."
"I understand mother."
With that, the form of Kyouki, faded from sight, leaving only Kagome and the familiar stranger before her. With the departure of her mother, Kagome turned, though it tore at her to turn her back on the beautiful stranger before her and she knew not why. Just as she was about to walk away, a silk smooth voice called out to her, causing her to stop.
"Wait," that one word from that man was enough to send a delightful trill down her spine. Slowly she turned to him, not knowing what possessed her. Then as if drawn to him magnets of opposing poles, she slowly, tentatively made her way to him.
"Who are you?" she asked before, she realized the words had left her mouth.
//Whose eyes am I behindI don’t recognize anything that I see//
"This Sesshoumaru is disappointed in you, Kagome."
Those words sent a chill down the young woman's spine. "Th-that name. I know that name. Where do i know you from? How do i know you?"
Leaving Kagome's questions unanswered, Sesshoumaru stepped closer until they were mere inches apart. Kagome's heart began pounding in her chest and her breath hitched in her throat as his mere proximity did things to her that she couldn't begin to understand. She looked up into his unusual eyes and found herself drowning in a molten sea of gold. As he leaned closer, she released a breath she didn't know she was holding and closed her eyes with a gentle flutter of her coal black eyelashes.
At the feather soft caress of his lips upon hers, a jolt seared through Kagome's body. Liquid fire spread through her veins as something in her soul ignited and embraced her like a long lost lover. A wave of euphoria washed over her and blanketed her mind as she found the missing piece of her soul and her memories, both cherished and unpleasant returned to her in a rush. One memory surfaced after another, each only fleeting glimpses to times passed, until her mind came to a screeching halt on one set of images.
With that set firmly in mind, the euphoria that had enveloped her was swept away, leaving her feeling cold and hallow. What she had done gripped her for a second time and she pushed herself away from the man she had loved with everything she had and yet didn't realize it. Tears welled in her eyes as she gazed into his eyes, noting the confusion and hurt swimming in those twin suns belying his stoic mask.
Her attention was torn from his silently pleading golden eyes as she looked down at her hands. "So much blood," she whispered, almost to herself. She continued to stare hard at her hands as the scent of blood flooded her olfactory nerve and she realized that her hands were covered in the offensive liquid. Her knees and hands began to shake, causing her to drop to the ground. A tortured scream escaped her as tears welled and overflowed. "Why?" she screamed as she tried to rub the blood off of her hands in the grass. "It won't come off, it won't come off," she stated in a panicked whisper as she began to hyperventilate.
//Whose skin is this designI don’t want this to be the way that you see me//
Sesshoumaru looked on at this all, confusion evident in his posture now. Her words made no sense. When she began to wipe her hands on the grass and hyperventilate, he came to a decision he didn't know he was hesitating to make. Swiftly moving to her, he knelt down and gently grasped her hands. "Stop this," he whispered. He was surprised when she looked up at him with tortured eyes, and tore her hands from his grasp.
"It won't come off," she whispered.
"What won't come off?" he asked gently, as if addressing a child who just woke from a nightmare, quietly coaxing with soft words and unconscious comforting gestures. He hadn't realized it, but after she had pulled from his grasp he had grabbed her and placed her in the security of his arms. He held to in his lap, close to his heart as he gently stroked her hair.
"The blood. It won't come off. There's so much of it. Why won't it come off? WHY WON'T IT COME OFF?! I didn't mean to kill them! I DIDN'T! They just kept attacking... they wouldn't leave us alone. Why wouldn't they just leave us alone? Why did I lose control?" she ranted, seemingly forgetting she was being held, or that there was even anyone there.
"What happened, Kagome?" he gently prodded. He was trying his best to comfort her and make sense of what she was saying, but nothing was making much sense to him. He assumed they had been attacked and she lost control defending herself and her sister, but that would not warrant her completely broken state, bordering on insanity. The reaction he received to his question caught him completely off guard.
"NO!" she screamed, "get away from me!" With that, she pushed herself away from the confused inu with a blast of power. Once freed, she once again dropped to the ground, curling in upon herself and sobbed. "Don't look at me! I'm dirty, I'm a monster! I killed them all, I enjoyed it! I enjoyed it! They couldn't defend themselves against me and i enjoyed that. I'm a horrible person, a monster... Oh gods! The blood, it won't come off! Why won't it come off? There's so much of it..."
//I don’t understand anything anymoreIn this world that I’m tired of//
Sesshoumaru stood there for several moments in shock. After the shock faded, he desperately wracked his brain on some way to stop her. She was now staring at her small clawed hands with a look of pure horror upon her face. Her eyes were glazed over, she was reliving it. He needed to find a way to distract her from this. Without thinking, he rushed to her side, and none too gently lifted her to her feet. When she did not acknowledge him, he lifted her face so she was gazing at him and roughly crushed her lips to his. He felt her stiffen for a moment before she relaxed. A smirk formed when he felt her arms slowly wind their way around him and hands tangled into his hair.
His plan worked only for a few moments before she pushed him away once more. Tears were streaming down her cheeks again as she looked at him with such pain filled eyes, it made him want to cry. He, however, being a character of such strong will was able to force the damnable things back. He didn't understand why she could invoke such feelings in him. If he was having difficulty controlling rampant emotions before, he found it doubly so with her next words.
"You don't want me. Please don't do this to me again. You're not real, you died. I saw you," she whispered, shaking her head to herself. "But... but she said... mom said... No! She's wrong!" she said, starting off in a low whisper and then ending in a yell. With a scream of profound rage, she turned her back to him.
//Is taking me right up these wallsThat I climb up //
“Kagome..."
"Stop! Don't say anything! I don't want to hear it, just please leave me alone!"
"Kagome," he said a little bit louder this time, a slight growl lacing his voice.
"No! Please don't do this to me! Don't say it! I love you damn it! I couldn't take it if I heard the words from you!"
"Kagome," he all but yelled. "Stop this!"
"NO! Don't say it!"
//To get to your storyIt’s anything but ordinary//
With a growl, he was standing before her. She had no time to react, he was standing there, staring at her with those intense eyes. She found herself being sucked into the swirling vortex of his soul. A brilliant display of lights flashed before and around her as she was dazzled by the indecipherable secrets of his vast soul. There she learned everything and nothing about him. She could feel every emotion he felt, everything he felt for her in that moment. The feelings she felt emanating from him were profound.
She found herself gazing into his eyes for but a moment before she was pulled out of the comforting haze of colors that was replaced by a sea of black. This void was ineffable compared to the swirling colors she saw but a moment before. She had witnessed the pure part of his soul, the small portion that still lived on in the solitude of banishment; locked deep within his subconscious. The part of his soul that lay before her bare and exposed at this moment was pure black with large spots of gray and small specs of white. This was the part of him that all the world saw and revered him for. This was the cold, emotionless part that ruled his persona.
She had witnessed both extremes of the spectrum of his soul in but a matter of moments before she was pulled back to reality by one of his clawed hands, the tips of his fingers gently tracing their way down her cheek and lovingly gliding to her lips, lingering there. Something shone in his eyes as he gazed upon her, something she couldn't describe. //And when the world is on its knees with me its fineAnd when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind//
She had faced down countless demons without fear. She had looked death in the eye more times than she wished to count without fear. And yet here she stood, facing the man she loved more than life itself. He was staring at her with something indescribable in his eyes and it scared her. It scared her and exhilarated her at the same time. Something shot through her veins that she could not describe. It coiled through her body like a snake, curling in and around itself before it finally settled in the pit of her stomach. There that snake injected the poison of doubt, letting its venom slowly eat away at her soul. It started out as a little drop, but eventually it would grow and fester, something had to be done to prove that unspoken love that she had yet to decipher in his eyes.
"What is it, in your eyes that captivates me so?" she whispered more to herself than him. "What is it that calls to my heart and makes my soul yearn for something i don't know? What spell have you woven with those eyes? There is something you want... don't interrupt me, i know there is. There is something you want from me... what is it? What is it that i possess that makes everyone flock to me, begging me for things that i cannot or will not give? Tell me. Tell me what it is, i want to know!"
Silence reigned as she finished her tirade. The silence fed the poison within her, fueled it like oxygen and wood fuel a fire. A tear came unbidden and slowly slipped its way down from her eyes, an angel fallen from the grace of its heavenly prison of blue.
//Everybody seems to be getting what they need with mine‘Cause your what I need so very but I’m anything but ordinary//
That silence, however was shattered, not by words, but by a gesture so profound it nullified the poison that had been trying to take root in her moment of doubt. He had backed her into a wall she didn't know was there and placed both hands on either side of here, effectively trapping her. With an agonizingly slow pace he inched his way towards her until her was mere inches from her face. He hovered there for a moment, searching her eyes for something only he knew about. Seemingly finding a favorable answer to his unspoken question he closed the distance between the two of them. //I think I’m trying to save the world from youYou’ve been saving me tooWe could just stay in and save each other//
The kiss was agonizingly slow and tender, but through that kiss both poured all of their unspoken love. They found in each other a safe haven in which they could hide for as long as they needed. Slowly they could heal the wounds in each other's hearts and souls. They were soul mates in every sense of the words, just as they were complete opposites. They were an unlikely pair, one of light, the other of dark. Only one could save the other, for they were meant only for each other just as they were destined to do great things with the love they shared. //I’m anything but ordinary (ordinary)I’m anything but ordinary (ordinary)//
~X~
Eight solid pages! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! I haven’t written that much since the first part of Fallen… that was so long ago… almost a year now. Anyhow, I wrote this extra long chapter b/c I felt bad about the wait you guys have been putting up w/. JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND TO KEEP THE REVIEWS COMING!
~Ruby~