InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fallen ❯ Brother's Love ( Chapter 4 )

NIGHT FOUR: BROTHER'S LOVE


The morning was bright and clear when Inuyasha woke up from his slumber. Sesshoumaru had already got up and left the bedroom. Inuyasha wandered out of the hut. His brother's warmth still lingered on him. Inuyasha hugged himself with his arms. Strange, he felt peaceful with Sesshoumaru. For years, they had been fighting and battling, especially over his sword-Tetsusaiga.

There was something familiar with his warmth, something long time ago…. Something he could not remember…….

Birds chirped on the tree tops and flew playfully amidst the branches. Inuyasha strolled through the greenery, trying to recall the strange thoughts that had shot through his mind earlier.

Then he remembered the hunting incident the night before. What had happened to him then? Sesshoumaru must have known something about it, especially the way he had reacted when the youkai attacked him. Inuyasha tried to leap up to a high branch, but he only managed to jump up a short distance before falling back onto the ground with a trump. The distance was too low for a hanyou's strength. He swung his claw at a tree; only a few swallow scratches were drawn on the bark.

His youkai strength was gone.

"You are awakened." A usual same cold voice suddenly appeared behind his back.

"Nii-chan," Inuyasha responded, swaying his face to face his elder brother.

"We are going hunting," Sesshoumaru said shortly and turned to go, hinting Inuyasha to follow him.

"Nii-chan." Inuyasha called.

"Yes?" Sesshoumaru neither stop nor turn his face. He continued walking.

"You know something about the disappearance of my youkai power, don't you? What are you hiding from me?"

Sesshoumaru paused, but did not turn: "Naraku caused it, that's all I know. What else do you want to know?"

"Nothing more…" Inuyasha muttered, assuming that Sesshoumaru knew as little as him.

"When I say I will not let Naraku touch you, I will keep my promise."

"Keh, what a joke! When did I say I need protection from you?!" Inuyasha jumped up in rage at Sesshoumaru.

"Inuyasha!" Sesshoumaru called out sternly.

"And when my stupid power disappear forever, does that means that I have to hide forever behind for you, begging for your pity and your protection?"

"Inuyasha," This time, Sesshoumaru turned to face Inuyasha's direction.

Inuyasha was shaking with rage and anger. He reached out his hands and grabbed Sesshoumaru by his collar: "So that I'll forever be mocked by you and your little toad servant-Jaken??!!"

"Will you cool yourself down?" Sesshoumaru continued calmly, ignoring Inuyasha's shaking hands grabbing on his collar.

"I have MORE IMPORTANT things to do than to follow behind your ass, Nii-chan Sama!!"

"How important can it be? Protecting your friends?"

"YES, YES, YES!!!" Inuyasha almost screamed into Sesshoumaru's face: "Because it's all Naraku's plot!! He is trying to lure me away from them so that he can attack them and steal the rest of shikon no tama shards!!!"

"You seem to forget something very important about yesterday's matter, my dear brother." Sesshoumaru said.

"What?"

"Naraku's main aim was to get you, not your friends. I suggest you staying out of troubles until you get better."

Inuyasha stopped shaking his elder brother's collar and stared at him with his bright golden eyes.

"Why are you showing so much concern for me, Nii-chan?"

"Do you need to know that?"

"I understand. When I've become a full youkai, I'll accept your challenge to battle." Inuyasha sighed.

"Is that what you think?" Sesshoumaru growled angrily.

"Then what else can it be?…….." Inuyasha snapped and stopped short. There was something burning in Sesshoumaru's eyes. Something he had never seen before. Quick as lightning, a pair of clawed hands clasped tight onto his cheeks as Sesshoumaru bended forward and kissed Inuyasha full on his lips.

'Nii-chan…….?' Inuyasha gasped in surprise. Pulling his face from Sesshoumaru's, he wriggled quickly, trying to break away from Sesshoumaru's grip.

"I will not let anyone else touch you again, Inuyasha," Sesshoumaru said, holding onto Inuyasha tighter and rubbed his hips closer against Inuyasha's, pressing his soft body against his own.

"Wai-wait a minute, wha-what does this mean, Nii-chan? This… this isn't right…..we are brothers!" Inuyasha managed to breath as he held up his arms between his and his elder brother's chest. His breath was growing short and fast.

"This is not a joke and I am very serious about it." Sesshoumaru continued before planting another kiss on Inuyasha's soft lips. Inuyasha shuddered as he felt his elder brother's warm body pressing hard against his. Sesshoumaru roamed his hands on Inuyasha's long smooth hair and stroked his furry ears. One hand finally rested on Inuyasha's butt to pull his lower body against his. Inuyasha could feel his brother's groin pressing against his.

"I………….. I …………….." Inuyasha stammered uneasily. A faint pinkish colour ran across his cheeks as he tried to look away.

Pulling his hands from his body, Inuyasha suddenly broke free from Sesshoumaru's hold and leaped a little distance aside.

"Gomen ne, Nii-chan," Inuyasha tried to keep his voice calm: "I.. I'm not too sure what are you thinking, but I'm not too ready to accept that yet…." Shaking his head, he ran off into the forest.

His long hair flew along with the wind as he ran among the luxurious green forest. What am I thinking? What am I thinking? Doshite? Why does my heart beat so much when my elder brother hugs and kisses me? Why?

Inuyasha thought as he ran.

For years, he only felt depressed whenever Sesshoumaru attacked and tried to kill him. After he finally showered concerns for him, Inuyasha felt a great surge of relief and happiness, some feeling he could not tell. This feeling was something different from friendship with Miroku and Toutousai. He assumed it was just a simple brotherly love for Sesshoumaru. The warmth of his brother's body still lingered on his flesh. Inuyasha fingered his hands over the areas where he had touched and ran a hand over his lips. A feeling of sweetness ran through his veins. He touched his lips, he was actually feeling happy for Sesshoumaru's action deep inside, though he refused to admit.

What does this mean? He could not tell. He simply couldn't tell.

Inuyasha was confused, utterly confused.

This was wrong, very wrong.

Maybe Sesshoumaru just wanted to take me as a temporary toy, Inuyasha tried to reassure himself, but he could not decide. What about Kikyou and Kagome? He could not remove their existence, his love for them from his mind. He needed to think.


For a few days, Inuyasha traveled around the place, giving himself excuses to avoid his elder brother for several days while he sat thinking about his affairs, sometimes on the top of a cliff and sometimes on a branch in the forest. Sesshoumaru did not interfere him, probably feeling guilty for kissing him out of the sudden without asking for his consent.


It was a warm afternoon.

Like usual, Inuyasha returned back to the hut. It was two weeks after he left his group. He decided to inform Sesshoumaru of his departure to return to his friends to seek their understandings. He passed by the waterfall.

The roars of water splashed down as he passed by. Something caught his attention. Someone was sinking his body naked in the water.

Sesshoumaru. His elder brother, his Nii-chan.

Inuyasha approached his direction. Yes, bid farewell to him as fast as possible. Don't let them both have any chance to show surges of feelings, emotions before he left for his friends.

"Nii-chan!!" Inuyasha called, trying to shout against the roaring spring water, to tell Sesshoumaru of his decision and leave the place immediately on the spot.

Sesshoumaru did not move and continued staying submerged below the falling water. Inuyasha frowned. This was unlikely for his full youkai brother not to catch his shouting with his unusual sharp sense of hearing.

"Nii-chan!" Inuyasha shouted again and stepped closer to the edge of the spring.

Without seeing how he moved, Sesshoumaru suddenly appeared at the bank, grabbed Inuyasha by his waist and pulled him into the water with him. Inuyasha gave a yelp of surprise as he felt cold water surged forcefully around him, soaking him wet.

"Don't leave me." Sesshoumaru panted as he hugged Inuyasha close in his arms and nibbled on his lips and soft neck ferociously, leaving several bite marks on him.

"I…. I…. Nii-chan…" Inuyasha gasped as he felt his brother's fangs ran all over him, hurting his skin and his lips, piercing him. He tasted blood. Odd, he felt good.

Sesshoumaru's pull forced both of them sinking into the water. The light white fabric on Inuyasha's body and his long snowy hair floated around him mysteriously like white mist as the green water encircled them, reminding Inuyasha of the ice palace that his mother had told him in his bed time stories.

Sesshoumaru moved his head closer and pressed his lips against Inuyasha's, kissing Inuyasha in the water. Inuyasha's lips parted and let him in. Turning and whirling in the water, they kissed; their tongues sparred fiercely in Inuyasha's mouth.

Inuyasha shuddered; his body could not withstand the high pressure in the water and the lack of oxygen. Sesshoumaru knew. Holding Inuyasha by his waist, he pulled his brother out to the water surface and pinned his younger brother's back against the freezing water bank. His lips parted from Inuyasha's and he examined his younger brother.

Inuyasha looked unusually beautiful. His long wet hair that fell over his shoulder shone under the hot sun. His white fabric that sticked wetly on his fair skin was now translucent, revealing his smooth and young skin in beneath. He gazed back at his elder brother with his bright beautiful eyes. There was a mixed and indecisive glint in his golden eyes. Seductive.

"Nii-chan….." Inuyasha whispered. Sesshoumaru ran his hands on Inuyasha's wet hair and cheeks, and then he touched Inuyasha's moist, slender lips. He moved forward and bit Inuyasha's neck gently, careful to leave marks but not injuring him with his sharp fangs. Inuyasha whimpered softly.

Sesshoumaru snaked his arms around Inuyasha and his fingers roamed, massaging every part of Inuyasha's flesh. Inuyasha shivered at his touch, especially when he felt his brother's fingers running on his thighs, almost touching his private place.

"Sesshoumaru…….." Inuyasha moaned, moving his hands against his brother's naked chest, hoping to stop his action, but the other side of him hesitated and he only managed to place his hands on his brother's chest lightly, but no further actions were taken.

"Call my name, don't stop," Sesshoumaru breathed heavily as he ripped Inuyasha's sash harshly off his kimono and dragged his collar down below his shoulder, revealing his smooth chest and fair skin. He suckled on Inuyasha's nipple gently, forcing further whimpers from his brother. He licked and nibbled harshly on the tips of the hardened nipples.

"Nii…." Inuyasha began, Sesshoumaru paused: "Don't call me nii-chan, call my name." He resumed his sucking and sucked him on his soft neck again.

Inuyasha shuddered again. No, it wasn't right, but yet he was enjoying it.

Inuyasha's body was still half submerged in the water. Picking him up in his arms easily, Sesshoumaru lifted Inuyasha out of the water and placed him lying on the cold hard ground, crawling on top of him still naked. He grabbed Inuyasha's knees and pulled his legs wide apart in an M-shape, crawling between them. Inuyasha caught sight of Sesshoumaru's large manhood dangling above him and he blushed fiercely and turned his face away. Sesshoumaru's face hovered close above Inuyasha's hip and his hair fell downwards, tickling Inuyasha's body.

Got to do something about it.

"Wear something, Nii-chan," Inuyasha finally managed to say.

"No and do not call me Nii-chan," came Sesshoumaru's short reply.

He nuzzled his lips across Inuyasha's body, and ran his tongue around his bellybutton with the fabric in between. Lowering his head, he pulled the white kimono further down and caressed Inuyasha's shivering sides with his roaming claws. Inuyasha's skin was so smooth, so soft, so silky and so youthful like the baby's skin….. He wanted to enjoy every moment of feeling and tasting Inuyasha.

"Nii-….. Sesshou…..maru….." Inuyasha whimpered, breathing heavily. Sesshoumaru undid Inuyasha's pants and pulled them till below his knees and placed his head between Inuyasha's thighs, his hair falling over the smooth thighs. Blushing even fiercer, Inuyasha stared helplessly as Sesshoumaru ran his rough tongue along the lumps on his soft crotch. Inuyasha's fingers tightened in Sesshoumaru's hair just below his stomach. His tongue was so rough…… so firm…… And the warm sensation of his licking round his manhood so real……. Inuyasha felt himself beginning to harden.

Suddenly, a surge of fear crept through Inuyasha's blood. He remembered Naraku. Naraku had done that to him before. His thighs tightened around Sesshoumaru's head abruptly. He looked up, studying Inuyasha's face.

"Why are you feeling so frightened?" Sesshoumaru suddenly asked.

"I… I …." Inuyasha stammered uneasily.

"Your eyes, they told me." Sesshoumaru stopped abruptly and stood up. He started to walk away.

"Wait, chotto matte, what is the meaning of this, Sesshoumaru??!!!" Inuyasha screamed behind his elder brother, his voice filled with anger. Sesshoumaru did not stop or turn back as he disappeared into the hut.

Burning with humiliation and rage, Inuyasha pulled his pants up and drew his collar back, preparing to leave---immediately. Sesshoumaru was too much! So, he was treating his little brother like a sex toy in the first place. Inuyasha decided to leave and never, ever step into this place again.

He ran and he ran fast. Maybe he was not fated to live in this world at all. Sesshoumaru DID hate hanyous after all. Tears welled up in Inuyasha's eyes as stretching branches cut his clothes and skin. He did not care. Hanyous are not fated to live a normal life like youkai and human beings. He could not seek shelter as easily and convenient like what Kagome, Miroku and Sango did because humans fear hanyous' abnormal appearance and he had to withstand the sarcastic eyes of all youkai.

Hanyous must be condemned to the darkest part of the world, maybe hell. Hanyous are dirty, are dirt in the eyes of everyone. Hanyous are impure half-breeds. Hanyous do not deserve concerns and care from anyone, anybody.

Inuyasha panted as he ran. He felt blood seeping through his cuts, but it was no longer important. Nothing was more hurt than the wounds in his heart.


Just then, he felt everything started to whirl around him. He felt weak. Weak? Good, it'll be better if I can die right here immediately, Inuyasha thought as he fell down. A pair of arms grabbed him from behind before his head reached the ground.

Everything turned black………


Sesshoumaru stepped into the hut. He grabbed his clothes and put them on. Lifting his hands, he stared at his palms. The soft sensation of Inuyasha's body still lingered. And… the fear in his eyes…… Was I too rush on him? Sesshoumaru thought as he touched his own lips. Inuyasha's lips were sweet. He wanted to taste his younger brother again.

He had been watching his brother throughout the first two weeks of his stay, whether he was standing on the cliff against the evening sun or sitting on a tree branch. Inuyasha's snowy hair flew and swayed in the strong wind as his figure stood against the blood-red light of the evening sun as he looked afar. He was always thinking deeply to himself. His vanishing youkai power had prevented him from realizing his brother's presence nearby.

That was good. At least, he could watch his brother's beauty every time he desired without his knowing. He had believed he could control himself after the time he first kissed Inuyasha on his lips out of his sudden surge of passion. Unfortunately, the more he watched his brother at close proximity, the more he desired to take him.

"….But… we are brothers!!"

"Wear something, Nii-chan" Inuyasha's shivering voice kept ringing in his mind.

Sesshoumaru could feel the intense fear in Inuyasha's eyes.

Inuyasha must be very frightened by now. He would most probably run off by himself to look for his friends. He might run into Naraku who would most likely take him again.

Sesshoumaru's eyebrows narrowed. He would not let this happen.


Very swiftly, he ran out of the hut, sniffing Inuyasha's scent into the forest. He was just in time to see Inuyasha stumbling towards the ground. Flying forward, he caught his brother into his arms. He was surprised to find him so small and light in his arms although he had carried him several times. He remembered Naraku's words. Strong emotions and feelings might have caused him to faint and probably for the curse to activate faster.


Inuyasha's eyes fluttered open slowly. Light invaded his eyes. Holding up a hand, he tried to shield his eyes from the brightness. A dark figure loomed before his eyes, blocking off the light. Sesshoumaru, his nii-chan again. Why must he always appear every time when Inuyasha thought he was going to die? Why must he always help him when he lost all hopes? Why?

"Doushite………" Inuyasha whispered weakly, surprised of his frailness in his voice. His eyes soon adjusted to the brightness and he slowly pulled his hand back. He saw Sesshoumaru's eyes widened slightly in surprise and soon resumed back to normal in less than a flash, but Inuyasha had already seen it.

'Why does he look at me like that?' Inuyasha thought in shock. Forcefully, he tried to pull himself from the mattress, to grab a mirror, to look at his face, but failed.

"What happened to me?" Inuyasha scowled impatiently in a weak manner.

Sesshoumaru thought: 'The reaction is fast.' The golden glint in Inuyasha's eyes had diminished, replaced by violet grey iris. His eyes were turning more human-like. So it was true after all, strong emotions did accelerate his pace to become more human.

"Tell me!" Inuyasha almost screamed: "WHAT HAPPENED TO ME???!!!"

"You are turning more human." Sesshoumaru replied gruffly: "Stay here until you change back to normal. We are brothers. You can look for your woman and your friends after everything's over." He got up and went towards the door: "Rest well."

"Wait."

Sesshoumaru stopped: "What is it?"

"About…. About our relations…."

"Go back to your wrench after everything's over. I will not touch you anymore." Sesshoumaru said. This was against his will. He wanted to touch Inuyasha again, but Inuyasha's frightened face and his frail figure kept appearing in his mind. He did not want Naraku's curse to realize so fast.

He needed to buy time to come up a scheme to stop this from happening.

Inuyasha watched his brother's faltering figure. Maybe this was the best solution, to stay as brothers, to show concerns in a more brotherly way. Inuyasha sighed. Something sunk in his heart. Disappointment?

Maybe. But this will be over soon, after he had Naraku's blood run cold on his hands. Then, he would resume his life with his friends as usual.


Little did he know, his wish would never be realised------for eternity.

tbc