InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Falling Away ❯ Fading Silver ( Chapter 27 )

(Chapter 27) Fading Silver

 

(Sesshoumaru's POV)

 

 

I turned to face him only to see him boldly staring at me across the length of the bathing pool. We stood there, eyes locked for a few moments before a smirk crossed his features and he suddenly dove back into the water. He covered the distance fast enough to startle me. When he climbed out of the pool in front of me, I felt that fog roll back in. Touch. Taste. Enjoy. Here we go with this again, but as much as that voice annoys me, I had to admit, I liked its line of thought.

 

“Don't you want to clean up before you eat?” he asked as he busies himself with trying to disrobe me. “You know you have way too much on.”

“Do I now?”

“Yes, but you won't for long if I have my way.”

“I do not think this is a good idea.”

“Well then I suggest you not think,” He replied as he stood on his toes and brought his lips to meet mine. In minutes I went from protesting to helping him toss my clothes aside.

 

I'm not exactly sure how I ended up in the water with Inuyasha on my lap and his legs wrapped around my waist, but I really didn't care. He was making the most delicious little sounds I'd ever heard as I kissed, licked and nibbled my way down his neck toward his collarbone. It didn't take much of this before his body was alternating between writhing and shivering. I knew what he needed, he needed release, and I was just trying to figure out the best way to do this without taking things too far.

 

I slid my hand between our bodies and gently wrapped my hand around his erection. This caused him to cease all action and lean forward and place his head on my shoulder panting. After his breathing slowed a little, he brought his lips close to my ear and whispered, “Please… I want… need…”

 

“I know,” I replied by releasing my hold on his manhood. I then began to unwrap his legs slowly from my waist. He looked at me confused. I motioned for him to follow me as I swam toward a ledge. Once seated, I pulled him between my legs with his back to my chest. I could tell by the way he was squirming he was ready for me to get on with it, but it was far too much fun watching him to rush things.

 

I was about to embark on my own personal mission to give him what he needed when that damn voice spoke up again. Mark. Protect. Let all know he is yours. Again I found myself agreeing with this voice, but I was not sure how to do this with our current limitations. As if in response to my musing I felt my youkai flare and the scent I emit increase tenfold. I sat there amazed as my scent seemed to be determined to overwhelm his.

 

He came out of his lust driven fog to comment on this occurrence.

 

“What the hells going on Ru?”

 

I refused to admit I had no idea, so I stayed silent.

 

“Uh Ru…?” he stammered as he pulled away and turned to face me. When I remained silent he started to move further away.

 

This was not something my youkai was willing to allow. My hand shot out and placed his upper arm in a grip of steel. Startled he looked up at me with what was initially irritation, but whatever kind of look I gave him quickly made him rethink his temperament and he stopped dead in his tracks. He asked his next question in a tone that was bordering on submissive fear.

 

“Ru, what's going on? What are you doing?”

“You are mine,” I stated in a firm tone that was foreign to even my ears.

“Uh…okay,” He muttered as he slowly tried to back away. I responded by pulling him to me with an urgency and aggression that even I was surprised by and growled out a single word, “MINE.”

 

 

 

(Inuyasha's POV)

 

 

I was firmly in the middle of having my way with Ru and not having a care in the world when suddenly I noticed all I could smell was him. No lingering scents of servants, not the earthy smell coming off the rocks and the water, not even me. Now that's when I decided I needed to find out what was going on. So I asked him, “What the hell's going on Ru?”

 

When he gave no answer I felt a weird mix of panic and excitement welling in my stomach and overcoming my mind. He was really starting to weird me out. I kept staring at him waiting for an answer, but none came. I started backing away from him; it was at that point that things got even weirder.

 

In less time than it took to blink he had my arm in a death grip giving me this look that just screamed `you are not to move'. It was then that I again asked him what was going on and what he was doing. I heard the uncertainty in my voice and for the life of me I couldn't seem to think clearly or move quickly. Any other time I would have been out of the water and across the room in no time flat; now it was all I could do to keep my knees from buckling.

 

He looked at me for a long time and finally responded with, “You are mine.”

And all I could do was say, “Uh…okay.” as I tried once again to back away from him. Apparently he was still in no mood for me to try and have any say in this situation; because he then pulled me to him with enough speed to make my head spin and growled out the word mine.

 

I tried to will my body to move and found it would not, I almost felt betrayed in a sense, and soon a feeling of near panic rose in me that had me fighting to just continue standing. Then when I had had almost all I could take, this voice spoke to me. Relax. Submit.

 

What the hell is this, now I'm hearing voices? What is he doing to me? I want it to stop till I get an answer. The bond. For protection. Claiming. Okay so I guess this has to do with this whole mating thing. But I don't need protection, and what if I don't want to be claimed. I am someone, not something. I never want to be treated like someone's possession ever again. This caused my brain to go back and forth with how I felt about doing this. The internal struggle did not last long before I felt the last of my resistance drain and my legs give out.

 

When they did, Ru caught me and when I looked up at him I noticed his eyes rapidly flickering from amber to red. By this time my head was absolutely swimming, between the confusion and this weird thing he was doing with his scent, I had had enough. I felt my mind going numb and the edges of my vision go dark. Not wanting to screw things up for once in my life, I decided to try and diffuse the situation instead of changing it to my liking. All while praying I would get answers for this later.

 

Slowly I relaxed my body then I reached out and slid the back of my hand down the stripes on his cheek and said, “Easy there Ru. Everything's fine. I am going nowhere.” The heavy scent in the room became almost tangible and seemed to close in on me. Then as quick as it all began, it was over and I found myself looking into eyes that seemed to be as confused as I felt.

 

“Inuyasha?” He spoke my name with obvious question in his voice. “I did not m… you have no reason to be startled,” He finished.

“If that's your flimsy attempt at an apology after getting all weird on me, apology accepted,” I said as I moved away from him to climb out of the water. “What in the world were you trying to do a minute ago?” I asked as I sniffed and sniffed trying to find my own scent outside of his and was surprised to discover I smelled more like him than I did myself. Not happy with this I glared at him.

 

“And just what was that look for Inuyasha?”

“I don't smell like me anymore, I smell like you. So again I will ask what did you do and why?”

 

He didn't say anything he just stood there staring at me.

 

“Fine, I guess since you did not answer it means either (a) I'm not worthy of knowing or (b) You have no idea.”

“This has nothing to do with your worth Inuyasha.”

“Well I guess that leaves you not having a clue what the hell just went on.”

 

I didn't mean to come across as flippantly as I did but he scared the shit out me just a minute ago. Not that I would ever admit it out loud, but jeez, he didn't really think I wouldn't question all of this did he? You can't go from making out one minute to that kind of weird crap in the next and not raise questions. I was about to say something else but when I turned around I saw true expression on his face for the first time in ages. He looked angry and confused. I quickly decided to dress in silence.

 

I was fully clothed for a number of minutes and he still had not moved to get out of the water. Inwardly sighing I decided to try my best to be nice and understanding, by changing the subject.

 

“We'll figure this out later Ru. Come on out and lets go eat.”

 

His head snapped up, the expression disappeared and he narrowed his eyes at me.

 

“I am not some child who needs his hand held, Inuyasha, and it should be obvious I will exit the bath when I am ready,” He bit back.

“Oh come on Ru, quit being such a hard ass! I'm sorry, alright? I didn't mean to hurt your feelings back there with what I said. I just don't want to think about it right now so let's go eat.”

 

He folded his arms across his chest and donned that all too familiar lack of expression and replied, “Am I to assume that you actually believe you of all people are capable of such a thing? My feelings, hurt by you? Do not pat yourself on the back.”

 

Stunned that he could go from making out with me, to trying to control me, to down right insulting me in such a small span of time, I just stood there with shock written all over my face. What the hell has happened to him in the last hour? We have gotten along without a hitch since I got here months ago and now as soon as it looks like we're getting close, and I do mean real close, he pulls this shit! Did I do something wrong? No wait when I thought I might have, I said I was sorry only to have those words thrown back in my face hard enough to sting.

 

“Fine have it your way Sesshoumaru! I will take me and my assumptions to the dining hall and you can find someone of importance to eat your fucking lunch with. I have put up with a lot of crap in my life but I absolutely WILL NOT have your tongue down my throat one minute only have you lash me with it the next.” I all but screamed as I turned on my heels and headed out the room like a man being chased. And in a sense I was being chased; chased by his cold attitude and his biting words.

 

I knew I had every right to be upset with him but for some reason the further I got away from him the worse I felt. I was only halfway down the eastern corridor when I felt my eyes starting to burn. I refused to cry. I absolutely refused to. I was well on my way to working myself into an emotional frenzy when I all but ran over Tibade.

 

“I was just coming to check on you my Lord, I would have been there sooner but I had quite the time dodging Jaken. Is everything alright?” he asked as he took in what had to be my obvious distress, regardless I responded with a half hearted `yeah' that even I didn't believe.

 

“Well you sure don't seem or act like it,” He replied “You want to talk about it?”

“Yes…no…I…You can tell that self centered hypocritical royal shit back there, he can kiss my ass!! I will find out my own damned answers to this whole scent thing and I will do my best to not ever assume I am more than a mere pest to him!”

“And after all that you still insist on everything being alright? I am somehow not convinced.”

 

Suddenly I felt as if I hadn't rested in years, my vision was getting hazy and for the second time that day my knees went weak. I was seconds away from just plopping down in floor where I stood, when I felt myself being led to the right.

 

“Come in here and sit down my Lord and tell me what has you so feeling so hurt.”

 

Was it that obvious?

 

Despite myself, once we were behind closed doors I found myself telling the older demon everything that had happened. And I was just this side of being a blubbering mess by the time I was through. I just sat there on a bench in the unused room panting and wishing it would all go away. I was way too tired for this right now anyway; all I wanted to do was sleep.

 

(Sesshoumaru's POV)

 

This situation got way out of hand, and I have no one to blame but myself. I have no idea why that one little phrase caused me to become so unhinged.

 

“Well I guess that leaves you not having a clue what the hell just went on.”

 

That phrase seemed to play over and over in my head. The entire time he was standing there outside the water it played mercilessly in my mind until I was ready to scream. I was angry, not at him but at myself because what he said was true. I had no idea what was happening or why, and that is not a feeling I am accustomed to. I was trying my best to make this feeling of confused helplessness go away when he made it obvious that he knew how distraught this was making me and for some reason that was the last straw.

 

“We'll figure this out later Ru. Come on out and lets go eat.”

 

I know he was just trying to make the best of a tense and awkward situation, but for whatever reason that fact seemed to make it worse. So I did what was clearly the most unintelligent thing to do. I snapped at him.

 

“I am not some child who needs his hand held Inuyasha, and it should be obvious I will exit the bath when I am ready.”

 

He even let that slide and still tried to do something to placate my wounded ego.

 

“Oh come on Ru quit being such a hard ass! I'm sorry alright? I didn't mean to hurt your feelings back there with what I said. I just don't want to think about it right now so let's go eat.”

 

But there was something about him verbally acknowledging what I was not even willing to admit to myself that sent me over the edge. I'm not sure if it was the fact that I was like and open book to him at that moment or what. I really have no clear idea what was irritating me so badly, but I again made the wrong decision and used the wrong words.

 

“Am I to assume that you actually believe you of all people are capable of such a thing? My feelings, hurt by you? Do not pat yourself on the back.”

 

The moment it was out I, for the first time in my life, wanted to take each and every single word back. He looked completely and utterly crestfallen. It probably would have been less of a shock if I had slapped him soundly across the face. I wanted to say something, anything to make this situation better. But I could not; I just stood there and watched an onslaught of emotions play across his face. Calm. Mend. Protect bond. I wanted to do this, but it was almost as if I was frozen where I stood with anything worth saying locked inside my mind or stuck in my throat. When I looked at him again all of that confusion and hurt playing across his face had company. And company's name was anger.

 

“Fine have it your way Sesshoumaru!”

 

The use of my full name stung at that moment like no other insult had ever dared.

 

“I will take me and my assumptions to the dining hall and you can find someone of importance to eat your fucking lunch with. I have put up with a lot of crap in my life but I absolutely WILL NOT have your tongue down my throat one minute only have you lash me with it the next.”

 

When he turned to leave and leave he did, I wanted nothing more than to rip my own tongue out. Now what? I asked myself and loathed the sound of the question in my own mind. I had no response and I stood there in the water mentally kicking myself for it.

 

I needed time and space to think this out. I am overdue for a good patrol of my lands as it is and now seems like the perfect time to remedy that.

 

(Tibade's POV)

 

Yes there is definitely discord in the house of the Western Lands this day. I sat here listening to the youngest Lord pour out his heart and soul for a good few minutes and now he has gone silent and sits staring out across the room. I can tell he has retreated within himself and I know that anything I say right now will most likely fall on deaf ears. I hate that my dear friend's eldest son has made the mistake he has made, for it is not one I feel will be fixed easily.

 

Wounds of this nature run deep and if not set aside quickly I fear it will take root and fester. I was surprised to hear that Inuyasha knew what Pup's problem was right away and did what he could to ease the pain of his wounded ego. I was also just as shocked, if not more so, to find that Sesshoumaru dealt the young lord such a harsh emotional blow.

 

I cannot understand how he could manage to reveal the past and deal with such touchy situations as that with relative ease only to turn around and do this over a little lack of knowledge. The sigh escapes me and I see Inuyasha's ears twitch at the sound. I was in the process of turning to leave the room when he called my name.

 

“Yes my Lord,” I responded.

“If he wants to just forget this whole mating thing its fine by me,” He said around what was obvious lump in his throat.

“Do not give up so quickly my Lord.”

“I'm not,” He replied.

“Then I must admit I am confused.”

He gave a hollow laugh and said, “Maybe over time you can teach him when to say those words.”

“I see,” I said as I took a few steps closer to him.

 

He was quiet for a while and I assumed he was gathering his thoughts so I stood there patiently as he began to move about the room, offhandedly examining random objects. When he got close to the outside wall he leaned forward until his forehead was rested against it and he let his shoulders slump. It was then that I really took in his current appearance and compared it to what he had looked like the day before, or even just an hour ago, and I had to admit he looked noticeably worse. Alarmed I asked him to sit down but he refused.

 

“I don't think sitting is gonna help this at all,” He said

“It couldn't hurt.”

“Yeah, I doubt anything could feel worse than this does at the moment.”

 

Silently my heart goes out to him, and his dilemma.

 

“Like I said before, I am not so much giving up as I am letting go. I know Ru, and regardless of how he feels he will finish what he started out of some weird sense of obligation, honor or whatever else he has going on in that brain of his. I just want him to know that if that's what he wants he can freely finish withdrawing from my life, mind and whatever else it is he wants to remove himself from without any kind of guilt.”

 

At that moment a series of bells went off in my mind and I prayed that I was horribly wrong in the conclusion I was drawing. But I needed to know so I fearfully asked the question I don't think I really wanted an answer to.

 

“What exactly did you mean by finish withdrawing?”

“Exactly what I said, he has all but shut me off from him since I left his chambers and it is now, for the first time since this all began, that I realize how connected we were. Now that his presence is gone I feel hollow, weak and just…. I don't even know what I'm trying to say.”

“Are you sure, my Lord?” I asked as my mind raced to figure out a way to fix this if the answer was yes.

“Of course I'm sure; how the hell could anyone misunderstand this?”

“Please do me this favor, my Lord.”

“And what is that? I want to know because suddenly you're acting rather strange and to tell you the truth it's starting to make me worry.”

“As well you should be, come sit down and we will see what we can do to fix this,” I said as I mentally cursed myself for not realizing the depth of their bond sooner.

“I didn't talk to you in hopes that you could fix my relationship problems, Tibade. I really just needed to vent, I suppose.”

“Well, I fear there may be more at stake at the moment than your relationship.”

“Huh?” he asked as he took an obviously weary step toward the dark green futon in the corner.

“Just lay down and I will explain to the best of my abilities, but first I need to find your pack, it is rather important we find Lord Sesshoumaru.”

“He's in his chambers.”

 

I sighed at the degree in which his senses have deteriorated. I felt the eldest Lord leave the palace grounds shortly after I ran into him. This is really taking a turn for the worst.

 

“No he is not my Lord, but I will explain all of that in a moment.”

 

I got him to settle down on the futon and stepped outside the room. Luckily for me there were two chambermaids headed in my direction. I asked them to find Inuyasha's pack as well as Jaken and bring them here as fast as their feet would carry them. With that done I turned around and reentered the room.

 

“I am not sure how to say this so I'm just going to be blunt.”

“I can deal with that,” he said as he turned on his side to face me. Unfortunately that simple action caused his body to start trembling. He looked down at his trembling arms then up at me and asked, “What the hell is going on with me, Tibade. I know you know and I want an answer now.” He demanded in a voice that was shaking almost as badly as the rest of him.

 

“I am afraid that all of the things going on with you right now have served to drain your youkai. I should have realized there was a possibility of this happening sooner, once it became clear that you were indeed going through the kensei henkou.”

“What's the big deal? I thought every demon went through this.”

“Every demon yes, every Hanyou no; most don't even enter this phase and of those that do… well they usually die during the process.”

“WHAT!! And you somehow managed to forget to share this information!!”

“Well, you have been such an exception to most rules concerning half-demons and seemed to be fairing so well I figured this was just another one of those exceptions. Your father was an extremely powerful man, you and your brother are living proof that no matter what that power will not be denied, but that is neither here nor there. Forgive me my Lord and I hope my assumptions do not cost you your life.”

 

He sat there looking as shocked and terrified as he should have been at that statement. Again my heart went out to him. I should have realized this far far sooner. Pup's sudden need to sleep every night and meals every day should have been red flags indicating what was going on. The fact he could sense and tell far too many things as far as Inuyasha was concerned should have told me that this bond between them had grown much deeper and much faster than I assumed.

 

“So why has it all of a sudden become a problem, why am I falling apart now?”

“Well it appears that Lord Sesshoumaru's youkai was feeding your own, and now that he has withdrawn that support your body is burning up what resources it has and swiftly.”

“So how can this be fixed?”

“We need to get Lord Sesshoumaru back here, which is why I have sent for your companions. He has apparently gone out on patrol or something of that nature. If he can get back here soon to start feeding your youkai again I believe all will be well.”

“Well how soon does he need to get back before this becomes …” he trailed off and I knew the end of that question before he even asked it and I dreaded the response I had to give.

“I fear, if he does not return this evening and soon you probably will not last the night.”

“Oh,” was all he said as he opted to return to staring at the ceiling. And I could tell he was swiftly losing his grasp on consciousness.

 

Only a few moments passed before Sango, Miroku and Kouga came bursting through the doors. I gave them the necessary details to make sure they knew the urgency of the situation and was about to send them on their way when the monk stopped and turned to gaze at Inuyasha.

 

“I can't leave with you guys,” He said softly never taking his eye off of Inuyasha.

“I …I understand Houshi-sama. We will do our best to return with Lord Sesshoumaru as swiftly as possible,” the demon slayer replied.

 

Not completely understanding why this was I looked at the wolf prince he simply shook his head, an indication for me to ask no questions. I was confused but I complied nonetheless. Without further ado they said a few comforting words to a now silent shivering Hanyou and left the room.

 

Once they were gone I was free to observe the monk that chose to stay behind. He looked as if he was not much better off than Inuyasha. I gently laid a hand on his shoulder and asked him, “Are you alright, son?”

 

He shook his head in the negative and asked this question in return. “How exactly is it that Lord Sesshoumaru's presence will fix this?”

 

I went into more detail about the sharing of power that was going on between the two as well as the fact that is no longer taking place and how Inuyasha's youkai was burning up swiftly now because of it. He seemed to take all of this in as he moved to sit next to Inuyasha on the futon. I thought nothing much of this until I saw the tender way he picked up the young Lords hand and the tears in his eyes.

 

“So he needs power correct?” he asked never moving his eyes away from the now unconscious form of Inuyasha.

“Yes,” I replied somewhat worried about what the monk was getting at.

“Does it have to be demonic power?”

“I don't suppose it would have to be. Lord Inuyasha is part human as well. But there is more to it than that my child, in order to do something of this nature the two of you would need to share a bond, or love if you will.”

“I love him; do you think that would be enough?”

 

That short declaration made this entire scenario make sense; I now understand why he wouldn't leave. If these were to be Inuyasha's last moments he wanted to be here. I had temporary reservations about what this was going to do to an already tense situation; but I pushed that aside because I truly feared that if something didn't happen within the next hour, Inuyasha was going to be lost to us all anyway. I knew how swiftly Pup could move and how hard he could be to find if he wanted to be left alone. Even with the aid of the Slayers fire cat there was no guarantee that they would be back anytime soon. So I gave the only answer I could.

 

It was honest and heart wrenching at the same time.

 

“I hope so and I am willing to let you try. But I feel I must warn you, I cannot foretell Lord Sesshoumaru's reaction to this if it were to work.”

“I am somewhat knowledgeable of how things work between mated demons; I assure you that I am aware I may be risking my life.”

“Understood young one, and since you are willing to take such a risk I will do what I can to ensure you are met with no harm.”

 

He simply nodded and began to concentrate.

 

I was amazed when it did not take long before a light purple mist surrounded them both and then, to my thankful surprise it appeared and felt as if Inuyasha's youkai was accepting the monk's assistance.

 

I offered words of praise to the monk for his efforts and success but received no response. I moved closer and realized he was in trance like state and had not heard a word I said. It was at that moment I thought of a few things. One of those things was how powerful this young man had to be in order to accomplish something of this magnitude. Another thing was regardless of that power how taxing it had to be for him to do it. If this was draining to Lord Sesshoumaru then it had to be a many times more so to this human.

 

 

 

 

(Inuyasha's POV)

 

The last thing I recall before waking in this all consuming darkness was feeling as if my world was crashing in. Now it's almost as if something within this darkness threatens to consume me and I am powerless to stop it. I push and push until I have nothing left to push with. I was all but resigned to my fate, whatever that was, when I heard a familiar voice within the shadows calling my name. I couldn't make out who it was at first but as it got louder I could tell it was Miroku. He was calling my name over and over and even though I wanted to respond I couldn't, I didn't have the energy to.

 

I sat there somewhat confused and very troubled over the situation at hand. My mind seemed sluggish and I couldn't really recall why I was in this predicament in the first place. All I knew for certain was I wanted out and for whatever reason Miroku felt like my only hope for that.

 

Slowly the darkness around me seemed to lessen bit by bit until I found myself sitting in my little hand made oasis where Liz lives. Confused, but happy to be out of that darkness, I stand on shaky legs and look around only to find Miroku standing several yards away from me with this look of worry on his face.

 

“How did you find this place?” I asked him

“I didn't find it,” He replied.

“Huh?” I asked confused more now than I was earlier.

“We aren't really here Inuyasha, this is all taking place in your mind.”

“Have you been drinking again, Houshi?”

“No,” he said with a tired smile, “I need you to focus for me and tell me the last thing you remember.”

 

That's when it hit me; I was talking to Tibade just a few moments ago. Well if that's the case then how the hell did we get all the way here? Oh, I guess he was telling the sober truth when he said this is all in my mind.

 

“I remember talking to Tibade,” I said.

“Do you remember why?” he asked as he began to move closer and as he did everything seemed to get a little bit brighter and my head a little more clear. That's when the true magnitude of the situation hit me; I was dying and needed Sesshoumaru's help.

 

“Yeah,” I answered as I took a seat on the large rock I was standing on. “I'm not doing too well out there am I?”

“No, I'm afraid not my friend.”

“But how and why are you here?”

“I am here to give you what power I can until the others bring back Sesshoumaru.”

“Others? What others?”

“Oh, Kouga and Sango came with me to answer Tibade's summons. You were pretty much unconscious when we arrived.”

“Ok, that answers the why but not the how. How is it that you are able to do this with me? Is it some new aspect of you spiritual powers or something?”

 

At this he stopped his slow stride in my direction and his face took on a whole new look of determination and concern.

 

“No, it is not Inuyasha.”

“Then how?”

“I hate that it is under these circumstances that I tell you this but…I feel now is not the time for half truths and deceptions.”

“Wow, I really am dying aren't I?”

“Not if I can help it…my love.”

“This is…what did you just call me?”

 

He let out a loud sigh and I saw his hands clench into fists at his side. He looked as if he were steeling himself to take on the world.

 

“I called you my love, and I said so because I do love you. I have felt this way for a long time. I just could never work through my fear of losing you altogether to let you know. My love for you is what has allowed me to be here now, so for as much pain as this feeling has caused me I am, at this moment, glad for every heart rending second of it.”

 

I had no clue what to say to that. I just sat still with my mouth open trying to take it all in. Miroku…my best friend is standing before me within the confines of my own mind, while I'm on my deathbed, telling me he loves me. What does one say to that in this situation?

 

“I … uh…” I managed to stammer out but he held up a hand for me to quiet.

“No need to get into that now, actually we don't have the time and neither of us has the extra energy. What I need you to focus on now is absorbing all the power you can from me until Sesshoumaru is found. I do not know how long I will be able to do this, so I need you to take full advantage of this while it is here.”

“Wait a minute is this safe for you to be doing in the first place?”

 

He just dropped his head.

 

“Hey I want a straight answer, besides you were the one who said this is not the time or place for half truths and deceptions.”

“Touché Inuyasha, I will say this then and rest assured this is said honestly and sincerely.”

“Ok,” I replied

“I have no idea because I have never tried this sort of thing before so really your guess is about as good as mine. I can also say from what I am feeling it takes a lot of power and energy to be you.” He said with that lopsided smirk he is famous for.

“Yeah well yay for me.”

“Do not look so glum my friend we will make it through this.”

 

We were then caught in the longest most awkward silence I can ever recall being a part of in my life. I know he didn't want to talk about it now but if this was indeed my final moments I didn't want to spend them sitting here avoiding the only subject, other then my possible impending death, that there was to talk about.

 

Having decided that, I looked over at him and motioned for him to join me where I sat. He hesitated then shook his head no.

 

“Well why not?” I asked.

 

He didn't respond.

 

“See even you couldn't come up for a reason to that one. Bring your spiritually gifted holy ass over here and sit down,” I demanded.

 

The smirk returned and he made his way to the rock and we both sat there staring out into the pond saying nothing. I finally could take the silence no more and spoke.

 

“Why did you think letting me know how you felt would cause you to lose me?”

“Well it's hard to explain, but I will say this much your heart was taken for one; and I didn't seem be the type you were interested in, if you know what I mean.”

“Yeah whatever, that makes a whole lot of sense. I can see where you thought the dark hair, sweet personality, spiritual powers and you being human would have been a real turn off for me. Yeah that's so totally not my type,” I answered sarcastically. “Damn and I thought you monks had to be observant.”