InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fateful Night ❯ Moonlight Tears ( Chapter 13 )

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A/N: Here is a sad and depressing chapter for everyone lets see if I can pull it off. Editing done during wired zombie mood so mistakes are bound to be abundant sorry.

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Chapter 13

Moonlight Tears

Kouga slowed down when a silver fall of hair came into sight. Not wanting to kick up dust he jogged up to the hanyou who carried the sleeping Kagome in his arms. As he came into earshot he heard the inu speak softly to the woman.

"Kagome we really need to stop doing this. I've held you unconscious in my arms far too many times. Please open your eyes." Kouga flinched at the pleading note in his friend's voice.

Intentionally stepping on a twig Kouga saw Inuyasha tense before he caught up to him. The now silent hanyou glared at him from the corner of his eye but continued to walk towards Kaede's hut.

Inuyasha shifted Kagome in his arms as Kouga lifted the door hanging out of the way. Ducking slightly he entered the dark room stopping unnecessarily. When his sensitive eyes were fully adjusted to the dim light he continued into the hut. He lay Kagome down on the sleeping pad gently tucking a coarse brown blanket around her.

Crouching near her Inuyasha settled himself intent on watching her through out the night. Willing her sapphire eyes to open he stared at Kagome's face tracing each curve and shadow with his eyes. Dark busies and smears of dirt marred her creamy skin making him frown deeply. A clawed hand moved into view holding a small cloth. When that hand touched the damp cloth to Kagome's face Inuyasha heard a loud growl reverberate through the hut causing the cloth to freeze mid stroke. Lifting his eyes to meet icy blue, he realized he was still growling at the wolf youkai.

Silently Kouga handed the cloth to a growling Inuyasha and stood. Looking down at the blinking hanyou he shrugged slightly. "I'll go get more water so you can clean her up." Before the confused demon could reply he turned and walked out of the hut.

Kouga walked slowly down the path to the well thinking about what he had just seen. As soon as his hand had touched Kagome's face Inuyasha's deep golden eyes had bled red. By the time the inu's gaze lifted to look at him the tinge was gone, but Kouga didn't feel like chancing its return so he had fled to the well. Scoffing at his thoughts he remembered Sango's words, and laughed. "No way will he leave her tonight." Mumbling Kouga snatched the bucket resting on the edge of the well and tossed it over the rim. Drawing the liquid back to the surface he gazed down into the dark reassess. The bottom shimmered softly moonlight reflecting off the water rippling at the bottom.

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Images of a well blazing with energy flashed before him to be replaced by the angry hate filled face of Kikyo as she released her arrow. Pinned to the tree he looked up from the fading light of the tattered arrow and was met with a pair of soft blue eyes. Kagome stood bow in hand pain and fear shining on her battered face. Behind Kagome Naraku rose out of the bone eaters well draped in his flowing baboon skin. Trying to reach her before the demon, he struggled uselessly against the arrow. As the seal stole over him he watched Naraku wrap Kagome in his white cloak. Darkness closed around him showing him one last image of Kagome in Naraku's arms a look of utter defeat on her face as she surrendered to his embrace.

Inuyasha bolted upright eyes wide and searching. `Where?', his mind screamed before he found her. Calming the racing pace of his heart he pushed away from the wall he had fallen asleep against and moved once more to her side. Kagome's pale face shone in the dim hut framed by raven locks that tumbled around her head and onto the blanket.

Tucking the blanket closer around her Inuyasha moved to the fire pit. Kindling a small flame he fed small branches to the fire, watching Kagome from the corner of his eye. Kouga had yet to return which angered him; he wanted to wash the blood from her face.

A noise nearing the hut alerted Inuyasha to the approach of Kaede. Frowning he moved away from the fire to sit cross-legged behind Kagome. The woman hobbled into her home stiffly glancing around until she found them. Toeing off her sandals she stepped up onto the raised living area and shuffled over to the fire.

Inuyasha watched as she quietly began making a pot of tea. Sniffing at the pungent herbs he noticed her add zel root to the mixture. Quirking an eyebrow at the old woman his only response was a mumbled "humph". After swinging the cast iron pot over the small fire Kaede moved over to where Kagome was laying.

"Has she woken at all?"

"No."

"Has the bleeding restarted?"

"No."

Eye twitching slightly Kaede looked up at the tight lipped Inuyasha. He sat slumped over his knees eyes resting on Kagome. A faint smile tugged at her lips and she nodded to herself.

"Are thy wounds healing?" when he didn't answer Kaede reached across Kagome and grabbed Inuyasha by the shoulder. She watched as he flinched and batted her hand away from him never looking up from Kagome's sleeping face. Smiling now he sat back and quickly probed both of them gently. The savage puncture wound through Inuyasha's shoulder was healing much slower than she had expected.

Looking closer at the energies surrounding the hanyou she watched the ebb and flow of sun gold and blood red light as they swirled in the pattern of his aura. Eyes wide she blinked and shifted her sight to Kagome. Twining around the bright purple and white power of her aura was a curl of red power.

It fed her with energy that flowed into the healing spell the woman was casting unconsciously. Following the intricate pattern of energy that gently mingled with the Kagome's sprit Kaede traced that red strand back to Inuyasha where it mingled seamlessly with his own energies.

Breaking the contact she looked at the pair for a long moment. She had never seen a couple so intertwined by the red strands of fate after such a short time together. Thinking back to the extraordinary circumstances that had delivered Kagome into this world she shook her head.

Kagome had not only been dragged away from her own world but she had practically fallen from that world into the waiting arms of Inuyasha. Chuckling softly at her overly romantic thoughts she noticed Kagome's blood stained face. Lifting the blanket slightly she glared back up at Inuyasha.

"Why did ye not get her out of these bloody rags Inuyasha?" she snapped.

Inuyasha's head shot up golden eyes wide with shock. Shuffling back a few inches he sputtered, "Wh...WHAT!?"

"Kagome is drenched in blood and covered in dirt Inuyasha. The girl has a giant wound on her abdomen and another on her shoulder, both need to be bandaged. Leaving her in these filthy clothes could infect the wounds." Kaede prattled as she began removing the blanket and fumbling for the ties on Kagome's white kimono. Absently she noticed Inuyasha shuffling further back.

Looking up at him she saw a pink stain across his cheeks. She was unable to help herself and goaded the embarrassed hanyou further. "I'm sure Miroku or Kouga wouldn't have hesitated to bind her wounds after getting these rags off of her." Pausing at the angry snarling that filled the hut she looked back at Inuyasha as the pink faded from his face and he loomed over her. Reaching for Kagome he pulled the woman into his lap growling.

"If anyone touches Kagome, I will, kill them!" he shouted.

Kaede remained silent for a few minutes watching the enraged inu demon gently tend to the woman he held in his arms.

Inuyasha carefully slid the kimono off her shoulders. Making sure he kept the fabric closed around her he shifted each of her arms out of the bloody cloth. Grabbing a blanket he covered her once more as his hands hesitated at the tie holding the garment closed around her waist. Face beet red he raised sheepish eyes to the silent Kaede.

Nearly laughing at the pleading lost look on his face Kaede moved over to the woman resting against him.

"Lay her down now Inuyasha and I will help ye." Waiting for his nod Kaede watched him place Kagome on the sleeping mats before rising and moving to the far corner of the hut.

"Why so shy Inuyasha?" Kaede teased.

"Kaede you must have me confused with Miroku. I would not undress a woman with out her consent." Inuyasha groused from the corner. His hands still tingled from their contact with her creamy skin. He had torn himself away from the tiny woman fearful of the coiling warmth and desire that was surging through him at the touch of her skin.

"Then Kagome agreed when ye removed her hakama?" Kaede asked, guessing about the missing garment. Behind her she herd Inuyasha sputter and choke. Glancing at the maroon faced hanyou she soothed. "Do not worry Inuyasha I don't begrudge the two of ye finding comfort in one another. I am just surprised how quickly the two of ye have been drawn together."

"What? NO! I didn't…she was….all I did…I mean. It was not like that!" Inuyasha blurted as Kaede looked at him with a knowing look in her eyes. Feeling like his inner thoughts lay exposed before the Miko he growled and spun away from her bolting out the door.

Bounding away from the hut Inuyasha nearly bowled over Kouga as the wolf youkai trudged up the path a bucket of water dangling from his hand.

"Oyi Dog face where the hell are you going?!"

Angling away from the village he ignored Kouga's bellow and disappeared into his forest.

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Kouga watched Inuyasha's red and silver form fade under the dark canopy of the night shrouded forest that bore his name. Baffled and irritated by the hanyou's behavior of late he continued up to Kaede's hut. Entering the dwelling he growled under his breath when Kaede turned and spoke to him.

"Inuyasha? Oh Kouga, well boy be useful and bring me some water from the…" Interrupting her Kouga dropped the water next to the old woman grinning when the liquid sloshed over the rim splashing across the Miko's arm and thigh. His grin fell from his face at the look in her eye and he quietly folded his long legs to sit near the wall.

"What's up with dog face this time crone? I figured it would take the hand of the Kami to pry him away from her side after what just happened." He questioned gesturing at Kagome.

"Some times Kouga matters of the heart have power far above those of the Gods." She murmured dipping a cloth into the bucket.

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Inuyasha heard the wolf long before Kouga stepped into the steamy clearing around the spring. "What do you want?" he groused not bothering to raise his head from the edge of the pool.

Kouga ignored the inu as he tossed his furs onto a nearby boulder. Stepping into the heated water he waded over to the opposite side of the small spring. Letting down his long obsidian hair he shook out the length. Sinking deeper into the soothing water he watched his hair float on the surface of the pool for a moment before turning his icy gaze to Inuyasha. The hanyou sat head tilted back against the rim of the pool eyes closed.

Watching Inuyasha, he thought again about the warning Sango had given him. Frowning he wondered why he agreed with the taijiya. He wouldn't have minded staying with the sleeping woman but for some reason he had left the hut after Kaede dozed off to come in search of Inuyasha. A motion across from him snapped him out of his musing; Inuyasha was sitting up now his hand pressed against his shoulder. Kouga was shocked when the tang of blood drifted across the mineral rich air.

"It's still bleeding?" he asked surprised. Normally Inuyasha healed quickly.

"Ummm." The inu responded taking his hand away. The red angry wound was nearly healed yet as he watched blood ran down Inuyasha's board chest. "It started bleeding again after I left the hut."

"You shouldn't have left." Kouga stated eyeing the hanyou. Inuyasha's golden eyes met his before he turned his head to the side.

Inuyasha heard the unsaid name on Kouga's lips and bowed his head. "I know." He muttered staring at his hands the feel of her skin still fresh in his memory.

"Well if you know then go back you idiot!" Kouga raged surging to his feet. Water streamed down his lean body, hair clinging to his skin. Waist deep in water he glared down at Inuyasha as hanyou again leaned against the spring edge eyes closed. "Did you hear me half breed?" getting the rise he expected out of the male he grinned baring his teeth at the now standing Inuyasha.

The moon shone down on the pair as they stood dripping in the spring. Silver and black hair clung to bronze skin that glistened in the moonlight as it played off the tone and sculpted muscles of the males facing each other. Steam rose curling around the demons shrouding and then exposing them to the outside world.

For a moment they stood silent and still. A flicker of motion at the corner of Inuyasha's eye was all the warning Kouga had before the silver haired hanyou leapt across the spring. In a rush of water Kouga was thrown back and slammed into the stones lining the pool. The claws of Inuyasha's left hand dug into the muscle of his upper arm as the other reached for his neck. Holding him off Kouga took advantage of their watery battlefield. Slipping off the rocks he let himself sink into the water pulling Inuyasha off balance.

Before the inu could regain his footing Kouga brought his legs up, catching his opponent in the stomach, he kicked Inuyasha away from him. The silver hired male flew out of the water landing at the base of a near by tree water pooling around him. Kouga stalked across the pool and hopped onto the bank the warm water streamed down his lean body, cooling on the night air, as he glared down at the rising hanyou.

As his stubborn friend stood golden eyes hot with anger, guilt hit Kouga hard. Blood trailed down Inuyasha's chest mingling with the water and staining his silver hair pink.

"Go back to Kagome Inuyasha she needs you and have Kaede tend to your shoulder." turning away he heard Inuyasha limp over to his clothing that hung in the surrounding bushes. Glancing back to make sure the male headed back to the hut he growled when he saw that he was alone at the spring.

Reaching for his own garments Kouga shivered as a breeze blew over his damp skin. Shrugging he slid back into the mineral rich water letting tense muscles relax. Thinking about the blue eyed girl sleeping in Kaede's hut he sighed leaning his head against the rock. That tiny female was the strongest woman he had ever met. Laughing he realized he had only seen her awake for a mere handful of hours and yet.

Frowning he examined the emotions running through him. She was strong and beautiful and warm. Remembering the night spent holding her to him he thought about the way her small body fit so perfectly against the curves of his own. Moaning he sat up causing waves to ripple across the spring. Pulling his dripping hair up into a ponytail he stepped out of the spring and sat on a nearby boulder letting the breeze cool his heated body. When he again had himself under control he slipped back into his furs.

"I better check on my woman and make sure that idiot dog actually went back." He muttered turning back to the village.

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Pain crept into the darkened void pulsing and hot it surged through her. Shadowed orange light drew her out of the darkness. Opening her eyes Kagome watched a small fire flicker to her right. Turning she moaned softly her wounds pulling with the movement. Finally rolling onto her side Kagome stared at the fire bobbing in a calm dance, confined with in the pit below the cut out portion of the floor.

Tongues of orange wove around fluttering reds and yellows as they intertwined in hypnotic motion. Watching the bright fire her mind drifted like the sparks floating away from the leaping arms of flame. Tears began to fall unheeded down her face as Hojo's face appeared within the burning core. His dark eyes, shining in pain looked out at her. Silent words fell from his lips as he shook his head sorrow etched over his face.

Dark despair wrapped around Kagome and the image before her began to fade. Burying her face in her hands she sobbed gasping in pain as each shuddering breath jarred the wound spanning her abdomen. Pressing her hand to her mouth Kagome tied to still her weeping but failed. Fumbling out of the blanket she struggled to rise from the floor.

Stumbling to her feet the young woman moved to the door nearly crying out when she knocked her shoulder into the frame. Leaning on the outside wall she drew quick short breaths between clenched teeth. The wound in her side throbbed searing heat to the tempo of her pounding heart making the edges of her vision fade white. Her shoulder sent jabbing bolts of sharp pain down her arm and across her chest.

Peering through blurry, water filled eyes she limped away from the hut. Kagome clamped her hand over her elbow and held her arm close across her chest trying to minimize the jarring movements that sent flashing pain across her left side. Walking in a swirling fog of pain and despair she wandered through the village silent and wide eyed.

Hojo's harsh voice echoed in her ears condemning her again and again for his death. The green eyed wolf youkai appeared before her and tore Hojo's throat out replaying the horror before her eyes. Chocking whimpers escaped her causing the pain to flair bright. Leaning against a tree she watched her tears fall, glowing in the moonlight to be lost among the leaves of the forest floor.

Pushing away from the tree Kagome staggered between the trunks of the massive forest giants keeping to the silvery patches that gleamed bluish green in the moonlight. Vision blurred by scalding tears she wandered lost in a haze of memory. Hojo's voice spoke to her from that fog his rough voice grating across her mind.

Crying out in fear and pain she tumbled to the ground her foot caught in a tangled vine. Lying there she sobbed moaning as each shuddering breath tore through her with electric sharpness. Hiccupping she pushed her self up ignoring the rushing that filled her ears and threatened to swamp her vision.

Ahead of her standing amongst the shadows of the night shrouded forest Hojo held out his hand beckoning to her. Silently the dark image spoke to her, anger flashing in his once gentle eyes. Kagome flinched away from him as he drew back his hand. Opening her eyes when the blow didn't fall Kagome noticed an arrow, its tattered fletching stained red with blood, the sticky liquid ran down the headless shaft lying in a shaft of moonlight.

Sinking to her knees Kagome wrapped her arms around herself he cried into the night her voice high and ragged with sorrow.

"Kagome."

An eerie voice echoed jerking her head up. Ahead of her Hojo walked into the darkness. Lurching to her feet she hobbled after him calling out his name.

"Hojo please wait. I'm sorry, so sorry. Please forgive me. Hojo..." trailing off Kagome walked into a clearing. The god tree stood tall and proud shining under the moon. Alone once more the night descended, engulfing her in despair that nearly sent Kagome to her knees. Too tired to even cry she wandered over to the massive tree.

Stubbing her toe on something she lowered her eyes from the glowing trunk looked down at Inuyasha's sword lying on the ground. The image of him staring at her from across this same clearing came to mind and she remembered seeing him drop the battered sword at that time. Bending she caught the sword's hilt loosely in her hand and continued to the tree. Sinking to her knees Kagome rested her head against the rough bark.

"Oh Hojo what have I done? You're dead because of me. I didn't know I held the jewel I really didn't. I'm so sorry my love, if only I had known. I could have stopped them I could have saved you." Moaning Kagome sank to the ground curling around the sword in her hands, tears streaming down her face. Loneliness and guilt swirled around her in an ever tightening spiral dragging her down into a pit of black despair.

Gasping sobs racked her pain fill body as she again saw, Hojo disintegrate around the blazing arrow that had flown from her fingertips. His angry gaze burned into her mind searing her with his accusing eyes. She lay wrapped around Inuyasha's battered sword clutching the thin sheathed blade to her.

"Come to me Kagome. Join me." A voice whispered beckoning to her. Calm settled around her stilling her tears. Sitting up Kagome leaned against the base of the god tree resting the sword across her knees. Staring down at the tattered hilt of the sword she softly asked.

"Hojo will you find peace if I come to you? Is this life worth living without you?" Pain contracted around her heart and she clinched her hands around the sword. What did she have to live for now? No one here would miss her. In fact they would probably be relieved if she disappeared. All she had brought these people was trouble. Inuyasha's face floated briefly before her.

Crying out she dashed him from her thoughts guilt again swamping her. How could she think of the crass half demon that had treated her with such a mix of care and callous? Hojo was dead! Her first love was gone. They were going to get married, and now he was dead, because of her. The pain crashed down on her.

Vision so blurred with tears that she could hardly see Kagome pulled the blade free. Placing the scabbard beside her she stared down at the rusty chipped blade frowning at it. `How does he fight with this?' she wondered as she turned the sword around in her hands. Shaking the shining amber eyes from her mind she struggled up onto her knees.

With shaking hands she wedged the hilt of the rusty sword between two roots. Pulling the blade down, she rested the tip against her chest. Taking a deep breath she gathered her thoughts and focused on the face of Hojo. Falling forward a single tear ran down her cheek as the dark soft brown eyes in her mind became a warm golden gaze.

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Inuyasha paced through the forest grumbling under his breath. His long sliver mane was still dripping staining his damp haori black with added water. The chill was beginning to bother even him as he roamed the night in wet clothes. "Damn Kouga." He muttered.

His relaxing soak had become an out brawl with that mangy wolf. Growling he forcefully put the incident out of his mind concentrating instead on his task. He had realized as he sped away from the spring wet clothes in hand that he did not have Tetsusaiga. Retracing his day he had retreated to the clearing that held the bone eaters well.

There sleeping against Kirara's flank he found Sango wrapped in Miroku's arms. A purring sound from Kirara snapped him out of his stunned shock making him look to the cat. The feline youkai gave him an amused look before settling her tails across the sleeping pair. Shaking his head he had searched the clearing for his missing weapon pausing at the battered well. Staring down into its depths he deiced he never wanted Kagome to enter the cursed clearing again.

As he walked along the narrow path that led away from the well he thought about all the pain and suffering it had brought to the tiny woman he had left sleeping in Kaede's hut. The fear he had felt as he watched her fall into that dark pit griped him again making him clench his hands.

Too much blood had been spilt this day he mused touching his shoulder which continued to bleed sluggishly. A sudden breezed rattled through the trees bringing with it the smell of salt mingled heavily with the warm caressing scent that belonged to only one woman. Confusion rocked through him making him bound into the clearing before him.

`She shouldn't be here!'

Sliding to a halt he saw Kagome kneeling before the god tree her pale kimono torn and smeared with dirt. A bloody stain was slowly spreading from her side and as he stepped towards her he saw the woman fall forward. The glint of metal caught his eye and panic slammed through him. Inuyasha crossed the clearing in a hart beat. He grabbed Kagome's shoulders spinning her into his arms, slapping Tetsusaiga across the clearing.

"What the hell are you doing wench!" he yelled down at her shaking with adrenaline.

"Let me go!" Kagome screamed at him batting at his arms, scrambling to get to the sword.

Looking down at the wildly struggling woman in his hands Inuyasha's heart clinched. Tears streamed from her red rimmed eyes, her hair was a tangled mess with bits of leaves and twigs clinging to it. She flung herself away from him trying to reach the sword again.

"Please let me go I don't deserve to live!" her roughened voice pleaded through the racking sobs. He caught her around the waist this time where she hung for a moment face hidden behind the tangle of ebony.

"Kagome…" his words faltered as she spun in his arms and attacked him. He fell back beneath her tiny battering fists. Sapphire eyes swimming in tears shone up at him as he held her trapped with in his arms. Shaking her head she beat on him her voice thick with pain.

"I killed him Inuyasha. Hojo is DEAD because of me. He called to me. He needed me but I didn't recognize him, I didn't… I would have gone to him if I had known."

He held her closer as her tattered body shook in tearing sobs.

"Let me go, please. He needs me! I have to make it right I have to. Hojo!" the sound of the man's name sent irrational rage sizzling through him. `He is still torturing her. Even from the grave that man torments Kagome.'

"Why Kagome? Why go to him?" he asked voice hard.

She turned pain filled dull blue eyes to him her lips trembling. Placing a hand against her cheek he drew her forward and tucked her beneath his chin when her face crumpled spilling fresh tears. "Why does he call you Kagome…to, to join him in death?" Kagome's whimpered reply made his blood boil with rage.

"Let me go to him Inuyasha, I don't belong here. I have brought you nothing but trouble. You were hurt because of me. I shattered the Shikon no Tama, I'm only a burden to you. I shouldn't be here. I, should have died not Hojo. I, was the one that had the jewel." Her dark words fell from her lips in an ever quickening pace. The demeaning words, the desire to end her own life and the lost look consuming her, rang tones of discord in his mind making him growl.

"Shut up! Just shut up!" he pushed her away form him holding her at arms length. Looking into her now grey listless eyes he resisted the urge to cradle her in his arms. Shaking her instead he glared down at her. Pulling his lip up in a sneer he snarled out, "You're right I was hurt because of you. The Jewel was shattered to the winds when you destroyed it."

Praying that this worked he stood dropping her to the ground. "I protected you because I thought you were my friend I wanted to help you." Behind him he heard her gasp. "You didn't abandon Hojo when he died. That night you chose to live, but if you die tonight you will be abandoning me. I have to find those shards before Naraku."

Turning on her again he let out a small sigh of relief noticing the dark cloud of self destruction clear slightly from her eyes. Scowling again he crouched down in front of her. "Will you take the easy way out and leave the mess you've made, behind for us to fix?" Anger shone in her eyes sending a tread of hope through Inuyasha

"I did not know it would shatter." She snapped up at him instantly defensive.

"But it did and you are the only one that can see where the shards are. Will you give up now and take away the only advantage we have against Naraku?"

Kagome sank back from him as a wave of sorrow crashed over her. The pain and loss of Hojo's death fresh in her mind she let the tempting voice calling her, sing its siren song twining dark fingers around her heart. Her eyes drifted from Inuyasha's blazing gaze to stare across the clearing. There just over his red clad shoulder shining dully in the moonlight lay Inuyasha's sword.

He followed Kagome's glance when her eyes drifted from his own. The sight of Tetsusaiga lying in the grass brought a vision of Kagome lying still and lifeless to his eyes. The image of Kagome's small silent form curled around his sword her blood staining the blade and seeping into the ground enraged him.

Grabbing her roughly he yelled in her face. "If you insist on blaming yourself for every thing then stay here and fix the mess you made today! Help me find the shards. Once we complete the shattered jewel if you still want to die I swear I won't stop you." Nearly choking on his words he spat out "In fact when the jewel is complete I'll kill you myself."

Unable to maintain his anger Inuyasha pulled the trembling woman into his arms, praying to all the gods of heaven and earth that she felt the deadly force behind his claws. Holding the soft sobbing bundle he vowed to change her mind, no matter what it took he would change her mind before the jewel was completed.

Kagome huddled against Inuyasha allowing the pain and fear to drain away from her for a moment. His warm arms held her close as the words of violence echoed in her ears `Kill me? He would kill me if I wanted him too?' griping the cool damp fabric beneath her hand she pushed away from his chest to look into those molten eyes.

A sob ripped from her throat at the emotions she saw but couldn't read floating in his sun bright eyes. She watched as a filthy pale hand rose to rest against his cheek. She felt the single tear hot against her thumb as she gently brushed it away.

Nodding quietly she let him again tuck her into his arms. They sat leaning against the god tree giving and taking the warmth the other offered. The silver glow of the moon shone on them in dappled patterns of shimmering light that streamed through the shuddering leaves of the ancient tree.

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A/N: There you go my suicide attempt chapter. ::turns to her muse:: HAPPY NOW?! I'm totally paranoid about this chapter so please let me know what you think but please be kind.an