InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ For Get Me Nots ❯ Why he let her go ( Chapter 4 )

Things seemed to happen quickly, for Sessho-maru at least. The two had been kissing in front of the door, one minute and the next, they were in his room on his bed. Their clothes had been thrown carelessly on the floor, Fawks moaning and screaming, digging her claws into his back.

 

They had made love like it was the last time they would ever see each other again, and it probably was. Sessho-maru was the first to awaken, as always, he watched her sleep for a while before rising from the bed. He had finally come to the realization.

 

He at last knew why whenever he could have told Fawks where he was and that he was alright he didn't.

 

He had secretly known this all along, it wasn't that he didn't love her, Kami, he loved her more then anyone could ever love anyone or anything else.

 

She had a career now, she was famous, she didn't need him ruining that for her. He had to let her go, no matter how much it hurt him, she was young, she would love again. He had been old even before they met, he now understood it was selfish to keep her to himself.

 

Sessho-maru rose from his chair as she stepped into the room, his breath caught in his throat. She was dressed in the t-shirt he had been wearing, her long hair falling down her shoulders. Sessho-maru's eyes began to wander down her long slender legs before he caught himself. Fawks blushed.

 

“Are you hungry?” he asked softly taking her into his arms.

 

“…A little…” she smiled. Sessho-maru kissed her softly holding her in his arms, bracing himself for what he was about to say.

 

“We can't…meet like this…anymore…”

 

Fawks looked up at him in confusion, “What do you mean?”

 

“I mean…we can't see each other…every again…” Sessho-maru sighed, closing his eyes. Tears began to well in her bright green eyes, “You don't…love me anymore…?”

 

“That's not true, Koi, I love you with all my being. I just…don't want to ruin things for you…”

 

“Ruin things for me?! I love you! I'll be ruined with out you!!” Fawks sobbed, pulling away from him.

 

“Fawks, look at me…” Sessho-maru whispered taking her face in his hands. “I love you, and that's what makes this decision hard for me to…You have a life to live, mine should have been over along time ago…Please forget about me…and live…”

 

Fawks lowered her head nodding. “I…I should be going anyway…” she began wiping at her tears.

 

“My…brother called me several times…probably wondering where I am…” she smiled.

 

Going back into his bedroom, she closed the door. Minutes later, Sessho-maru heard her soft sobs.

 

Growling, he held his head in his hands.