InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ For the Better ❯ Chapter 1

I Can't Make You Love Me

Summary: He watches from the nearby bushes, out of site and probably forgotten.

“Take care of her” he whispers for only the wind to hear.

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Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
inside my head

 

She'll never see me the way I want, she doesn't even know I exist anymore.

He better take care of her. Gods how I want to just pop out of here and tell her I love her and I am not gone, not forgotten, not missed.... that's it I'm not missed.

Shit they probably never realized I was gone. I was never around that much to begin with anyway. But he... he was always there, always getting in my way, keeping me from taking her with me, keeping me from loving her, being with her the way I wanted to. I mean yea sure there was some one else, some one I could go to, but I don't want to, not anymore. I might have at one point but not now.

 

Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
Don't patronize

Don't patronize me

 

But now that I look at it, she does look happy with him. She could have been happy with me. I knew she had some feelings for me, but she had some for him too.

We both loved her though. But it was always up to her.

She'll never know though, she'll never know that I'm not gone, that I've been here the whole time, watching her with that.... that guy.

But somewhere along the way, I could tell her feelings for me died.

I don't blame her either. I was never around so how could her feelings grow?

I know it's my fault, if I were her, I would have never put up with me, but that's the difference, she has a good heart and I don't.

I lied to her, told her that I was never promised even though I was.

I knew she didn't love me anymore, so I left once more.

I never returned. She cried for me, but she would cry for anyone.

I wish I could convince her to love me again.

 

I cant make you love me
If you don't
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And Ill feel the power
but you wont
No, you wont
Cause I cant make you love me
If you don't

 

Maybe I should just leave. Maybe she'll never even realize that I was alive when I die. I sigh maybe one day, in another life we can be together.

I sit by the God tree and let the darkness take over me.

It swallows me whole, leaving no trace of what was.

I had been fighting it for so long, hoping one day she would realize but now that she is happy, I can die peacefully.

I feel my soul slip away quickly. Fading faster and faster with every breath I take.

It's better this way. It was always better for her to be with some one else.

 

Ill close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me

 

My heartbeat is slowing rapidly. My breathing is uneasy. My mind is flooding to her and I know I can die with her in mind. I love you Kagome please don't forget that, but forget me.

 

Morning will come
and Ill do what's right
Just give me till then
to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

 

Please be happy Kagome. I want you to have the best. Take care of the others.

I love you maybe in another life you'll love me too. Now you're happy and in good hands, that's all I want now. I manage to whisper with my last breath “Take care of her, InuYasha.”

 

I cant make you love me
If you don't
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And Ill feel the power
but you wont
No, you wont
Cause I cant make you love me
If you don't

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Kind of odd I know but it was a try. So R/R onegai! Arigotu