InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forbidden Desire ❯ A Distressed Heart ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter 2 - A Distressed Heart

 

As the morning light broke through the mat door, Kagome winced, and slowly opened her eyes. For a moment she simply laid there, staring into the soft light as a breeze gently swayed the makeshift door.

 

Inuyasha's tightening grip broke her from her daze as he shifted behind her. She closed her eyes with a silent sigh, and pried herself from his arms. She looked around for her school uniform, and then remembered that she left school a year ago.

 

She dressed in her spring kimono, and stepped outside into the morning sun.

 

“Ohayo Kagome-chan!” came the cheerful voice of her friend.

 

Kagome smiled and turned to her, “Ohayo, ogenki desu ka Sango-chan?” she replied.

 

Sango stirred the food she was cooking, “I'm fine, thank you. It's a beautiful morning. Is Inuyasha still asleep?” she inquired.

 

Kagome nodded, “yeah he is, for now. But once he catches drift of breakfast I'm sure he'll be up and awake.” She pulled her hair behind her ear and walked over to where Shippou and Miroku were laughing, and knelt down to grab the Kit.

 

The little fox squealed in her arms, “Kagome!! `Bout time you got up,” he said happily as he hugged her. The girl smiled and patted his head before setting him back on the ground, “Sorry, I slept in a bit.”

 

The Monk on the ground next to her shot her a perverted look and wiggled an eyebrow, “I wonder what could make Kagome so tired neh?” Kagome shook her head, “Funny, now quit it.”

 

Sango served out the food for the others, and without a sound, Inuyasha had a plate and was wolfing it down. Sango raised a brow to him, “and good morning to you as well mister.”

 

He smirked and set his plate down before jumping up and grabbing Kagome in a tight embrace and kissed her cheek. Sango noted how Kagome stiffened and gave an almost sickened look at the ground.

 

Kagome looked up at Inuyasha and gave him the best smile she could muster.

 

Sango watched for a few more moments before she made up her mind. “Kagome-chan, would you like to go to the springs with me? I was thinking of taking a morning dip, since its so warm out.”

 

Kagome gratefully accepted and pushed Inuyasha off her and rushed to get her towels and bathing supplies. Inuyasha followed her, “d-do you want me to come with you? You know, just to look out for youkai, you girls tend to drop your guard when you bathe.”

 

The miko shot him a glare and brushed past him, “I'll be fine Inuyasha, stop worrying about me. You know damn well I can take care of myself, learn to trust me a little why don't you?”

 

He stood there baffled for a moment, `did she just curse? I've never heard her curse before…huh, oh well,' he said to himself, but quickly brushed it off as he went back outside to talk with Miroku.

 

~*~*~*~

 

Kagome and Sango walked through the trees towards the springs in silence. Kagome simply stared at the ground as she walked, in thought. Sango watched her from the corners of her eyes, wondering what her friend was thinking about, and thinking about what she would say to her.

 

The two women undressed and slipped into the warm water. Sango continued to watch Kagome, who had her head tilted back into the suns rays, her eyes closed, and the slightest smile tugging at her lips.

 

“Ah this is nice, very peaceful,” sighed the Miko.

 

Sango waited another moment to speak, a little nervous as to how Kagome would react to her prying. “Kagome…what's been bothering you lately?” she started with. Kagome raised her head to face her, “what do you mean? Nothing's bothering me, I'm fine.” She tried to give a reassuring smile, but Sango knew it was as fake as they came.

 

“Kagome, something is certainly wrong. And I think it has something to do with Inuyasha. Don't hide it from me, tell me what's wrong,” she pushed.

 

Kagome sighed and looked into the water, she knew there was no getting out of this conversation, Sango was a very determined woman. “Inuyasha's….changed…I love him still…but, he isn't the same Inuyasha that I fell in love with,” she paused and looked up to Sango, “he's so, obsessed with me. I don't know how to really explain it but, he just loves me, too much.

 

I thought he was the strong one, but I feel like I'm the dominant one now, he can't do anything without me. I can't even go back to my own time without him because he's too `worried' about me.

 

But really, it's just that he can't stand being away from me. It sounds like it would be sweet, but, we've been mates for over a year now, he needs to give me some room. He can't though; I don't think he's capable of it.

 

I feel so trapped with him…its not a balanced relationship…it feels…one sided.” Kagome by now had turned her attention back to the rippling water, a plainly distressed look on her face.

 

Sango wasn't surprised; she had seen this in Inuyasha as well. He had changed a lot, and for the worse. She watched her friend with saddened eyes; it pained to see her friend in such anguish. It was a shame, Inuyasha had finally admitted his feeling for Kagome, and they had both been so happy together.

 

Within 6 months though, she had noticed Kagome settling more, the two were no longer on the same wavelength. Inuyasha was still high on love, but Kagome had matured and began her role as the wife.

 

Inuyasha though hadn't matured in the slightest, if anything, he became much more immature. He was giddy with love; he worshiped Kagome. Kagome though, didn't want to be worshiped, she just wanted to have a supportive, loving, mature, partner.

 

And apparently, it had been slowly pushing Kagome further and further away.

 

Kagome continued, “I don't know what to do Sango, I don't want to hurt him, but I can't go on like this. I want something more from him, but I'm beginning to think he can't give it.” Kagome's voice was shaky now, and Sango could see the tears welling in her eyes. Kagome looked so scared, and helpless.

 

Sango scooted over to her, and put her arm around her shoulders, but she didn't know what to say. Kagome couldn't hold it in any longer, putting it into words made it official. She shook with sobs, as her heart cringed with regret and shame.

 

She was falling out of love with Inuyasha…

 

~*~*~*~

 

Golden eyes watched from above the trees, as the girl cried against the chest of her friend. His sensitive ears had heard the entire conversation, and he smirked to himself.

 

Images of her writhing in tainted pleasure beneath him flashed through his minds eye, “heh” his fangs flashed ever so slightly.

 

“You will be mine, you will be mine again. But this time, I wont let you go back to him. Guilt is such a useless emotion of you humans, but I will make you forget that foolish half-breed brother of mine. He is worthy of nothing more than death,” though his words were lost in the wind, he was content with it. For now.

 

“I will be back for you, my Kagome.”

 

Suteki: Wow look! A second chapter! Haha thank you everyone for the reviews too. I wan to let you all know though, I am very rusty, and I'm still finding my groove. So trust me when I say it will get better with time.

 

Oh and to those that are unfamiliar with the Japanese I used. “Ohayo, ogenki desu ka Sango-chan?” translates into “good morning, how are you Sango?”

 

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