InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forever Gone, Forever You ❯ Forever ( Chapter 1 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Forever Gone, Forever You.
Summary: Kagome finally made her choice between Kouga and InuYasha
But who she choses might not have been for her but her best and who her heart told her to chose , for its sake.
Rating: PG13 for language and suicidal thoughts,
Told in Kagomes's Perspective
Lyrics by Evanescence: Forever Gone ,Forever You
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I finally reach the top of the well to see the golden eyes of the man I love.
But as a my mother once told me "true love is but a dream, it can be a nightmare or a peaceful slumber, but in the end you wake up to only be alone, and empty inside." And I come to realize. She is right, no matter how bad I want to forget it . He loves her.
"You're late bitch " he snaps
"I know I'm really sorry, see I lost track of time....." I let the whole 'bitch ' comment slide.
"I don't want to hear your shitty excuses, I don't give a damn what you were doing but you're late" He snapped even colder then before.

<I wanted you to be with me
For so long I don't even know by now>

"InuYasha ...whats wrong with you?" I almost began crying.
"Hold your tears wench we DON'T have time for it"
I sniff quietly trying to keep myself from either crying or sitting him to oblivion.
"InuYasha what crawled up your ass and died." I snapped before realizing.
I didn't quite realize what happend next until it happend
InuYasha had just slapped me.
I touched the tender place on my cheek where it had just happend
Tears begin to swell in my eyes. My jaw was clenched and I was forced to hold back a whimper. InuYasha apparently saw my newly found state and rushed to my side.
"Ka---kagome I...I didn't mean it"
"Mean what InuYasha, that you were my friend....Or you didn't mean it last week when you told me you loved me because now I wonder wether we're meant"

<But now that I've given up on you
Defiantly you see me>

"I didn't mean to slap you....." he trailed off.
"I've had it"
"What?"
"I'm so sick of you lying to me, and treating me like I'm nothing at all!!! I'm leaving and don't follow..."
"Kagome..."
"OSUWARI" I remember screaming before I ran towards the villiage.
remeber it was raining heavily.Wich, ironically was exactly how I felt.

<Walking away I see the pain
You put me through>

I can't believe him. All this crap, it's all his fault. And then he thinks he has the right to ....gawd I'll sit him to oblivion when he comes .

<Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you>

I reach the little hut I've called home for the past three years.
Sango and Miroku are there and Shippoe went with Keada .
"Kagome...how are...whats wrong?" Sango suddenly says they are ignoring the fact that I'm soaked to the core. Keada brings me some change of clothes that I had left for just such and occasion.
Her voice dropped toward the end of her sentence
"I'm fine...." I lied and to my best friend
"Tell me" she looked stern
She looked in my eyes for a second and then I belive she understood me.
"Ohh ok sorry"
"Kagome good to see your well" Miroku added changing the subject.
I look around for a second...
"Kagome what wrong" Sango states
"There something ,....I don't know what....but somethings not right..." I'm worried and my voice can clearly vouch for that.
"I sense nothing....Kagome maybe its a sign ...go with it"
"I don't know...but...the woods ..thats what I'm getting.."
"Go to it ..." Sango added

<There's something very wrong about this
I think you knew all along somehow>

I run to the woods. Only to find the man I thought I loved in the arms of the woman -I'm not even sure she is a women but all the same- I hate.I can clearly hear them speaking of their future together and crap like that.
"---------Kikyo, I would never leave you, but the shard needs my full attention right now"
"The shard ..are you sure it isn't that girl?" Kikyo mocked
"Who...Kagome....no I only feel for her as a friend would. I don't love her."
My heart felt torn and I knew I should leave but I could make myself.
"InuYasha,,,,"
"Kikyo I love you, and if promising myself to you is the only way to convince you then I will ,,,,,just tell me"
"Fine the do it"
No way that ...I can not belive it I would have taken his word but nooo she needs his promise....she doesn't even love him....and he doesnt love me...
fine then.
I feel tears falling freely now,
"Kagome's here" I hear him say
"Kagome come out..." he screams angrilly
I stand out from the tree like he asked.
"What are you doing here?" he growled
I can't tell if he's angry I followed or I'm out after dark.
"Realizing the truth..." I said crying.
I begin to run only to hear InuYasha call out
"Please don't Kagome...waite"
He calls ..sounds like he doesn't care if I leave or not.

<You'll only take me to change my mind
Lonely, broken, and defeated>

I run. Far away. This time I cant take it. I feel my heart break into a thousand peices. I sit by the Goshinbuku. That stupid tree that led me to this heartache. but then again I would have never loved.
InuYasha probably just stayed there and laughed at my pain.
I can see it now. InuYasha and Kikyo laughing at my suicidal form.
Me just crying and them laughing, yea that sounds about right.
Or me leaving them forever and InuYasha just laughing and saying' good riddance we never wanted you here any way you just lucked upon this world' I can hear Kikyo saying that
Defiant of how I feel I place a fake smile on my face and sit up.

<So far away I see the truth
I see through you>

I sense another person coming towards me. It isn't InuYasha or any of my other companions.One name come to mind now.
Kouga. He comes closer to my painfull form
"Kagome....whats wrong...why have ...have you been crying.?"
He looks at me with sympathy and feels my pain. Considering he has loved me for as long as I have loved InuYasha, he has felt the pain of rejection and heartache just as I have time and time again.
The only reason I stayed was the thought of him one day loving me.
And that I suppose is the same thought that has kept Kouga around.

<Now that I know the way you play
I don't want to>

"Kagome..." he waved his hand trying to get my attention
"Gomosen Kouga-kun I just..I was thinking."
"It's ok...why were you crying?"
"I uh..."
"I see it was that mutt again huh?"
I nodded.
"Kagome please come with me...stop putting me through the pain you face everyday when you don't have to. I love you with all my heart Kagome. Why can't you see that? "
He cries looking hopefull
"I ..I don't know I guess I thought if he could see that I loved him..he would give up Kikyo for me...But that never happend"
"Kagome I have gotten so many offers from the most beautiful demons in my tribe but I want you not them and InuYasha has chosen Kikyo. Please. Kagome."
I begin crying. Kouga has just told me exactly what I feared and knew.
"Kagome I didn't want to make you cry I just.."
"I know Kouga but I have one more thing to do before this ok"
"This??...your coming with me?" he looked at me more hopefully then ever.
"Hai" His face glistens happily as he kisses me
I expain to Kouga that I want to go alone and he agreed.

<Walking away I see the pain
You put me through>

I reach the hut once more, I think I'm ready to tell the others my new plan and then leave.
I take a deep breath and sigh I am so close to my destination but as
fate would have it , InuYasha was there waiting for me.
"Kagome where were you?!" he states more then asks
"Finding the truth and realizing what I must now do"
"What are you talking about?"
"Come inside and I'll tell you as I tell the others."
"Tell me NOW Kagome"
"No you can wait" I say sternly..he looks shocked but now isn't the time to argue

<Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you>

I knew if I got InuYasha in there I would be less susceptible to the abuse and yelling then I would be with it being just me and Him.
"Well Kagome-sama what was it that you want to tell us?" Miroku asked
I sigh heavily and begin with my new statement
"Guys I'm sorry but my part in this journey is over." I didn't even finish
"Kagome you arent leaving" InuYasha demanded

<So far away I see the truth
I see through you>

"InuYasha you can not tell me what I can and can not do now let me finish"
I glare and him angrily and begin
"I will continue looking for the shards but ...I can't finish it under certain circumstances but I'm not going alone so don't worry I will be guarded and I'm going with......Kouga." I finish with a sigh of relief.
Sango seemed to look at me and in her eyes she said 'if you must '
Miroku knew some how that this would be happening, I wish l could say the same for lnuYasha but I can't.
"Kouga...you plan to leave me for that stupid wolf." He yelled louder then before.
Miroku and Sango quickly fled the room.
"Umm hai I plan to I'm sorry InuYasha but this is a new chapter for my life and besides you have Kikyo"
"But what if I want you?" he said trying to reel me in.He gave me the golden puppy dog eyes and perched his ears a little

<Now that I know the way you play
I don't want to>

"No no no no I will not fall for that again, I know how you play InuYasha and I'm not intersted."
"What?"
"No I will not fall for your 'if she thinks I like her she might stay' plan.
You can get Kikyo to work for you but I'm through" I yelled
I think Kouga heard my yelling and came to 'rescue me'
"KAGOME!!!" I hear him yelling my name before bursting into the hut.
"Kouga" I calmly say before he grasps me into his arms.
"Kagome what's wrong" He turns his attention to InuYasha and continues".....I swear if you did something to upset her mutt I'll kill you" he threatend
"Screw off wolf."
"Fine but I'm taking my woman with me"
there goes that 'my woman' thing I swear I'm not a possession.....o wait I am now...
"Kagome...why" I see an actual honest to goodness pained look in his eyes
"For my hearts sake " I manage before Kouga picks me up and carries me away to his den.

<Walking away I see the pain
You put me through
Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you>
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A/N hey yall yea I know kinda short kinda sad but I didn't give a cliff hanger.
R/R