InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forever Mine ❯ Threat ( Chapter 2 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Sesshys Koi 
A bit of aftermath I suppose
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.14.2007 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.9K | Visits: 836 | Status: Work In Progress
A bit of aftermath I suppose
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.14.2007 | Pages: 2 | Words: 4.9K | Visits: 836 | Status: Work In Progress
Chapter 2: Threats
Inuyasha watched from the kitchen as light infiltrated the living. Sighing as he saw the green of Sesshomaru’s jaguar, he put down his freshly poured glass of milk and walked to the door to let his brother in. He heard Rin going on about her day in school and a trip she was to take the next day.
‘That’s right.’ He shook his head, wondering how he could forget something so important. ‘I’m supposed to be a chauffer.’ Right as Inuyasha unlocked the front door the shower turned off. He heard some moving around in the bathroom upstairs and knew she would come out any second, just hopefully not before Sesshomaru locked himself in his room.
Inuyasha cursed loudly when he heard the bathroom door open and went to relock the front door to give himself some time, but it was too late. Sesshomaru walked in the door, Rin at his heel and shoved past him right at the same time Kagome started down the stairs, in his clothes no less.
He growled pushing past Sesshomaru and running to the stairs, meeting the frightened girl half way down. She cringed and screamed out against him, shoving him away from her and fell the rest of the way down the stairs where she immediately assumed the fetal position.
Sesshomaru growled out a warning to Inuyasha as he once again tried to approach her and went to her himself. “Rin, go to your room. Do not come out until I inform you otherwise.” The young girl followed her orders without question and ran for her bedroom, the only one located downstairs. He growled once again only louder when he saw a small spot of blood forming on Kagome’s boxer clad thighs. What the hell had happened today?
Sesshomaru bent down to lift Kagome into his arms and she immediately clung to him, hiding her face in his chest like a frightened child as she shook lightly in his hold. Sesshomaru went to walk up the stairs, meeting Inuyasha’s guilty gaze as he walked past him. Wait, guilty? ‘What did he do to her?’ Only, Sesshomaru wasn’t so sure he wanted to know the answer.
He walked down the hallway and stopped in front of his brother’s door, reaching slowly for the knob as he shifted Kagome to do so. “I wouldn’t-” he heard Inuyasha say before throwing the door open. Kagome let out a chocked sob as her grip tightened around his shirt. Rage hit him hard as he scanned the room, searching for the reason Kagome would scream out against her best friend, and he found it.
Her ripped clothes were strewn about the messy room while Inuyasha’s were piled neatly in a corner. He glanced to the bed and noticed a small spot of blood on the sheets and saw that there was a rip in them. Scowling suspiciously, he looked at the headboard, seeing the two pieces of fabric attached to the bars. Looking down at Kagome’s wrist, he saw the ring shaped bruises around them.
He shut the door and glanced back to where Inuyasha once stood, glaring at the empty staircase and heard the door slam shut. He’d left, but where was he going? On second thought, he really didn’t care. If he hadn’t gone Sesshomaru would have probably killed him anyway, literally.
Knowing that the love of Kagome’s life had raped her, knowing that she loved him, and that he didn’t deserve her, set his nerves on fire. He walked to the bathroom and set her on the toilet before walking out and into his own bedroom. Sesshomaru could feel his blood boiling in his veins. He’d known since they were children and although he never showed it until now and a few other select times, he really cared for her.
Taking a deep breath he grabbed a pair of his boxers and the smallest pair of sweat he had with a drawstring, and walked out of the room. He walked back into the bathroom to see her hugging her knees against her chest, sobbing lightly into them. It was a miracle she hadn’t fallen off the toilet! Shaking his head, he kneeled down next to her and lifted her chin.
“Change into these.” She nodded and watched as he walked out of the bathroom, shutting the door behind him.
Kagome stood up slowly, tears still running down her cheeks from her red, swollen eyes. She dropped Inuyasha’s boxers to the floor and stepped out of them cleaning herself off with some toilet paper and opened up the cabinet to pull out a small box of emergency tampons left here for herself and Kikyo. Taking on out of its wrapping, she wondered if it would even help before inserting the piece of cotton into herself.
For a second she stopped breathing, forgetting that inserting anything into there would most likely hurt, but continued to do so anyway. She really didn’t want to bleed all over Sesshomaru’s clothes. After disposing the wrapper and applicator she picked up Sesshomaru’s boxers and pulled them up to her waist, frowning as they fell when she let go.
Sighing, she pulled them back to her knees and sat down to pull the sweatpants on. Using the drawstring to hold the boxers up she looked at herself in the mirror. He wet hair clung to her neck and her cheeks. Her swollen eyes looked dull and almost lifeless. She shook her head. How could everything that was slowly getting better drop to shit just like that?
She turned around and walked out of the bathroom unconsciously headed for Inuyasha’s room. Noticing this, she stopped dead in her tracks and backed up against the wall to slide down against it, wrapping her arms around her legs and with her head tucked snugly in between her knees. She closed her eyes and let silent tears trace down her cheeks.
Sesshomaru knocked on the door before entering Rin’s room. The young girl lay at the foot of her bed; propped up on her elbows, chin resting on her palm watching TV. Her eyes traveled to her doorway as she heard it being opened and she smiled at Sesshomaru. “Is it okay to come out now?” She asked hopefully, turning off the TV set.
Sesshomaru nodded and kicked the door open the rest of the way with his slipper-clad toes. He watched as Rin jumped out of bed and leaped for the doorway, running past him and into the kitchen to make herself her traditional peanut butter and jelly, opting for strawberry instead of grape for once.
He hadn’t a clue about what to do with Kagome. He knew one thing for sure; she wasn’t going home. He needed to talk to her beforehand. Walking to the kitchen, he picked the cordless up off the charger and dialed her phone number. She would stay for the night. It was late as it is.
“Hello?” Mrs. Higurashi’s voice sounded over the receiver. “Higurashi-san?” Sesshomaru asked into the phone, “Oh Sess-chan! What is it dear?” She asked in an enthusiastic tone. “Kagome seems to have fallen asleep with my brother in the midst of a movie and I was wondering whether to wake her or to just let her sleep since it’s Friday and there’s no school in the morning.”
There was a slight pause.
“Hm, well I had been meaning to speak with her but it’s fine, no use waking her, what I have to say isn’t very important, it can wait. Just have her call first thing, please?” “Of course Higurashi-san.” “Thank you for calling Sess-chan, goodnight!” “Goodnight to you as well.”
He replaced the phone on the hook and came face to face with Rin’s questioning gaze. “It’s a horribly bad to thing to lie Sesshomaru-san.” She said mischievously. “But I suppose I can look past it for, say, a dollar for the ice cream truck?” She asked hopefully. Sesshomaru smirked; she always found a way to rob him of a dollar for ice cream.
‘Time to check on Kagome.’ He thought to himself as he walking towards the stairs. He felt his cell phone vibrate in his pocket and pulled it out, looking at the screen once before putting it back into his pocket. ‘Work.’ He sighed. ‘They can’t call me in if they can’t get a hold of me!’ He frowned as he reached the top, seeing Kagome lying against the wall across from his brother’s room.
Shaking his head he walked towards her sleeping body and lifted her into his arms. Her eyes immediately opened as she began to struggle against him. Tears instantly forming in her eyes before she came to her senses. “Kagome.” Her name on his lips was all it took. She looked up at him and eased her body back into his embrace as they walked towards his room, not knowing where else to take her.
Once inside, he laid her down on his bed, sitting next to her as she sat up into a comfortable position. “Is he—here?” She asked timidly, not wanting him to be in the same country as her right now. Sesshomaru shook his head. She nodded, clearly relieved by the statement. She couldn’t stand to so much as look at him right now, and most likely for a long time to come.
“I’m not stupid nor am I naive enough to have to ask you what went on today.” Kagome nodded, biting her bottom lip as she lost the battle to hold in her tears. Sesshomaru sighed and lifted his hand to wipe them away. She covered her face, looking ashamed as she turned away from him completely. “Please, don’t look at me right now.” Sesshomaru scowled and grabbed her shoulder, turning her toward himself.
“Kagome, there is nothing that you could have don to prevent what happened today so don’t for one second think that you’re dirty. You are the purest creature I have ever set eyes upon and my vision of you has not faltered.” She moved her hands away from her face and into her lap; still looking somewhat like this was her fault.
“I should have fought harder against him, tried getting out my phone, I don’t know, something! I just, I couldn’t think! And---” Sesshomaru placed his finger gently over her lips. “Had you acted against my brother any more than you did, he would not have left you in any shape to do more than stand at the most. You could not stop his and although you tried, the harder you would have would only anger him more so.”
Kagome nodded, she knew he was right. She just wished that there was something she could have done to prevent that from happening, to get him to stop, just something. But there wasn’t, and she knew this. “It hurts Sessho-Kun. My heart, it’s broken right now.” Sesshomaru smiled softly and reached his hand behind her head, pulling her into his chest as she sobbed.
He laid down pulling her close to him as he stroked her hair. She soon quieted and her breathing evened out. He knew she was then sleeping and decided to stay with her incase she woke up in the middle of the night. But first, he needed to find out where Inuyasha was and when he would be coming home tonight, if he was at all.
Reaching for his cell phone he sat up and found Inuyasha’s number in his phone. Calling it, he almost wished he wouldn’t answer. But as fate would have it, the annoyed voice of his half brother was heard at the other end of the phone.
“What do you want?” Sesshomaru growled. “Inu-kun? Who is it?” “Where are you Inuyasha?” Inuyasha sighed into the phone, trying to answer his brother, although he was sure he’d heard Kikyo. “I’m--” “Baby, tell them your busy, please?” Sesshomaru growled. “Rot in hell, bastard.” And he hung up the phone, setting it on the nightstand beside his bed.
“So he’s with Kikyo?” Startled, Sesshomaru turned to face Kagome who was lying with her eyes opened, watching him, waiting for his reply. He nodded. Kagome sighed. “Ya know, she would hate him if she found out.” Aha, now they were getting somewhere.
“Kagome, look. I know this is soon but we need to talk. I will not stand by and watch this situation go unnoticed, however prison will not look good on my brother’s behalf. Not that I care, but once he’s 18 he has a business to run, it’s all reflected back onto my father. Dead or not, he holds the respect of many, but this is your decision to make do not let my input influence that right.” Kagome nodded and took a deep breath before replying.
“You know me Sessho-kun, you probably know more about me than Inuyasha himself with how observant you are, and I know that you know I can’t turn him in to the police. He hurt me, he hurt me beyond belief, but I could never hurt him. I can never trust him and possibly never be friends with him after this, but I can’t bring myself to hurt him.”
“Damn it Kagome! You just don’t understand. No, I take that back, you understand you just aren’t reacting the way one in your position should be. You have too much purity in your heart than you know what to do with. In most cases, that’s amazing, but this isn’t one of them.”
“I don’t know what you want me to do!” She yelled, crying out to him. “I can’t tell my mother, she loves him like a son! I would never ruin his reputation, I know how important that business is, but I want him to hurt! I want him to hurt the way he hurt me, but I can’t do that myself now can I?”
Sesshomaru sighed, enjoying the idea of what he was going to do. “He will feel pain Kagome. There is not one single doubt about that. I will inflict pain upon him beyond his wildest nightmare.” And she didn’t speak one word of disapproval.
Sesshomaru watched as her eyes became distant and began to tear up once again. She allowed him to pull her into his lap as she cried. It wasn’t the first time, and apparently it wouldn’t be the last. He wasn’t complaining however, he liked Kagome. Only, no one would ever know.
Kagome tried to calm down as she buried her face into the crook of his neck. She felt his hands running up and down her back in soothing motions, sometimes stopping to play with her hair. She thought about the events of the past few years and her tears become more forceful. She loved Inuyasha. She loved him with all her heart. But thinking about it, what was her love for him, was it even love? Or was it some infatuation with the boy next door, or even an obsession maybe? Definitely not obsession, she wasn’t psycho, but what then?
She wasn’t sure anymore. Once thing she did know, however, was that she did not love him anymore. She didn’t love him at all. Not as a lover, not as a family, and not as a friend. But she didn’t hate him either. Disliked him, yes, but hate? Never.
‘Why me?’ She asked herself. ‘Why am I always the one to get hurt? Am I not good enough?’ She felt the self-pity start and tried to calm down. She didn’t want to feel bad for herself right now. She wanted to be as strong as she could be. She just wasn’t sure how strong that was.
Sesshomaru held her to him as she cried, feeling her tears run down his neck. In many ways he was jealous of his younger sibling, and in other ways, he hated him. For example, he was jealous of the fact that he had taken Kagome’s virginity, but hated him for how he’d done it. He would feel Inuyasha’s blood on his hands and watch as the boy bleeds, cringing in pain at his feet for what he’s done. And Sesshomaru would not regret a second of it.
He smirked, satisfied with his thoughts before pulling Kagome flush against him and lying them both down on their sides. Her sobbing had by then subsided to silent sniffles and she snuggled her face into his chest. “Sessho-kun? What time is it?” He glanced at his alarm clock behind him before reading off 9:30.
“Don’t worry. Your mother has been informed that you will be staying for the night.” Kagome nodded, yawning as she looked up at him before a questioning look clouded her face. “What about when Inuyasha comes home? I don’t want to see him.” Sesshomaru nodded having already thought about the answer to this question, knowing she’d ask him.
“You’ll stay in here for the night along with myself.” Kagome nodded feeling completely comfortable with Sesshomaru. She’d known him since childhood and he’d always shown her the utmost respect. Why would that change now? Kagome smirked and giggled softly before meeting Sesshomaru’s irritated gaze.
“Tell me, what is it that you find so funny that you would laugh about whilst feeling so much pain?” Kagome sighed as her smile dissipated. She shrugged before looking away from him thinking about whether or not to answer the question. She looked back at his questioning gaze and decided to go for it.
“I was just remembering the very first time I slept in your room.” Was all she said, knowing Sesshomaru would know what she was talking about, well, hoping at least. When his face softened slightly and a small smirk found its way on his lips, she knew he did.
Kagome decided to stay over one night a while ago when Sesshomaru was supposed to be staying over at Miroku’s. So she decided that she would sleep in Sesshomaru’s room instead of hogging Inuyasha’s bed like she normally would when she stayed over. Need less to say, Sesshomaru cancelled his plans and woke up with Kagome in his arms who happened to be stuttering over some random excuse.
“That was some morning.” He said, trying to keep off of the Inuyasha topic. She nodded and snuggled back into his chest, surprised when he wrapped his arm around her. Kagome was the only girl Sesshomaru would show a soft side to aside from his mother, and this she knew and was extremely proud of the fact. Many of his past girlfriends had always been jealous of her.
Kagome shivered and Sesshomaru sat up, reaching for the blankets at the end of his unmade bed. He pulled the over the both of them, making sure that Kagome was completely covered before replacing his arm around her waist. “Thank you, Sessho-kun.” He nodded.
“No, not for the blankets silly!” Sesshomaru looked questioningly at her, waiting for her to explain her gratitude. “All day you’ve taken such good care of me. I appreciate it.” He nodded once again before lying down, hoping Rin would get to bed at a decent hour since she had a trip to go on tomorrow and figured she would.
“Goodnight, Sessho-kun.”
“Goodnight, Kagome.”
Inuyasha pulled into the driveway, parking his car next to Sesshomaru’s and turning off the engine. He took a deep breath and removed the faceplate off his stereo before opening the car door and getting out to shut it behind him. Pressing the button, he locked it, watching the reflection of the lights against his front door as they blinked twice, signifying that the car was locked.
He shoved his key into the keyhole and unlocked the deadbolt, frowning as he opened the door to see Rin sound asleep on the couch with the TV still on. He walked over to the young girl and grabbed the remote out of her hand to turn the TV off. Throwing the remote onto the coffee table, he lifted the girl into his arms and smiled as she instantly snuggled into him.
He walked to her door, which thankfully was left slightly ajar and kicked it the rest of the way open with his foot, wincing as it slammed against the door behind it. Walking towards her bed he shifted her in his arms to pull back the blankets before lowering her onto the mattress and pulling the covers back over her again. He then walked out of her room and shut the door behind him.
He couldn’t get his mind off of Kagome and what happened. He felt horrible. He remembered it so well but it somehow, even as he did it he heard himself saying no in his head. He had amazing control over his hormones, he always had. He’d been sleeping in the same bed as Kagome for years and he’d never made a move to touch her before, so why the sudden need to have her? That’s all it was. It wasn’t some primal instinctive lust it was need. He felt driven to do what he did, like his life depended on it!
Kikyo knew something was wrong. The whole time they were together he thought of Kagome. Even as they made love Kagome’s face was the one pictured in his mind. Kikyo tried to talk to him, tried to get him to open up, but she failed. How could he tell his girlfriend that he’s just raped her cousin? … Exactly. You really can’t.
That still wasn’t an excuse. Besides, how could he explain the feeling to his friends and family if he couldn’t even explain it to himself. He needed to talk to Sesshomaru. His older brother would probably strangle him, but Inuyasha needed advice and Sesshomaru was the only one he could think of going to for it.
Inuyasha walked up the stairs mulling over what he would say. But the truth was, he had no idea where to start. So he would just ask him for advice, just like that. The closer he got to Sesshomaru’s door the more anxious he was. ‘Is he gonna talk to me? Or will he start out by throwing punches?’ Sighing, Inuyasha reached for his brother’s doorknob.
His eyes were downcast as he entered the bedroom and turned on the light. “Sesshomaru, look, I need--”
A feminine whimper cut him off, accompanied by a growl. Sesshomaru he was expecting to be here, Kagome he was not. “Ka—Kagome?”
He watched, stricken as she buried her face in Sesshomaru’s back. Inuyasha blinked, not believing his eyes as Sesshomaru took Kagome into his arms. His older brother looked at him, a scowl etched into his face as he growled, warning Inuyasha to leave. “Get OUT!” Sesshomaru bellowed, breaking Inuyasha’s confused gaze. Apparently, he was not dreaming.
Snapping out of his stupor, Inuyasha put himself in defensive mode. “Whaddya mean get out? What do you thing you’re doing with her all wrapped up in your bed like that?!” he yelled, not being able to control his temper.
Sesshomaru sat up, feeling Kagome’s arms wrap around his waist as he chuckled, clenching his fists in front of him. “Have you forgotten how you treated your beloved Kagome just hours ago? Now to restate your question it should go something like this ‘What did you think YOU were doing when you had her in YOUR bed?’ Huh Inuyasha?”
The younger boy flinched as his brother’s words tore him up on the inside, seeing Kagome’s arms wrapped around him only adding insult to injury. Sesshomaru’s temper was always well prided, as he never lost it. Never until now that is. His eyes visibly darkened as he stood up, walking towards Inuyasha who backed himself against the wall behind him.
A punch was thrown, landing perfectly into the wall centimeters from Inuyasha’s head. “Do not think for one second that I wouldn’t have thrown that in your face, little brother. He brought his head down to stare at Inuyasha at eye level, hearing him gulp as sweat gathered on his for head. “At least I was not low enough to take her.”
Inuyasha growled, it wasn’t fair the way he was just yelling at him, he wasn’t even there! “Kagome loves me!” Sesshomaru squinted his eyes, removing his fist from the wall and punching again, landing squarely in Inuyasha’s nose. He heard the bones crack and felt the blood hit his fingers as he watched his brother’s eyes tear up.
“I would watch what you say in front of me. Trying to justify rape is one thing that I would never like to hear from your mouth again, understood?” Inuyasha scowled at Sesshomaru as he removed his fist from his face. “You betrayed her Inuyasha. You betrayed her in the worst possible way. You have only yourself to blame for her lost love for you.”
Inuyasha blanched. Wasn’t she going to say something? To tell Sesshomaru that she loved him and that everything would be all right in the end? Why wasn’t she backing him up? She just sat there while Sesshomaru ran his mouth and beat the shit out of him.
‘Betrayal at it’s worst.’ Inuyasha thought. ‘Her trust.’ He had lost her trust and he had done so of his own will, by betraying it. ‘Fuck me.’ He thought as his mind finally cleared of its anger. He was the one in the wrong, not Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru was caring for her after he had hurt her. If anything he should be thanking his brother, but he refused.
Inuyasha was at a loss for words. He didn’t know what to do. He didn’t know whether to stay and try to fight for Kagome or to walk away and leave her to Sesshomaru whom he knew would treat her respectfully as he took care of her. He felt lost, empty, confused. The worst part of it all was that it was his own fault he felt this way. He wanted to make it better, for both of them, but knew Sesshomaru wouldn’t let him past the door.
“Kagome?” His voice cracked, sounding broken as he called out for the girl he’d hurt so badly. She shook her head, not even looking at him. He reached his hand out as if to touch her before dropping it back to his side, his head drooping towards the floor. She wouldn’t even look at him! Not even a glance, but then again, he deserved it.
“Go away Inuyasha. She doesn’t want to see you right now.” Sesshomaru slammed the door, locking it so Inuyasha couldn’t get back in. He sighed, knowing that it would be forever before he could gain her friendship back, if ever. He just hoped that someday she could forgive him, knowing it was highly unlikely, and that he was being selfish just wishing for her forgiveness.
Sesshomaru crawled back into bed, his anger subsiding as Kagome wrapped her arms back around him, snuggling up to him for warmth and comfort. He wrapped his arms around her and hugged her to him. “I will deal with my brother in the morning. For now, let us go back to sleep. Kagome nodded into his chest, closing her eyes and letting sleep wash over her.
Sesshomaru, however, stayed up listening to her breathing and wondering about the torture he could put his brother into tomorrow. Sometime this week he would need to fix the hole he’d made in the wall. He didn’t want to hit his brother tonight, he didn’t even want to see him, but like normal, fate was not on his side.
Closing his eyes Sesshomaru let himself fall asleep.
Inuyasha watched from the kitchen as light infiltrated the living. Sighing as he saw the green of Sesshomaru’s jaguar, he put down his freshly poured glass of milk and walked to the door to let his brother in. He heard Rin going on about her day in school and a trip she was to take the next day.
‘That’s right.’ He shook his head, wondering how he could forget something so important. ‘I’m supposed to be a chauffer.’ Right as Inuyasha unlocked the front door the shower turned off. He heard some moving around in the bathroom upstairs and knew she would come out any second, just hopefully not before Sesshomaru locked himself in his room.
Inuyasha cursed loudly when he heard the bathroom door open and went to relock the front door to give himself some time, but it was too late. Sesshomaru walked in the door, Rin at his heel and shoved past him right at the same time Kagome started down the stairs, in his clothes no less.
He growled pushing past Sesshomaru and running to the stairs, meeting the frightened girl half way down. She cringed and screamed out against him, shoving him away from her and fell the rest of the way down the stairs where she immediately assumed the fetal position.
Sesshomaru growled out a warning to Inuyasha as he once again tried to approach her and went to her himself. “Rin, go to your room. Do not come out until I inform you otherwise.” The young girl followed her orders without question and ran for her bedroom, the only one located downstairs. He growled once again only louder when he saw a small spot of blood forming on Kagome’s boxer clad thighs. What the hell had happened today?
Sesshomaru bent down to lift Kagome into his arms and she immediately clung to him, hiding her face in his chest like a frightened child as she shook lightly in his hold. Sesshomaru went to walk up the stairs, meeting Inuyasha’s guilty gaze as he walked past him. Wait, guilty? ‘What did he do to her?’ Only, Sesshomaru wasn’t so sure he wanted to know the answer.
He walked down the hallway and stopped in front of his brother’s door, reaching slowly for the knob as he shifted Kagome to do so. “I wouldn’t-” he heard Inuyasha say before throwing the door open. Kagome let out a chocked sob as her grip tightened around his shirt. Rage hit him hard as he scanned the room, searching for the reason Kagome would scream out against her best friend, and he found it.
Her ripped clothes were strewn about the messy room while Inuyasha’s were piled neatly in a corner. He glanced to the bed and noticed a small spot of blood on the sheets and saw that there was a rip in them. Scowling suspiciously, he looked at the headboard, seeing the two pieces of fabric attached to the bars. Looking down at Kagome’s wrist, he saw the ring shaped bruises around them.
He shut the door and glanced back to where Inuyasha once stood, glaring at the empty staircase and heard the door slam shut. He’d left, but where was he going? On second thought, he really didn’t care. If he hadn’t gone Sesshomaru would have probably killed him anyway, literally.
Knowing that the love of Kagome’s life had raped her, knowing that she loved him, and that he didn’t deserve her, set his nerves on fire. He walked to the bathroom and set her on the toilet before walking out and into his own bedroom. Sesshomaru could feel his blood boiling in his veins. He’d known since they were children and although he never showed it until now and a few other select times, he really cared for her.
Taking a deep breath he grabbed a pair of his boxers and the smallest pair of sweat he had with a drawstring, and walked out of the room. He walked back into the bathroom to see her hugging her knees against her chest, sobbing lightly into them. It was a miracle she hadn’t fallen off the toilet! Shaking his head, he kneeled down next to her and lifted her chin.
“Change into these.” She nodded and watched as he walked out of the bathroom, shutting the door behind him.
Kagome stood up slowly, tears still running down her cheeks from her red, swollen eyes. She dropped Inuyasha’s boxers to the floor and stepped out of them cleaning herself off with some toilet paper and opened up the cabinet to pull out a small box of emergency tampons left here for herself and Kikyo. Taking on out of its wrapping, she wondered if it would even help before inserting the piece of cotton into herself.
For a second she stopped breathing, forgetting that inserting anything into there would most likely hurt, but continued to do so anyway. She really didn’t want to bleed all over Sesshomaru’s clothes. After disposing the wrapper and applicator she picked up Sesshomaru’s boxers and pulled them up to her waist, frowning as they fell when she let go.
Sighing, she pulled them back to her knees and sat down to pull the sweatpants on. Using the drawstring to hold the boxers up she looked at herself in the mirror. He wet hair clung to her neck and her cheeks. Her swollen eyes looked dull and almost lifeless. She shook her head. How could everything that was slowly getting better drop to shit just like that?
She turned around and walked out of the bathroom unconsciously headed for Inuyasha’s room. Noticing this, she stopped dead in her tracks and backed up against the wall to slide down against it, wrapping her arms around her legs and with her head tucked snugly in between her knees. She closed her eyes and let silent tears trace down her cheeks.
Sesshomaru knocked on the door before entering Rin’s room. The young girl lay at the foot of her bed; propped up on her elbows, chin resting on her palm watching TV. Her eyes traveled to her doorway as she heard it being opened and she smiled at Sesshomaru. “Is it okay to come out now?” She asked hopefully, turning off the TV set.
Sesshomaru nodded and kicked the door open the rest of the way with his slipper-clad toes. He watched as Rin jumped out of bed and leaped for the doorway, running past him and into the kitchen to make herself her traditional peanut butter and jelly, opting for strawberry instead of grape for once.
He hadn’t a clue about what to do with Kagome. He knew one thing for sure; she wasn’t going home. He needed to talk to her beforehand. Walking to the kitchen, he picked the cordless up off the charger and dialed her phone number. She would stay for the night. It was late as it is.
“Hello?” Mrs. Higurashi’s voice sounded over the receiver. “Higurashi-san?” Sesshomaru asked into the phone, “Oh Sess-chan! What is it dear?” She asked in an enthusiastic tone. “Kagome seems to have fallen asleep with my brother in the midst of a movie and I was wondering whether to wake her or to just let her sleep since it’s Friday and there’s no school in the morning.”
There was a slight pause.
“Hm, well I had been meaning to speak with her but it’s fine, no use waking her, what I have to say isn’t very important, it can wait. Just have her call first thing, please?” “Of course Higurashi-san.” “Thank you for calling Sess-chan, goodnight!” “Goodnight to you as well.”
He replaced the phone on the hook and came face to face with Rin’s questioning gaze. “It’s a horribly bad to thing to lie Sesshomaru-san.” She said mischievously. “But I suppose I can look past it for, say, a dollar for the ice cream truck?” She asked hopefully. Sesshomaru smirked; she always found a way to rob him of a dollar for ice cream.
‘Time to check on Kagome.’ He thought to himself as he walking towards the stairs. He felt his cell phone vibrate in his pocket and pulled it out, looking at the screen once before putting it back into his pocket. ‘Work.’ He sighed. ‘They can’t call me in if they can’t get a hold of me!’ He frowned as he reached the top, seeing Kagome lying against the wall across from his brother’s room.
Shaking his head he walked towards her sleeping body and lifted her into his arms. Her eyes immediately opened as she began to struggle against him. Tears instantly forming in her eyes before she came to her senses. “Kagome.” Her name on his lips was all it took. She looked up at him and eased her body back into his embrace as they walked towards his room, not knowing where else to take her.
Once inside, he laid her down on his bed, sitting next to her as she sat up into a comfortable position. “Is he—here?” She asked timidly, not wanting him to be in the same country as her right now. Sesshomaru shook his head. She nodded, clearly relieved by the statement. She couldn’t stand to so much as look at him right now, and most likely for a long time to come.
“I’m not stupid nor am I naive enough to have to ask you what went on today.” Kagome nodded, biting her bottom lip as she lost the battle to hold in her tears. Sesshomaru sighed and lifted his hand to wipe them away. She covered her face, looking ashamed as she turned away from him completely. “Please, don’t look at me right now.” Sesshomaru scowled and grabbed her shoulder, turning her toward himself.
“Kagome, there is nothing that you could have don to prevent what happened today so don’t for one second think that you’re dirty. You are the purest creature I have ever set eyes upon and my vision of you has not faltered.” She moved her hands away from her face and into her lap; still looking somewhat like this was her fault.
“I should have fought harder against him, tried getting out my phone, I don’t know, something! I just, I couldn’t think! And---” Sesshomaru placed his finger gently over her lips. “Had you acted against my brother any more than you did, he would not have left you in any shape to do more than stand at the most. You could not stop his and although you tried, the harder you would have would only anger him more so.”
Kagome nodded, she knew he was right. She just wished that there was something she could have done to prevent that from happening, to get him to stop, just something. But there wasn’t, and she knew this. “It hurts Sessho-Kun. My heart, it’s broken right now.” Sesshomaru smiled softly and reached his hand behind her head, pulling her into his chest as she sobbed.
He laid down pulling her close to him as he stroked her hair. She soon quieted and her breathing evened out. He knew she was then sleeping and decided to stay with her incase she woke up in the middle of the night. But first, he needed to find out where Inuyasha was and when he would be coming home tonight, if he was at all.
Reaching for his cell phone he sat up and found Inuyasha’s number in his phone. Calling it, he almost wished he wouldn’t answer. But as fate would have it, the annoyed voice of his half brother was heard at the other end of the phone.
“What do you want?” Sesshomaru growled. “Inu-kun? Who is it?” “Where are you Inuyasha?” Inuyasha sighed into the phone, trying to answer his brother, although he was sure he’d heard Kikyo. “I’m--” “Baby, tell them your busy, please?” Sesshomaru growled. “Rot in hell, bastard.” And he hung up the phone, setting it on the nightstand beside his bed.
“So he’s with Kikyo?” Startled, Sesshomaru turned to face Kagome who was lying with her eyes opened, watching him, waiting for his reply. He nodded. Kagome sighed. “Ya know, she would hate him if she found out.” Aha, now they were getting somewhere.
“Kagome, look. I know this is soon but we need to talk. I will not stand by and watch this situation go unnoticed, however prison will not look good on my brother’s behalf. Not that I care, but once he’s 18 he has a business to run, it’s all reflected back onto my father. Dead or not, he holds the respect of many, but this is your decision to make do not let my input influence that right.” Kagome nodded and took a deep breath before replying.
“You know me Sessho-kun, you probably know more about me than Inuyasha himself with how observant you are, and I know that you know I can’t turn him in to the police. He hurt me, he hurt me beyond belief, but I could never hurt him. I can never trust him and possibly never be friends with him after this, but I can’t bring myself to hurt him.”
“Damn it Kagome! You just don’t understand. No, I take that back, you understand you just aren’t reacting the way one in your position should be. You have too much purity in your heart than you know what to do with. In most cases, that’s amazing, but this isn’t one of them.”
“I don’t know what you want me to do!” She yelled, crying out to him. “I can’t tell my mother, she loves him like a son! I would never ruin his reputation, I know how important that business is, but I want him to hurt! I want him to hurt the way he hurt me, but I can’t do that myself now can I?”
Sesshomaru sighed, enjoying the idea of what he was going to do. “He will feel pain Kagome. There is not one single doubt about that. I will inflict pain upon him beyond his wildest nightmare.” And she didn’t speak one word of disapproval.
Sesshomaru watched as her eyes became distant and began to tear up once again. She allowed him to pull her into his lap as she cried. It wasn’t the first time, and apparently it wouldn’t be the last. He wasn’t complaining however, he liked Kagome. Only, no one would ever know.
Kagome tried to calm down as she buried her face into the crook of his neck. She felt his hands running up and down her back in soothing motions, sometimes stopping to play with her hair. She thought about the events of the past few years and her tears become more forceful. She loved Inuyasha. She loved him with all her heart. But thinking about it, what was her love for him, was it even love? Or was it some infatuation with the boy next door, or even an obsession maybe? Definitely not obsession, she wasn’t psycho, but what then?
She wasn’t sure anymore. Once thing she did know, however, was that she did not love him anymore. She didn’t love him at all. Not as a lover, not as a family, and not as a friend. But she didn’t hate him either. Disliked him, yes, but hate? Never.
‘Why me?’ She asked herself. ‘Why am I always the one to get hurt? Am I not good enough?’ She felt the self-pity start and tried to calm down. She didn’t want to feel bad for herself right now. She wanted to be as strong as she could be. She just wasn’t sure how strong that was.
Sesshomaru held her to him as she cried, feeling her tears run down his neck. In many ways he was jealous of his younger sibling, and in other ways, he hated him. For example, he was jealous of the fact that he had taken Kagome’s virginity, but hated him for how he’d done it. He would feel Inuyasha’s blood on his hands and watch as the boy bleeds, cringing in pain at his feet for what he’s done. And Sesshomaru would not regret a second of it.
He smirked, satisfied with his thoughts before pulling Kagome flush against him and lying them both down on their sides. Her sobbing had by then subsided to silent sniffles and she snuggled her face into his chest. “Sessho-kun? What time is it?” He glanced at his alarm clock behind him before reading off 9:30.
“Don’t worry. Your mother has been informed that you will be staying for the night.” Kagome nodded, yawning as she looked up at him before a questioning look clouded her face. “What about when Inuyasha comes home? I don’t want to see him.” Sesshomaru nodded having already thought about the answer to this question, knowing she’d ask him.
“You’ll stay in here for the night along with myself.” Kagome nodded feeling completely comfortable with Sesshomaru. She’d known him since childhood and he’d always shown her the utmost respect. Why would that change now? Kagome smirked and giggled softly before meeting Sesshomaru’s irritated gaze.
“Tell me, what is it that you find so funny that you would laugh about whilst feeling so much pain?” Kagome sighed as her smile dissipated. She shrugged before looking away from him thinking about whether or not to answer the question. She looked back at his questioning gaze and decided to go for it.
“I was just remembering the very first time I slept in your room.” Was all she said, knowing Sesshomaru would know what she was talking about, well, hoping at least. When his face softened slightly and a small smirk found its way on his lips, she knew he did.
Kagome decided to stay over one night a while ago when Sesshomaru was supposed to be staying over at Miroku’s. So she decided that she would sleep in Sesshomaru’s room instead of hogging Inuyasha’s bed like she normally would when she stayed over. Need less to say, Sesshomaru cancelled his plans and woke up with Kagome in his arms who happened to be stuttering over some random excuse.
“That was some morning.” He said, trying to keep off of the Inuyasha topic. She nodded and snuggled back into his chest, surprised when he wrapped his arm around her. Kagome was the only girl Sesshomaru would show a soft side to aside from his mother, and this she knew and was extremely proud of the fact. Many of his past girlfriends had always been jealous of her.
Kagome shivered and Sesshomaru sat up, reaching for the blankets at the end of his unmade bed. He pulled the over the both of them, making sure that Kagome was completely covered before replacing his arm around her waist. “Thank you, Sessho-kun.” He nodded.
“No, not for the blankets silly!” Sesshomaru looked questioningly at her, waiting for her to explain her gratitude. “All day you’ve taken such good care of me. I appreciate it.” He nodded once again before lying down, hoping Rin would get to bed at a decent hour since she had a trip to go on tomorrow and figured she would.
“Goodnight, Sessho-kun.”
“Goodnight, Kagome.”
Inuyasha pulled into the driveway, parking his car next to Sesshomaru’s and turning off the engine. He took a deep breath and removed the faceplate off his stereo before opening the car door and getting out to shut it behind him. Pressing the button, he locked it, watching the reflection of the lights against his front door as they blinked twice, signifying that the car was locked.
He shoved his key into the keyhole and unlocked the deadbolt, frowning as he opened the door to see Rin sound asleep on the couch with the TV still on. He walked over to the young girl and grabbed the remote out of her hand to turn the TV off. Throwing the remote onto the coffee table, he lifted the girl into his arms and smiled as she instantly snuggled into him.
He walked to her door, which thankfully was left slightly ajar and kicked it the rest of the way open with his foot, wincing as it slammed against the door behind it. Walking towards her bed he shifted her in his arms to pull back the blankets before lowering her onto the mattress and pulling the covers back over her again. He then walked out of her room and shut the door behind him.
He couldn’t get his mind off of Kagome and what happened. He felt horrible. He remembered it so well but it somehow, even as he did it he heard himself saying no in his head. He had amazing control over his hormones, he always had. He’d been sleeping in the same bed as Kagome for years and he’d never made a move to touch her before, so why the sudden need to have her? That’s all it was. It wasn’t some primal instinctive lust it was need. He felt driven to do what he did, like his life depended on it!
Kikyo knew something was wrong. The whole time they were together he thought of Kagome. Even as they made love Kagome’s face was the one pictured in his mind. Kikyo tried to talk to him, tried to get him to open up, but she failed. How could he tell his girlfriend that he’s just raped her cousin? … Exactly. You really can’t.
That still wasn’t an excuse. Besides, how could he explain the feeling to his friends and family if he couldn’t even explain it to himself. He needed to talk to Sesshomaru. His older brother would probably strangle him, but Inuyasha needed advice and Sesshomaru was the only one he could think of going to for it.
Inuyasha walked up the stairs mulling over what he would say. But the truth was, he had no idea where to start. So he would just ask him for advice, just like that. The closer he got to Sesshomaru’s door the more anxious he was. ‘Is he gonna talk to me? Or will he start out by throwing punches?’ Sighing, Inuyasha reached for his brother’s doorknob.
His eyes were downcast as he entered the bedroom and turned on the light. “Sesshomaru, look, I need--”
A feminine whimper cut him off, accompanied by a growl. Sesshomaru he was expecting to be here, Kagome he was not. “Ka—Kagome?”
He watched, stricken as she buried her face in Sesshomaru’s back. Inuyasha blinked, not believing his eyes as Sesshomaru took Kagome into his arms. His older brother looked at him, a scowl etched into his face as he growled, warning Inuyasha to leave. “Get OUT!” Sesshomaru bellowed, breaking Inuyasha’s confused gaze. Apparently, he was not dreaming.
Snapping out of his stupor, Inuyasha put himself in defensive mode. “Whaddya mean get out? What do you thing you’re doing with her all wrapped up in your bed like that?!” he yelled, not being able to control his temper.
Sesshomaru sat up, feeling Kagome’s arms wrap around his waist as he chuckled, clenching his fists in front of him. “Have you forgotten how you treated your beloved Kagome just hours ago? Now to restate your question it should go something like this ‘What did you think YOU were doing when you had her in YOUR bed?’ Huh Inuyasha?”
The younger boy flinched as his brother’s words tore him up on the inside, seeing Kagome’s arms wrapped around him only adding insult to injury. Sesshomaru’s temper was always well prided, as he never lost it. Never until now that is. His eyes visibly darkened as he stood up, walking towards Inuyasha who backed himself against the wall behind him.
A punch was thrown, landing perfectly into the wall centimeters from Inuyasha’s head. “Do not think for one second that I wouldn’t have thrown that in your face, little brother. He brought his head down to stare at Inuyasha at eye level, hearing him gulp as sweat gathered on his for head. “At least I was not low enough to take her.”
Inuyasha growled, it wasn’t fair the way he was just yelling at him, he wasn’t even there! “Kagome loves me!” Sesshomaru squinted his eyes, removing his fist from the wall and punching again, landing squarely in Inuyasha’s nose. He heard the bones crack and felt the blood hit his fingers as he watched his brother’s eyes tear up.
“I would watch what you say in front of me. Trying to justify rape is one thing that I would never like to hear from your mouth again, understood?” Inuyasha scowled at Sesshomaru as he removed his fist from his face. “You betrayed her Inuyasha. You betrayed her in the worst possible way. You have only yourself to blame for her lost love for you.”
Inuyasha blanched. Wasn’t she going to say something? To tell Sesshomaru that she loved him and that everything would be all right in the end? Why wasn’t she backing him up? She just sat there while Sesshomaru ran his mouth and beat the shit out of him.
‘Betrayal at it’s worst.’ Inuyasha thought. ‘Her trust.’ He had lost her trust and he had done so of his own will, by betraying it. ‘Fuck me.’ He thought as his mind finally cleared of its anger. He was the one in the wrong, not Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru was caring for her after he had hurt her. If anything he should be thanking his brother, but he refused.
Inuyasha was at a loss for words. He didn’t know what to do. He didn’t know whether to stay and try to fight for Kagome or to walk away and leave her to Sesshomaru whom he knew would treat her respectfully as he took care of her. He felt lost, empty, confused. The worst part of it all was that it was his own fault he felt this way. He wanted to make it better, for both of them, but knew Sesshomaru wouldn’t let him past the door.
“Kagome?” His voice cracked, sounding broken as he called out for the girl he’d hurt so badly. She shook her head, not even looking at him. He reached his hand out as if to touch her before dropping it back to his side, his head drooping towards the floor. She wouldn’t even look at him! Not even a glance, but then again, he deserved it.
“Go away Inuyasha. She doesn’t want to see you right now.” Sesshomaru slammed the door, locking it so Inuyasha couldn’t get back in. He sighed, knowing that it would be forever before he could gain her friendship back, if ever. He just hoped that someday she could forgive him, knowing it was highly unlikely, and that he was being selfish just wishing for her forgiveness.
Sesshomaru crawled back into bed, his anger subsiding as Kagome wrapped her arms back around him, snuggling up to him for warmth and comfort. He wrapped his arms around her and hugged her to him. “I will deal with my brother in the morning. For now, let us go back to sleep. Kagome nodded into his chest, closing her eyes and letting sleep wash over her.
Sesshomaru, however, stayed up listening to her breathing and wondering about the torture he could put his brother into tomorrow. Sometime this week he would need to fix the hole he’d made in the wall. He didn’t want to hit his brother tonight, he didn’t even want to see him, but like normal, fate was not on his side.
Closing his eyes Sesshomaru let himself fall asleep.