InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forgive Me ❯ can't ( Chapter 7 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: inu-kyolover 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 09.24.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 187 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 09.24.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 187 | Status: Work In Progress
I Do not own Inuyasha
I'M SOOOO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!! THANK YOU FOR WAITING PATIENTLY!!!! UNFORTUNATLY, THE NEXT CHAPPIE WILL PROBALY TAKE JUST AS LONG, I"VE BEEN BUSY WITH SCHOOL JUNK......
bold is flashbacks
'these mean thinking'
song is Underneath it all by Nine inch Nails
Chapter 7:Can't
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All I do
I can still feel you
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"Tell us what's been going on Inuyasha. How long have you had these headaches?" Everyone was gathered around Inuyasha, who was seated on the ground.
"Since last night" he said dully.
"Did something happen to trigger them?" Sango asked as she took a seat next to him.
He thought of the dream he'd had and shivered slightly, unconciously drawing his knees closer to his chest and hunching his shoulders.
When he was silent, knowing the hanyou, they took that as a yes. "What happened to trigger them?" the monk questioned curiously, settling on the ground. Inuyasha shot a icy glare at him.
"Feh" still glaring, he barred his teeth slightly.
'If looks could kill...' Miroku laughed silently to himself 'He's the most stubborn person I've ever met' Voicing his thoughts aloud he said "Stop being so stubborn, it's not getting you anywhere. Just tell us what's been happening" The others all nodded in agreement.
The icy glare melted away, looking away he breathed hard through his nose. 'Damn humans' Staring off into space, he wondered how much to tell them. "I had a bad dream, that's it" 'more like a nightmare'
"You had a bad dream" Miroku echoed. Shippo snickered slightly.
Flushing, Inuyasha resumed his glaring at the baka monk. "Yes! A bad dream! I'm not allowed to have bad dreams!?!"
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Nu mb all through
I can still feel you
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Shippo jumped onto Miroku's shoulder "What was it about? What's big, tough Inuyasha scared of?"
Inuyasha slowly looked at Shippo. Smiling coldly, his arm shot out before anyone could stop him and shoved the kit off Miroku's shoulder. Snickering to himself, he stuck his arms in his sleeves and glared at the group who were waiting expectantly. "What?!" he snapped "I've told you what happened! Now leave me alone!"
Kagome helped Shippo off the ground and turned to glare at the hanyou. "Inuyasha SIT!" slam! Inuyasha barreled face first into the ground for the second time that day.
"Bitch" As soon as Inuyasha could move he jumped up and stalked off.
Eyes widening, Kagome stared after Inuyasha in shock. "Inuyasha wait!"
Inuyasha just kept walking.
"I'm going after him." the upset miko said. She went to get up but Sango grabbed her wrist.
"Maybe that's not a good idea Kagome. Inuyasha is being even more of a jerk then usual." Sango stared after him thoughtfully. "He says it was only a bad dream that's making him act weird? I don't buy that, there has to be more to it."
"No he's telling the truth" Kagome said quietly, all eyes turned to her "last night... he did have a bad dream, a nightmare, if you'd seen his face... it was weird. He...he told me that the dream was about his mother, his ha-ha ue he called her. There was pain in his eyes...and the rain, he was acting strange about the rain"
"What exactly happened last night? Tell us everything."
Blushing bright red, Kagome began retelling the events of last night. "It all started when Inuyasha said we should...."
As soon as Inuyasha was out of sight, he allowed himself to start staggering. His whole head throbbed in time with his pulse, bam, bam, and it hurt like hell. There was a roaring in his ears and his pulse flickered wildly. He refused to look back on the memories, he didn't care, wouldn't allow himself to feel anything more then he already was. He knew that his group would follow sooner or later. He knew he shouldn't have walked away, regardless of Kagome's sit, but he didn't know how to let them in, to let them help, it went against everything he had taught himself to be.
Another wave of pain swept through him, making him stagger all the more. He moaned aloud, his head feeling like it was about to explode. The pain from his head traveled throughout his body, making him hurt all over. It seemed to stop around his heart, gripping it in ice. His breathing was ragged, and his eyes blurred. Staggering sideways he slammed into a tree, he stopped and leaned against it, breathing heavily. Turning his back to the tree, he slid down to sit on the ground. He wanted to get up, he felt an overwhelming urge to run as far as possible, but he couldn't find the will or the strength.
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Hear you call
Underneath it all
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"Very odd..." Miroku said, trying to fathom what the nightmare could have been about. "His mother? What could have happened to cause such a strong reaction?" Looking back at Kagome his face took a more lecherous look "So you and Inuyasha slept in tree together?" Kagome turned, if possible, even brighter red.
Sango bopped him in the head with her fist."That's not important right now lech! We need to go after Inuyasha!" with that she turned and walked in the direction that Inuyasha had.
"I guess she's right" Miroku sighed "but Kagome we will discuss this later right?"
"Don't hold your breath. Come on let's go" They caught up with Sango just as she reached the small forest that Inuyasha had disappeared into.
"let's split up, Kagome and Shippo go that way, I'll go this way, and Miroku, you go that way" off they went in search of their hanyou.
Inuyasha sniffed the air, catching Miroku's scent, he found he didn't care. Miroku walked towards Inuyasha as soon as he spotted him.
'What's wrong with him?' Miroku thought. The hanyou's face was ashen, his gold eyes dull. Inuyasha's gaze focused on the monk.
"What do you want Miroku?" Inuyasha said flatly
"Inuyasha...I'm worried, we all are." The hanyou looked away
"I know" he muttered. "It makes it even harder"
Miroku stared at him in confusion "Makes what harder? I don't understand"
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Ki ll my brain
Yet you still remain
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"If I could tell you I would, but I don't even understand it. I don't understand what's happening" his voice was disquieted. He closed his eyes tightly, his left hand came up to rub his head. "ugh...go away"
Frowning,Miroku walked over to him and knelt down next to him. Dull eyes settled on him, "What are you doing?" Inuyasha said tiredly. Reaching over, Miroku placed his hand to the hanyou's forhead and his eyes widened. Inuyasha's sweat was cold and clammy but he was feverishly hot.
"Inuyasha your burning up!"
Inuyasha blinked slowly before pushing the monk's hand away. "That can't be... I can't get sick..."
"Your body doesn't seem to know that" Miroku lightly rapped his knukles on the hanyou's head. "Maybe it's emotional? It could have something to do with that dream..." He said it leadingly, prodding the hanyou to tell him the contents of the nightmare.
Inuyasha looked at him sharply, scowling. "I'm not going to tell you what it was about, so don't even ask."
"Why? What are you embaressed about?
"I'm not embaressed! It's just none of your business! Feh, just shut up, your making me even more tired." Inuyasha closed his eyes, his head trobbing dully. His earlier pain had returned, bringing more memories. The memory of his mother, her smell, her voice, her loving eyes, all this added to his guilt. "She pushed herself... she was always pushing herself... "
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Crucified< br> After all I've died
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Miroku stared at Inuyasha in puzzlement, the hanyou's voice had softened when he'd uttered these words. His eyes were open, guilt ridden. The monk had never seen the hanyou's eyes this open before. "What? Who is 'she'?
Inuyasha stared at the monk blankly. "My mother" he looked away again, and tried to supressed the sudden, violent urge he had to vomit. Doubling over until his forhead touched the grass, his legs sprawled to the side. Bile rose in his throat, choking him. His whole body shook violently with the force of keeping himself from throwing up. Water blurred his vision, and the calming smell of lavender filled his nose
"Inuyasha are you all right?" He felt gentle hands pull his long hair back away from his face. Looking up, his eyes met the worried dark blue ones of the girl kneeling beside him.
"Kagome?" another dry heave shook his body, doubling him over again.
"I'm right here Inuyasha"
His shaking slowly subsided, leaving him utterly spent. He rolled on his back, panting, and looked up at the faces surrounding him. Miroku and Kagome were leaning over him and he could smell Sango not that far off. Shippo suddenly jumped into his line of sight, practically on top of him.
"What's wrong with you Inuyasha? You look like crap..." Shippo's squeaky little voice said this right next to his sensitive ears, sending a dull ache through him.
"Shut...up...go....away....ugh" He closed his eyes, blocking them all out. Sango's smell came closer and closer untill it was right over him. "Go away" he said more firmly.
"just..Go away"
"No Inuyasha, you're going to let me help you" Kagome said.
"Or what? You'll sit me?" Inuyasha opened his eyes to glare at her, that slowly struggled to his feet. "All of you can go to..." he cut off as he stumbled slightly. "Ugh...fuck"
He struggled silently with himself, trying to find the strength to walk away. Finally he settled for jumping in a nearby tree. Bending slightly, he lepped upward before anyone could stop him. He landed on the branch clumsily, after catching his balance he sat down with his back to the branch.
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A fter all I've tried
You are still inside
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"I nuyasha! Get your ass down here right now!!"
"Feh" He closed his eyes, trying to settle his pounding heart. That little jump had completely drained him of the little energy he'd had.
"Inuyasha!"
Opening his eyes, he opened his mouth to tell her to shut up. Vomit rose in his throat again, images flickering through his head. Darkness clawed at the edges of his vision, and the nauseating smell of ash and blood overwhelmed his senses. Looking around wildly, he tried to pinpoint the scent. 'It's only a memory...The smell isn't real...It's not real...' he desperatly tried to block out the vision of fire and flowing crimson blood.
Kagome stared up at Inuyasha in confusion, panic had flashed across his features before settling into a vague look of desperation.
"No.." Inuyasha whispered. Blackness covered everything and the last thing he heard was Kagome screaming his name. He didn't even hear the sickening thudd of his body slamming into the ground as he fell out of the tree. He lost consciousness long before that.
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You remain
I am stained
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To be continued........
Does this seem kinda drawn out to you? 'winces' sorry, I couldn't resist another cliffhanger.... Possible fluffiness next chappie...maybe
HEY! What do you expect? I'm writing this as I go along.... Only the overall plot is set.... well kinda
I'M SOOOO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!! THANK YOU FOR WAITING PATIENTLY!!!! UNFORTUNATLY, THE NEXT CHAPPIE WILL PROBALY TAKE JUST AS LONG, I"VE BEEN BUSY WITH SCHOOL JUNK......
bold is flashbacks
'these mean thinking'
song is Underneath it all by Nine inch Nails
Chapter 7:Can't
------------------------------------------------
All I do
I can still feel you
------------------------------------------------
"Tell us what's been going on Inuyasha. How long have you had these headaches?" Everyone was gathered around Inuyasha, who was seated on the ground.
"Since last night" he said dully.
"Did something happen to trigger them?" Sango asked as she took a seat next to him.
He thought of the dream he'd had and shivered slightly, unconciously drawing his knees closer to his chest and hunching his shoulders.
When he was silent, knowing the hanyou, they took that as a yes. "What happened to trigger them?" the monk questioned curiously, settling on the ground. Inuyasha shot a icy glare at him.
"Feh" still glaring, he barred his teeth slightly.
'If looks could kill...' Miroku laughed silently to himself 'He's the most stubborn person I've ever met' Voicing his thoughts aloud he said "Stop being so stubborn, it's not getting you anywhere. Just tell us what's been happening" The others all nodded in agreement.
The icy glare melted away, looking away he breathed hard through his nose. 'Damn humans' Staring off into space, he wondered how much to tell them. "I had a bad dream, that's it" 'more like a nightmare'
"You had a bad dream" Miroku echoed. Shippo snickered slightly.
Flushing, Inuyasha resumed his glaring at the baka monk. "Yes! A bad dream! I'm not allowed to have bad dreams!?!"
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Nu mb all through
I can still feel you
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Shippo jumped onto Miroku's shoulder "What was it about? What's big, tough Inuyasha scared of?"
Inuyasha slowly looked at Shippo. Smiling coldly, his arm shot out before anyone could stop him and shoved the kit off Miroku's shoulder. Snickering to himself, he stuck his arms in his sleeves and glared at the group who were waiting expectantly. "What?!" he snapped "I've told you what happened! Now leave me alone!"
Kagome helped Shippo off the ground and turned to glare at the hanyou. "Inuyasha SIT!" slam! Inuyasha barreled face first into the ground for the second time that day.
"Bitch" As soon as Inuyasha could move he jumped up and stalked off.
Eyes widening, Kagome stared after Inuyasha in shock. "Inuyasha wait!"
Inuyasha just kept walking.
"I'm going after him." the upset miko said. She went to get up but Sango grabbed her wrist.
"Maybe that's not a good idea Kagome. Inuyasha is being even more of a jerk then usual." Sango stared after him thoughtfully. "He says it was only a bad dream that's making him act weird? I don't buy that, there has to be more to it."
"No he's telling the truth" Kagome said quietly, all eyes turned to her "last night... he did have a bad dream, a nightmare, if you'd seen his face... it was weird. He...he told me that the dream was about his mother, his ha-ha ue he called her. There was pain in his eyes...and the rain, he was acting strange about the rain"
"What exactly happened last night? Tell us everything."
Blushing bright red, Kagome began retelling the events of last night. "It all started when Inuyasha said we should...."
As soon as Inuyasha was out of sight, he allowed himself to start staggering. His whole head throbbed in time with his pulse, bam, bam, and it hurt like hell. There was a roaring in his ears and his pulse flickered wildly. He refused to look back on the memories, he didn't care, wouldn't allow himself to feel anything more then he already was. He knew that his group would follow sooner or later. He knew he shouldn't have walked away, regardless of Kagome's sit, but he didn't know how to let them in, to let them help, it went against everything he had taught himself to be.
Another wave of pain swept through him, making him stagger all the more. He moaned aloud, his head feeling like it was about to explode. The pain from his head traveled throughout his body, making him hurt all over. It seemed to stop around his heart, gripping it in ice. His breathing was ragged, and his eyes blurred. Staggering sideways he slammed into a tree, he stopped and leaned against it, breathing heavily. Turning his back to the tree, he slid down to sit on the ground. He wanted to get up, he felt an overwhelming urge to run as far as possible, but he couldn't find the will or the strength.
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Hear you call
Underneath it all
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"Very odd..." Miroku said, trying to fathom what the nightmare could have been about. "His mother? What could have happened to cause such a strong reaction?" Looking back at Kagome his face took a more lecherous look "So you and Inuyasha slept in tree together?" Kagome turned, if possible, even brighter red.
Sango bopped him in the head with her fist."That's not important right now lech! We need to go after Inuyasha!" with that she turned and walked in the direction that Inuyasha had.
"I guess she's right" Miroku sighed "but Kagome we will discuss this later right?"
"Don't hold your breath. Come on let's go" They caught up with Sango just as she reached the small forest that Inuyasha had disappeared into.
"let's split up, Kagome and Shippo go that way, I'll go this way, and Miroku, you go that way" off they went in search of their hanyou.
Inuyasha sniffed the air, catching Miroku's scent, he found he didn't care. Miroku walked towards Inuyasha as soon as he spotted him.
'What's wrong with him?' Miroku thought. The hanyou's face was ashen, his gold eyes dull. Inuyasha's gaze focused on the monk.
"What do you want Miroku?" Inuyasha said flatly
"Inuyasha...I'm worried, we all are." The hanyou looked away
"I know" he muttered. "It makes it even harder"
Miroku stared at him in confusion "Makes what harder? I don't understand"
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Ki ll my brain
Yet you still remain
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"If I could tell you I would, but I don't even understand it. I don't understand what's happening" his voice was disquieted. He closed his eyes tightly, his left hand came up to rub his head. "ugh...go away"
Frowning,Miroku walked over to him and knelt down next to him. Dull eyes settled on him, "What are you doing?" Inuyasha said tiredly. Reaching over, Miroku placed his hand to the hanyou's forhead and his eyes widened. Inuyasha's sweat was cold and clammy but he was feverishly hot.
"Inuyasha your burning up!"
Inuyasha blinked slowly before pushing the monk's hand away. "That can't be... I can't get sick..."
"Your body doesn't seem to know that" Miroku lightly rapped his knukles on the hanyou's head. "Maybe it's emotional? It could have something to do with that dream..." He said it leadingly, prodding the hanyou to tell him the contents of the nightmare.
Inuyasha looked at him sharply, scowling. "I'm not going to tell you what it was about, so don't even ask."
"Why? What are you embaressed about?
"I'm not embaressed! It's just none of your business! Feh, just shut up, your making me even more tired." Inuyasha closed his eyes, his head trobbing dully. His earlier pain had returned, bringing more memories. The memory of his mother, her smell, her voice, her loving eyes, all this added to his guilt. "She pushed herself... she was always pushing herself... "
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Crucified< br> After all I've died
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Miroku stared at Inuyasha in puzzlement, the hanyou's voice had softened when he'd uttered these words. His eyes were open, guilt ridden. The monk had never seen the hanyou's eyes this open before. "What? Who is 'she'?
Inuyasha stared at the monk blankly. "My mother" he looked away again, and tried to supressed the sudden, violent urge he had to vomit. Doubling over until his forhead touched the grass, his legs sprawled to the side. Bile rose in his throat, choking him. His whole body shook violently with the force of keeping himself from throwing up. Water blurred his vision, and the calming smell of lavender filled his nose
"Inuyasha are you all right?" He felt gentle hands pull his long hair back away from his face. Looking up, his eyes met the worried dark blue ones of the girl kneeling beside him.
"Kagome?" another dry heave shook his body, doubling him over again.
"I'm right here Inuyasha"
His shaking slowly subsided, leaving him utterly spent. He rolled on his back, panting, and looked up at the faces surrounding him. Miroku and Kagome were leaning over him and he could smell Sango not that far off. Shippo suddenly jumped into his line of sight, practically on top of him.
"What's wrong with you Inuyasha? You look like crap..." Shippo's squeaky little voice said this right next to his sensitive ears, sending a dull ache through him.
"Shut...up...go....away....ugh" He closed his eyes, blocking them all out. Sango's smell came closer and closer untill it was right over him. "Go away" he said more firmly.
"just..Go away"
"No Inuyasha, you're going to let me help you" Kagome said.
"Or what? You'll sit me?" Inuyasha opened his eyes to glare at her, that slowly struggled to his feet. "All of you can go to..." he cut off as he stumbled slightly. "Ugh...fuck"
He struggled silently with himself, trying to find the strength to walk away. Finally he settled for jumping in a nearby tree. Bending slightly, he lepped upward before anyone could stop him. He landed on the branch clumsily, after catching his balance he sat down with his back to the branch.
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A fter all I've tried
You are still inside
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"I nuyasha! Get your ass down here right now!!"
"Feh" He closed his eyes, trying to settle his pounding heart. That little jump had completely drained him of the little energy he'd had.
"Inuyasha!"
Opening his eyes, he opened his mouth to tell her to shut up. Vomit rose in his throat again, images flickering through his head. Darkness clawed at the edges of his vision, and the nauseating smell of ash and blood overwhelmed his senses. Looking around wildly, he tried to pinpoint the scent. 'It's only a memory...The smell isn't real...It's not real...' he desperatly tried to block out the vision of fire and flowing crimson blood.
Kagome stared up at Inuyasha in confusion, panic had flashed across his features before settling into a vague look of desperation.
"No.." Inuyasha whispered. Blackness covered everything and the last thing he heard was Kagome screaming his name. He didn't even hear the sickening thudd of his body slamming into the ground as he fell out of the tree. He lost consciousness long before that.
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You remain
I am stained
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To be continued........
Does this seem kinda drawn out to you? 'winces' sorry, I couldn't resist another cliffhanger.... Possible fluffiness next chappie...maybe
HEY! What do you expect? I'm writing this as I go along.... Only the overall plot is set.... well kinda