InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fortunate Bad Luck ❯ I share their pain ( Chapter 5 )

It's really funny when things blind side you.

One minute you are fine and the next you are hysterically crying.

You're pale and shaking with tears running down your cheeks.

You realize you escaped clean but left someone dead.

Horrible nightmares accompany your sleepless nights.

The softness of a pillow and the warmth of a blanket no longer comfort you.

Then months go by and everyone thinks you have healed.

They are far from right.

You can fake a smile as good as an actress whose one five Oscar awards.

It's because they don't look at you in the eye anymore.

If someone were to be observant enough then they would see you were overwhelmingly numb.

You no longer felt content or sad for that matter.

You feel numb.

You feel empty and it hurts.

 

The day that I went through my cycle was a day I'll never forget.

 

That day it was sunny.

It was the day of our graduation, my little family of friends.

I was the valedictorian for our graduating class and I had my speech down to the tee.

 

“Kagome, you look so lovely in the dress we got you!” squealed Kikyou.

 

She was very excited for me because she remembered what graduating was like.

She kept telling me not to be nervous or scared.

I just smiled and nodded, agreeing with every little word she said.

She had become my older sister, my rock, and my second best friend.

She and Kaede were my new family.

 

“Thank you Kikyou,” I said sheepishly, I was still not used to being complimented.

 

My hair had gotten longer since sophomore year; it now reached just a little above my waist.

I looked at Kikyou, she had changed a lot.

She had a little bit of a tan now; her hair was cut short in a bob.

She had dyed it a light brown and she wore glasses too.

They were silver framed square ones.

She looked very much the business woman.

 

“Oh, we have to hurry if we're going to get there on time,” she said taking my hand and leading me out of the small apartment.

 

I grabbed my gown, cap, and my brand new black and pink heart purse.

That had been a gift from Sango.

Inuyasha had gotten me a star shaped hair clip in green.

Miroku had given me a stuffed bear that said Congratulations in bright blue.

Shippou and little Rin had given me a silver frame in the shape of a heart with a picture of all of us.

Sesshoumaru…my dear and best friend Sesshoumaru gave me a silver necklace with a diamond heart pendant.

I wore it around my neck that day.

I kept playing with it, running the heart up and down the silver chain.

He would be there that day to see my break down.

As you will soon find out why.

 

Kaede ran up to me and hugged me then she ran down the stairs to Kikyou's little maroon car.

She got a new one last year when she became a plastic surgeon's secretary.

I hung my gown on the hook in the back of the car and got into the front.

I smiled at Kikyou and she smiled back as she buckled the seatbelt.

 

As we drove to my school to attend the farewell ceremony I had that gut wrenching feeling that something bad was going to happen.

I kept worrying it over in my mind, coming up with what could go wrong.

I worried the fabric of my dress in between my hands.

Kikyou looked over down at my hands and sighed.

She took one hand off of the steering wheel and laid it on my hands.

I stopped, comforted by her small touch of concern.

 

We pulled up in the parking lot of my school.

I got out and so did Kaede, grabbing my gown and cap.

I put that on and smiled down at my black high heeled clad feet.

 

`Today is the day I start life, I can live again,' I thought to myself.

 

I could see my inner me smiling a real smile.

Inuyasha ran up to Kikyou and hugged her.

They made such a cute couple.

I brought out my new digital camera that I had gotten from Kaede.

I took a couple of shots of the couple without them knowing it.

 

“Oh shit I forgot to get film for my camera! I'll be right back okay?” Kikyou said looking at me with an apologetic smile.

 

I smiled back, nodding it was fine if she missed my speech.

 

She ran back to her car in the parking lot and got in.

I saw her drive away and out onto the main street.

I turned around and was ushered to my seat by Inuyasha.

I looked back behind me into the crowd of watchers.

I could see Kaede sitting my an empty seat.

A small frown marred my brow as I turned around.

Thirty minutes later I was ushered onto the stage to make my speech.

I looked into the crowd, searching for that empty seat, hoping it was filled.

I still found it empty.

 

“Today we start our lives, today we begin to live. I have lost so much in life but gained so much back. I have my family of friends and I thank them for looking out for me. They have been my rocks for the past four years. We all have done a tremendous job at doing what we must to have gotten this far in life,” I said addressing the people sitting in front of me.

 

They all looked at my face as I spoke; nodding in unison.

I opened my mouth to speak again and finish my speech, but someone came on stage and tapped my shoulder.

I looked over and saw that it was the principal.

I looked past him and saw an officer.

I turned my eyes back to the principal and nodded to him.

 

“Kagome, Kikyou has been in an accident…she didn't make it…” he whispered to me.

 

I put my hand over my mouth to stifle my gasp and sudden sob.

Tears poured out of my eyes and things felt so bleak all of a sudden.

I turned back to the student body and the people watching.

 

“A graduate of our school has just died. I would like to play a song for her because she was my sister, we weren't related but she took good care of me and her little sister. She was my family, one of the only ones I have left,” I said choking on my tears.

 

I cried so hard while I was grabbing at my purse.

I was blinded by my tears but I grabbed a hold of the CD I had been looking for.

I put it into the player and pushed the next button until I got to the right song.

The Scientist by Coldplay came on and I bowed my head, a prayer in my heart for my lost sister.

 

I looked up at Kaede and saw her sobbing.

I shared her pain.

I looked at Inuyasha and saw tears silently falling onto his cheeks.

I shared his pain.

I shared his lost love.

I looked out on to the crowd and wondered if they knew how great she had been.

 

As the song played on, I walked off the stage and into the stands.

I grabbed Kaede's hand and held onto it tightly.

I pulled her into an embrace and held on for dear life.

We cried on each other's shoulders for what seemed like hours.

I led her out of the graduation ceremony.

I left behind my purse, my diploma, and my hope.

I heard the voice whisper to me.

 

“Be strong, little pebble, because you are the rock in her life.”

 

I knew it was right.

I knew I was Kaede's last chance.

I was Kaede's rock and she needed me now.

She needed me like I had needed Kikyou.

 

Life knew how to tear apart one's world.

It was brutal but I will prevail now, if not for myself, for the little grown up's hand that I now held in mine.