InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fragile ❯ Insanity ( Chapter 6 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

A/N Okay, so, I'm back in school, so one would think updates are more regular. However, I'm in the hardest grade of my high school life, so I really need to focus on standing out for colleges and stuff. I hate it.

I've worked on this chappie long and hard so please and enjoy and tell me what you think! Arigatou!

Present
Past

Insanity

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

October 13, 2006

Sango Taijiya-Houshi sighed in relief as she leaned against the doorframe of Kagome's hospital room. She had wanted to see her friend ever since she was first admitted into the hospital, but the doctors kept saying that her friend was really screwed up. She was paraphrasing, but the doctors were sure thinking that.

Sango walked to the bed, and nearly began to cry. She didn't understand what the doctors were warning her about. Kagome had a healthy glow to her skin, her bruises seemed to be healing up, and the staples had been removed from her deep cuts. She was healing nicely and her stomach seemed to also be growing.

"Sango?" Kagome had just awakened and was stunned to see her friend standing right beside her bed. "What…what are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be taking care Tarou?"

"Ugh, I needed to escape and breathe in air." Sango smiled. She could act like nothing was wrong. She could pretend that her best friend was going through a divorce with a lying, cheating good for nothing jackass she had for a husband while expecting his child. She could pretend her best friend hadn't just survived a kidnapping and had been tortured by her stepfather. She could pretend many things. But she wondered how Kagome could pretend to be alright when nothing was.

"I'm surprised Miroku let you out." Kagome said with a laugh. Sango chuckled. She got. Kagome was pretending that she was alright, everything was alright, just to get out of this disturbing hospital. The place was just so creepy. You never saw any doctors, but nurses keep popping out of every single corner. All the nurses had smiles on their faces. Okay, so maybe she really hated the nurses, but that doesn't mean that Kagome hates them.

"Again, ugh. That man is just so…it's frustrating! He thinks that I can't do anything simply because I gave birth. And that was about 4 months ago!" Sango said. She wanted to slap herself. The whole reason that Sango had gone into labor two weeks ahead of schedule (she was due at July 28th, but Tarou was born on July 15th) was because she was under a lot of stress because of Kagome's disappearance. Sango was rushed into an emergency C-section surgery to remove the baby from her womb. Already her pregnancy was under complications because of Sango's development of diabetes. The stress was no good for either Sango or baby Tarou.

"It's alright! No worries! He just loves you guys so much, he's willing to make sure that you guys never see the light of day ever again." Kagome teased. Sango laughed, trying to get rid of the thoughts that plagued her mind.

"Glad to see you still have a sense of humor in this god damn place. I don't know how you could stand it." Sango replied, looking back to see one of the creepy nurses walk by, sending shivers up and down her body.

"Sango! The nurses are very nice. Sure they smile a lot, but they're really friendly and most of them haven't given up on me." Kagome said. Sango sat speechless. She really didn't know what to say or do. "Open mouth, insert foot?"

"What?" Sango said, snapping out of her trance. "I got stupid for a moment."

"For a moment?" Kagome teased. Sango smiled.

"Quiet, you." Kagome laughed. Sango couldn't help herself as she laughed along with her best friend in the quiet hospital.

March 29, 1991

"So, have the pigs turned into hookers yet?" Sango said as she plopped down next to Kagome, who somehow managed to stuff her face with the cafeteria food. The demon slayer sighed, who also somehow managed to get used to Kagome's face being covered in food while trying to swallow said food. Without chewing.

"Huh?" Kagome asked. She finished chewing her noodles and looked her friend. "What are you talking about? They're strippers, not hookers."

"Interesting." Sango said as she twirled her noodles. She looked back at her friend, but lost her appetite at the sight of the miko attacking the noodles, making sure there were no survivors. "I won't ask."

Kagome looked up to her friend. She just smiled and burped. Sango snickered. Kagome just smiled brighter, but didn't answer Sango's unanswered question. Truth was that Naraku was denying her food. He said that he didn't want to be seen with a stepdaughter that had more fat than a cow. So, no more food for Kagome for about a week or so, until she lost some weight. The only person who knew besides Souta and Naraku was Inuyasha, of course, who was feeding her until she popped. Speaking of which, where was he? She hadn't eaten in more 24 hours, so she was pretty starving and she wanted a few bites of his food.

"Anywhos, I heard that there's a possibility that the piggies are turning into hookers." Sango said, nudging Kagome's elbow. More trays dropped on the table and Yuka, Eri, and Ayumi sat down across the table to eat with them.

"What are you guys talking about?" Eri asked. Kagome shrugged. Sango looked at Kagome. Eri, Yuka, and Ayumi looked at each other.

"Something about hookers, pigs, strippers, sex, and money." Kagome said. More trays landed on the table and Inuyasha and Miroku joined them. Sango looked at the guy at her left and looked at him menacingly, practically warning him about what he might think about doing. Kagome turned to Inuyasha and did the same. The guy looked up from his tray and stared at her.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Inuyasha asked. Kagome shrugged and jerked her thumb to the ever so awesome pair next to her.

"I don't know. Sango's doing it to Miroku." Inuyasha sighed and gave his tray to Kagome. He was trying to make sure that she still kept getting some food, despite what her stepfather had said. "Yay! Food!"

And with that said, Kagome dug into the noodles, not minding the weird taste. Hey, she needed vitamins and proteins and all that other crap.

"What's going on?" Kouga asked as he sat down next to Ayumi, who blushed. He looked at her and smiled, his cheeks slightly tinting. He grabbed her hand and kissed it. Kagome began to gag and Inuyasha slapped her back, which caused her wounds to hurt and made her gag even more.

"Quick, Inuyasha, give her mouth to mouth." Miroku said. This time it was Inuyasha who blushed and Kagome began to cough harshly.

"I'm okay. I'm okay, I'm good." She managed to wheeze out. She stood up and threw her food away. She glared at Kouga and Ayumi. "I'm glad that he finally got the balls to ask you out and that you guys are living happily ever after and what not, but don't do the mushy stuff in front of me. You know that makes me sick."

"And I wonder why people say you don't have a heart." Yumi said dryly. Kagome flicked her off and sat back down. She burped once more and smiled. Eri and Yumi looked disgusted and threw away their food while the rest of the table laughed. Both Eri and Yumi smacked Kagome in the head and walked away, saying something about going to go puke.

"Sorry! Food Gave Me Gas! Be Happy It Came Out of the Attic and Not the Basement!" Kagome shouted after them. People started laughing and Inuyasha pulled her down. "Ouch, no need to be so rough. Save it for later."

"See, that it what I'm talking about the pigs turning into hookers!" Sango exclamained. "I've been hearing that you guys are already together. And the fact that Inuyasha broke up with Kikyo doesn't really put that rumor at ease."

"How many times to I have to say it? Kikyo was cheating on. I was sick of it so I dumped her slutty ass." Inuyasha half-growled. Kouga cackled and pointed at Inuyasha.

"I told you! But you didn't believe me!" Ayumi patted her boyfriend's arm and he relaxed, blushing a bit. Kagome stood up and slammed her hands on the table.

"That's it! I'm sick of you two acting like newlyweds. Go to the girls' room upstairs and proceed to make out like crazy. Fuck each other if you have to! Just make sure that next time I see you guys, you aren't acting like love sick puppies!" Kagome demanded. Kouga stood up and looked at Kagome.

"Yeah, well, you know what, you old crazy hag?!" Kagome looked flabbergasted at the jock's accusation. "Thanks for the advice."

"What?" Sango said. Miroku and Inuyasha laughed as Kouga led a bright red Ayumi away. "Well, that was interesting."

"I'm not old, am I?" a teary Kagome asked Inuyasha. He sweat dropped, not really knowing what to say. "Inuyasha, answer me! Am I old?"

"N-no, y-you're not?" the hanyou stammered. She glared at him and he cleared his throat. "No, you're not. I'm older than you and I'm definitely not old. I'm still hot and young."

"You wish." Miroku said. Inuyasha looked at his friend and flicked him off. The monk just shook his head and turned to the demon slayer. "So, my dearest Sango. How about tomorrow we go catch a movie? Any movie you like and I'll throw in free popcorn."

Kagome stopped talking to Inuyasha and began to snicker. Sango rolled her eyes and hit the miko besides her. This turned Kagome's snickers into full out laughter and Inuyasha just had to join. Sango glared at them, stood up and walked away.

"Alright, I'll get you a soda too. No? Some raisinettes? Sango?!" Miroku called out as he chased the girl he fancied. "Sango?!"

Kagome burped again and Inuyasha nearly gagged. She smiled and rubbed her stomach. Naraku's gonna be furious, seeing as how she hadn't lost any weight. But oh well. Inuyasha had managed to keep her fed and happy and satisfied and any other emotion she was feeling.

"You still hungry?" Inuyasha asked her seriously. She thought about it and wondered if she was. She had eaten quite a bit, but she still wasn't full. But, if she ate until she was fully, she would bloat and then get really, really cranky and bitchy, which was a no-no if she wanted Inuyasha to keep feeding her.

"Eh, more or less. I'll survive until tonight." Kagome said. She burped again and groaned. All this burping was starting to hurt her chest bone. She rubbed it and yawned, tearing up. As fast as she could, she wiped her eyes, but ended up poking one. She rubbed it, yawned, and made Inuyasha laugh.

"Why didn't you come yesterday?" he asked her. He had waited for her, but she never showed up. He had sandwiches and fruits ready for her. In the end, he ate the food (he had begun to skip dinner, which really concerned his parents. They wanted him to eat his dinner, but he made up excuses that he would get food later after working on his homework and going for a jog) and fell asleep.

"Oh, Naraku was being an ass. He started yelling at me and demanded that I stay up and remodel his entire study, moving furniture and other useless junk around. I was so exhausted by the time I finished I just passed out on my bed." Kagome said casually. Inuyasha admired how she could say that she was beaten like she was commenting on the weather.

"Are your injuries okay?" he asked. She nodded and pulled her hair away from her face. She missed some strands, but Inuyasha moved them away from her bright orange eyes and smiled. She smiled back.

"Yeah. I didn't feel anything wet, so I just assumed that none of them reopened. Asides, it's been a while since I've had a good beating, so I'm good." Kagome said. She burped once more and smiled.

"Alright. Well, come over today alright. I'll have food ready and after we eat, I'll check your wounds alright?" Inuyasha said. Kagome nodded and groaned at the sound of the bell ringing. Inuyasha stood up and helped Kagome stand. "Yes, class suck. Yes, the senseis want to kill us. Suck it up and move it."

"But it's not fair." Kagome mourned. She dragged her feet and covered her face with her hands, as if crying. "I never did anything to them. Why must they torture me so?"

"It's okay, honey." Inuyasha said, draping an arm around Kagome and pulling her close. His mouth was near her ear and she leaned into his embrace. The pose that was continued until they got to class was intimate; ever so that Kikyo soon heard of the pose and went to go see for herself. Her fingernails dug into her skin once she saw her laughing at something he said, he wearing a grin on her face, both their faces happy, and both still connected at the hip.

"Kikyo?" Kagura asked her tentatively. Said girl growled, highly disturbed by the sight of the ex and her half-distant cousin. Kikyo turned at her heel and stormed away. Kagura sighed at the picture. "Oh, lord."

April 10, 1991

"Oof!" Kagome grunted as she thudded on Inuyasha's bedroom floor. She looked around the room and saw that Inuyasha wasn't there. She sat on his bed and wondered where he was. "Most likely getting food and band-aids."

She was slightly early. They had agreed to meet up at 3 o'clock (the bewitching hour!), him with his food and band-aids, her with movies or magazines or interesting facts that made his eyebrow twitch as he ate his food. She sighed at the empty, dead silent room. She sat on his bed and looked around. As much as she hated thinking this, she didn't understand why Kikyo had cheated on Inuyasha. He was a smudge above an average jock guy. He actually had some good qualities. He tried so hard to become a knight in shining armor in hopes of one day finding his princess.

"God that sounded so lame!" Kagome said, sliding to the floor and smacking her forehead.

"You know that only kills more brains cells that you barely have and badly need." Inuyasha said, making Kagome jump and have a basic mini-heart attack. "Besides, do you really need more injuries after Naraku finishes kicking you?"

"Shut up, you mean jerk!" Kagome said, unable to come up with good retorts. She watched as Inuyasha placed down on the floor a giant bowl of chicken, vegetables, rice, and some sauce mixed together, a few bottles of tea, and a bag of dried fruits. He sat down and pulled out some napkins and chopsticks from his pocket. "You should be happy that I like that you feed me or else you'd be gone by now!"

"Uh huh. Now shut up and eat. I made sure to include all the food groups this time." Inuyasha said. He grabbed his chopsticks and began to eat the chicken. "Plus, this taste awesome. Hurry before I eat it all."

"Ugh! Why did you have to make it healthy?" Kagome asked. She also grabbed her chopsticks and began to dig into the food. "Everything tastes so much better if people think it's not good for them."

"What the hell are you talking about?" Inuyasha asked her. Kagome shrugged and continued munching on her food. She looked around for the television remote and finally spotted it behind her, on the bed. With a grunt, she turned around and reached for the control, which was out of her grasp. With another grunt, she pushed herself and managed to reach the control, hurting her ribs in the process. She turned around and sat back down, a Cat-Ate-The-Canary grin on her face.

"Are you okay?" Kagome asked Inuyasha, who was staring at her in absolute shock, with a hint of disgust. He dropped his chopstick and his mouth is wide opened.

"I…I was just checking you out." Inuyasha said in disbelief. Kagome looked at him, her eyes wide opened. "You turned around, your ass was there, and…I…I was looking at it."

"Oh god." Kagome said. "Do you think something's wrong with you?"

"I hope not. That was pretty gross." Inuyasha sighed and picked up his chopsticks, resuming his eating. "At least it didn't affect my appetite."

"Yeah. Good thing." Kagome said dryly. She turned the television on and changed the channel to a crime show. "Pass me some tea."

"Get it yourself." The hanyou told her.

"Freaking lazy ass bum." She retorted.

"Beats being a old bat shit crazy hag with menopause." He bit back. She gasped and hit his arm.

"You arrogant insensitive asshat! You told me I wasn't old!" Kagome yelled at him. His eyes widened and he quickly placed his hand over her mouth. Terror gripped her body and she began to scream, although it was slightly muffled. She fought him, scratching his arms, his face, pulling his hair, kicking with all her might, hoping that he wouldn't hit her.

'Oh god! Please, don't let him touch me. Please!'

She sobbed as she fought back. The terror and fear she had took her away from reality. She didn't realize that it was Inuyasha who was holding her, trying to silence her sobs, kissing her forehead, attempting to pull her back from her nightmares.

"Kagome! Please, snap out of it! He's not here. Naraku isn't here! It's just me, Inuyasha!" He held her close, grabbing her arms, but worried about her screaming. Somehow, he picked her up and began to rock her in his lap, holding her close, and trying to calm her down. "Kagome, love, please! Shh, it's okay. He's not here. Shh, please, stop screaming."

Her screaming managed to die down to sobs that shook her body. Her eyes are closed shut, tears leaking out from the corner of them, running down her face. Her hands turned into fists and Inuyasha quickly grasped them. Her legs kick and shake, but he manages to get them to stop. She squirms, pushing her body against his and then trying to run away, to run away from everything. But he doesn't let go. He doesn't want to.

He fears for her and hates that her aura has turned black as night, tainted with fear, with panic, with terror. He hates it and he tries his best to get rid of it. He soothes her, rocks her body to and fro, holds her close and promises her to never let go. Eventually, it works and her sobs come to an end. He holds her still, and he rocks their bodies back and forth. His mind wanders to when his mom would comfort him when he had his share of nightmares and he tries to channel that same peace and warmth to her.

She fell asleep. He doesn't mind. At least he knows that she's safer in her dreams than she could ever possibly be in that blown-up structure she is forced to call a home. He kisses her forehead and keeps promising sweet-nothings. He chants these promises over and over, perhaps thinking that they might be able to come true. He knows they won't. Instead, he closes his eyes and forces back the tears. He hates this so much. His body starts shaking. He rocks his body back and forth. His mouth keeps moving as empty words keep falling out. His face is wet.

Soon, he must let her go. Not forever, but just for a few hours. He has to get her into her bed and make things seem no different than before. He will see her in a few hours, as always. He just needs to place her in her own bed, as much as he hates it, and let her rest. He doesn't want, though. He knows that she'll sleep more comfortably in his bed, in his home, safer than she'll ever be. But he knows by now that that is not what she wants. She still wants to fight, to show she will not bow down, even though she's exhausted and scared shitless.

And that's just what he does. He placed her in her bed, tucked in her, and kissed her forehead. Just as he's about to leave, he noticed a small frown on her head. He moved back to the bed and whispered more words. The frown disappeared and she sighed, shifted, and sank into a deeper sleep.

A few hours later, she woke up. She is thoroughly confused, but the last few hours hit her repeatedly and she gasped in shock, in horror. She wondered how she could dare to think that he could ever do anything to her. What appalls her even more is that she hit him repeatedly. She wanted to get away from him, to hurt him, to get away from her touch.

There's nothing she could do to take those hours back. Hopefully, she prayed, that this would just bring them closer than before. Hopefully, he won't turn away from her, calling her a freak, a mentally ill freak that should be locked up. Hopefully, he'll still want her friendship.

With a heavy heart and a throbbing mind, she dressed for school and left late. She practically missed her first period, only managing to stumble in for the last 20 minutes. He's there in that class. Her heart is beating like thunder and she wondered if he could hear it. She collapsed in her seat and tries to pay attention to the class, but her mind keeps wandering. She doesn't pay attention to the confused looks of her other friends, but she does notice how he can't seem to stop looking at her. She hopes that class will drag on, and that when they leave, he won't approach her and start mocking her, calling her horrid names, hitting her for her hitting him.

Class ended and he hates that she hasn't looked at him or even acknowledge her presence. He could clearly hear her pounding heart and her aura is just out of control. Her miko powers are leaking and that makes every youkai in the room nervous. He needs to get to her, to calm her, to tell her that's it's alright because he's there at her side again.

He raced after her and caught her a few feet from the classroom. She can't look at him in the eye. He doesn't know whether or not he could touch her. But she finally looked at him and he focused on her completely. She doesn't say anything, so he took it as his cue to start the conversation.

"Kagome, I'm-" Inuyasha's sentence is cut short as she pulls him towards her and hugs him. He's surprised, as is she, but it doesn't matter. She needs this. She needs him. His embrace, his hero-like complex, his fake, plastic promises that give her artificial hope. She needs this warmth that's radiating off of him and that warms her up. Everyone can stare; everyone can take pictures all they want. Let them see her moment of weakness. It matters not.

He realized what this is. This is her opening up to him. This is her telling him that she is ready. Ready to completely open up and finally tell him what happened to her. This is her moment of weakness and he hates it. She is strong, she is brave, and she can put up one hell of a fight. But he guessed that she must be tired of fighting. It's okay. He'll help her, get her ready, train her, and help her fight once more.

And they stayed in that embrace for a while until they were forced to move.

October 20, 2006

Tears keep coming as memories kept pushing their way back into her head. Memories of their love, of his bittersweet words, of her stupidity for believing and soaking up every little bullshit lie he told her.

But no more. He taught her to stand and fight. And that's what she'll do. She'll turn his teachings and she'll fight him, she'll fight her illness, and she'll fight to bring her baby into this world.

In the end, that's all she wants. Her baby to live, to breathe, to someday fight and win battles she was never able to win.

And then, perhaps, she might finally be able to give up the fight for her happiness once and for all and just rest.

That's all she needs…

…Rest…

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