InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fragments of an Old Thing Called Love ❯ Fragments of an Old Thing Called Love ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Fragments of an Old Thing Called Love

I knew it would never last. I am part of the undead, and he is still in the world of the living, it would be too hard for our love to grow. His heart beats while mine is but a clay imitation, we is warm while I'm cold. Our love is nothing but a memory, something that never will happen… not again.

My heart is in fragments, not able to be put back together. His heart is whole, and has already found someone else. He might be confused with whom his heart has chosen, but I know already who she is. I am tainted, I am dead, I am cold….I am a lot of things, yet I'm not His. I wish I were but the gods would not allow it. It is forbidden to be in love with the dead. He deserves better, he may think himself a lowly hanyou, but the people who truly know him…know better. That Monk, he understands him, like a best friend, or a brother, the demon slayer they have a connection, the young fox demon they understand each other based on both their families dieing, but the young human girl, my reincarnation, the miko, understands him in ways I will never be able to, dead or alive. She has, in time fallen in love with him, she understands him, she makes him better then what he thought he was, and she sticks by him through anything. She is his life, his heart, his soul and his one true love.

I may be his first love, but I will never be his true love, and that is a painful thought one which I wish never to think about. But it's time to finally put thought into it. The woman I once was is not here anymore she left the world when Naraku killed her, I am a mere copy. Kagome, the miko, though we look the same…we aren't in so many ways. She will always be more pure then me, more trusting, more brave and more truthful. She is so innocent; she declared her feelings for him in so little time that makes her braver then me, she trusted him the first time she met him, that makes her more trustworthy then me, she is just her…and that makes her better then me.

He deserves so much more then me, yet why does he insist on me? he must fee---

“Kikyou? Is that you?” asked a familiar voice from down below.

I wonder what Kikyou is doing all the way here, and why is she up there? Kagome thought from below the tree, that Kikyou was currently in.

“Yes it is me” I answeredWhymust she be here? I feel inadequate next to her.

“Oh good, I'm lost, and it will be forever until InuYasha decides to find me….stubborn dog” Kagome said with mocking anger.

“So what is it you want from me then?” I asked a little irritated

“Well I was wondering if I could just stay here for a while, at least until InuYasha comes, I don't like being out here alone.”

“I guess” I heard myself answering, here she was telling me her fears and not caring at all.

The two sat in silence until Kagome started singing.

“Donna egao ni deaetara

Every heart

Yume wo fumidasereruyo

hitowa

Kanashimi no mukou Ni

Every heart

shiawase ukabete nemuru”

“What are you singing?” I asked it seems foreign yet of our language.

“O, was I singing out loud sorry?” Kagome giggled out embarrassedly

Just then I realized how innocent she was, just like a child

“It means the two of us, smiling, meet here,

Every heart has a habit of receiving its dreams.

Sadness has no effect on us,

Every heart gains happiness when it flies.”

“Who is this `two of us' you're singing of?”

“Oh, Well I taught that song to InuYasha, so we sing it together sometimes, well at least when Miroku, Sango and Shippo are asleep. He's a really good singer, but you probably already knew that.” Kagome said smiling.

I nodded my head…but I was lieing I had never heard InuYasha sing…not once…

“Kagome, do you love InuYasha?” I asked

“Of course, with all my heart” she said, not even hesitating once.

“Why do you say that without blushing or stuttering?”

“Because I'm not embarrassed that I love him and I don't care who knows it, he might not know it, but at least he knows I care for him, and that's really all I can ask.”

Right then I felt so weak against her, she tells her love not hide it, I had hidden it more then once, and I regret it now.

“So would you give your life for him, would you give him to someone else, would you always stay by his side?” I heard my voice getting a little angry, angry because I wasn't her.

“I would, and I almost did when Kaguya tried to hit InuYasha with my arrow, I would always stay by his side, I promised him and I always keep my promises especially to InuYasha…” Kagome answered without faulting.

“You never answer my other question, would you give him up?” I smirked, so she wasn't so pure

“I-I would, because I wouldn't stand in the way of his happiness, I want him to be happy, and if it was a mistake then I'll be there for him, I just want him to be happy!” Kagome yelled as tears fell down her eyes.

“I just want him to be happy…”

I felt guilty I made her cry, she thought I meant that InuYasha should go with me, and I made her cry, I'm disgusted with myself.

“Don't cry, you'll seem weak” I said bitterly, there I go again being a witch.

“I am weak, but my emotions are strong, InuYasha has made me stronger, and sometimes you just need to cry.” Kagome said, her head down casted

“You have made him stronger too Kagome…”

“What do you mean-----

“Kagome it's getting late, we should sleep” I interrupted, and it was true it was already dark

Kagome made a fire and then slept on the ground beneath my tree.

Later that night I heard her crying, I opened my eyes.

“Why are you crying so much?” I asked irritated

“Because I'm scared without InuYasha”

She was opening up to me again.

“Then do something else besides crying it's very annoying!” I sad sternly

Kagome began to sing the song that InuYasha and she sang.

“Donna egao ni deaetara

Every heart

Yume wo fumidasereruyo

Hitowa

Kanashimi no---- “Kagome was cut off when someone else started singing in the distance

“Mukou ni

Every heart

Shiawase ukabete nemuru”

“Kagome keep singing I'm coming!”

“Donna egao ni deaetara

Every heart

Yume wo fumidasereruyo” Kagome kept singing, eyes filled with tears

I realized who it was…InuYasha. He came through the clearing of trees and Kagome ran to InuYasha, her arms wrapping around his neck, his arms around her waist, it was like two young lover's reunited.

“Kagome, are you ok? Are you hurt? Why are you crying?”

“”I'm ok, I'm not hurt, and I'm crying cause I'm so happy you found me” Kagome burst into tears and buried her head in his shoulder. He held her, so gently…more gently then he had me.

“It's ok Kagome, I'm here, lets go back to the others, we were all so worried.”

“Ok…wait I think you should talk to someone…I'll be over by that tree” she pointed to a far away, but not too far, tree.

“Who? I don't see----“InuYasha looked up and saw me.

“See you around Kikyou!” Kagome waved, but I could see through it, she was hurting, and I realized just how much she wanted InuYasha to be happy.

“Kikyou… h-how are you?” Asked InuYasha

“Don't try InuYasha, I know your heart belongs to Kagome and I was foolish enough to think you loved me more.”

“What, Kikyou of course I-----“

“Don't lie to yourself InuYasha, she's what you need, what you want, don't lie to me, it's so plain to see that you love her just as much as she loves you!” I yelled.

“I-I… your right I do love Kagome more then you…I'm sorry.”

“Don't be, you can't help it.” I got my soul gathers and left, he had chosen her, and I accept it now.

InuYasha walked over to Kagome and wrapped his arms around her

“I love you Kagome, and I'm sorry I took so long to figure it out.” InuYasha leaned down and kissed Kagome on the lips

“I love you too…you baka” Kagome said , together they walked back to the others, and the fragments of the old thing called love were no longer fragments but a whole heart, just as the Shikon No Tama would be soon.