InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ From Ice to SunShine ❯ Gift for the One I Love ( Chapter 14 )

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Chapter 14: A Gift for the One I Love

By Tainted InuShemeeko

Two honey brown eyes stared out the window at the falling snow. It wasn't even winter yet and here it was the last week in November and it was snowing. Snow what was so great about it? Other then the fact that it was cold, wet and it blocked roads and made going outside impossible. There were times that he knew that he felt like he was just like the snow at times, cold and uncaring. Then she had come into his life and had helped him push away the snowdrifts that had built up around his heart.

He had tried not to hurt her feelings; he knew she was only trying to help. As much as he loved her he hated having to ask her for help. Not only did it make him feel like he had no pride left, it made him feel worthless and he hadn't felt like that since his mother had left them when he was six. He continued to stare out the window as the harsh winter continued to blow the heavy snow around, snowdrifts were starting to form around their house making him feel like he was truly trapped in the spot he was in forever. That's when her soft and caring voice broke through his thoughts.

“Sesshomaru, breakfast is almost ready. Oh and your father called a little bit ago, he said he would fax those reports you wanted to go over for the meeting on next Tuesday.”

He was silent for a moment, which didn't concern Rin anymore, she had gotten used to it. Sesshomaru had always been a silent person, but after the explosion he became even more silent. That didn't bother her at all what bothered her was that he never wanted to spend time with her. She knew what he was afraid of he feared that he wouldn't be as vital as he once had been. Even though the doctors had told him that that part of his body was unharmed, the never wavering Sesshomaru was afraid that he would not perform as he once had. So she never pushed, she knew that he in many ways was still adjusting to his new life in a wheelchair.

Rin knew that he hated it and at first he had hated her when she had started to home school herself and then fax, email, and take her work to her teachers. He had hated her because she was pushing herself too hard in order to graduate early and he was angry at her because of everything that she would be missing out on. This time it was Sesshomaru who broke through her thoughts as he spoke to her.

“Thank you Rin. I'll be there in a moment; I'd like to sit here a little longer.”

Rin's soft voice then spoke its reply as she slowly turned to walk back into the kitchen.

“Alright, just don't be too long I don't want your omelet and misao getting cold.”

He simply nodded his head at her and continued to watch the snow fall. A few minutes later he placed his hands to the wheels of his chair and turned himself around. Sesshomaru's honey brown eyes glanced down at the chair he was now forced to sit in. He glanced soon fell to his motionless legs.

`Am I to be like this forever, were the doctors wrong? I've become the on thing I despise as helpless human being, who feels worthless. I however am not worthless, I must continue believing that this is merely a simple challenge for me to overcome.'

Sesshomaru however knew better, when the doctors had told him to give it time. He had not believed that it would take this long. The rest of the month of September and part of October had been nothing but pain and anguish, and during that time he had hurt Rin more then he had wanted.

Flashback

After several weeks in the hospital Sesshomaru was released on September 28th. Classes had already started for Sesshomaru and his father had pulled some strings and fixed it so Sesshomaru could get caught up with all his classes at home.

“We're home Sesshomaru. It's so good to have you home again.”

Yes he was home and at that moment he was sure that things would start to get back to normal. That's went his eyes fell on the new edition to their house. A second walkway had been added and build on to it was a ramp. That was the slap to the face that made him realize that nothing would ever be the way it was before the explosion in the parking lot of his father's business. However he soon came to realize what he hated the most was the self-loathing he felt for himself. He had never felt this not once, which only made him angrier with himself.

At first he didn't mind Rin's help then as time went on, he grew to hate it. For every time she had to help him do something he felt less like a man. However his true challenge lied in whether or not he would ever feel comfortable sleeping with Rin, he couldn't help but think that he would never be able to felt her warm core closing in around him as the two of them climaxed together.

What Sesshomaru wanted was to have the life they had, had before Bradley Holmes came into the picture. His father had sent special investors out to find him, but every trail they found turned out cold. It was like the man had disappeared from the earth.

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Shaking those thoughts from his mind, he then wheeled into the kitchen where Rin was waiting for him. They then ate their breakfast in silence; this is how they had eaten for the last few months, in silence. Rin's cinnamon orbs glanced over at Sesshomaru a few times as she watched him eat.

~Hiding away

Losing the day

As if it doesn't really matter

Saying good-bye

Scared to say why

A few days ago she had watched as he stopped his wheelchair in front of the room that once was going to be the baby's room. Rin had then watched as he dug his keys out of his pocket and place one into the lock. After pulling the key out, he then turned the knob and used his chair to push the door open. She however didn't say anything to him nor did she follow after him.

It had taken her a little while to realize why he had gone into the empty bedroom and then it came to her. He was afraid, her Sesshomaru was truly afraid. He was afraid that he would never be able to make a child with her. Rin knew those were empty fears, however every time she tried to talk to him about the test result, he would always brush her off.

Afraid it will shatter our world

Show me some faith now

Trust me somehow~

`If he would just listen to me, why does he have to be so set in his ways?'

Rin had read the papers over and over again, all of his test came back looking good. Blood pressure, organ functions; even his sperm count and mobility came back looking good.

The nerve damage that was in his lower back had healed and he had feeling down there. Yet at the same time Sesshomaru still swore that he still couldn't feel his legs yet. Rin was even starting to wonder if it all was in his head now. Still deep down inside she didn't want to believe that it was true.

Her Sesshomaru would never want that, Rin knew that he didn't want to remain in a wheelchair. So maybe they were just rushing it, maybe it was going to take longer then the doctors had first though. She didn't want to sound selfish, but she wanted her husband back; to feel like he was there. She wanted to kiss him and make love to him, but no matter what she said or tried he wouldn't hear of it.

~Why are we keeping our secrets?

Why are we hiding ourselves away?

Any way we can hide away

I don't want to fake it

I want to make you believe what I say,

I won't let you hide away~

Clearing the table of the breakfast dishes and placing them into the dishwasher. Rin then thought of going to the office however, with all the snow and no four-wheel drive she knew she was just as stuck as Sesshomaru. She knew for a fact that her father-in-law wouldn't be happy with her if she tried after he had told her to stay home.

`I want to be with him, I really do. It's just these last few weeks he's been so cold to me. I'm not sure if I can stand it.'

Looking up from the sink, Rin then walked into living room. Once there she saw that Sesshomaru was once again in the same spot she had found him before. Staring out the window at the raging snowstorm, managing to find her voice she spoke to him in a soft and depressing tone.

“I'm a little tired; I'll be in our room if you need me for anything.”

She had hoped she would get a moving response from him. Sadly, the only thing she received was a,

“As you wish, Rin.”

~Where do we go?

How do we know

What we're ever really after?

Sesshomaru's response caused her to bite her lips as she turned away from him. Rin then slowly made her way to their room. She looked down at the bedroom floor that was a deep red, then to wood finish on the dressers and bed stand that was a deep dark cherry. Rin's gaze fell to the cherry leaf patterns in the dresser and other furniture matched the leaf pattern in the metal headboard and footboard of the bed. Then to the comforter that had oversized leaves on it done completely in earth-toned colors. The satin pillows covers and sheets were a deep ivory color with a maroon border, with green and ivory leaf prints.

Her cinnamon orbs then looked up at the ivory walls in the room. A chandelier-like light hung from the ceiling. There was one thing that seemed to catch Rin's eye more then anything. There hanging on the wall above their bed, was Rin's maroon comforter with the jewels her mother had placed on it. A weak smile spread on her face as she thought of the day he had presented the newly finished room to her. It had been a wonderful gift to receive.

Now however, after everything that had happened to them it only seemed to bring tears to her once bright sparkling eyes. Rin flung herself onto the bed and clutched a pillow in her arms. As fresh tear fell from her eyes, she then did something she had been holding out on. Rin cried, she cried until there were hardly any tears to cry.

Sometimes it's clear

When you are here

Nothing can shatter our world

I need some faith now

To trust you somehow~

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Sesshomaru's trance was broken, when he thought he heard sobs coming from their bedroom. Wanting to make sure he wasn't hearing things he wheeled himself into the hallway and then stopped in front of their room. Leaning toward the door soft muffled sobs, reached his ears and then vibrated inside of them.

“Rin?”

When there was no response he reached from the doorknob and turned it. Then using the foot pedals he pushed the door open. The room was dark expect for the grey blue light coming from outside where the snowstorm remained. Sesshomaru's honey golden eyes took in Rin's crumpled form on the bed. Her body shook with every sob she released. Right now there was one thing that Sesshomaru was sure of; he was the source of her pain. He knew this because he himself had been there as well this year, and here he was doing the same thing to her.

~Why are we keeping our secrets?

Why are we hiding ourselves away?

Any way we can hide away

I don't want to fake it

I want to make you believe what I say

I won't let you hide away~

Locking the wheels on his chair, he then pulled himself out of it and into the chair that now sat beside their bed. He sat there for a while mulling things over in his mind. Sesshomaru's voice was soft and gentle as he spoke to her.

“Rin tell me what's wrong? What is it, what's on your mind?”

Her sobs stopped for a brief moment, and at first he was sure that she wasn't going to answer him. Tears streamed from her eyes as she looked at Sesshomaru.

“Why, Sesshomaru why are you turning away from me? Please let me in, talk to me again. Say anything you want, but please don't drift away from me again.”

The emotion in her voice and the hurt he could see in her eyes. Pierced his heart like an arrow, after every thing they had been through had he really turned her away?

~Maybe I

Maybe I

Maybe I'm losing?

Maybe I

Maybe I'm okay?

That's when it hit him, of how truly selfish he had been. The whole time after the accident she had been trying to help him heal. He however, had wanted to heal her when in truth he had been blinded. For he had been the one who truly needed the comfort, why had it taken him so long to see it?

After his mother had left he had spend all his time and energy to build a wall around his heart. It had worked for the longest time too, that is until he had met her. Finding a reason in himself once again, Sesshomaru started to lift himself off of the chair he had been sitting on. Once feeling the softness of the bed beneath him, Sesshomaru then pulled him-self up on the bed the rest of the way.

The muscles in his fore arms ached as he sat beside Rin. Her back facing away from him as she lay on the bed.

We turn around

Look around

Go around in circles

Don't run away

Drift away

Don't hide away~

He didn't want to hide from her, it wasn't who he really was but he was ashamed. He was Sesshomaru Tenseiga, but he didn't feel like it. Sesshomaru sighed as he fought the urge to cry. He was not scared easily, but that went he woke up in the hospital he froze. It was like time itself had stopped, he felt like he was missing something and in truth he was.

Flashback2

Sesshomaru slowly started to open his hazy honey brown eyes. His eyes felt tired as he slowly took in the room he was in. As he slowly tired to shift positions, a heart piercing pain shot up his back only serving to confuse him as he tried to clear the haze from his vision, it was then that the gentle voice of a woman drifted to his ears.

“Welcome back Young Mr. Tenseiga, how are you feeling? My name is Karla, I'll be watching over you for a bit”

His eyes drooped once as he tried to remember how to form words, his voice was a harsh whisper as he answered her.

“I am a little tired.”

His tongue licked is parched lips, he felt like someone had put cotton in his mouth. The nurse must have seen it, because she disappeared and then returned with a small cup of ice.

“Here you are.”

She then ran an ice cube over his lips she then let him suck on one for a little bit.

“There does that feel better?”

“Yes, thank you.”

Sesshomaru then felt his eyes drift close once more. That was when he realized that something else was wrong. Why did his legs feel numb and why could he not feel them move? His honey brown orbs shot open as he looked at Karla and asked,

“My legs why is it that I can not feel my legs?”

Karla took a breath as she slowly started to tell him, just why he couldn't feel his legs. At that moment he seemed to drift away to somewhere else. He returned for a little while when Rin came into the room. Her forehead bandaged and her left arm in a sling. She was alive and at that moment that was all that had mattered. That was until doctor came and told him that there was a chance he would never walk away, they however believed that in time he would recover.

His recovery had not gone as fast as he had wanted. Hiten and Yura as well as Jake had come to see him. However, the only one who didn't treat him different was Jake. Both Hiten and Yura couldn't hide however uncomfortable they were around him now.

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He didn't want to say it but it was true. He was afraid, he was afraid that he would never truly be the same and then in many ways, Sesshomaru knew that he would never be the same. The one thing he wanted the most was to walk up behind Rin and wrap his arms around her like he use too.

~Why are we keeping our secrets?

Why are we hiding ourselves away?

Any way we can hide away

I don't want to fake it

I want to make you believe what I say~

Sesshomaru then gently touched Rin's arm as he sat on the bed. The same heated desire that he had, had for her when they had first made love on that rainy day months ago seemed to be rushing though his veins, the minute he got close to her warm body. It wasn't until just then that he realized how much he truly did miss her.

“Rin, I have hurt you. That was never my intention; however nothing can be done about it now. I love you Rin. I'm lost Rin, I want to get back to you I am not sure how to do it.

~Oh, what I say

Believe what I say

I won't let you hide away

Rin slowly turned to look at Sesshomaru, he was there sitting on the bed with her. He was here really here. Tears continued to flow freely down her cheeks as she slowly slid into his arms.

“I have wanted to hold you like this for so long, only I was a coward. I was afraid that you would not let me embrace you. I am ashamed of what I am now, it is because of this that you had to give up high school and do your work at home at night. As it is because of me that you work now instead of me.”

Rin's cinnamon orbs glazed into his honey brown as she caressed his left cheek with her right hand. She then grazed his lips with her own lips.

“Oh Sesshomaru I could never be ashamed of you. You were the first to treat me as a true person. I love you and I could never not love you. You, Sesshomaru are the reason I have continued to live.”

~Hiding away

Losing the day

As if it doesn't really matter~

The minute Rin's lips brushed against his, Sesshomaru felt as if a slow burning fire had been stoked inside of him and was not burning hotter. This is what he had hungered for the last few months, so why was it that he had been afraid to go after it. Did he really believe that he would fail and not be able to perform the duties of a husband? Yes, that was what he truly was afraid of.

Yet with Rin being here and teasing him with her sweet scent, as she slid her tongue between his lips to explore the cavern of his mouth; Sesshomaru found himself not caring as he slowly gave into his desire at last. Knowing how much Sesshomaru desired to be in control, Rin slowed her pace and became a little submissive. She needed to see if Sesshomaru would take the reins now. Rin smiled at herself as Sesshomaru pressed a heated kiss to her lips.

Sesshomaru cradled the right side of her face with his left hand as he continued his heated assault on her soft full pink lips. This is what he had needed he had needed, he had needed her all along. Yet he had been to blind by his own pride to see it. Sesshomaru's right hand soon wandered down her neck and then caressed the skin of her left shoulder.

He then removed his hand from her shoulder, only to snake it up her shirt.

With practiced ease Sesshomaru then pulled Rin's shirt up over her head. He nibbled on one of her earlobes, as he then slid the straps to her bra off of her shoulder. His skilled fingers then popped the snaps in the back of the bra. It was then that he decided that no matter what happened Rin would always be his heavenly angel.

Rin's soft delicate fingers wandered down to Sesshomaru waist. She smiled as she watched him shiver in ecstasy. Taking her time Rin then undid the button and zipper as she helped him remove his pants. The minute he went to speak Rin would stop him by placing a slender finger to his lips, causing him to be silent.

“Shhh…no this is our time together, besides I'm not going to have you voice your doubts. Just let me be the one to give you pleasure.”

Sesshomaru just about to object when he realized just how serious his wife was, after realizing that he knew that there would be no changing her mind. He sucked in a breath as Rin's hands glided over his lower extremities. Sesshomaru's honey brown eyes widen when he realized that he could feel Rin's hands on his manhood, causing a strange thrill to rush through his body.

A gentle smile appeared on Rin's lips, as she saw the spark of life in her husband's eyes. Followed by the look of wonder on his handsome features, they were two things Rin had started to wonder if she would ever see on Sesshomaru again. Both things filled her up with happiness and joy for her husband.

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Hours later Rin snuggled closer to Sesshomaru's bare chest. She was sure that today would be a day that she would never forget. For what she and Sesshomaru had just shared was truly beautiful, it was beautiful for the mere fact that both lovers had been unsure if they would ever share such a moment ever again.

Sesshomaru found himself combing his fingers though Rin's dark brown hair. Her shoulder length hair he now noticed was no longer shoulder length, it now hung down over her shoulders making her even more beautiful or at least Sesshomaru thought so.

The two of them just lay there for a while in each other's arms. That was until Sesshomaru's cool voice cracked through the silence.

“The tree looks stunning Rin, I apologize for not helping at the time I myself was not in much of a merry mood.”

Rin couldn't help but giggle at Sesshomaru attempt to make a joke. She then placed a kiss on one of his cheeks.

“It's ok, I understood. The important thing is that you have a little bit of it now.”

“Indeed.”

He then placed a kiss in the middle of her forehead. Yes he almost realized yet again just how blessed he was to have Rin with him in his lifetime.

“Rin, I have a gift I wish to give you for Christmas. However I'm afraid it maybe New Years or after before you receive it.”

Rin just smiled at him.

“That alright, it's the thought that really counts any way.”

Sesshomaru nodded as he felt himself slowly drifting off to sleep with Rin still in his arms. Yes for Rin he would make sure he was at least walking by New Years, if not walking at least he hoped to be standing on his own.

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InuTaisho stood in front of the wooden door to an apartment for a moment before he knocked.

“I hope I didn't come at a bad time, I only want to have a moment of your time.”

The person at the door just stood there and listened as Mr. Tenseiga continued to speak in a gentle voice.

“My wife and I would like you to come and share Christmas with our family. No one should spend Christmas alone.”

As he stood just inside the apartment, InuTaisho realized just how cold it was inside the apartment, making him change his decision a little.

“On second thought, I want you to come with me today. I'll help you pack if you like. It's too cold for you to say in the apartment. I'll go speak to your landlord and get some one in here to fix your heater.”

Once InuTaisho was sure that his guest had everything they would need, he took their hand along with their things and walked out of the cold drafty apartment. Once the two were in the car it headed off in the direction of Mr. Tenseiga's home. InuTaisho had a feeling that this Christmas was going to be an unforgettable one. He just hoped his family could get through the next three weeks before Christmas.

TBC

(A/N: Well that's it for this chapter, the next one will be longer I swear I have a lot of stuff to cover. Next time: Chapter 15 A Gift for the One I Love Part 2: Christmas Surprises. Rin's surprise gift isn't what Sesshomaru expected; Sesshomaru himself finds that he just might not be able to give Rin what he planned. Rin finds herself with two surprises she never could have guessed.

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Ja ne!

Tainted InuShemeeko)