InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Frozen ❯ Chapter 11: Give yourself to me ( Chapter 11 )

Title: Frozen
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/ various, Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru, Inu Yasha/Kouga mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Frozen” by Madonna


Chapter 11: Give yourself to me

It had taken a month to find Naraku and end our long standing battle. To defeat him completely, making certain he wouldn't return. His defeat had ended so much pain and suffering.

Kikyo was fatally wounded by Naraku and I was there in her final moments. We shared a final kiss as her body dissolved into a cluster of bright light and souls. It was bittersweet watching the shinidamachu carrying that cluster into the sky. She was gone but not forgotten.

Miroku no longer possessed the wind tunnel and I watched as he and the demon slayer finally allowed themselves what happiness they deserved with each other. I was betting it would less than a year before we had news of an impending child.

Sango's brother Kohaku is living without his shard and is continuing his life's job of ridding the world of troublesome yokai with Kirara at his side. He did a fine job of protecting Rin during the battle and perhaps a spark was lit between the two. One can only hope because the love between her and Sesshomaru will be one of pain though it seems to me that he only treats her as though she were a daughter.

Shippo is living with Kaede in her village, occasionally leaving to train so that he can take the kitsune exam. I think he'll do just fine; after all…he's trained with me and the rest of the gang.

Rin is also living with Kaede with the hopes that she can once again get used to living with humans. Apparently this was Sesshomaru's idea. It's for the best and I am hoping she adapts quickly. She seems to be doing just fine and is a quick learner under Kaede's tutelage.

Kagome and I said our goodbyes. She went back through the well and back to her time to finish her schooling. She says it may be a few years but she will return. We have discussed what is between us and we have decided that we are good friends and there is nothing more. I once thought there was love between us but deep in my heart I know anything we could have would end in heartbreak like most demon, human and hanyou relationships end. Plus I carry a secret that I can bare children and deep down I wonder if I can even father children. I doubt she would truly be happy in a childless relationship and I would only feel guilt and shame if she had to give up the joys along with the sorrows of being a life giver.

If she returns I will happily greet her as I always have but deep down I wish her happiness in her time and hope that someone there fills her heart and thinks of nothing but her.

Kouga has finally settled down with the wolf princess Ayame and it is said that they have had a mating ceremony already combining the two demon wolf tribes with their wolf packs. Kouga and I still remain friends and nothing has been mentioned of what happened between us.

Out of everyone my half brother Sesshomaru seems to have changed the most these past few years. He went from constantly attacking me for merely existing to attacking me to obtain Tessaiga.

He eventually left me alone around the same time he saved Rin. He went from this unapproachable being that I teased and barked at to being this calm quiet individual who seemed more interested in observing me. It was unnerving and interesting at the same time. Perhaps obtaining Tenseiga had been the turning point for his behavior but perhaps not since he had Tokijin made.

He did seem to mourn for Kagura when she passed; it was interesting to witness it. He has been through as much as I have so I suppose I forgive him for his past transgressions.

On the days that I am in the village visiting and he comes to give Rin gifts and check on her I often see him glance my way. He is not embarrassed and seems to stare for long periods of time before finally looking away. I wonder if I'll ever truly understand him.

It has been three months since our new found freedom and peace and I have been spending my days lazily resting in Kaede's village helping on occasion to earn a meal at Kaede's or Sango's table. Most of the time I find myself perched high in a tree branch watching as peaceful clouds float by in sunny skies or the wind blown fields where children play and women and men plant new crops for the coming Fall.

It was on one such day as I sat on a sturdy mid-branch of an old maple tree overlooking the village's fields that I found myself stroking my belly. I had been having cramps quite often lately and a bit of indigestion but nothing too horrible to give me concern but even as I thought it I looked down at my midsection as a thought buried itself deep in my mind and wouldn't let go.

It had been a little over four months since Naraku's trap and what had happened in the miasma filled forest. I hadn't developed any nausea or any extreme exhaustion like I had with my last two pregnancies but I had gained a bit in the middle but I also wasn't as active…

The thought nagged at me but I pushed it aside.

As night fell I finally left my refuge in the old maples branches and made my way to Kaede's hut where the smell of rice and miso soup filled the air. As I entered the hut Kaede and Rin both glanced up from their spots; Rin's at the fire where she was ladling out the miso soup and Kaede's from a large cushion near the fire.

“Just in time InuYasha,” said Rin as she handed me a bowl.

I grinned and took my bowl sitting in a corner where I ate as I watched the other two interact. No sooner had Rin finished pouring a fourth bowl finishing off the pot when Shippo came meandering in. He excitedly took his bowl and sat down talking excitedly while he ate about things he had seen and learned during his training sessions.

When the soup and rice had been devoured by all Rin began to clear the dishes, taking them outside the hut to rinse them in an already water filled basin thanks to Shippo and a new trick he had learned.

With Rin outside and Kaede beginning to work on medicine orders for the next day I became the new target for Shippo's ramblings. It wasn't that I minded; it was nice to see him happy and to see his growth. He certainly had grown in size and talent.

As he chattered away I watched his nose twitch curiously. He stopped midsentence to sniff loudly and a look of confusion crossed his face.

“Your scent has changed InuYasha,” he said aloud.

I looked at him stunned and quickly gave myself a quick sniff in a few places but nothing smelled drastically different.

“Whatta ya' talking about Shippo? I don't smell anything,” I said starring at him.

“I dunno. It's a small change but its there. Weird….. Oh so like I was saying…” and he continued to chatter as what he said hadn't added another clue to my current condition.

The brat really was clueless and this time I was grateful for it. I listened to him ramble until he wore himself out and made himself comfortable near the fire on Kaede's cushion and fell into a deep sleep. I shook my head and stood up covering him with one of the many spare blankets Kaede kept around, whether for us or other emergencies.

He grinned mumbled and snuggled deeper into the cushion. I shook my head and as I stared down at him I found my thoughts full of memories of Shoheiki with his bright baby smile and honey eyes and my hand returned to my midsection.

I know that a pup would complicate things. The look on Kouga's face alone when he found out would be priceless and then I would have to worry about the role he takes in the pups' life. I would have a lot of explaining to do but I wanted it, I wanted it to be real. Seeing my Shoheiki all grown up had been a proud moment but it was also a painful one; to know that I had to give him up, that he would never know me or would probably not believe I was his parent should I tell him. I wanted to be able to raise my child and teach it all there was to teach.

I was broken out of my thoughts by Kaede's voice, “Bellyache InuYasha?”

“Just a bit of indigestion, nothing to worry over,” I answered giving her a grin.

I hesitated only a moment as I considered telling her what I had been through and what I was sure was currently residing in my body. She like the old healer from my very first pup would know by touch and prodding whether I carried or not.

The fear of rejection and disgust kept me from saying anything and I shook my head and took a deep breath as stretched as Kaede approached me with something in her old gnarled hands.

She handed me bundle in her hands and I unfolded it revealing a blanket, “I figured ye would be staying here tonight.”

I didn't disagree and did pretty much the same as Shippo. I watched as Kaede stretched and made her way into the small area that was hers and Rins sleeping area in the small hut and retired for the night.

No sooner had Kaede retired that Rin entered carrying clean and dry dishes. She put them all away and then blew out the few candles that were lit and then wished me a quiet “sweet dreams” before disappearing into the dark room.

The cooking fire dimmed to almost nothing and I settled myself on the opposite end of Shippo and lay down atop two cushions and cocooned myself in the borrowed blanket, wrapping my arms around my midsection subconsciously.

Sleep came quick and was filled with memories and dreams of newborns and pregnancy.

To Be Continued…..

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It took me a while to plow through this chapter. My muse is already trying to escape me. I have this story written down in a small spiral notebook but I wrote two possible ways to branch off, so...now to choose the possible path. I guess I'll just keep typing it up and improving upon it and let the muse choose.

Kat